Friday, March 31, 2006

today is a rather slack day.. and i din tok at all to anyone in class except one or two of them.. and i din wan to bother anyone in my class anymore.. since i am already so hated.. ya.. so i kept quiet throughout chemistry lecture and gp lessons and i thank ppl in my class for ignoring and heck care mi and not saying anything le.. then was physics practical and i din tok also onli asking mr mak some questions and discussing with lt since i paired with him to do the experiment..

then had lunch and went for the chinese lesson.. no one went for that lesson except mi.. and i sat with someone i knew throughout the whole lesson and we were joking about the video shown.. but then it was the attendance taking part which really troubled mi.. i mark myself present but dunno whether to mark the rest of the class absent anot.. at first i mark all of them absent.. but in the end i liquid off everything and cancelled the whole column and remark onli marking my presence.. i realli cannot betray myself and fake that everyone were present.. and i couldn't pass myself.. maybe my class may feel i am a bastard who went alone and din even bother to mark the attendance for them.. but i realli cannot betray my integrity even though some ppl may even say i dun have any integrity.. dun care la.. they wanna hate mi they can go ahead.. since i am already so hated and ppl dislike mi so much.. there is nothing i can do le..

after the chinese lesson when i got to noe that the person i knew was so great at the piano.. he could play it so well.. yes a he.. hahax.. he played realli well then we went pc together.. today's pc was a usual no difference from the past.. my whole class pon except mi and some others.. and mr ng was realli angry i think.. but today's pc was still ok and fun.. and i feel i start to like pc le.. wahahax..

tml weekend le.. going to get some rest today and study tml.. i passed my first maths test this yr and realli happy bout it.. and i am going to work harder to score better grades in future.. dunno la.. but i feel i have to take a rest first ba.. after so many things happen this freaking week.. haiz~~~ really tired of everything le..

Thursday, March 30, 2006

damn damn bloody pissed off in class today.. anger boiling liao.. arghhh!!! my class de ppl wanted to pon gp lessons.. then say wan go blood donation.. make the teacher damn bloody angry because we were late.. then she walk out of our class even b4 we went to the class.. when we reached the class xiao liang said the teacher was angry.. then mr chai came in.. started the bloody joke that i was the teacher's favorite student again.. even asked mi to beg the teacher and apologise for the class.. wtf la.. why should i do it??? and mr chai starting spouting nonsense and the class laughed like hell and started joking bout mi when i kept my bloody mouth shut.. till a point when a bloody person wanted to give the gp teacher my number.. i exploded.. took the chair and slammed it on him.. fuk la.. like i no dignity liddat.. controlled myself again if not i dun noe wat i will do.. and some stupid idiots in class think i was a bastard or wat venting my anger with their stupid look in their eyes.. fuk off la.. i dun give a bloody damn bout it..

i not angry with mr chai le.. cauz he apologised to mi after crapping so much.. and i feel bad that he even tried to apologise to mi.. but still damn bloody angry.. the whole class treat mi like a piece of unwanted trash and took mi a something that they can joke about.. i dun mind ppl joke bout mi.. but there is a limit to everything de.. and i have limited patience de.. though i noe i am not a saint or really a good person, but i sometimes do care about others' feelings.. wat kind of shit do i get from my class??? when i din even speaking a fuking word when they are joking bout mi.. why should i be treated in this way when i keep my bloody mouth shut the whole day and spoke hardly a word today.. damn.. i realli have not been retaliating to all these stupid remarks.. i realli controlling my temper and i dunno wat i will do in future.. i noe that everyone will hate mi when i really cannot control my temper le.. heck care la.. since i am already a trash and outcast in class le..

realli pissed off today le.. realli dunno wat i can do to make the class stop all the nonsense.. even when i keep my bloody mouth shut.. some ppl may think i am juz a bastard whu can't control my temper.. but they have not been thru wat i have been thru.. they will nv noe.. i have finally seen the true colours of life le.....

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

today was chemistry SPA exam.. and i think i did rather fine and i was able to follow thru most of the steps well and i got my crystals.. hahax.. and a rather high yield also.. quite happy la.. and managed to write 6 errors for skill D though one of them i not very sure.. hahax.. hopefully can do well ba.. then was chemistry lecture and the day ended cauz mr chai cancelled the lesson for blood donation.. and my day ended at 11am.. argh.. and i have to wait for 3.5 hrs till my cca.. slack alot and did practically nothing..

but today quite pissed off by some ppl in the class again.. keep linking mi with my stupid gp teacher.. say wat they pon lesson then i go entertain her myself.. wtf lo.. they have no brains sometimes.. stupid and idiotic.. dun wan go dun go la.. no one will force them.. call mi to entertain the teacher.. stupid and idiotic i think.. wtf.. all thanks to mr chai who started this bloody joke and the useless and brainless gp teacher who said i was her favourite student.. she has totally no brains to think and i wonder how she got to be a teacher.. stupid..

but today's cca was rather fun and enjoyable la.. hahax.. orientation for new j1s students.. very surprising, many j1s joined cldds and its was rather fun and enjoyable talking to them.. hopefully they din juz come for fun ba.. knew some new faces and hope to see them ard more often ba.. hahax.. then went home and bought a new bag.. hahax.. last day of sale.. looks ok la.. and big enough for mi.. wahahax..

sian.. tml got gp again.. and i dun look forward to tml at all.. sianz.. haiz~~~ nvm la go slack lo.. wahahax.. looking forward to the arrival of weekend.. hehex..

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

today was the best day ever since lessons started in the yr.. many ppl din come to skl and for some reason the class was rather quiet and there isn't much problems and such today.. today was a really peaceful day.. and the best part was the fact that the gp teacher nv come today cauz not feeling well.. but who cares whether she feeling well anot.. wahahax.. juz dun wan to have her useless lessons.. wahahax.. damn happy la.. but i physics lecture there was something i was unhappy about.. cauz i left the LT by the back door cauz i forgot to take my water bottle.. then i think a stupid teacher locked the bloody door and i had to make a big round then can go in the LT again.. wtf la.. stupid de..

then after physics lecture was break and i tried learning squash from my frend.. but it is really a difficult sport to play.. then found chen chen and the rest and play chinese chess for the rest of the time till civics.. the j2 ogls were excused from lessons for revelations.. din actually wan to go de.. cauz a bit noe of my business liddat.. but in the end still went la.. and din attend mr chai's lesson.. sorry mr chai.. hahax.. actually lucky that i went la.. cauz one of my og member came back and managed to meet her.. hahax.. happy to see her back.. then chat a bit then i slack a bit in skl then went home..

erm.. today is a rather peaceful and enjoyable day for mi.. peaceful and no stupid and idiotic things happen.. hahax.. hopefully in future can have more of these kind of days.. wahahax.. nonetheless tml is chemistry SPA exam.. heard that it is rather difficult and tough to handle.. realli worried cannot get product and cannot finish on time.. then jia liat liao.. have to study and mug tonight to try to do my best and score good grades for tml.. all the best and good luck to my frends taking the exam tml too!!! =)

Monday, March 27, 2006

sianz.. having a bad splitting headache now.. after the crazy pc and the tiring lessons today.. hardy got any energy left.. ran ard 6 rds today and sprint 100m for 4 times.. crazy de.. damn torturing.. then was all the lessons that i was hardly listening to due to all the tiredness.. arghhh.. supposedly my class was to attend a talk or wat for some formula 1 thingy.. but the whole class pon and ran frantically to pon the lesson and managed to sneak out of skl after much toil.. wahahax..

realli worried that i cannot catch up with my work le.. today's physics lecture showed mi everything.. i could understand nothing.. and realli nothing.. guess i have been lagging behind and slacking too much.. i was msging my frend in the lecture and he also feel that he cannot catch up and we agreed that we will study together during the weekends together.. as well as go dota together.. so can balance between work and play.. hopefully it will work and studying together can help us improve on our subjects and we can do well together..

was going home with my classmate today.. and i told him some of the concerns that i have and the problems that i face in class.. glad i was able to say out to him cauz he was someone i trusted more in class and i feel much more relieved right now after saying my piece.. i believe some of the problems lies within myself and i am looking for an answer within to solve the problems.. but hopefully i can get some peace in class ba..

Sunday, March 26, 2006

boring sunday as usual.. can do nothing better than the other days.. woke up rather late today but managed to catch the tv shows i wanted to watch.. watch gundam seed destiny and power rangers and slack practically for the whole morning.. then use com and slack again.. predict that i will do the same thing again in the afternoon.. watch tv and watch tv and slack.. but have to cheong hw tonight le.. got so much hw that have to be done.. so sian.. physics tutorial and chemistry tutorial and maths tutorial.. arghhh!!! practically no time for us to take a breather..

really not looking forward to the new week.. so many things to handle.. got chemistry SPA.. worried that i cannot score well for the exam.. sian diao.. cannot afford to fail also.. new week also mean more homework to come for us.. sian.. there seems to be endless homework.. arghhh.. and the following week still got chemistry test and physics SPA.. arghh.. this is a endless cycle.. guess i will be trapped in it for the rest of my jc life ba.. nonetheless have to learn how to cope ba.. all the best to mi and my frends for all the SPA exams and the upcoming tests ahead..

new week also means more shit and crap that i will get from ppl.. sian.. guess juz have to ignore them ba.. like wat my frend said yesterday that there is nothing much that i can do.. think i will juz concentrate on studying ba.. but i have a feeling that i will explode this coming week.. and soon everyone will hate mi.. forever.. dun care.. my objective now is to study and nothing else le ba..

Saturday, March 25, 2006

today i decided not going out with my class ppl to dota.. cauz i see no point why i had to be an extra there and my presence will be redundant when ppl din intend to ask mi to go in the first place.. so i practically slacked the whole morning watching cartoons.. hahax.. a bit stupid la.. but quite entertaining also.. then use com.. suddenly felt like going out.. so ask my og frend to go play.. hahax.. and he agreed..

so ard 1 plus we met and we went to play near limbang there.. really fun la.. hahax.. and toked alot about many stuffs to this og frend.. hahax.. saying some of the unhappy things thats happening.. wahahax.. and i appreciate him for lending mi a listening ear.. hahax.. then after playing we went to cck stadium to slack and watch soccer match while toking.. hahax.. realli enjoyed myself alot today.. hahax.. also saw guan quan at limbang there today.. hahax.. he changed his hairstyle and he is spiking his hair now.. guess wat i done to him in 1st three months had made him decide to change ba.. wahahax..

today suddenly felt that i realli appreciate my og and my 1st 3 months class alot alot.. known them ppl since orientation and i feel that they are realli important to mi.. also becos we can seldom meet that i treasure them alot..

realli feel that jc life is so mundane now in j2.. all we do is to study and study.. and there seems to be endless homework.. being in skl now is such a torture for mi.. trying to study while having to handle so many unhappy and stupid things ard mi.. the politics is realli choking and suffocating mi.. haiz~~~.. and there is nothing that i can do.. so helpless.. and so tired..

recently thinking of organising a outing for the old s10.. missing some of the ppl whop i have not seen for a long time le.. hopefully i can plan a outing soon ba to meet up and catch up with these frends.. realli hopefully ba..

Friday, March 24, 2006

today was a much more relax day.. no test.. no nothing.. can slack.. last night dun need to do hw.. hahax.. cauz got nothing to hand in today.. hahax.. so practically slacked my ass off last night.. hehex.. watch tv and use com onli..

nearly slept in chemistry lecture cauz still not fully recovered.. and next was a super boring gp lesson.. as usual i tried my best to irritate the teacher.. but got irritated by some ppl in class instead.. stupid and brainless things they like to say.. when someone was doing presentation on something, they heard a name similar to mine and made some idiotic remarks using my name.. even though i keep quiet all the while.. and juz becauz last time i said i wanted to go toilet with another guy, they made brainless and idiotic remarks wat i was the actor of "brokeback mountain".. and even suaned the other peron stupidly.. seriously.. i think these ppl might as well go to hell la.. when i keep my mouth shut and not say anything.. doesn't mean u can made any brainless comments bout mi or my frends.. i dun wanna shoot back is i respect ppl.. hopefully some ppl in class can jolly well keep their useless mouths full of rubbish shut.. when u cannot say anything nice, juz shut ur trap up..

actually wanted to go dota with my class tml de.. but realli no mood to go le.. and i din really wanna go too.. rather stay at home and watch tv.. and even comics.. i think it will entertain mi even better.. sianzzz.. still considering whether to go mah.. but i think most likely not ba.. cauz i think they din intend to ask mi to go in the first place ba..

Thursday, March 23, 2006

haiz.. maths tests seriously sux.. today had the third maths test for the yr.. and the third one i gonna fail this yr ba.. zzz... realli dun noe how to do lo.. sianz.. then end of the day still got gp lessons which seriously sux la.. the stupid and idiotic teacher giving us useless and short-of-time timed practice.. wtf lo.. and i din do the work and in the end played chinese chess with xiao liang in class.. the teacher saw and she was realli angry and pissed off and said i wanted to defy her.. and true enough, i am there to defy her and i think my main objective in gp lessons is to piss the teacher off.. wahahax.. and i am so happy that she is angry with mi.. hehex..

today din actually want to go lessons de.. 4.30am in the morning i woke up and was running a high temperature and whole body aching.. and having a seriously blocked nose and headache.. in the end i took some chinese medicine that my mum boil and i felt better.. so still go skl.. haiz.. go skl to fail maths test.. sianz.. nvm ba.. guess i have to juz woek harder for the next test ba.. cauz i noe this time round i could do more qns then the previous time..

now i start to feel that skl has become a scary place.. a place where so many things that can happen.. love and hate.. ppl may love some things and on the other hand hate some things.. and i start to realise this fact now.. skl is now a place where u may ostracise or get ostracised by people.. hahax.. dunno how to survive in this scary place le..

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

think i getting sick le.. sianz.. today nothing much happened in skl.. juz lessons and everything.. nearly cannot tahan the chemistry pract cauz the fumes from the organic reagents are irritating my throat and my nose.. having runny nose now.. then was cca open house which was rather lame cauz i din realli do much today.. then went looking for my comic at lot 1 but haven released yet.. sianzzz.. such a boring day.. and unlucky day.. zzz...

today deciding whether to go talentime anot.. but in the end din wanna buy the ticket cauz i said chen chen din wan to go.. actually thats not the real reason la.. actually down inside mi i wanted to go to talentime to support wei xiang and esther if they got in.. but reason is i cannot find ppl to go with mi.. even though some ppl asked mi whether i wanted to go anot, but i noe i will be an extra if i go.. and it wun be nice when i am extra and irritating there.. so decided not to go ba.. guess i juz support wei xiang and esther somewhere when they are competing ba..

guess i realli getting sick le ba.. runny nose n sore throat.. arghhh!!! and tml is maths test.. cannot afford to fail again le.. cauz have been scoring super super super low marks and i nv pass a test ever.. guess i juz have to do lots and lots of practice tonight so that can secure a pass for the test ba.. all the best to all my frends taking the maths lecture test tml.. all the best and jia you!!! =)

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

a very very sian day today.. haiz... early in the morning is 2 hrs of gp.. sianz sia.. can kill ppl de.. the teacher sux and her lesson is so boring.. practically learnt nothing at all.. physics lecture was nothing better.. have been msging frends and not listening to lesson.. then was civics and maths.. wa kao.. such a boring day sia..

further feel outcast today especially in maths lessons today.. like there was no place for mi in class liddat.. forget it la.. i dun care le.. all i want to do now is to study and improve on my subjects.. heck care all those stupid little things ard mi.. dun care so much.. haiz~~~ also feel that i have no objective in coming to skl everyday le.. its like come study then go home.. nothing else.. haiz.. dun care le ba.. studies is main priority now.. have been talking to a frend bout this issue and he really gave mi alot of good advice.. and i appreciate it very much.. but i guess i would better remain the way it is now then to change anything.. hahax.. thats the best thing i can do ba..

feeling sick now.. having a bad sore throat and also a bit feverish liddat.. perhaps have to take some medicine then go rest a bit ba.. then have to cheong maths tutorials and cheong for the test on thursday le.. sianzzz.. -.-lll

Monday, March 20, 2006

today is the start of the new skl term.. quite sian la.. today a bit lethargic in skl.. and felt like sleeping.. but managed to pull thru till 2.30 today.. and i got back my chemistry test today.. i passed!!! 18/30.. hahax.. though not very good la.. but i managed to pass and improve.. from a score of 10 marks.. hahax.. so happy la.. got quite a big improvement le.. guess my hard work in chemistry had finally paid off and shown some results.. hopefully i can keep that up and score a better grade for the next test coming up in 2 weeks time.. hahax..

new skl term.. also means i have to buck up and start afresh liao.. hopefully i can change my attitude towards physics and maths too.. like i change for chemistry.. and i believe that if i can do it, i can score well too.. but aimming for a pass first.. hahax.. then slowly improve.. hopefully i can do it in the new term.. hahax.. having a maths integration test on thursday.. have to do lots of practice so i wun fail again.. jia you!!! and good luck to all my frends too!!!

though its a new skl term, but i still feel that i am still drifting away from my frends.. at a faster and faster rate i think.. i really dunno wat i can do to savage this situation.. i realli dunno.. haiz.. ppl hate mi cauz of wat i say.. but i tried my best to change le.. realli dunno wat to do le.. haiz.. guess i am juz a outcast that no one will acknowledge ba.. haiz~~~

Sunday, March 19, 2006

yay!!! got new blogskin le.. hehex.. quite nice to mi la.. looking for a long time.. all find weird weird de blogskin.. and alot can onli be used by girls de.. but managed to find this one.. which looks better and not so gay la.. hahax..

sianzzz.. i haven even touch my books for the whole of the holidaes.. sianzzz.. i wasted my whole holidaes resting and slacking.. gtg cheong my hw today liao.. haiz.. dunno whether can finish mah.. die liao.. think after march holidaes is time to buck up and do consistent studies daily and i have to catch up on my maths and physics.. i am way behind wat has been taught.. if dun buck up can die de.. haiz.. hopefully i can do it ba..

think wun be updating so often liao.. have to focus much much more on my studies le.. if not i sure cannot catch up de.. and i gone case de.. jia you ba!!! and to all my frends who are also slacking like mi, i think its also time for us to work hard and buck up together and we must pass our As with flying colours!!! all the best!!! =)

Saturday, March 18, 2006

today went east coast again to cycle.. hahax.. met my og frends at jurong east at 1.30pm.. but they are late as usual.. wahahax.. onli three of us were meeting as zi cheng was going to meet us at city hall interchange.. so ming xiong, jin chang and i took the train and went to bedok.. throughout the whole train trip, we were toking some lame and stupid jokes that we also rmb and talk about 1st 3 months in orientation and it was so fun la.. jin chang and i were joking about ming xiong and so and so.. wahahax..

soon we reached raffles place mrt and i called zi cheng who will board the train at city hall.. eventually we met up and we carried on our journey to bedok.. it was quite fun toking to them.. but they were complaining there were no girls and very very very sian de.. haiz.. feel a bit bad though.. we soon reached bedok and jin chang and zi cheng had their lunch b4 going to east coast.. they were a bit sian and reluctant to go east coast but eventually we still went there..

soon we reached east coast and they din wanna cycle at first.. but we eventually rented bikes and went off cycling ard east coast cauz there is practically nothing to do liao.. a bit sian la.. cauz i juz went yesterday.. but nonetheless still rather enjoyable for mi.. but zi cheng, the army man, seemed rather sian cauz no gals ard.. hahax.. and ming xiong was rather slow cauz he juz learnt how to cycle last yr.. wahahax.. zi cheng and i were alwaes in front of ming xiong and jin chang and sometimes we would even lose them.. throughout the whole trip, they were looking at girls and i sometimes also join in the fun and sarca them sometimes.. wahahax.. nonetheless, the trip was fun and rather enjoyable..

b4 we wanted to go, we wanted to take a group photo but could no fun anyone.. sianzzz.. so we combed the whole beach but to no avail.. sianzzz.. so we went off east coast.. there was one point when we were looking for someone to take a photo for us.. and zi cheng asked mit o look at my 7 o'clock position.. but i kept seeing a person who was weird.. hahax.. in the end it should be 5 o'clock position instead.. zi cheng realli no direction sense sia.. sianz.. so we went off without a group photo..

we took bus 16 to go city hall take train.. b4 that we went funan to eat dinner at kfc.. the most funny part was when i started to squeeze everything leftover on the tray into a pop corn chicken box and 2 cups.. and i managed to do it.. and we all laughed until penggg.. wahahax.. i was damn damn lame lo.. wahahax.. then we all went home on the train and chit chat again about 1st 3 months and army life from zi cheng.. hahax.. the trip home was rather enjoyable and we finally managed to take a group photo!!! wahahax..

the trip today was reali enjoyable to mi.. though very little ppl and no girls at all.. but still feel a bit guilty that i screwed up the whole thingy about informing ppl.. hopefully next time will be better ba.. hahax..

Friday, March 17, 2006

today went for og outing to east coast.. supposed to meet at 11am at JE mrt.. but most ppl are late as usual la..typical singaporeans.. wahahax.. joking joking.. so here it goes.. we were waiting for everyone and suddenly, i got a msg from chia hoe saying he not coming.. sian diao.. inform us onli when we all waiting.. sian.. forget it la.. in the end onli 7 ppl go for the thingy and ena and char siew will be joining us a bit later.. so we took the train and joel keep saying some stupid jokes.. ok.. lame.. i joined in too.. wahahax.. but the atmosphere was rather weird cauz some ppl were quiet and seem to mi they were a bit men men bu le liddat.. haiz.. nvm ba.. so we reached bedok and then we chased after the bloody 196 which came immediately after we reached the interchange..

so soon we reached east coast park and we had our lunch deciding to do wat.. i and joel ate jap food whereas the girls went for coffee bean.. then ena and char siew came look for us.. haha.. but they soon left cauz char siew had a bball match at something heights.. wahahax..

after that, we slack a while and then went to rent bikes after ena and char siew left.. jayne kai hui xun kai and i rented bikes whereas choun eng joel and wan yi rented roller blades.. so we went off cycling ard east coast.. wahahax.. and got separated from wan yi, joel and choun eng cauz we were faster on bikes.. hehex.. so we went ard east coast and went to the jetty and such.. hahax.. and took quite a few pictures.. hehex.. and we went cycling and cycling and cycling.. kai hui was alwaes the slowest and jayne, xun kai and i alwaes had to wait for her.. wahahax.. we took a rest at the hawker and saw the rest and met again.. i drank a big coconut on my own sia.. hahax.. so we carried on cycling n i alwaes cut jayne de lane with xun kai.. hahax.. so fun la.. soon we returned our bikes and took group photos and went off.. hehex.. quite fun today lo.. and i kept saying something like typical singaporeans all the time.. wahahax..

today is quite fun for mi lo.. but juz a bit too little ppl in my opinion.. hopefully the next outing will be better and more ppl can come have fun.. today not fun enough cauz a bit too little ppl le.. so hopefully in future can have more ppl coming.. hehex.. tml my own og outing.. still thinking wat i can do.. hahax.. hopefully it can be fun too!!!

Thursday, March 16, 2006

went for medical checkup in the afternoon today.. the appointment time was supposely 3.05pm.. so my dad drove mi there and we reach rather early.. when we reached there, i registered and waited for my turn to see the doc.. and i waited and waited and waited.. one hr passed.. it was rather normal.. cauz i used to wait for so long.. another hour passed.. and that was not normal.. i got pissed.. cauz i have been waiting for so long juz to see the doc.. so eventually, it was 5 plus when i saw the doctor.. damn bloody pissed off by the waiting time.. wasted so much of my time.. haiz.. i am realli wondering wat is the point of having appointment when the time is nv accurate??? i think it is stupid to have an appointment time lo..

when i saw the doc, he measured my blood pressure.. 159!!! the highest.. omg.. cauz i was fuming mad and also nervous at the same time.. so the blood pressure went off so high.. but lucky the doc was a kind person.. and he din say anything and looked thru my previous records and said it was alright.. and i was 89kg onli lo.. hahax.. i slimmed down round 6kg from new yr.. wahahax.. such a big achievement for mi.. and the doc fixed the appointment 6 months later.. so happy lo.. wahahax.. dun need to see him every 3 months liao.. yipee!!! hopefully i can keep up the good work and slim down another 6kg.. wahahax..

tml is my og outing day.. so looking forward to it lo.. going east coast to cycle.. and i think it will be fun lo.. wahahax.. so happy.. hehex.. hopefully everyone have fun too.. yipee!!! =)

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

haiz.. have been rotting at home the whole day.. nothing better to do.. and no mood to study.. lucky got my comics to accompany mi these few days.. if not i will be bored to death..

still planning og outing.. and still not getting reply.. think i will organise something simple instead ba for my own og this saturday.. maybe play pool and dinner lo.. simple.. whereas for this yr's og think will still go ahead with the cycling idea ba.. hopefully can get replies later today or tml lo.. haiz.. and have to use msgs to inform everyone bout the time again tml ba.. sianz.. but i will try my best to let everyone have fun though..

tml going for medical checkup again.. cauz of my freaking blood pressure.. sometimes super normal.. but when see doc, my pressure will shoot to the sky.. damn worried for the checkup la.. cauz the doc say will have to prescribe medication for mi if i dun slim down.. but i did lo.. i was ard 95kg during chinese new yr.. but now i onli 90kg liao.. guess my dieting works la.. and i will heck care the doc if she says she wanna let mi go on medication.. haiz.. heck care la.. hopefully everything will be fine tml..

sianz.. have been quarrelling with my mum for the past few months.. especially this few weeks and days.. she had been picking on every single thing that i do and nagging and scolding mi for nothing sometimes.. dunno wat is going thu her mind.. getting frustrated over her.. haiz.. sianz.. realli hope she can give mi some freedom and stop nagging at mi.. arghhh!!! stressed!!!

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

sian diao.. have been planning my og outings for the past few days.. getting damn stressed up right now.. send about 100 plus msgs to ppl in both my ogs le.. and hardly anyone reply.. also got send emails and ask ppl online.. but dun seem to be able to get replies from everyone.. damn damn stressed up.. arghhh... even if i get replies.. most of them is cannot de.. got something on de.. arghhhh!!!

realli demoralising to see all these things happen and get all these replies from ppl.. realli dunno whether i made a wrong choice trying to organise an outing for both of my ogs.. am i wrong? why dun i get replies? is it really so hard to type a few words or key in a few words in the handphone??? i realli dun understand.. i am juz trying my very best to organise something for my frends and the ppl that i appreciate very much.. wat should i do??? i am realli realli lost now.. should i cancel the outings??? but i noe ppl will hate mi for that if i do so.. wat should i do??? arghhhh!!! stressed!!!

Monday, March 13, 2006

sianz.. having a big big headache rite now.. planning my own og de outing and this yr's og de outing.. have to consider and set a good date for both outings.. arghhh!!! going crazy and bonkers liao.. hopefully i dun screw up in planning the outings..
sianz.. today is GP common test.. dun think i will do very well.. for essay was juz crapping and crapping on the paper.. dun noe wat i was writing also.. for the compre even worse.. the AQ i was like writing shit on the paper lo.. sian diao.. haiz~~~ hopefully can pass bahx..

after the common test went for lunch with my frends.. thought it was rather ok and could go home with my frends after lunch.. but eventually someone turned up and i went home with 2 other frends.. juz hate the sight of some ppl..

despite all these bad things, there are some things at i wanna achieve and accomplish in this holidaes.. first i wanna organise my own og de outing.. valerie wanted mi to do so.. and i also wanted to organise the outing and meet up with some frends that i have not seen for a long time liao.. second, i wanna organise an og outing for tis yr's og for everyone to keep in touch and meet up with each other.. hopefully i can successfully organise these outings and can enjoy a bit in this stressful holidaes.. hehex.. =)

Sunday, March 12, 2006

sian sia.. tml is the first day of the march holidaes.. and yet i have to go to skl.. for GP common test.. this is so lame la.. actually i quite worried for my GP lately.. cauz my class din really have a very good teacher.. in fact she is an unreasonable person who scolds our class for nothing.. and i have been sleeping in her class for the past 2 months le.. haven learnt much from her.. and she din really teach anything to my class.. thats why realli worried for tml.. haiz.. nonetheless i have to try my very best to get good grades and pass my common test tml.. hopefully i can do so and complete the papers tml..

here i wish all my frends taking the GP common test tml all the best and good luck for the common test tml.. hope everyone get good grades and pass with flying colours.. jia you!!! =)

Saturday, March 11, 2006

yesterday went for a performance at kallang theatre.. a children musicial show i say.. quite lame.. hahax.. our class de ppl decided to meet at kallang mrt station at 7pm today.. but sian.. most of the guys are late and they reached ard 7.25pm.. it was like damn late and no one really knew the way to the kallnag theatre.. we started walking there and most of us din realli noe the way there.. we twisted and turned and crossed roads and luckily we managed to get to the theatre in time for the performance.. most of them walked so fast that jia liang couldn't catch up due to his injured leg.. but we managed to reach the theatre b4 the performance started..

the show was rather cute and quite lame also.. Ali baba and the 21 bad and small bandits.. super lame.. there was one part where the bad guys wanted to catch ali baba by recognising the cross on his home door.. then suddenly they start to sing a song "cha cha cha cha cha cha cha".. which was damn lame la.. sian.. i keep commenting on the performance all the time and made stupid remarks.. though the performance is rather lame, but it is entertaining la.. wahahax.. can relax a bit..

after the performance went home.. super sian.. cauz its like actually wanted to go supper with frends.. but all din go in the end.. so go home.. actually also feel that it is really weird.. cauz there dun really have frends i noe very well.. on the train kept getting suaned and suaning ppl also.. sianz..

then i realise that i really din have frends in class.. and it is so sad la.. sianz.. all of them is so near and yet so far.. i wonder wat should i do so that i can blend in to the class one day.. sianz.. and i really wonder if that day will even come.. and till now i really doubt so.. sadded..

some of the frends that i had who were closer to mi in the past seems so far away from mi already.. and i feel so lost.. and i hardly spoke a word to them in class everyday.. i really dunno wat i can tok to them about all the time.. and i really want to let them noe how i feel.. but this seems so impossible.. cauz nowadays they are hanging ard with ppl that i hate and loathe so much.. i want to go home with them.. but the ppl i hate are alwaes ard them.. and i nv had the opportunity lately to go back with them.. i am so sad.. yet i dun wan to lose them as my frends cauz they are the ppl who could really tolerate mi and i believe they can be my frends.. but i could nv nv say out wat i feel to them.. maybe i am juz a coward.. wat should i do??? i feel so lost.. haiz~~~ i had been deceiving myself all the time saying let nature take its course.. but i noe it will nv work.. so troubled.. guess i am weak to face these problems.. haiz~~~
today spent the whole afternoon figuring out how to create a blog on blogspot.. look for a suitable skin and trying to get my blog up.. hahax.. and finally succeeded liao.. though not a very big thing, but since i am a computer idiot, it is a rather big achievement for mi le.. hehex.. so happy that i succeeded!!! yay!!!
to ppl who noe mi can link mi.. hehex.. tag mi too!!! =)