feeling much better today.. better things happened and i think it realli made mi feel better.. but i guess yesterday's movie-ing realli gave mi a time out and stop thinking too much.. realli appreciate my pal joel going out with mi and listening to my worries.. realli thanks so much bro..

today was a realli busy day.. becos it dumpling festival.. was very busy de whole day preparing these and that for prayers in the family.. realli tired right now after doing so much chores today.. and i guess these chores also made mi forget some of the worries that i had..

after the busy chores was done, went to lot 1 to get another comic that i have been collecting.. 射雕英雄传.. coming out realli slowly.. the releasing speed is like letting a tortoise complete a 2.4km walk.. haiz.. budden i'll wait.. also the other comics i am collecting is like stagnant la.. unheard of for ard 2 or 3 months liao le.. waiting like hell.. haiz..

though felt better today, but nonetheless still quite worried.. realli hope i can see a sunny sky soon.. yeah.. signing off..

went out with my pal joel to watch Da Vinci Code at the new cathay cinema next to plaza sing today.. quite a nice movie i think.. with the suspense and such happening.. its realli quite a good show to mi.. considering i din read the novel, couldn't understand some of the parts in the movie.. budden i guess i can understand most of the movie and understand the whole story ba..

realli wanna watch x- men III also.. hahax.. budden i guess wun have the chance ba.. cauz most of my frends should have watched le.. also bought a comic today..

now feeling a bit better after going out today.. toked and chatted with my frend and i realli felt much at ease.. thanks lots bro.. budden the worries is still lingering ard.. and getting worse i think.. hoprfully things will be fine ba.. ending here.. bye..

quote from mi de senior.. help mi alot today.. felt better after toking to him..

''when the going gets tough.. the tough gets going..''

yeah.. i will hang on and push on.. thanks alot chin hong!!!

life seriously sux.. seriously.. after one thing has been settled and it seem that i am fine liao, devastating things happened again.. damn it.. worried the whole of yesterday.. and things got worse today.. damn.. hate it.. i am afraid.. realli afraid.. i am worried.. very worried..

went for chemistry remedial today.. with my worries all along staying with mi.. i realli dunno wat to do.. i am on the verge of breaking down liao le.. and there is nothing i can do about it.. this has nothing to do with other ppl.. but mi myself.. i have seen too much.. and faced too much.. i am scared.. realli scared.. i dunno how to control myself..

i will end here ba.. no mood to carry on updating liao le..

today woke up rather early in the morning.. woke up at 10am.. considering the tiredness, i guess its realli early liao le.. hahax.. watched tv the whole morning.. schedule for tv programmes shifted here and there.. but lucky some shows i like to watch isn't changed.. nothing much to do today.. also din study.. cauz felt like resting..

in the afternoon went out dota with my frend.. quite fun.. budden dun realli noe how to play le.. sian.. cauz too long nv play liao le.. sian.. kanna thrashed by my frend.. damn pro lo.. sian.. budden i guess wun be playing so often le.. have to start studying hard for common test le.. and ultimately for As.. yeah.. hopefully can do well for the coming common test.. dun wanna disappoint myself.. yeah..

tml still got chemistry remedial tml afternoon sian.. have to travel back to skl for 1 to 2 hours of lessons.. haiz sian la.. now feeling worried.. something bothering mi right now.. haiz.. worried.. end here ba.. tata..

today was a GREAT day.. and i mean great.. realli had lots of fun today although very tired.. haha.. today is a very hectic day with so may things happening at the same day.. but it is all these things that have realli brought joy to mi today..

today woke up very early in the morning.. 6am.. to prepare and go to skl for the national chinese riddle competition.. competiton was won by hwa chong.. budden the most enjoyable part of the chinese riddle competition is none other than working with the j1s and getting to noe more of the j1s in cldds.. yeah.. it has been a memorable experience working together with them cauz i guess it will be the last event that i can work with them liao.. and i truly appreciate and treasure this experience.. and all of them are really nice ppl to work and play with.. hahax.. wanna wish all the j1s in cldds all the best.. hahax..

then went for lunch with some of the juniors from cldds jun lin, jing yi and yong xian.. went JE makan.. hahax.. chatted alot and joked alot.. but ultimately had fun relating and toking to them.. thanks guys..

but i guess the highlight for the day is LINE Night III held today.. i asked my group ppl for the past few days and invited them for the occasion.. din get much response and i thought i would have failed again.. jin hong's group also seem to be the same.. both of us can't confirm the ppl coming.. but we still decided to meet at 6pm at boon lay mrt station.. to our surprise, many ppl from both of our group came.. for my group, shak, shao ming, sarah, zuo ting, wei ying, firdaus came.. it was much more then the number i expected.. thats not all.. many of jin hong group members also came for the occasion.. hahax.. and all of us went to JP to pack dinner and ate in skl..

the whole group of us simply rox the bus.. we took 157 to jj and all of us had fun chatting and toking on the bus.. when we reached skl, had our dinner together in the canteen.. and we started the food cheer again.. memories of the last cluster camp.. yeah!!! to my surprise, i saw loqman, afiqah, amira and also jieson in skl.. i couldn't contact them and yet they came.. i am so so happy to see them.. managed to see some other facilitators in skl.. wei yuan, zheng long, rasyid and madeline.. after dinner everyone of us proceeded up to the hall and all of us were totally crazy and high la.. we rox that place lo..

did lots of cheering at line night.. everyone from last yr cluster camp were super duper high.. some other campers from other families also came.. and all of us cheer and dance together like a family.. yeah.. had mass dance.. did pump it, twist, 5 colours, chori chori and chicken dance.. and some others which i forgotten.. hahax.. thoroughly enjoyed the mass dance.. did more cheering and had fun cheering and dancing together with the ex cluster west 6 campers..

also went to take lots of photos after mass dance and such.. lots of group photos and lots of funky and funny ones.. hahax.. some ppl also zi lian-ing all the while.. guess everyone there might have taken a few dozens of photos.. and the photo taking session was damn fun also.. with all the jokes and funny stuffs.. hahax.. after the photo taking session, many ppl went home.. we stayed a while more chatting and some taking more photos and left the skl.. and realli sad that everyone is going to be separated again.. but i guess good times is alwaes short but the memories will be deeply engraved in everyone's hearts.. also updated phone numbers and contact stuffs.. hahax..

i guess i haven wasted my trip to LINE night tonight.. in fact, i felt it is a time well spent.. realli touched by everyone.. though some of us were from different families, and we din knew each other, but we still played and had great fun together like a family.. and everyone seem to be so bonded at the point of time and its realli touching to see all these happen.. despite the fact that some ppl also din noe each other, they came up to each other and left contact with each other.. and this is realli something priceless.. yeah.. some even suggested to have another outing together.. hahax.. so touched.. lost of words liao.. can onli use touched..

although i am realli tired at this point of time, i still feel it is totally worth it.. everything i experienced at LINE night today is totally priceless and it will be a great memory in my heart in times to come.. here wanna thank everyone who came today.. shak, shao ming, zuo ting, wei ying, sarah, amira, afiqah, loqman, jieson and firdaus from group 8.. u ppl rox.. and everyone in jing hong's group and everyone who i noe or i do not noe who came today and craved such a beautiful memory for mi.. and most importantly the faciltators who came today.. rasyid, madeline, shak, jonathan, jin hong, zheng long and wei yuan!!! thanks everyone!!! CLUSTER WEST 6 ROXS!!! I LOVE EVERYONE OF U!!! =)

too much controversy liao le.. seem to have caused discomfort to other.. deleted my previous post.. yeah.. dun wanna cause trouble for others liao.. sorted out my thinking le.. yeah!!! i shall start afresh from tml onwards and study hard to be a straight A student.. hopefully i can.. and i am sure i can if i try.. hehex..

today went badminton again.. had fun.. sweated alot.. and forgot bout all the worries.. but most importantly had fun fun and fun.. i love badminton.. yeah!!!

tml going to skl for the national chinese riddle competition thingy.. and also LINE night tml.. so excited.. looking forward to see my group members tml!! reunion!!! so cool.. looking forward to it tml.. yeah..

i will end here.. hahax.. and i will start my life afresh!!! tata!!! =)

stressful day today.. but feeling super ultra relaxed now.. cauz SPA exams is over!!! yay!!! no more SPA ever le.. yipee.. today's SPA was rather manageable.. i think i did alright.. cauz was damn stressed about it today.. worried weird questions will come out.. budden its finally over le.. dun wanna tok bout it anymore.. yay!!!

had the usual lessons today.. physics tutorial, maths lecture, chemistry tutorial and gp.. budden wasn't able to concentrate today cauz was too stressed up liao le.. haiz.. budden this hectic week is finally over le.. as in tml not much lessons.. hahax.. realli looking forward to tml.. can slack and its the last day of skl.. and also saturday got the national chinese riddle competition.. going to be usher.. realli looking forward to it.. think it will be a really grand event.. yeah!!!

and also LINE night on saturday night!!! yeah.. can go enjoy myself le.. yipee!!! trying to contact my group members from last yr to come back and meet up have fun.. yeah.. still confirming with them.. hopefully can contact some of them and they can come back ba..

took bus with my junior today.. toked alot.. hahax.. then come home slack.. read a new comic that i bought on tuesday.. title is 神.战国生徒会.. damn exciting and nice lo.. so cool.. the fighting and such.. realli looking forward to the next issue.. yeah.. and also waiting anxiously for others to come out also.. waiting for a realli realli realli long long time liao le.. haiz.. if next week all come out at the same time i'm gonna be broke once again.. haiz.. hahax..

tonight gotta sleep early.. looking forward tml.. last day of skl!!! can go badminton also.. yipee!!! tml will be such a wonderful day.. at least i hope so.. =)

yeah!!! success.. finally handed in my freaking maths file le.. the one which gave mi lots of trouble and cauz mi lots of sweat and pain to finally finish packing.. damn.. hahax.. but luckily handed in liao le.. yay!!! dun need worry liao le.. hahax.. budden was sleepy throughout the whole day cauz practically din sleep yesterday nite.. roughly 3 hours onli.. and wasn't good sleep also.. haiz.. tonight gotta conserve energy and sleep more so as to be able to manage my day well tml..

had chemistry tutorial this morning.. was sleeping in the tutorial cauz realli too tired to concentrate le.. and cannot finish the kinetics tutorial cauz din have the time to do it cauz was busy with the maths file.. ya.. then was chemistry lecture which i was practically stoning all the way also.. sian la.. then was chemistry make up lesson which i got scolded for not doing tutorial.. guess i realli deserve it ba.. blame it on my laziness.. then was maths tutorial and end of skl..

however got cca in the afternoon.. was rehearsal for the national chinese riddle competition this coming saturday.. yeah.. it was quite fun la.. acting and guessing stuffs.. budden din put in much effort cauz was worrying for the physics SPA tml.. yeah.. budden tried my best to help let the rehearsal run smoothly.. as in doing my part la.. hahax..

it din go as smoothly as expected.. cauz lack of ushers and communication break down between teachers and student helper plus CLDDS members.. yeah.. but i hope thing will run smoothly for the event on saturday.. yeah.. cauz i also volunteered to help out as usher.. dunno why.. i am juz passionate to help out in this kind of things.. like to be involved in these activities.. yeah.. so wanted to help out on saturday and got to be an usher.. yeah.. hahax..

i guess thats all for today le.. nothing much more to mention liao le.. cauz also having physics SPA exams tml.. last assessment le.. realli worried.. scared cannot understand the qn and dunno how to do.. somemore double weightage de sia.. haiz.. i guess have to study and go thru notes ba.. signing off.. tata.. =)

today is a sucky sucky sucky day in skl.. have been practically "doing" maths de tutorials and assignments.. kao so much de lo.. crazy de.. i spent my whole day "doing " liao le.. still got ard 10 left.. have to cheong finish tonight.. dunno whether can finish mah.. damn.. worried sia.. have practically no time left to do other things.. sian la.. stupid sia.. why am i so "lucky" at these times.. -.-lll haiz... sian la..

today had gp lesson which an unexpected incident occured after the lesson.. some of us witnessed the unfortunate event.. hahax.. then was physics lecture and maths tutorial.. got back P&C test.. failed.. 1/15.. forget it ba.. i simply can't do P&C.. zzz.. but the most scary lesson today is civics lesson.. first time saw miss ng so sad.. yeah.. so much for respect and education ppl receive in our lives.. and so much for ppl's character..

guess i will end here ba.. blog again next time.. have to cheong the rest of assignments and tutorials le.. tata.. sianz.. -.-lll

maths seriously sux big time.. and i mean BIG TIME.. damn it.. early in the morning got the shock of my life.. teacher said i was chosen to hand in my maths file for file checking.. damn it.. i was so "HENG" la.. tian lu drew the lot for mi.. cauz i went for cheering thing.. damn it.. then was chosen to hand in my freaking file when i wasn't ard.. so dun noe anything.. then frend also din tell mi in the weekend so i could prepare.. so.. sian diao liao le.. darn..

and there is nothing i can do about it.. but onli to complete all my tutorials lo.. 24 freaking tutorials and assignments i have to complete these 2 days.. and there is no negotiation i can do.. darn it.. that means i dun need to sleep liao le tonight and tml night.. if not i cannot "finish" them.. darn.. haiz.. no choice lo.. have to try my very best liao le.. even if i have to lose my precious sleeping time.. damn.. who call mi to be so so so "lucky".. damn..

then was worried for the whole day.. couldn't concentrate in lecture and tutorials.. thinking of how to solve this BIG problem.. asked my classmates to lend mi.. budden i guess most of them haven finish tidying theirs.. no choice.. haiz haiz haiz.. but luckily my frend from another class can lend mi.. so he saved mi life.. he helped mi.. realli realli realli thank him a few billions.. hahax.. realli grateful i have frends outside class.. hahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. have to go cheong and cheong and cheong for my maths le.. if not i will die tml.. and i mean die!!! ending with something to think about for myself.. "In this world, man is selfish and man is always for themselves.. The only way to survive in this society is to depend on ourselves and work with our own hands.." yeah.. thats all for today.. byez..

today din do homework.. sian.. slacking practically for the whole day.. watched tv in the morning and went out in the afternoon.. searching for full metal alchemist de comic.. i think i giving up liao le.. i first went to jp, then to causeway point, next to bukit panjang plaza and finally lot 1.. i couldn't find the 3rd and 4th book.. the shopkeeper in most shops said those were out of print liao le..

i guess i will give up on trying to collect that set of comic le.. haiz.. sian la.. budden i waiting for trinity blood to come out.. chuang yi got the right to publish it liao le.. and i think it is a good comic cauz the anime seem to be well commented about.. hahax.. so i will wait for it ba.. sian.. i collecting quite alot of comics.. i worried during the period when i go ns, i wun be able to buy most of them.. sian la.. especially one which comes out every 2 weeks.. i guess by then i will then decide wat to do ba.. now focus on studies first.. yeah..

i also found that i can practically watch the whole of gundam seed on you tube.. its so cool la.. yeah.. hehex.. i guess i will stop here ba.. have to go do physics and chemistry homework le.. a well as study for skill A for the physics SPA this thursday.. cauz wednesday got important stuffs for cca.. may not have time to study.. yeah.. thats all ba.. buaiz.. =)

continued my rotting at home rountine today.. hahax.. done nothing better today as usual.. reading my comics and watching anime.. and also watching tv.. watch cartoons in the morning and also the season finale of survivor panama exile island.. damn exciting sia.. finally over le this season.. next season survivor cook island also coming.. yeah!!! damn shiok..

also chatting to my senior this afternoon also.. he told mi many things that are realli true.. i guess there is no time left liao le.. he told mi that i should study realli hard.. if not in future will suffer de.. i guess wat he says is realli true.. i have to study hard.. especially in the june holidaes.. its the most important time to catch up with both my j1 and j2 work.. and its the best time to do it.. cauz there will not be much lessons and can study at home.. i will realli realli work hard in the june holidaes.. and show it to everyone wat i am capable of.. especially to some teachers and peers who look down on mi.. i will show u all wat i am made of.. yeah..

also read comics in the afternoon.. finish 2 more.. 3 more to go le.. yeah.. next week comic coming out liao le.. yeah!!! so happy.. also thinking of collecting the comic "Full Metal Alchemist".. it seems to be a realli nice comic.. cauz was watching a bit of the anime today.. seem to like the story very much.. budden couldn't find some of the books at lot 1.. so i think i will be looking ard for the missing books before i decide whether to buy the comic anot.. hahax..

thats all le.. nothing much for the day liao.. ending with something i thought of this afternoon.. "We reap what we sow.. What we want to achieve depends on the amount of effort we are willing to put in.." yeah.. thats all.. tata..

today din go out as expected.. cauz frend couldn't make it.. so i stayed at home and used the computer for the whole day.. watched an anime my frend lended mi the other day.. suzuka.. very nice anime.. interesting and touching storyline also.. finished watching 4 episodes today.. hahax.. budden the anime not complete de.. cauz comics still got further continuation of the story.. cauz i got collect the comic too.. hahax.. budden nvm i guess.. cauz i still like the story very much..

was also reading my comics in the whole afternoon.. managed to finish one.. i guess got 5 more to go ba.. and the comics i am waiting for is so slow.. waiting for the comics for a very very long time le.. budden haven come out yet.. sian la.. hopefully can come out faster.. so can noe wat happens.. hehex..

then in the evening went to play badminton as usual.. had quite alot of fun today.. also got to noe more ppl there liao le.. and guess i improved a bit liao le.. regaining the momentum to play badminton liao le.. yipee!!! its a good exercise and also a fun exercise.. most importantly less chances to get injured cauz no body contact.. budden i think i still got lots of injuries from the past ba.. wahahax.. waiting to play next week again..

i will stop here ba.. tml is saturday.. can rest liao le.. budden also have to do hw and study for my subjects.. and mid yr exams are coming.. have to buck up liao.. signing off.. tata.. =)

today is the last day of skl for this week.. hahax.. damn good.. budden today in skl suxs.. first had maths test which i am certain that i wun pass and then TCA4 for gp which i also wun pass.. sian diao la.. haiz.. stupid tests and tcas.. next week still got physics spa on thursday.. exams again.. arghhh..

actually today after skl got physics de extra lesson.. budden decided that i wanna go watch the soccer match and give our soccer team some support.. although we lost the match today, budden i still feel that the soccer boys had given their all and done their very best against a stronger team with 4 national players.. i guess its realli a good job done by the soccer boys.. yeah..

after the soccer match went off with the F3 and F6 ogls wei yuan, may, paterson, rasyid, azman, hui qin and bryan for dinner.. went to a muslim restaurant at bukit timah for our dinner.. the food there was good and the atmosphere is also good cauz everyone is chatting and joking together.. so fun.. and i also enjoyed myself alot and had lots of fun at dinner today.. also got to noe a new frend who was my og member classmate in sec skl as they also came along for the soccer match and joined us for dinner.. din regret going for the soccer match today.. hahax.. the night was time well spent.. hopefully next time got chances to have dinner together again..

today was a fun and enjoyable day regardless of the tests and stress in skl.. hopefully can enjoy myself as much in future.. looking forward to tml cauz can slack and rest a home.. and can also play badminton in the night.. yay!!! guess i will end here ba.. cya.. tata.. =)

today is a slack day.. had chemistry tutorial in the morning and chemistry lecture in the morning.. and i slept in chemistry lecture again.. sian la.. cauz was too boring liao le.. until miss goh come wake mi up.. then had maths tutorial after break.. during maths tutorial, there was one group of ppl crowding outside of our classroom.. got bats on the tree outside our classroom.. then my class also went out to see.. first time seeing a bat so closely.. hahax.. then skl ended liao le..

after skl went to play cards and chess at AR room.. then soon went to LT5 for cldds cauz got a chinese riddle de inter class competition.. then j2 went to see see and cannot go home.. reached there and ppl asked mi to carry tables.. sian la.. alwaes liddat de.. but nvm ba.. then a teacher asked mi to be a camera man for the event.. hahax.. fun taking pictures all ard ba.. also tok cock with the j1s.. today cldds not so boring after all.. after which went home with junior then went lot 1 buy comic..

tml still got maths permutations and combinations test plus probability test.. jia liat sia.. haven start studying.. still got stupid TCA to be completed.. haiz.. guess i will stop here ba.. study later.. buaiz..

today had chemistry spa right in the morning.. was so worried for it la.. cauz the previous night i din study much.. onli studied this morning.. budden when got the qns, it was better.. cauz it was an easy paper.. i guess i can do alright for it ba.. cauz i dun think i made too much mistakes.. juz that some uncertainties here and there ba..

then was gp lesson which was darn bloody boring and useless as usual.. then was physics pract which we went thru the tennis racket qn for skill A.. could understand but am realli worried i wun make it thru for the spa assessment next week.. cauz i totally got no confidence.. die sia.. and yes.. its next week!!! arghhh.. another thing to be worried about for the days to come le.. haizzz.. then was chinese lesson and then make up pc and dismissed le.. went play basketball a while then went jp walk walk.. after which went home liao le..

still got lots of homework to be completed tonight.. got chemistry kinetics de tutorial and maths tutorial to be done for tonight.. budden now very tired le.. haiz.. dunno whether can complete my homework anot.. sian.. but i think have to try my best to complete my homework ba.. guess i will end here ba.. tata..

today is such a tiring day.. now having a splitting headache again.. early in the morning had maths lecture which was so hard to concentrate in.. cannot understand a single thing that was taught in the lecture.. guess i am realli lagging far behind..

then was bloody pc which our class got scolded for ponning pc.. the new teacher's attitude can onli be described with one word: sux.. stupid de.. ok so wat we pon pc.. if want us to make up make up la.. dun need to give idiotic attitude.. stupid de.. somemore new teacher somemore.. 新官上任三把火.. wanna enforce discipline and scold us.. and wanted us to treat her with respect.. but fat hope la.. students wun give respect to teachers who dun give BASIC respect to students.. was so irritated with that teacher.. i guess most of us felt so too..

then was physics lecture and tutorial which i hardly concentrating in and chem tutorial which i managed to listen in.. sian..

then skl ended and i had lunch with my classmates and went to lot 1 to meet my pal.. he passed mi a disc for an anime i wanted.. hahax.. we chit chat and walk ard lot 1 and discussing about skl life and stuffs.. enjoy the time with my pal alot.. hahax.. he is the onli one i guess i can tok to realli freely i guess.. hahax.. hopefully can meet up soon again..

this thursday can be excused from skl in the afternoon cauz ogls are to go cheer for the soccer boys in our skl cauz we got into top 4 at national level.. budden not realli wanting to go cauz i scared miss lessons.. budden cauz i think it is highly likely to be missing gp lessons.. so i think i will be going and have fun.. wahahax.. friday also dun need go skl cauz got polling day thingy and also talentime.. can rest le.. another long weekend.. yipee!!!

have to go study for chemistry spa le.. and nothing much for the day liao.. wish everyone i noe taking spa tml all the best and good luck.. we can do it de.. jia you!!! tata.. =)

today is mother's day.. went out with my sis and mum for dinner at causeway point.. my sis booked a table at kampong dayz and we went there for dinner.. the table was reserved for 5pm.. budden we reached too early.. so went shopping ard causeway point.. went off on my own cause my sis and my mum will be looking at their clothes and i will be redundant there.. so went ard walk walk on my own..

visited comics connection to look at model kits and comics.. also went to sportslink and royal sporting house to look ard.. thinking of buying a new badminton racket.. hahax.. though my current one is still fine.. but tempted to buy muscle power de racket.. hahax.. so i think i would be saving up to buy it ba.. wahahax.. also "owe" my frend a racket for his birthday.. guess i will be saving up also ba..

it was ard 5 when we went to the restaurant.. ordered quite alot of food.. kampong fried rice, beggar chicken, suan la tang, gailan, garlic spare ribs and hot plate tofu.. the food there realli quite nice.. hahax.. especially the garlic spare ribs and beggar chicken.. kampong dayz.. highly recommended.. hahax..

after which went home and watched tv.. watch xXx.. quite cool show i think.. haiz.. but have to go cheong my homework later.. analogue electronics de tutorial.. have to finish it tonight.. lucky no more organic assignments le.. pew... wahahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. nothing much le.. but here wanna wish all mothers a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! hahax.. tata.. =)

did practically nothing today.. nothing but watch tv.. and tv.. rotting in front of the tv for the whole day.. woke up late today and missed a show.. sian.. haiz.. but managed to watch the others..

then afternoon wanted to watch survivor exile island with my dad which he recorded.. budden suddenly was overwrote and everything gone.. sian la.. budden internet is a powerful tool.. so got to noe wat happened.. next week finale liao le.. sure damn exciting de.. also finished watching xian jian qi xia zhuan i recorded and watch the medallion which i recorded long long long ago.. hahax.. managed to finish watching those i recorded.. yeah!!!

tonight xian jian qi xia zhuan last episode le.. should be damn nice de.. hahax.. waiting for it.. hahax.. i guess i will try to finish hw tonight cauz tml mother's day maybe going out celebrate.. scared no time to do.. i guess there is nothing much le.. i will end here ba.. tata.. =)

today is vesak day.. a holidae!!! damn shiok la.. can sleep alot yesterday.. woke up in the morning to use com.. then discussed with my sis wat to get for my mum on mother's day.. think we will be getting her a cake then perhaps my sis will bring her out for dinner or something.. dunno wat to buy for her gift as yet.. haiz.. shang nao jing sia..

then went to a buddhist temple with my aunt to go bai bai.. since it was vesak day.. alot of ppl there.. and many ppl praying there also.. very crowded.. did some prayers ard the temple then went to my aunt's home for lunch.. popiah.. hahax.. vegetarian de.. quite nice..

actually wanted to go dota with my frend.. budden he got something on.. hahax.. so i stayed at home for the afternoon and managed to clear some of my comics.. hahax.. left 5 more to go.. will try to finish by this weekends.. but will also study and complete my tutorials..

at night went to senja area to play badminton as usual.. guess i de-proved alot.. ard 1 month nv play le.. cauz was sick and had really busy schedules lately.. haha.. so din play so well today.. guess have to exercise more often ba.. sian.. hahax..

nothing much for the day le.. i will end here.. tata.. =)

gundam seed today finally over le!!! yipee!!! last episode damn nice.. ended the war.. genesis destroyed.. providence destroyed.. peace restored.. fighting damn nice la.. meaningful also.. hahax.. have been chasing after this series for a long long time le.. today finally over.. damn nice la.. hahax.. going to watch gundam seed destiny.. also very nice.. wahahax.. waiting for the next episode on sunday!!!

today had boring day in skl.. nothing much.. physics tutorial, chemistry tutorial, maths lecture and gp.. tired sia.. but lucky got the long weekend due to vesak day.. damn shiok la.. can enjoy liao le.. can rest a bit also. but also have to use this chance to catch on some of the tutorials and some of the work that i have not completed.. hopefully can catch up ba.. jia you..

tml i think nothing much to do.. hopefully can ask frend out play dota.. hahax.. i guess thats all for today liao le.. tata.. =)

very tired today.. so busy today.. though onli got chemistry tutorial where we discussed skill A and maths tutorial, but the most demanding part of the day is definitely the chemistry test we had during lecture.. din do realli well i think.. anyhow do some qns.. and quite alot din complete.. worried i would fail the test.. but i tried hard to study liao le.. hopefully can pass ba..

today got back numerical analysis test.. i passed!!! though onli 8/15, but i passed liao.. i am happy with it.. din do so well cauz i see the qn wrongly and wasted lots of time.. thats why din have time to do the other qn i knew how to do.. sian la.. but i guess its a blessing that i can pass.. cauz have been passing my tests lately liao.. hopefully can keep it up and do better for maths, chemistry and physics.. yeah..

then had CLDDS.. still quite slack and nothing much.. new j1s coming in and they get their shirts and becoming actual members.. also assigning jobs for the chinese riddle competition for skl and national level.. the j2s dun have any work that we have to do.. but teachers said we have other more important jobs to do.. hahax.. to observe.. wahahax.. but i guess i may still volunteer to help next week ba.. hahax.. i enjoying working.. can keep myself busy and forgot about troubles.. hahax..

later still have to complete physics pract worksheet, analogue tutorial and chemistry periodicity tutorial.. i guess i will end here ba.. nothing else le.. tata..

sian la.. boring day.. chemistry lecture which i slept, gp then was physics practical where the teacher din come.. when i tried hard to finish the work he wanted to check.. sian.. also got maths retest today.. screwed up la.. sure fail.. sian..

nothing better to do today le.. except for study and study and stduy.. for tml's electrochem test.. so worried i will fail the test tml.. haiz.. budden cannot afford to fail.. thats why have to try my best to memorise everything and get everything into my brain.. dunno whether i can do it mah.. cauz my brain onli have a little MB of memory space.. sian.. realised jc2 life is all about studies and tests and exams then studies again.. this is a vicious cycle which doesn't seem to end.. sian la.. so tired..

tonight have to finish physics pract ws then study for test.. speaking of pract, chem and physics SPA is coming soon also la.. sian diao.. time so little and schedule so bloody packed.. haiz.. nothing much i can do.. guess i will end here ba.. tata..

today is a hectic day.. and screwed up day also.. had maths lect in the morning then pc.. after which was physics tutorial and lecture.. then was chemistry tutorial where we had SPA trial then kanna chase out of class cauz nv do work.. sian la.. stupid.. actually supposed to have maths test today de.. budden postponed to tml cauz someone else wanted to take tml.. but when i asked in the morning whether can tml mah the teacher said cannot.. wth.. sian la.. spent so much time reading today in the end take tml cauz dun wanna take alone.. haiz.. sian la..

later still have to do physics tutorial then study for the test.. when everyone else is so free today.. guess thats the retribution i get when i dun do my homework all the time.. have to slowly complete everything liao.. cauz teachers are chasing after our work already.. sian

while on the way back was thinking of some things.. then suddenly, all these came to my mind..

望着渐渐离去的背影，
我突然感慨万端。
以往患难与共的人，
以慢慢的从手中流失。

那时美好的一切，
似乎像海市蜃楼，
是虚幻的，
摸不着，猜不透。
犹如不曾存在过。

我已无力挽回，
又不肯放手。
事实已对我证明了一切，
看来是时候放手。。。

guess i will end with this ba.. some thoughts when going home today.. haiz.. nothing much le..

watch tv the whole morning then went to my frend's home to study today.. complete organic assignment 8 today with my frend.. then decided we would go dota.. played for 2 hrs then went to my aunt's home.. then now rotting at home..

going to do chemistry tutorial and physics tutorial later.. then study for numerical analysis test and spa trial.. hopefully can finish studying ba.. haiz.. sian.. nothing much liao.. gtg.. tata..

today doing practically nothing at home.. feel much much better le.. can eat things liao.. but still eating porridge.. haiz.. watched tv the whole of the morning.. then slept for the whole afternoon.. then watch tv again.. sianz.. felt so bored la.. nothing at i can do.. sianzzz..

haven do any homework today yet.. sian la.. got so much homework that is to be completed today.. and got numerical analysis test this coming monday.. also got spa trial 2.. have to try complete some homework by tonight.. so tml more free to study for tests and such..

nothing for the day le.. rountine stuffs.. quite meaningless to update le.. end here ba.. tata..

went to skl today.. din feel very good also.. diarrhea starting all over again this morning.. went in and out toilet a few times today in skl.. damn.. could barely concentrate in the lessons cauz of the gastric pain i had as i was unable to eat anything.. cheong back home immediately at 1pm becos really not feeling well.. then went to see the doctor in the afternoon again.. the doctor gave mi some gastric pills and some medicine to stop the diarrhea.. rested for the whole afternoon and feeling better right now.. though stomach still a bit bloated..

the doctor was one whom i seen from young.. hahax.. so chatted a bit before i left.. he said A levels is very difficult and cannot play a fool with it.. i guess wat he says is realli true.. time to buck up and study.. he also said that concepts are the basics for A levels.. if we dun get it, means we are finished.. guess i have to pay more attention in skl liao ba.. if not i will sure flunk my As de.. and so little time is left liao le.. haiz..

lagging behind in lessons liao.. cauz missed 2 days of lessons on wednesday and thursday.. hopefully can try to catch up on my work over the weekends.. and try to complete watever incomplete work that i have ba.. guess i will end here ba.. nothing much for today le.. tata.. =)

din go to skl today as well.. dun feel too good this morning.. had slight fever and body aches.. so decided to stay at home and rest for one more day.. feeling much much better today le.. can eat a bit of porridge liao.. and had more energy today le.. think tml can go back for lessons liao.. think i had missed out quite alot of lessons and may not be able to catch up.. but hopefully i can ba.. try to study at home..

later i think i will try to complete test 3 for physics.. din do it for the past few days cauz not feeling well and din have the energy to do it.. i guess i will be able to complete it today ba.. then will also study for the numerical analysis test.. in case the retest is tml.. but hopefully can drag to next week so can have more time to revise and study..

guess i wun be doing anything more ba.. juz resting and study for the day.. hopefully can complete the things i wanna do today.. end here ba.. tata.. =)

din go to skl today.. because got stomach flu yesterday.. feeling bad.. thought it was ok yesterday.. cauz onli had a bit of diarrhea.. budden when night comes everything turned for the worse.. started to vomit badly and keep having diarrhea.. din sleep the whole night.. keep going in and out of the toilet.. onli endured the excruciating till this morning where i had body aches all over the body and the pain was unbearable.. mum brought mi to the doctor who administered i got stomach flu and gave mi an injection.. haven eaten anything for 1 full day.. this feeling sux..

din do any homework at all today.. and din study anything also.. cauz din have any energy to do homework and study.. tml still got numerical analysis test.. dunno whether can take mah.. i will sure fail if i go and take tml.. budden i got mc for 2 days.. so thinking whether wanna go skl tml anot.. dun realli wanna go cauz i wanna rest..

haiz.. i think i will end here ba.. no energy to continue liao.. tata..

skl's noodles plus chilli = diarrhea and vomit inducing food.. nv nv try that in skl.. it may simply mean u have to rot in the toilet for a long long time.. i experienced it le.. have u??? better not.. wahahax..

feeling sick right now.. having a stomachache and keep having the feeling of wanting to vomit.. sianz.. must have eaten something wrong.. think might be the noodles i had during break which i added lots and lots of chilli.. and i guess the chilli might have gone bad.. i think i wun add more chilli in future le.. arghhh..

nothing much today.. had gp, physics lecture, maths tutorial, civics and chemistry make up lesson.. managed to finish most of the work that were supposed to be discussed today.. especially chemistry.. managed to complete all the work miss goh assigned.. i think i am glad about it.. hahax..

tml will be a slacker day.. lesser lessons.. got maths tutorial and chem tutorial.. guess i will finish the homework later tonight ba.. try to finish all of them.. guess i will end here ba.. tata.. =)

nothing matters anymore.. and i start to feel refreshed for studies.. after so much things.. i guess i have seen the light.. nothing can distract mi anymore.. i have seen the truth to many things these few days.. and i am so happy about it.. i had sorted out my thinking.. i guess i can focus my attention on studies le.. after thinking and i wun be affected anymore by stuffs..

did nothing much today apart from sorting out my thinking.. and managed to clear my comic again.. hahax.. then went to buy bus concession and rotted in front of the computer for the whol afternoon..

guess i will be doing homework for the rest of the evening and night ba.. have to complete physics test, maths tutorials and chemistry organic assignment.. think i can finish all by tonight.. cauz will be putting my attention on studies le.. end here ba.. tata.. =)

guess nothing matters anymore.. i guess i dun need any form of sympathy or wat.. i dun need frends anymore.. ignore mi if u can.. heck care about mi.. i am someone with no significance.. so do ignore mi.. nothing matters anymore.. everything about friendship and things is fake.. and it doesn't last..

so much for trust between frends.. and so much for seeing thru someone.. but all these doesn't matter anymore.. world is cruel..