Monday, July 31, 2006

monday blues sia.. today very tired and very reluctant to go to skl in the morning.. dun wanna face all the stress from my studies.. every teacher are stressing the importance of revision and studying for us right now.. and i am very very stressed.. today had tutorials for all the subjects... wa sia.. a lot alot of things to be done..

had maths lecture in the morning but wasn't realli listening cauz i was trying to do my hypothesis testing tutorial.. apparently i could onli complete one part of the first qn and i was stuck.. then had chemistry tutorial in which i was day dreaming and thinking of my studies.. physics lecture was even worse.. anyhow attempted the mock paper.. physics tutorial was still ok.. cauz listened alot.. maths another goner.. flunked my stats test.. 9/50..

was helping out some of my j1 juniors with maths.. curve transformation.. i still can manage for that topic so can help them.. it was a good thing.. helped mi realised i could still understand stuffs.. budden too lazy le onli.. and there are much more that i have to cover and much much much more effort that i have to put in to study and master the concepts totally.. yeah.. so have to study.. after that went back with my frend and went gallivanting at bukit panjang plaza..

now back at home and i think i will end here ba.. have to go study liao le.. many homework to be cleared today and have to study for chemistry test and gp test on wednesday also.. hahax.. signing off.. tata..

P.S. 40 days till prelims and 93 days till A levels..

Sunday, July 30, 2006

i guess i will be mugging the whole day ba.. perhaps going to buy concession later onli.. got lots of homework to be completed today.. plus alot of revision also.. ya.. super sian.. i guess i will stop here..

a very quick and short post.. no time to lose to study liao le.. thinking of stopping blogging for a while.. so that can concentrate on my studies more.. guess will be blogging on the more significant stuffs that happen.. gtg tata!!!

P.S. 41 days to prelims and 94 days till A levels..

Saturday, July 29, 2006

today will be studying and studying for mi.. have to try to complete all my homework today.. then can leave tml for revision and revision for my maths and physics.. have to do chemistry de revision also.. apparently i have lots of stuffs that have to be done.. and prelims in onli in 5 weeks time.. so yeah.. no time to lose liao le..

budden one thing is that my chemistry remedial will be changed to saturday.. budden realli reluctant to go to skl on saturday.. means have to sacrifice my one hour of tv that i will definitely watch and i love to watch because of that.. sian.. cauz thats the onli time i can relax i guess.. and the more important reason is that i have many plans in mind for saturday and i am worried that it will affect my studies schedule on saturday.. cauz the travelling will cauz mi lots of precious time for studies.. sadded.. dunno leh.. i think i better have a tok with miss goh ba.. see wat i can do..

suddenly had some thoughts yesterday night while chatting with xun kai.. and shared with him.. this was wat my ogl told mi and also wat my teacher had told mi before.. and i find it super true.. its alwaes difficult trying to do the right things and there will definitely be the price to pay for doing the right things sometimes.. some may argue budden this is an undeniable fact.. been thru a lot and i realli start to understand and appreciate this fact liao le.. and it is definitely inevitable in life..

but one thing my ogl taught mi is that we should do things we deem right and so we wun have regrets in the future.. yeah.. thats very true.. i agree that there may be consequences to pay, budden at least we wun have regrets in the future.. however while chatting last night, xun kai told mi that ppl dunno wat is right and wat is wrong.. and i agree this happens sometimes.. but wat i truly believe in is that i am who i am.. ppl may have different perceptions bout who we are, budden we should nv change ourselves and our personality juz to suit other.. wat is right and wat is wrong is up to us to decide.. we make a choice and adhere it to wat our values and principles lie.. onli then we wun have regrets in the future..

and i also believe that if there is a problem or tangled knot, ppl should reflect and think about wat can be done to resolve the problem.. and carry the little hope that things will turn out fine no matter how tricky or problematic the situation is.. if the problem lies within ourselves, we should try to change.. not to put on a facade or hide away from a problem.. but to change the way we do things and carry ourselves forward to others to solve the problems.. thats wat i truly believe in.. escapism and hiding from a problem will nv help..

i do have many regrets in my life and regretted that i had not done the right things or in fact done something wrong.. budden important point is that we appreciate the lessons learnt and prevent these problems from happening again.. i am looking forward to the future and not looking back at the past.. wat done can nv be undone.. there are many problems that i face now budden i am glad to say that i have tried my best to solve my problems.. however if i can not get anything out of it, so be it.. cauz wat is past have passed.. so have to be optimistic and look forward to the future and prevent the same problems from happening again..

hahax.. juz some random thoughts that i have.. to xun kai, if u see this post, dun gave up hope.. u will nv noe wat u can get if u nv try.. hahax.. u r a much stronger person then mi and i am sure u are more capable than mi to solve any problems u have no matter how tricky they are.. yeah.. stay optimistic alrights? jia you..

i guess i will stop here ba.. have to go study hard liao le.. to finish all my assignments and all my homework.. gtg.. tata!!!

P.S. 42 days to prelims and 95 days till A levels!!!
had very mundane skl life today.. chemistry lecture, gp then physics tutorial.. now working hard and trying very hard to survive alone.. to try to improve on my studies.. have to depend on myself.. and to strive for good results alone.. had chemistry revision test but dun realli noe how to do.. somehow gave up..

day started onli after skl.. went to westmall to meet joel.. he reached ard 2.45pm.. and we wanted to watch the pirates of the carribean: dead man's chest.. hahax.. we bought the tickets for 6pm and decided to eat sakae sushi.. took the sushi buffet.. and joel also took the buffet even though he felt like eating ala carte.. thanks so much bro!!! had lots of salmon sushi and ordered a few unique ones there.. hahax.. ate from 3 pm to 5 plus.. hahax.. and i think i ate quite alot.. wahahax.. the sofa there was also very comfortable.. hahax.. had the bill and then went to library for a while before the movie starts..

yeah.. our bill.. hahax.. a bit ex.. budden i think its still ok since i dun get to eat everyday.. wahahax..


























went into the cinema for the show and actually wanted to sit at the sofa there de.. cauz apparently there were no one there at all.. budden the auntie kept coming in to check and said that it cost 32 bucks each to sit there.. hahax.. budden at least we sat for ard 30 to 40 minutes liao.. wahahax.. the show was pretty good.. and johnny depp's acting skills was great.. especially the part where he was haunted by cannibals.. wahahax.. super funny.. the show went on for 2 and a half hours.. the story ended with the captain from pirates 1 who was supposedly dead.. hahax.. and realli looking forward to the 3rd movie.. yeah..

hahax.. finally watched the movie liao le after so long.. hahax.. damn nice..



























then took 187 with joel to play badminton at senja.. had a hard time waiting for the bus and missed the 176 which could have saved us much much more time.. yeah.. budden nvm i guess.. at least i still get to play 2 matches before i go.. then had a long talk with xun kai and shared with him some thoughts and feelings.. yeah.. think he is quite troubled.. hope everything will be fine.. now rotting in front of the computer.. yeah..

realli had quite a fun day.. had fun with the ppl i enjoyed being with and was relieved from my study stress.. yeah.. especially thanks to joel for the day man.. enjoyed myself very much.. realli numbed mi from the stress and troubles from studies.. budden i guess have to get back to mugging tml liao le.. have to study realli hard and make a lot of effort to study for my subjects especially physics.. gtg.. tata!!! =)

P.S. 97 days till A levels..

Thursday, July 27, 2006

i am so tired.. so tired.. tired of studies and tired of life liao.. life has been realli realli mundane and rountine.. morning till evening go skl study and study.. come home study and study.. eat then sleep.. the second day go skl study and study and the whole rountine juz repeats itself.. its such a vicious cycle.. and i hate it.. can't seem to concentrate and get down to studies..

today totally flunked my maths test and the most i can get is 6 over 50.. idiot.. so much for not practising enough.. i am sure some ppl will think i deserve it.. yeah.. and i guess its time to start practising daily and study daily for my maths and other subjects liao le..

totally in no mood for chemistry and gp and was slacking all the while.. din pay any attention.. i am realli tired liao le.. very drained.. mentally and physically drained liao le.. guess that is why i slept more than 9 hours last night and nothing could get mi awake..

i guess there is too much distractions to keep mi studying liao le.. too many in skl.. and also in class.. i juz wanna study liao le.. and all these distractions are keeping mi away from my studies.. i feel very sad and very bad.. i dunno wat i have done.. i tried my best not to bother others liao le.. and keeping my mouth shut all the time.. budden sometimes can juz hear some remarks that realli made mi feel bad.. i dunno wat i have done wrong.. and the saddest thing is that i can't change anything now.. i am very miserable..

all i need is a space to study now.. i guess i need peace within mi to start motivating mi for studies.. i cannot afford to have any other distractions liao le.. if not i will die.. die die die die die.. yeah.. onli 5 weeks to prelims liao le.. cannot afford to lose any time for my studies liao le..

went back with my frends today and the chatting and joking somehow cheered mi up today.. and thinking of orientation and 1st three months also somehow made mi feel better.. tml going watch movie with joel and think will be going sakae sushi also.. yeah.. hopefully that can numb mi for a moment and enjoy myself ba..

i guess i will stop here ba.. gtg study for chemistry revision test for tml liao le.. and to everyone reading this entry, dis is the onli way i can relieve myself of my stress and worries and i am not trying to bring any problems or unhappiness to others.. plz understand.. thanks.. signing off.. tata!!! =)

P.S. 98 days till A levels..

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

i am stressed.. super stressed.. finally decided to admit liao le.. stress is good budden overly stressed is deterimental to work and studies.. i feel like i am a goner liao.. especially when yee loong told mi i was beyond hope this morning.. yeah.. i felt the same way he did.. i am a goner.. gone gone gone..

totally din pay attention in all lessons today.. din even listen to chemistry lecture and tutorial.. sian.. all i thought was that wat am i doing now and wat i should do so that i can do well.. onli paid attention in the physics of fluids lecture.. and that gave mi a little hope cauz i can understand wat mr kwok was lecturing about.. yeah..

during chemistry lecture suddenly thought of 1st three months thingy when mr chua joked about we should sit with more grace.. it is indeed this which gave him the nickname "grace" by my og frend nat.. hahax.. then msg her and told her about this which we had a good laugh out of it.. hehex..

i guess i will stop here ba.. have to go study hard liao le.. cauz tml got maths test on normal and continuous.. yeah.. i noe nothing as yet.. so have to study more and practise more so can pass or maybe do well for it.. yeah.. signing off.. tata..

P.S. 99 days till A levels..

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

erm.. i dunno why i am updating right now.. said that i din want to use com le.. budden the urge of using the computer juz arises and here i am updating.. sian.. i din do anything yet sia.. din study, din revise, din do homework.. bottomline is i am slacking my ass off and i am realli wasting my precious time to study.. wat to do???

sian.. my senior adviced me to study intensively for the A levels from now onwards.. budden how do i build the momentum and the motivation to study??? i lack the double M.. sian.. dunno how sia.. today was practically a waste of time.. had onli gp lessons and physics lecture.. din have anything else.. except civics which was more useful regarding the courses available in NTU.. now i am even worried if i can get into U anot mah.. sian.. my results sux big time..

went to lot 1 after skl today with my frend cauz he was looking for voodoo dolls and i was thinking to get one too.. for luck in studies de.. apparently i din buy.. first, too ex.. next, can't find a good and nice one.. last because today was the start of the 7th month of lunar calender.. parents are supertitious and they wun like it.. actually i also.. wahahax..

flying off to go watch some tv then mug for the night liao le.. gtg le.. tata..
P.S. 100 days exactly to A levels..

Monday, July 24, 2006

today is the start of my hectic lifestyle.. have to make myself motivated and start studying hard liao le.. had so much remedials today.. and the stress level is shooting up high into the sky.. and i think i am exploding soon liao le.. i am damn damn scared liao le.. wat if i dun make it.. during maths lecture i was thinking of dropping out of skl liao le.. so worried liao le la..

i guess my level of motivation is still not there yet.. i have to push myself hard on my back liao le.. have to cheong and start hardcore daily revision.. this week got lots of things in my planner.. gotta finish lots and lots of topics for all my subjects.. so have to work hard..

i will end here ba.. no time to lose liao le.. going off to cheong homework liao le.. gtg.. tata..
P.S. 101 days left to A levels..

Sunday, July 23, 2006

dunno why i woke up so early today.. i am so tired.. cauz yesterday got too much workout liao le.. wa sia.. i should have stayed in bed longer usually.. budden now i am wide awake.. hahax.. had my breakfast already also.. wahahax..

i guess i will update wat i will do for today ba.. guess i will be watching tv the whole morning and then start to do all my homework liao le.. got lots of homework to be completed today.. and lots of revision to be done today.. have to study chemistry and also my maths.. have to study for the test coming on thursday.. yeah.. apparently i noe nothing about statistics right now.. so i think i have to work realli realli hard to study everything..

i think thats all i will be doing today.. and i think i will not be updating daily liao le.. perhaps once or twice in a week liao le.. dun wan to keep using the computer.. i will die de.. yeah.. onli will be updating about significant things in the week.. yeah.. gotta start afresh this new week..

i guess i will stop here ba.. watching tv already.. hahax.. cya.. tata!!! take care my frends!!! =) P.S. 102 days till A levels..

Saturday, July 22, 2006

it was such a great day.. and i realli mean GREAT.. so fun and so good.. woke up realli early today to go skl play basketball with my senior zi cheng.. had aches when i woke up from bed.. and so worried can't play liao le.. sian.. budden the pain ceased and i went to jj at arrived at 9.20..

zi cheng came late ard 10 liddat.. hahax.. then he started jogging and sprinting.. wa sia.. damn crazy la.. he has been running and jogging in camp for the past week and he is still training and running today whn he can finally book out.. wa.. a bit weird.. wahahax.. then played basketball for the whole morning and afternoon.. played with 2 j1s also.. one got serious attitude problem de.. but the other very nice.. wat a contrast.. hahax..

also brought zi cheng ard the PD block we also walked ard the skl.. very fun.. long time no see him liao le.. hahax.. he becoming fitter and fitter.. his frends also came to play basketball.. everyone of them are nice and interesting ppl also.. hahax.. joked with them and we played bball the whole day long..

also plucked rambutans from the tree at the bball court there.. plucked alot alot.. hahax.. super sweet de.. after that played a bit of bball again then went for a shower.. zi cheng and his frends wanted to meet their teacher so i went off earlier.. let them have some time to catch up and enjoy the times together.. i abit extra there also.. hahax..

so went to jp to buy some food and rotted there a while.. got a new bottle of gel also.. i was at old chang kee when i saw a super familiar figure and realise it was yun feng.. so coincidental la.. meet him for the second time this week liao le.. went to get his toy soldier he need for ns and we went back home together on 180.. had a great chat with him.. shared with him many many of the problems that i have and also got to noe more about his ns life.. yeah.. we shared our problems and i am realli glad that i met him and can catch up with him today.. he has been a great help to mi listening and giving mi advice on the way back home.. realli appreciated it alot.. hopefully next time still got chances to meet up and tok and chat again.. and hoepfully can organise another bbq or chalet for my og..

i guess wat mr chua said yesterday was right.. hahax.. whenever NS men books out, they can chat about NS stuffs the whole day and nv get bored about it.. hahax.. so interesting la.. i think i will be the same soon also.. hahax.. budden now got to study hard and get excellent results for my prelims liao.. i have to.. for results sake and for something important.. i will do my very best to excel.. cauz received a rather unexpected call today.. so no matter wat i think i have to cheong and study hard for my prelims and ultimately for my As.. yeah.. i guess i will stop here ba.. a realli realli lengthy post.. wahahax.. gtg now.. tata!!! =)

P.S. 103 days till A levels..

Friday, July 21, 2006

today is finally friday!!! weekends finally had a very tiring and hard week and it has drained mi of all my energy liao.. have been studying and having consultations, remedials and make up lessons the whole week.. can die sia.. budden lucky got weekends to relax a bit.. budden still got a mountain of homework and revision to be completed the whole weekend.. sian..

had chemistry in the morning.. quite interesting.. apparently mr chua has been making us freeze in LT5 with his lame remarks and jokes.. but its still good la.. at least it makes the lesson interesting.. then had gp and physics tutorial.. also had yoga..

during one of the breaks, was sitting and chatting with hao chun and bin hao.. hao chun was saying about the time left for us to study liao.. and getting realli realli scared liao le.. 8 weeks to prelims.. hao chun said that have to do well for prelims cauz it matters when i go ns earlier.. sian diao liao.. very scared.. wat if i dun do well? haiz.. budden getting scared is also good.. motivates mi to work hard.. yeah.. so cheong cheong cheong liao le.. but then some things pisses mi off in skl also.. damn.. idiotic morons.. why can't ppl give others some space to breathe?

went home after screwing up my chemistry revision test.. went loitering ard lot 1 looking at comics.. now rotting at home.. realli tired.. mentally.. no strength to study liao le.. guess have to take some time off ba.. going badminton tonight.. hahax.. cauz my shoulder and elbow better le.. budden still have to be careful while playing so wun sprain again..

tml morning going play basketball in skl with zi cheng and his frends.. hopefully can call back some of our og ppl also.. yeah.. cauz i think it has been a long long time since we all met liao le.. looking forward to tml.. hahax.. yeah.. i guess i will stop here ba.. gtg liao le.. tata.. =)

P.S. 104 days left till A levels..

Thursday, July 20, 2006

today is super tiring.. super tiring.. dunno why.. totally drained.. had hours and hours of lessons.. and onli 1 hr of break for the whole day.. kept sleeping in lessons.. jia liat.. had physics in the morning and i wasn't concentrating at all.. then supposed to have break.. budden mr mak used it to give us consultation.. nvm.. hahax.. though nv bring anything budden at least had some constructive discussion.. also toked cock with mr mak while having breakfast.. hahax..

maths lecture was the worse.. i haven't done the revision ws.. so din listen.. tried to do transition metals budden totally no energy and totally cannot concentrate.. in the end slept in the lecture.. woke up onli when i nearly broke my neck.. hahax.. then had chemistry tutorial and gp tutorial in which i was doing the essay and listening to music.. after that finally had chemistry remedial and can go home liao..

went back with wei qi and xun kai.. waited for wei qi cauz he had an operation lately and think its better to accompany him home.. hahax.. took 187 home.. chit chat tok cock on the bus.. wahahax.. thinking of meeting my pal joel tml.. pass him back the vcd for pirates.. before we catch the movie on saturday..yeah.. maybe msging him later to meet him tml.. hahax..

i think yesterday heard JJ lin's song 会有那么一天.. super super nice and touching.. budden make mi wanna cry.. made mi think of ppl i miss so much so much.. haiz.. budden they are no longer ard mi already.. so saddening.. but the lyrics of the song is realli well written.. haiz.. so touching..

i guess i will end here ba.. studying liao le.. have to finish nuclear physics tutorial and prepare for tml's electrochem test.. yeah.. gtg tata!!!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

today was a good day.. fun day i should say.. had lots of fun.. though skl was still as mundane and tiring, budden still managed to survive thru the day and made it till after skl.. wahahax.. had chemistry pract and chemistry lecture in the morning followed by maths and yoga in the afternoon..

after skl, met bin hao cauz supposed to meet our ogl valerie in skl cauz she is coming back to get her A level cert.. budden bin hao decided to meet her at the bball court cauz valerie also wanted to play.. played one match then was chased out of the court cauz of interhouse games.. soon valerie arrived so yee loong and i accompanied her to get her cert.. then played basketball outside skl at the basketball court at the HDB there.. yeah.. quite fun.. played with bin hao's frend terence and my cldds juniors.. hahax..

it was ard 5 plus when we finished bball.. then valerie wanted to go for dinner.. then the ps king started to ps again.. bin hao pang sei us saying he wanted to go home study.. he is the organiser budden he pang sei us.. haiz.. so we let him go.. sianz.. hahax.. then yee loong, valerie and i went back to skl cauz we wanted to wash up and change.. rotted in skl for a while cauz our dear ogl saw ppl here and there and started chatting.. hahax.. i guess its normal ba.. cauz it has been long since she has been back to jj..

after which we went jp for dinner.. went to this jap restaurant for dinner.. the food was alright.. pretty ok.. ordered a chicken katsu don.. while yee loong order tempura de thingy.. hahax.. valerie treated us to sashimi and she ordered handroll and some green noodles.. hahax.. so nice of her treating us to sashimi.. hahax..

after dinner went walking and loitering ard jp.. went to sportlink, converse shop, royal sporting house and world of sports cauz valerie was looking ard at the sports apparel.. also went to 37 degree cauz she also wanted to look for pencil case i think.. after which i saw yun feng at comics connection and told him that the others were ard.. ok.. he looks fit.. hahax.. chatted and joked for a while and yun feng went off.. after which yee loong and i went mac to wait for valerie as she was looking ard in esprit.. toked for a while then go home liao le.. and my wallet was harassed then.. hahax.. i was "bullied" cauz valerie made mi carry her bag for her.. no la.. hahax.. joking..

after that took the train back home.. hahax.. realli happy today.. cauz long time no see my ogl liao le.. this is the third time i seen her this yr.. chatted alot and joked alot.. hahax.. especially bout the honey water thingy.. cauz apparently during orientation she always made honey water for us.. hahax.. today din study anything but i guess is worth it cauz spent time with my beloved ogl.. hahax.. thanks my dearest ogl!!! budden a disappointment today is that there are too little ppl liao le.. hopefully next time can organise something and more ppl can come.. and i think it may be after As liao le.. then i may be in NS liao.. haiz.. hahax.. but i will try..

i guess i will stop here ba.. hahax.. consequence of extreme fun means uncompleted homework.. gtg cheong homework liao le.. tata.. =)

P.S. 106 days left to A levels..

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

today was a waste of time going to skl.. onli had physics lecture.. apparently our gp teacher was sick and din even inform our gp rep.. so wasted the whole 2 hrs in the morning.. supposed to have physics consultation budden mr mak is down with a bad cold.. hope he get well soon.. and today dun have civics also.. so went to skl for 1 hr of lessons.. damn sian la..

after skl went to PD block to do homework.. can't concentrate at all.. onli managed to complete 2 paragraphs of essay for gp.. damn sian.. the study environment is good.. quiet and nice.. budden i guess i juz can't stand the silence.. think all i could hear sometimes is the sound of the air con.. budden some ppl came not to do homework i guess.. giggling and joking all the while.. haiz.. cannot blame la.. cauz i think i do it too..

budden i still think the environment is good for studying.. juz that i have problems concentrating.. something that i have to change and remind myself to work hard.. then met my frend and went play badminton for a while.. then took 180 and went home together..

i guess i will be studying more often in skl liao.. can study better than at home i guess.. no temptations no nothing.. ya.. can help mi concentrate.. budden guess still have to correct my problem of lack of concentration.. haiz.. i guess i will end here ba.. gtg do chemistry homework, gp essay and maths tutorial.. have to try to finish tonight.. yeah.. tata..

P.S. 107 days to A levels..

Monday, July 17, 2006

today was the start of a new week.. a totally draining and tiring week i would say.. cauz got lots and lots of things lined up this week.. got chemistry remedial and physics consultation all those.. today had maths lecture in the morning.. wasn't listening and half of the time i am sleeping.. cauz haven start studying statistics.. so totally can't understand wat the lecturer was saying.. then had chemistry tutorial which was much better..

physics today was the start of chaos.. i couldn't concentrate at all.. physics tutorial, i din have the june camp worksheet cauz apparently i can't open and unzip the files.. so was totally lost and i din manage to try the qns.. haiz.. then was physics lecture which i can't understand wat the lecturer is toking about.. supposed to have physics consultation de.. budden din have that much qns and someone was not ard in the group.. so mr mak decided to change to tml.. then was maths..

after which had chemistry remedial.. everyone in my group is taking chinese A and so they had oral today.. so it become a one to one remedial for mi today.. and i realised i got lots and lots of problems for galvanic cell and electrolysis even though i seem to understand everything.. i guess this remedial realli helps in catching up and understanding my work.. ya.. then went home with my frend on 180..

i think have to stop here liao le.. gotta cheong physics.. so tml can ask mr mak qns.. and also have to do gp essay.. sian sian sian.. haiz.. going off to mug liao.. tata..

Sunday, July 16, 2006

did nothing again.. slacking for the whole day.. watched tv in the morning and watching videos on youtube in the afternoon.. slacking till now.. budden gtg soon to start doing my homework.. tml got consultation and remedial with mr mak and miss goh respectively.. so have to do homework.. and do revision..

not going to do maths homework i guess.. cheong when all tutorials and assignments are being gone thru and start my very own revision.. work on my own.. ya.. night studying in skl may be able to help mi.. perhaps it can realli help mi foucs more and study better.. also can ask teachers there for help.. perhaps seeking help from my last yr's maths teacher cauz she was a great and dedicated teacher whom i respect..

yesterday night posted something.. causing some discomfort to some ppl who have read it.. i am sorry.. budden its onli the place where i can express myself.. Choice is something one should make.. and whether anot the choice u make will affect u is something one has to decide.. i realli dun wan to affect others and in my opinion i did not give problems to others since the term started and i din interfere in anything others did.. plz gimme some space to express this little bit of sadness in mi.. and it realli will help mi feel better and can focus and concentrate more on my studies.. ya.. thanks so much..

to everyone who visit my blog, thanks for ur opinions and critisims about mi.. and most importantly some encouragement that u ppl give mi.. it realli helps.. if in any case it disturbs u, plz click on the cross at the top right hand corner.. cauz i realli dun wanna affect u.. then again everything comes back to the word "choice".. we cannot choose where and when we are budden we can decide whether to be happy or not.. one of my frend told mi.. and it helped mi alot.. ya.. choice is so important in life..

i guess i will end here ba.. gtg liao le.. mugging in progress.. tata.. =)
dunno why.. now late in the night liao.. having the urge to blog about this issue.. have been hiding too many things to myself lately liao le.. i am like a balloon rising into the sky and i feel that i will explode very soon liao le..

many things came crushing down since the june holidays.. lots of bad news and lots of things happening ard mi and its suffocating mi.. had commons at that period of time and was realli realli distracted away from my studies.. thats why i am in the state i am in right now.. i can't blame anyone cauz its my own problem and i can't seem to be able to untangle the knot that is in my heart..

have been fighting this losing battle since the new term have started.. no one to help mi and no one to assist mi in everything.. everyone drifted from mi and some refused to even converse with mi.. its like i am all alone in a totally dark and endless tunnel nv able to see the light again.. i am trapped and i am confused.. if i go on liddat and things holding mi back, i can nv be able to stand up on my feet and i will fail utterly in my exams at the end of the yr.. too many things that are affecting mi and holding mi back and it seems like acceptance is something that is so far away from my reach.. i think i will nv be able to get that.. ever..

i need to say everything out.. budden i can't.. there is nowhere i can express myself.. and no one to confide in.. it seems that this society is so scary and intimidating that trusting someone may become a wrong step in life eventually.. i dunno wat i can do.. but onli to suppress all these till everything is over at the end of the yr..

i guess i have to fight alone from now onwards and find the motivation to spur mi on.. at least i noe there is one that i will be working towards now.. that is to get excellent results and prove some ppl wrong.. and that i can do it too.. especially to those who look down on mi.. i will persevere till the very end.. yeah..

feel much better saying all these out.. at least a very small part of it.. also have to thank some of my frends and senior who had been listening to mi these while.. yeah.. appreciated it a lot.. i guess i will stop complaining here liao ba..

P.S. 109 days left till A levels..

Saturday, July 15, 2006

did nothing today.. woke up late in the morning.. practically slept for 11 hours.. cauz was too tired yesterday., woke up with bad body aches and pain.. i think my shoulder injury escalated liao le.. and i sprained my ankle yesterday.. damn.. getting more and more painful and unbearable.. sian.. haiz.. have to ask my dad tui na for mi later le..

did nothing much.. onli watched tv in the morning then watched pirates of the caribbean: the curse of the black pearl on the com.. loved the movie.. damn exciting.. catching the second movie.. the dead man's chest soon.. yeah.. hopefully it will be as good as the first one.. yeah..

i guess i will be studying and watch tv later.. have to complete my homework for next week so can finish everything on time and dun need to worry that i will owe homework.. also have to do revision for physics.. yeah.. i guess i will end here ba.. nothing much for the day liao.. tata.. =)

the movie i wanna watch.. yeah!!!

Friday, July 14, 2006

friday.. slacking day.. very tired this morning and din wanna get out of bed.. sian.. reluctantly crawled out of bed and went to skl.. had chemistry lecture in the morning followed by gp.. sian.. then had physics tutorial and make up yoga.. after which played soccer till 4 plus..

during gp, was listening to radio.. and heard on 933 that F.I.R de new album is coming out at end of july liao le.. yeah!!! so damn cool la.. i waited for like one yr liao le.. and was hoping that the new album will come out real soon.. finally!!! i am gonna buy that album when it comes out.. yeah.. F.I.R roxs..

today also went to join the badminton inter house tournament.. signed up for it today with jin hong.. we intend to join the doubles.. hahax.. dunno leh.. juz signed up onli.. dunno whether can get in mah also.. hopefully can ba.. cauz i think this will be the last event i will join in my jc life liao le.. hahax..

after soccer met my frend.. went boon lay market to eat something and chatted with him about many many things.. shared with him alot about how i feel bout my life these days.. can onli say i have been low since this yr started.. managed to say out some of my worries and problems and he offered mi quite alot of advice.. helped mi quite alot.. then we went home and i prepared to go play badminton.. yeah..

went for badminton in late evening.. played for a while and i decided to go home.. cauz my shoulder is simply aching too much liao le.. sian diao.. cannot even play well.. can't even swing my arm.. the joint is damn painful.. hopefully can recover this 2 days and it wun affect my performance at inter house if i can even get in.. hahax..

i guess thats all for today liao le.. damn tired and my shoulder is aching badly.. cannot concentrate liao le.. gtg.. tata.. =)

Thursday, July 13, 2006

today was a fully constructive and helpful day for mi.. i paid full attention and listened in lecture and tutorial THE WHOLE DAY!!! yeah.. thats such an achievement for mi.. cauz i have nv paid full attention ever before in my jc life.. woohoo.. the momentum and the motivation to start studying is on liao.. i am realli geared up to study le.. wahahax..

had physics tutorial in the morning.. could understand almost everything that mr mak said in tutorial.. and i could understand most of the qns that he gone thru.. woohoo.. had a break and mr mak ask some of us out to understand our problems we faced in physics and he wanted to help us improve in our results.. had a talk with him for ard half an hour and was realli grateful that he was willing to help us improve.. so grateful.. i will try my very best and work hard to do well.. like wat mr mak said.. we rather choose something we like in uni than let the course choose us.. yeah.. so have to work hard..

then had maths lecture.. in the first half an hour, din realli listen cauz was compiling the remedials and stuffs i have and write into my organiser.. realised the whole of august is booked liao.. for chemistry and physics consultation.. yeah.. will be very packed and have to do lots of revision and studies.. yeah.. actually got one maths remedial programme for those who scored badly.. i scored super lousy but wasn't chosen.. i guess i noe why liao.. haiz.. wanted to go for it.. cauz i think it will help.. budden nvm.. can onli rely on myself to do well liao.. no one to help mi de..

after maths had chemistry tutorial.. listened hard and understood the concepts much much better.. after which was gp tutorial and i first time nv concentrated and analysed a passage.. quite interesting though.. and its a good thing i put in effort.. cauz can present wat i did today tml.. no need find article and present liao le.. wahahax.. then had chemistry extra lesson and miss goh finished group 7 elements liao.. yeah..

after skl went home with xun kai and walked to lakeside to take 180.. chatted bout my sucky results.. budden realli happy he got fantastic results and topped his class.. realli happy.. cauz it will help him and he wun be struggling like mi this yr.. toked about some other stuffs and soon reached home liao..

now slacking in front of the computer.. hahax.. rest a while before i go study.. realise this new term has been quite good for mi.. studying hard and motivated to study.. less problems means less distraction.. good good.. can concentrate on studies.. hoping for at least A B B for the A level exams.. hahax.. have to set target high so can do well.. hehex..

i guess i will stop here ba.. gtg le.. slack a while more before studying.. tata.. to all my frends mug and study hard too!!!

P.S. 111 days left to A levels..

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

today very tired.. shoulder and elbow still aching badly.. many days liao le.. haiz.. can't even concentrate and study well in skl today.. had chemistry practical in the morning and it wasn't constructive at all.. din realli learn anything cauz couldn't pay attention.. then had chemistry lecture which induced my sleep bugs and i slept almost half of the lesson.. sian.. then had maths tutorial and class ponned yoga again..

today got back progress report.. yeah.. shocking results.. i id super ultra badly.. F O E.. something which is totally unacceptable at this point of time.. haiz.. since got it liao le.. no choice have to start studying for As and prelims liao.. i wanna score well.. for myself.. and for everyone who wants mi to do well.. especially my parents.. yeah.. so have to juz study hard and work hard ba..

while having break before maths tutorial, i was slacking with some of my classmates in a classroom.. suddenly one of them asked mi whether i wanted to solve the problem.. i guess i noe wat he is toking about.. he had good intentions i guessed.. budden i see that there is no problem and i am happy the way i am now.. ya.. there is onli like 3 months left.. studies is wat i want to achieve in onli.. nothing more.. wat i wanted to achieve i had already done.. nothing more.. wat i cannot solve, i will leave it to fate and destiny to decide.. yeah.. so study study study..

also had cldds in the afternoon.. had passing over ceremony for the j1s.. that means the j2s officially step down from cca liao le.. i feel this yr's committee will do fine.. batch of nice ppl and bunch of interesting dudes.. hahax.. hopefully everything will go well for them this yr and next yr.. though known them for like onli 6 months and some onli 2 to 3 months, i feel the j1s are great ppl to be with and i am sure they will do a better job than we did.. hahax..

i guess i gtg le.. have to cheong gp essay, chemistry hw and quantam physics tutorial.. yeah.. signing off here.. tata.. =)

P.S. 112 days left till A levels..

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

today is a super slack day.. but also a super sian day.. cauz had gp right in the morning.. and my class absentee list is overwhelming.. i guess most ppl decided not to waste their time today ba.. super duper sian.. analysed onli one pathetic qn in the whole 2 hrs.. conclusion, totally sian diao..

then had physics lecture and civics after which skl ended.. actually supposed to have gp remedial de.. budden most ppl including mi were unwilling to go for the remedial.. so we decided to pon.. yeah.. budden chen chen sent the teacher a msg first before everyone left.. so ya.. she had no choice but to cancel the remedial..

went to play soccer after skl today.. quite fun.. budden i realise i cannot play soccer de.. firstly, i sux at it.. secondly, my leg disallow mi from playing.. ankle is aching now.. and had a cramp at my left sole.. cannot believe it.. damn painful.. and i am alwaes prone to hurt my ankle.. thats why i was always unwilling to play soccer.. yeah.. budden soccer is still a very fun sport in my opinion.. budden badminton is still the best.. wahahax.. now whole body aching liao.. dunno whether can play badminton on friday mah.. haiz sian.. hopefully can recover soon..

went home with xun kai and chatted on the bus.. toking bout weird and funny stuffs.. hahax.. met him while i was going home.. realli such a coincidence.. 2 days consecutitively.. hahax.. but realli enjoy the times i spent on journey back home.. hahax..

slack and watched tv a while when i reached home and went to my aunt's home for dinner.. pig's stomach soup.. my favourite.. cauz today got bai bai.. yeah.. food is delicious.. hahax.. then went lot 1 to get my frend's birthday present.. bought a wind chime and a card.. then came back home watched tv and slacking right now.. wahahax..

i guess i gtg le.. do checmistry de basic revision exercise.. yeah.. also have to do wrapping up for my frend's present.. hahax.. sining off.. tata.. =)

Monday, July 10, 2006

din manage to blog yesterday.. cauz my sis din allow mi to use it.. cauz the bloody com was placed in her room and she wanted mi out of her room yesterday and quarrelled with mi.. in the end din get to use the com the whole of yesterday's night.. haiz.. she has the authority since she pays for the internet.. can't wait till there is a day when i can get a laptop of my own.. dun need to share com with her..

ok.. shall update wat happen today and yesterday together.. yesterday's morning watched world cup third and fourth placing match.. cool.. totally awesome.. 4 goals in all.. quite a great match.. watched tv the whole day and slept like a pig.. cauz too tired liao le.. also went aunt's home yesterday night..

this morning was much much cooler.. world cup finals!!! france versus italy.. super super cool match.. budden italy eventually triumphed over france in a penalty shootout.. cauz zidane got a red card for headbutting an italian player.. budden i guess he did it for some reason.. he might be provoked.. yeah.. cauz he was a cool headed and great player.. i still admire his spirit and capability to lead france to the finals.. and he truly deserve the golden ball award.. yeah.. budden still have to admit italy played very well too.. both teams are champions to mi.. hahax..

skl started at 10am today.. reached skl earlier cauz my dad drove mi to skl.. yeah.. then sit at the skl canteen and chatted with my frends bout the match.. hahax.. ironically, ppl ain't toking bout italy winning.. but bout zidane's headbutt.. wahahax.. soon lessons commence..

had maths lecture in the morning.. couldn't concentrate at all.. tired plus my injured shoulder an elbow..aching for the whole day.. damn bloody painful.. budden i did concentrate more during chemistry tutorial and makeup lesson and mr mak's tutorial.. it was a good thing.. and i completed my chemistry homework so miss goh din scold mi.. physics lecture and maths tutorial was the time when i totally lost concentration cauz my elbow is super painful.. wa sian.. now still aching like hell sia.. have to ask my dad help mi apply medicine liao le..

i guess that's all for today liao le.. have to finish basic revision exercise for chemistry and GP essay.. have to try hard to score well and start doing homework liao le.. also have to thank miss goh for photocopying the answer key for mi cauz i can't open the folder.. thanks so much miss goh.. i will stop here ba.. tata.. =)

Saturday, July 08, 2006

very boring day at home today.. woke up very late today.. cauz super tired after playing badminton last night.. yesh.. super tired.. woke up with body aches all over my arms.. especially my right shoulder and my right elbow.. aching like hell.. think play too intensively liao le.. thats why liddat.. sian.. got too many injuries from sports liao budden cannot resist the temptation of sports.. especially badminton..

watched tv in the morning and used com for a while.. then went for a haircut.. very very short.. the uncle there cut my hair till very short.. haiz.. a bit too short liao le.. budden nvm ba.. short haircut for hot weather.. cooling and good.. 4 months time will be even shorter.. wahahax..

then afternoon went out bai bai with my uncle at a HDB flat.. yeah.. cauz got special occasion.. the uncle also brought us to a thai buddhist temple at cck area.. ya.. then after which went home to watch tv and rotted in front of the computer afterwards..

maybe going out later again.. budden will be going to my aunt's home also.. hahax.. i guess thats all for today ba.. have to try complete some homework tonight so can cheong world cup tml.. yeah.. gtg le.. tata.. =)

Friday, July 07, 2006

today ended skl early.. had chemistry lecture in the morning.. falling asleep sia.. and always had the feeling that the lecturer is calling mi when he says someone is sleeping.. then had gp.. damn slack.. after which had physics and skl ended.. mr mak actually wanted to tok to mi.. budden din have time.. interrupted.. i guess should be about my sucky sucky results.. and i also wanted to tok to him about it.. i guess i will find a time to tok to him about it ba.. and soon i will be asking him for consultation liao le.. yeah..

today skl ended at 12.. rotted in skl a while after listening to miss goh's instructions bout remedials and such.. actually appreciated miss goh trying to arrange remedials for us and trying to help us improve our chemistry results.. yeah.. i guess i will try to put in my very best for her remedials and show results to her.. cauz i noe all our teachers have high expectations and want us to do well..

went dota with my frend in the afternoon.. quite fun.. he owned mi.. wahahax.. but nvm.. i will try harder next time.. budden i guess have to try and quit liao.. cauz mi and my frend both taking As soon.. have to start studying.. and we both wanna do well also.. yeah..

going for badminton liao le.. woohoo!!! yeah.. long awaited.. wahahax.. gtg liao le.. tata.. 117 days left to A level by the way.. wahahax.. reminder to myself.. wahahax..

Thursday, July 06, 2006

very tired today.. cauz watched soccer last night again.. france vs portugal.. france won.. hahax.. a bit disappointed though.. cauz i supported portugal more than france.. hahax.. budden i guess quite sian.. cauz brazil no in.. haiz.. sunday night is finals for world cup.. can't wait for it to start sia.. woohoo!!!

today got back physics results.. flunked once again.. overall 40 sia.. sian diao liao.. done so badly sian.. interesting also.. maths 30, physics 40 and chemistry 50.. wahahax.. increasing by ten sia.. budden realli disappointed with my results.. disappointed sia.. have to start studying hard daily liao le.. then had maths lecture which i slept in, chemistry tutorial and gp..

stayed in skl for quite a while to wait for xun kai.. in the meantime also wanted to try out studying in skl.. yeah.. budden i failed cauz i studied nothing.. cauz chatted with my ogl frend paterson.. also distracted him sia.. budden i guess its a good start ba.. i guess i will start studying in skl soon.. yeah.. have to cheong for studies liao..

while staying in skl, another ogl frend came over to mi and ask mi whether i am fine.. and whether i had motivation to start studying anot.. at first thoughts, i said no.. budden said yes again.. i guess i realli dun have the motivation.. budden have to build the motivation ba.. and start soon.. counted.. 118 days to A levels liao.. wa sia.. scary scary.. have to study and study..

after which went home with xun kai and walk to lakeside and take 180.. hahax.. chatted on the bus and toked about a lot of things.. also gave him some advice on pw.. hopefully it helps and everything will go smoothly for his group.. yeah.. really enjoy toking to him and sharing stuffs with him..

tml is friday.. and it means last day of the week.. can rest liao.. yippee!!! also mean can play badminton liao.. yosh!!! hahax.. awaiting for world cup finals in the weekends.. gtg rest le.. tata!!! =)

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

today was very tired in skl.. cauz watched world cup last night.. germany vs italy.. germany lost sia.. 2-0.. last 2 minutes of extra time and italy got in 2 goals.. damn sian diao.. cauz supported germany more.. budden i still support brazil the most la.. wahahax.. haiz.. nvm ba.. tonight portugal vs france.. this match i neutral.. dun realli support so much.. hahax..

had chemistry pract in the morning.. wasn't smooth and quite chaotic.. my frend and i repeated the experiment several times.. perhaps realli too long nv do titration liao le.. hahax.. forgotten everything liao le.. hahax.. then had chem lecture and maths tutorial.. both very sian..

actually supposed to have yoga after maths de.. budden as usual class ponned so i also ponned.. hahax.. very normal liao.. PE department gave up le.. normal la.. so went to library slack slack.. ya.. after which saw my frend xun kai at squash court so we walked ard the skl and chit chatted.. then saw our og frend cha hoe and decided to play a bit of squash.. hahax..

i played for a while and went for napfa retest.. useless.. failed again for pull up.. budden super sian.. cauz 1cm more i can get D for broad jump liao.. sian sian sian.. 1cm sia.. haiz.. nvm ba.. cauz have to go early NS anyway.. hahax.. after which i went play squash again with xun kai and his frend wei qi.. hahax.. had quite a lot of fun.. given that it was the very first time we all played squash.. and it is such a fun sport la.. and a very difficult sport to play.. yeah..

played for quite long and i actually wanted to go cldds take a look de.. budden they all released le.. and left the new j1 committee having meeting.. ya.. so went home with xun kai and wei qi.. on the way back on 187, saw my og frend jie bin on the bus.. realli long long time no see le.. cauz he in SA now.. crapped and joked a lot.. suaned each other.. budden still very happy that was able to meet him today.. hahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. today very naggy.. wahahax.. gtg sleep and rest liao le.. so tonight wun miss the exciting match between portugal and france.. hahax.. tata!!! =)

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

today is a very sian day.. did practically nothing in skl.. had gp and physics lecture onli.. and gp is the killer today.. had 1 hr of extra lesson.. though got quite alot of breaks today, budden still very very sian sia.. break also din manage to start doing some homework.. sian..

gp is realli very boring today.. had 2 hrs of gp right in the morning which killed the day.. budden one good thing about gp is that can slack.. wahahax.. and i managed to finish drawing something.. dunno wat i should call it.. budden looks like a border somehow.. took almost a week to finish.. hahax.. in the afternoon, the teacher successfully drove mi into deep sleep and onli woke up when it is time to go home.. hahax..

then went home with my frend and bought some comics at lot 1.. then went my aunt's home and then went home watch tv.. yeah.. i guess i will end here ba.. got lots of homework that needs to be done by tml.. maths and chemistry homework.. yeah.. gtg.. tata.. hehex.. ending with the weird weird thing i drew.. wahahax.. buaiz!!! =)

Monday, July 03, 2006

today is youth day.. budden i am wasting my youth.. wahahax.. din do anything today.. but onli slack and slack.. watched tv and use computer.. slack in my room the whole day and read the NS stuffs given to mi after the medical checkup.. hahax.. interesting stuffs.. got secrets to passing napfa all those de.. wahahax..

in the late afternoon, ask my junior to go out dota with mi.. hahax.. yeah.. hooked on to dota le.. budden got off the hook immediately liao.. wahahax.. quitting dota soon.. too lousy le.. plus studies is priority to mi now.. have to pia finish As.. no matter wat and no matter wat obstacle is in front of mi.. was toking to my junior telling him have to work hard and start studying when he is j1.. budden i myself is not working hard.. sinful.. bad.. punishable.. wahahax.. so high time to start working hard liao..

was toking to my frends last night and today.. we were saying time realli flies to quicky.. this is so true.. it was like yesterday when we were j1s.. playing and enjoying our skl days.. now j2 liao le.. play time is over.. happy times are over.. time realli flies in a JC.. i thought that i realli gained alot throughout jc.. knew more ppl.. found some confidants.. somehow grew up and understood many many things.. also learnt how to face life bravely and meet obstacles courageously.. in the meantime, lost a lot too.. lost frends.. lost part of mi.. haiz.. i dunno la.. perhaps thats the price to pay for growing up.. and the sacrifice i have to make to become more mature..

i guess no point thinking thru all these now.. like my frend said.. cauz have no time to think liao le.. time to work hard and strive for excellence in As.. still got 4 months left.. have to be positive.. have to cheong hard and study hard.. this will be a constant reminder i have to give myself from now onwards.. and work hard and give my all from tml onwards.. yeah.. starting the day afresh tml..

was toking to my dad about my blue black on my hand.. cauz of blood test.. my dad said the officier was inexperienced and no good.. heard that he was a medic in the past and he was an expert at drawing blood.. hahax.. interesting.. realli happy to be able to noe my parents better liao le.. hahax.. anyways my blue black is realli getting worse.. wahahax.. i guess i will end here ba.. quite late le and quite sleepy liao.. hahax.. gtg.. tata.. =)

Sunday, July 02, 2006

today still din do homework.. feeling sinful now.. said that i wanted to start working hard liao le.. budden din accomplish the thing i said.. i dunno leh.. seems like the holiday mood is still lingering ard mi and realli dun wanna study liddat.. dunno how long then can adjust back.. sian la.. hopefully as soon as possible.. have to catch up on my work especially for maths and physics.. dun catch up jia liat liao le..

watched tv the whole day and watched video on you-tube also.. technology is such a great temptation to human beings.. being human, we should have the ability to choose whether we want to use the technology anot.. budden as we are humans, we will have the basic instinct and the temptation to wanna use the technology.. in my case, thats to use the computer and watching tv.. something i have to change asap.. and try to resist the temptation..

was watching the news in the evening.. saw one news that made mi feel particularly bad.. there is this 75 yrs old lady in taiwan who is still trying to study hard and get into a uni in taiwan.. 75 yrs old.. i am like onli 17.. and i am wasting my time and not trying to work hard.. realli have to look up to the spirit of the old lady and learn to start cherishing my time and work hard towards my same goal which is to get into a local uni.. yeah..

today quite sian.. cauz early in the morning heard that brazil was out of world cup liao.. haiz.. budden i guess nvm ba.. soon can watch the semi finals and finals on the tv liao.. yipee!!! can't wait for semi to start.. italy vs germany and france vs portugal.. so close fight sia.. dunno who will win.. budden i am more in favour of germany and portugal.. hahax.. dunno la.. hopefully one of them can win.. hahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. quite tired le.. and many things is troubling mi right now.. craving for badminton also.. vent out the stress and worries.. haiz.. but i guess i can't find ppl to play de.. no one wanna play with mi i guess.. have to wait quietly till friday ba.. gtg.. tata..

Saturday, July 01, 2006

today did practically nothing.. din study din do homework.. woke up early today.. watched anime on my com.. then watched tv for an hour and watched hard gay video on you tube.. hard gay is a jap comedian who go ard "terrorising" ppl with his so called "hip talk" an famous "wooo".. wahahax.. damn funny la.. had a good laugh in the afternoon.. wahahax..

read a bit of comic and then rested on my bed.. realised that i slept for the whole afternoon till evening.. wahahax.. now feeling super energetic.. nothing to do also.. hahax.. i guess tml have to try complete my homework so that monday can rest or maybe go out.. budden now something troubling also.. haiz.. getting worried.. haiz..

listening to world cup commentary now.. hopefully brazil can win the later match.. hopefully they can beat france.. yeah.. soon can watch on tv liao le.. the semi finals.. yipee!!! wahahax.. i guess i will end here ba.. yeah.. tata..