today is a very sian day.. did practically nothing in skl.. had gp and physics lecture onli.. and gp is the killer today.. had 1 hr of extra lesson.. though got quite alot of breaks today, budden still very very sian sia.. break also din manage to start doing some homework.. sian..

gp is realli very boring today.. had 2 hrs of gp right in the morning which killed the day.. budden one good thing about gp is that can slack.. wahahax.. and i managed to finish drawing something.. dunno wat i should call it.. budden looks like a border somehow.. took almost a week to finish.. hahax.. in the afternoon, the teacher successfully drove mi into deep sleep and onli woke up when it is time to go home.. hahax..

then went home with my frend and bought some comics at lot 1.. then went my aunt's home and then went home watch tv.. yeah.. i guess i will end here ba.. got lots of homework that needs to be done by tml.. maths and chemistry homework.. yeah.. gtg.. tata.. hehex.. ending with the weird weird thing i drew.. wahahax.. buaiz!!! =)

today is youth day.. budden i am wasting my youth.. wahahax.. din do anything today.. but onli slack and slack.. watched tv and use computer.. slack in my room the whole day and read the NS stuffs given to mi after the medical checkup.. hahax.. interesting stuffs.. got secrets to passing napfa all those de.. wahahax..

in the late afternoon, ask my junior to go out dota with mi.. hahax.. yeah.. hooked on to dota le.. budden got off the hook immediately liao.. wahahax.. quitting dota soon.. too lousy le.. plus studies is priority to mi now.. have to pia finish As.. no matter wat and no matter wat obstacle is in front of mi.. was toking to my junior telling him have to work hard and start studying when he is j1.. budden i myself is not working hard.. sinful.. bad.. punishable.. wahahax.. so high time to start working hard liao..

was toking to my frends last night and today.. we were saying time realli flies to quicky.. this is so true.. it was like yesterday when we were j1s.. playing and enjoying our skl days.. now j2 liao le.. play time is over.. happy times are over.. time realli flies in a JC.. i thought that i realli gained alot throughout jc.. knew more ppl.. found some confidants.. somehow grew up and understood many many things.. also learnt how to face life bravely and meet obstacles courageously.. in the meantime, lost a lot too.. lost frends.. lost part of mi.. haiz.. i dunno la.. perhaps thats the price to pay for growing up.. and the sacrifice i have to make to become more mature..

i guess no point thinking thru all these now.. like my frend said.. cauz have no time to think liao le.. time to work hard and strive for excellence in As.. still got 4 months left.. have to be positive.. have to cheong hard and study hard.. this will be a constant reminder i have to give myself from now onwards.. and work hard and give my all from tml onwards.. yeah.. starting the day afresh tml..

was toking to my dad about my blue black on my hand.. cauz of blood test.. my dad said the officier was inexperienced and no good.. heard that he was a medic in the past and he was an expert at drawing blood.. hahax.. interesting.. realli happy to be able to noe my parents better liao le.. hahax.. anyways my blue black is realli getting worse.. wahahax.. i guess i will end here ba.. quite late le and quite sleepy liao.. hahax.. gtg.. tata.. =)

today still din do homework.. feeling sinful now.. said that i wanted to start working hard liao le.. budden din accomplish the thing i said.. i dunno leh.. seems like the holiday mood is still lingering ard mi and realli dun wanna study liddat.. dunno how long then can adjust back.. sian la.. hopefully as soon as possible.. have to catch up on my work especially for maths and physics.. dun catch up jia liat liao le..

watched tv the whole day and watched video on you-tube also.. technology is such a great temptation to human beings.. being human, we should have the ability to choose whether we want to use the technology anot.. budden as we are humans, we will have the basic instinct and the temptation to wanna use the technology.. in my case, thats to use the computer and watching tv.. something i have to change asap.. and try to resist the temptation..

was watching the news in the evening.. saw one news that made mi feel particularly bad.. there is this 75 yrs old lady in taiwan who is still trying to study hard and get into a uni in taiwan.. 75 yrs old.. i am like onli 17.. and i am wasting my time and not trying to work hard.. realli have to look up to the spirit of the old lady and learn to start cherishing my time and work hard towards my same goal which is to get into a local uni.. yeah..

today quite sian.. cauz early in the morning heard that brazil was out of world cup liao.. haiz.. budden i guess nvm ba.. soon can watch the semi finals and finals on the tv liao.. yipee!!! can't wait for semi to start.. italy vs germany and france vs portugal.. so close fight sia.. dunno who will win.. budden i am more in favour of germany and portugal.. hahax.. dunno la.. hopefully one of them can win.. hahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. quite tired le.. and many things is troubling mi right now.. craving for badminton also.. vent out the stress and worries.. haiz.. but i guess i can't find ppl to play de.. no one wanna play with mi i guess.. have to wait quietly till friday ba.. gtg.. tata..

today did practically nothing.. din study din do homework.. woke up early today.. watched anime on my com.. then watched tv for an hour and watched hard gay video on you tube.. hard gay is a jap comedian who go ard "terrorising" ppl with his so called "hip talk" an famous "wooo".. wahahax.. damn funny la.. had a good laugh in the afternoon.. wahahax..

read a bit of comic and then rested on my bed.. realised that i slept for the whole afternoon till evening.. wahahax.. now feeling super energetic.. nothing to do also.. hahax.. i guess tml have to try complete my homework so that monday can rest or maybe go out.. budden now something troubling also.. haiz.. getting worried.. haiz..

listening to world cup commentary now.. hopefully brazil can win the later match.. hopefully they can beat france.. yeah.. soon can watch on tv liao le.. the semi finals.. yipee!!! wahahax.. i guess i will end here ba.. yeah.. tata..

din go to skl today.. cauz went for NS medical checkup.. woke up quite early in the morning to travel to CMPB for the checkup up.. agreed to meet bin hao at lot 1 control station at 7.30am to go together.. took train to redhill then changed to bus to CMPB.. had some soya bean milk before going for the checkup cauz was a little hungry.. after which we took 145 and arrived at our destination..

reached there rather late.. had some intimidating checks before going into CMPB.. checked our bags and stuffs.. reached the registeration counter and went for photo taking first.. wore NS uniform and took our photos.. quite weird de.. hahax.. first time ever in military uniform.. then went for full body checkup..

first had blood test.. one of the test i was most afraid of.. waited for a long long time before i and hao had our blood tested.. before that was something very interesting.. had urine test.. the poor army officier there had to repeat the same instruction over and over again.. that was "take a bottle take a stick and go toilet read instructions".. he repeated this instruction umpteen times whenever someone comes for the test.. super funny there lo.. after some waiting, i and hao had our blood test.. hao was the first time taking blood and i was still afraid of needles due to bad experiance i had.. lucky the army officier was patient and he slowly looked for my vein and it wasn't so painful cauz he should have quite alot of experience liao.. also saw wei xiang there at CMPB..

then had dental test, x-ray, hearing test and eye test.. at CMPB, i and hao saw a lady there.. quite stunned.. woman also coming for medical checkup.. seems like she wants to serve NS too.. weird.. hahax.. then went for body checkup after the eye test..

the body checkup was er.. weird.. nothing on but pants.. done ECG and took height and weight plus blood pressure.. today my blood pressure was normal.. no more slight high blood pressure liao.. hopefully can maintain for a long time.. hahax.. then saw a doctor and checked errrr.. ya.. wahahax.. then given a pes.. bin hao got into PES A.. i got in PES BP.. cauz i obese.. budden i think it doesn't matter.. cauz finish the 2 yrs and so be it liao.. cauz i want to study.. dun want sign on de.. so it is fine..

after which was the killer for NS checkup.. IQ test.. hao and i also meet some jj ppl there.. though dun noe each other budden since from same skl, we waited together for the IQ test and chatted together.. waited for long hours before its our turn to do the checkup.. wah sian la.. then the whole IQ test was weird la.. the qns were weird.. and some totally dun noe what they are asking for.. the easiest ones are physics qns and maths sequences qns.. haiz.. done more than 100 plus qns and took hell lot of time.. bin hao finished first and waited for mi and i soon completed and was released from CMPB officially.. damn relieved sia.. we went out of CMPB and took the bus back to redhill.. took train back to lot 1 to buy some food cauz both of us haven eaten anything since the morning.. then went home liao le..

later will be going badminton.. yeah.. so damn cool.. waiting for every friday to come.. cauz can play badminton.. now i got blue black on my left hand.. a bit painful.. cauz quite a big patch.. budden think wun affect mi play badminton de.. hahax.. ya.. ending here.. tata!!! =)

today is a mentally and physically draining day.. although dun have many lessons, budden the afternoon was the most taxing of all.. had one an a half hours of maths followed by 1 hour of maths.. thw worse thing wasn't this.. had THREE HOURS of gp straight.. crazy de.. tired like hell.. can't even listen.. especially in afternoon.. the best time to sleep.. now damn tired..

lucky tml no need go skl.. cauz got NS medical checkup.. means got long weekend for mi cauz monday is youth day holiday.. dun need to go skl also.. damn shiok la.. can rest a lot.. budden have to study also.. catch up on my work.. realli worried for tml's checkup.. cauz need take blood.. i hate needles seriously.. the repurcusion from my last blood test.. a trainee nurse poke a few times yet can't find the vein.. then pass to an experienced nurse who got it at the first try.. hopfully tml will be successful the first time round.. sian..

haiz.. guess tml will be a long day at CMPB.. got lots of tests and examinations to be done.. hopefully wun end so late ba.. hopefully.. so perhaps can go dota after the checkup.. wahahax.. i guess i will end here ba.. nothing much.. cya.. tata.. =)

today is a realli boring day in skl.. nothing much.. had chemistry remedial and chemistry lecture.. chem tutorial got back chem results.. i passed.. cauz my mcq pushed my grades up.. lucky.. on the dot pass onli.. 50.8.. lucky got pass.. budden physics results left.. that one sure jia liat jia liat de.. din realli have maths remedial.. then skl ended..

went to the student leader's meeting today.. actually i felt quite a waste of time.. shouldn't have gone la.. should have gone cca instead.. watched orientation video and heard "motivational and inspiring" speech in the meeting.. yeah.. can already predict wat will be said liao le.. and the same things is repeated over and over again.. sian.. waste of time seriously..

then went for cca.. today we all step down liao le.. choosing new batch of committee members for the j1s.. to say the bunch choosen was rather ok.. ya.. budden i dunno leh.. j2s also voted and i looked at the tally of results.. they decided to choose people based on votes.. haiz.. dunno whether it is fair anot.. most j2s in cldds dun realli tok to the j1s.. realli worried the choice wasn't good cauz we din realli get to noe all the j1s.. actually i thought a interview for the more important positions are still important.. budden reults are based on votes.. haiz.. worried a bit unfair.. also felt quite sad for some j1s who was all along in cldds from first 3 months but din get in the committee.. haiz.. dunno la.. let the teacher decide wat they want ba.. we have no control le..

now getting worried for NS medical checkup liao le.. scared will find something wrong.. haiz.. quite worried.. budden cannot be afraid also la.. have to face things bravely even if things do happen.. hahax.. have to be positive.. the NS thingy as been lingering in mi for quite long le.. can't shake it off.. sian.. now skl still wan mi retake napfa when i will nv pass and i will definitely go obese bmt so it doesn't matter whether i pass anot.. super sian sia.. haiz.. hopefully everything will be fine in the checkup..

i guess i will end here liao.. have to go pia physics homework liao le.. if not mr mak gonna kill mi.. hahax.. gtg.. tata..

today is a very slack day.. no lessons practically.. budden got back results for GP and maths liao le.. did very badly.. especially maths.. got onli 30 marks.. dead.. gp equally bad.. 45 marks onli.. gone case liao le.. sian sia.. this is onli the appetitiser.. i guess my physics and chemistry will be the main course in which i will get the most "surprise".. yeah..

din realli realli listen in skl today.. had GP lessons in ther morning.. not realli in the mood to listen.. the holidae mood still lingers.. then was physics lecture which i din managed to pay attention to also.. cauz too boring liao le.. then break went lunch and played chinese chess.. after which was a super short civics and dismiss le.. yeah..

after skl wei qi and my maths teacher was playing chinese chess.. toking bout the lousy results.. i guess my results sux to the core.. and our teacher said that its realli late to start studying onli now for As.. budden i beg to differ la.. sian.. though results now sux like hell, i noe that its becos my lack of preparation.. and lack of sustained effort to study.. guess have to work on that.. budden wat my teacher said is true la.. no time liao le.. i guess time to buck up liao le.. no time to lack le.. come JC to pass instead of fail exams de..

guess have to work lot more harder from today onwards le.. later gtg cheong chemistry homework liao le.. holiday homework.. cauz can't seem to be able to save the ans from the chemistry webby.. can't refer to it to do also.. sian la.. die liao le.. have to cheong for a long time liao le.. damn.. i will end here ba.. gtg.. tata..

skl reopens today le.. and indeed.. very sianz.. cauz still in holiday mood.. still cannot adjust back to the studying mode.. and i guess many ppl can' t too.. saw that many ppl ain't concentrating as much today.. the post-holiday effect perhaps.. hahax..

so as said, did nothing much today.. din even bother to listen to maths lecture.. cauz din revise a single bit in the holidaes.. so dunno wat the teacher is toking about.. instead was drawing some crap.. wahahax.. then was chemistry tutorial.. got back chemistry paper 1 results le.. i passed i think.. budden the rest i think is gone case de.. juz like maths and physics.. then physics lesson mr mak seems disappointed.. seems like he is abit unhappy with some of our performance.. i am sure i am one of them ba.. haiz.. then had physics lecture and dismissal.. cauz maths tutorial was cancelled..

walked to lakeside to take 180.. din had concession this month so had to save and scrimp for the time being till july comes.. budden waited for that bus for like donkey hours budden the bus still refused to come.. so decided to take train to go lot one and as well as buy some things for aunt.. also wanted to look for a elbow support.. cauz lately have been playing too much badminton and elbow is getting worn out and injured.. need one to protect my elbow..

yeah.. the one i bought.. wrap ard elbow de.. $9.95.. rather ex cauz juz after holidays a bit broke.. din have much money to buy things le.. especially after yesterday where i bought hell lot of stationaries and such.. so broke liao.. budden its still a good form of investment ba.. cauz can be used for a rather long time and can prevent injuries.. wahahax.. yeah i'm crapping.. wahahax..











after which i went to my aunt's home and passed her the things i bought for her.. yeah.. tried out the elbow support and it was rather ok.. guess i'll need some time to get used to using it.. yeah.. tml will be a damn slack day for mi.. cauz practically no lessons.. yeah.. so can enjoy a bit tml.. budden have to cheong physics homework also.. dun wan mr mak to kill mi.. ya.. hahax.. gtg le.. signing off.. tata..

today is sunday.. and tml is monday.. monday means SKL REOPENS!!! shit.. haven do any homework yet.. nothing done at all.. jia liat liao.. and realli in no mood to do any homework today.. damn.. and i think gettting common test results soon.. maybe even tml.. omg.. jaw drop.. i guess my civics tutor will be asking to meet my parents liao.. jia liat.. lucky already told my dad the truth le.. if not he is gonna kill mi when i get back my results..

haiz.. skl finally reopening liao.. and closer and closer to A levels liao le.. now have to kiss goodbye sleeping till late in the morning liao.. haiz.. means have to wake up at 5.30 daily again liao le.. haiz.. and all the stress from studies will be flooding in liao le.. especially ppl like mi who flunked our common test and practically had nothing in our brains.. have to put in at least a thousand and ten more percent of effort in order to catch up and can do well at the end of the day.. sian.. meaning that have to mug daily liao le.. sianzZz..

actually dreading the skl nowadays.. skl is such a cold place.. j1 and starting of j2 still very fun and interesting.. cauz playing ard all the time.. especially during orientation period last yr and this yr.. had the most fun.. and realli enjoyed myself a lot.. budden now skl is all about studies.. especially at this point of time.. the stress is coming.. u fail this yr u are gone.. no results, no future.. guess have to live in this environment and under this intense stress for the rest of my stay in jj.. and have to overcome this alone.. haiz..

lately my og frend msg mi and i guess the whole of og 28 from last yr.. she said she missed our og.. actually, i did too.. miss everyone so much.. has been like 6 months since we all have met liao.. since last yr's celebration.. i miss everyone who left jj.. haiz.. and i guess there will be no more outings this yr that i can attend liao.. ok.. like wat ming xiong and yee loong sarca mi.. haiz.. cauz will be going NS after exams immediately.. especially these few days when i went out with my senior and he told mi all about it.. sian.. regretted not trying to slim down.. haiz.. also no point liao le i guess.. cauz medical checkup this coming friday.. cannot probably slim down 20 kg in one week.. hahax.. so i guess can onli treasure the time i have with everyone i can see daily in og 28 ba.. sobs..

i guess i will stop here ba.. if i go on elaborating this can go on for days.. hahax.. gtg liao le.. hasn't been a realli good holiday, budden i hope everyone had enjoyed themselves.. ya.. hope to see everyone soon!!! =)

today did nothing much today.. watched tv in the morning then went out with my frend to dota.. long time nv play le.. seems that i dun noe how to play liao.. kanna trashed today in the starting game.. then after that can play better liao.. wahahax.. then went aunt's home and chatted about ns and stuffs.. and my bad results.. lucky she gave mi lots of encouragement and spurred mi to work hard.. ya..

budden i still quite frustrated.. cauz of an person who made use of my nick to tag at my frend's blog.. he or she caused lots of problems.. especially to my frend.. caused him so much trouble and problems.. budden dunno whether that person's nick is "xiang" also.. so realli dunno.. how i wish can find out who that immature and childish person is..

but i realli glad that my frend trusted mi and believed in mi that it wasn't mi.. and having complete trust in mi.. cauz of the my nick that gave him so much problems and caused so much trouble for him.. realli very sorry.. we toked about this thing and we still can't figure out why that person wanted to do this and made so idiotic and irresponsible remarks.. so much for his or her courage and character.. hey ha0.. thanks for ur trust.. appreciate it very very much.. hopefully ur problems can be solved quickly and sorry for all the trouble caused.. take care k?

guess i will be ending here liao le.. cauz nothing good to blog about liao.. mood realli spoilt.. ya.. gtg.. tata..

today is a realli good day for mi.. went out with my senior today.. went to funan and beach road.. cauz he wanted to to repair his X box and get his NS stuffs done.. rested very well yesterday and slept alot last night.. sleep till late in the morning.. so had lots of energy today.. also promised to meet my senior today to go with him.. so ya.. hahax..

went to funan first to try to get his X box fixed.. budden couldn't find the shop that repairs X box.. no choice but to go off.. hopefully he can get his X box fixed soon.. ya.. enjoyed chatting with him.. on the train trip.. joked alot and chatted about our og things.. also chatted about his NS life.. also got a shock of my life.. cauz he said that ppl going for obese BMT will have to go in camp immediately after As.. onli perhaps 2 to 3 days of rest and preparation.. i was like.. =_= gone case liao.. after exams cannot enjoy liao le.. can't organise anything fun for my ogs and things.. thats wat we call sian diao.. haiz..

we also went to beach road.. being a big su gu, i nv ever went to beach road before.. had an eye opener.. everything there is related to army.. sewing of stuffs.. buying of ns things.. ya.. senior was going to add things to his uniform.. ya.. name and Singapore tag.. ya.. so he left his uniforms to the tailor there and we headed for dinner cauz things will onli be done after 1 hr.. had dinner and i was amazed by his GREAT appetite.. he ate ALOT.. ya.. then we went to get his uniform after dinner..

but unfortunate things happen today too.. the tailor overcharged.. her rate for tags and stuffs and over charged.. in the end my senior kanna toked 1 dollar.. though not big thing.. budden its like wa kao.. during dinner also sian diao.. got a one dollar coin on the table.. a auntie came to clear up for us.. thought she wun do anything to it so left it at the corner.. budden as she was wiping the table, she kopped my senior's money budden happens to be mine cauz it was meant to be paid for juice i bought for him.. the auntie stole my money in my face.. and i can do nothing bout it cauz can't argue cauz she was rather old and i wun win.. ya.. so saw my money kanna stolen.. sian.. in the end we both lost one dollar.. hahax..

we went home after that and chatted again on the train.. today was a fun day.. managed to meet my senior and tok cock have fun.. ya.. hopefully can have fun again soon.. thanks for the day zi cheng!!!

then reached home and went play badminton.. as usual.. played till ten plus and went home.. did alot of toking with my frend xun kai.. chatted bout life and things.. realli quite fun chatting and such.. chatting lets mi get to noe others better.. yeah.. so who says chatting is always bad??? hahax.. can be a gp qn also.. "Is chatting always bad?" wahahax.. being lame here..

budden something infuriating happened today also.. someone idiot used my nick and tag at my frend's blog.. scolded him and such.. idiot lai de.. using my nick and scold my frend.. and trying to break my frendship with him.. wa kao.. shocked when my frend called mi and told mi bout this.. though i may be bad but i wun use indespicible methods.. and i wun do this to break my frendship with my frend.. which idiot will do that??? ya.. fuming mad bout this now.. haiz.. there nothing i can do also.. to my other frends whom i have linked, if anyone flamed u with my nick plz dun believe it.. i wun do such a thing.. ya.. hopefully u guys can understand..

i guess i will end here ba.. such a long post.. wahahax.. gtg liao le.. realli tired.. cya.. tata!!! =)

common test finally over le.. and it also mean die liao le.. teachers will be calling up my parents liao le.. i flunked my physics paper BIG TIME.. none of the qns there i could do.. cannot understand a single bit wat the paper is asking about.. i guess mr mak will be fuming mad when he sees my paper.. 70 to 80 percent not complete.. those completed de also anyhow do de..

dunno why leh.. i tried my very best to study for today common test and i can understand the things in the notes.. din sleep the whole night juz to study for the common test today.. budden today when i go do the exam mind block like hell.. totally stunned when i saw all the qns.. last hr when doing paper 2, i decided to give up liao le.. decided to think of how i should confess to my dad.. jia liat.. i guess realli lack the practice.. the consequence of not studying and doing homework daily and consistently.. arghhh..

went to jurong east sports complex to buy grip for my badminton racket after common test.. when i got there i got shocked.. it was 12 noon when i reached.. to my horror i saw the sign stating that the shop will onli be opened after 1pm.. and i was like one hr earlier.. damn.. no choice but to leave and go back later..

before i reached the sports complex, got a msg from my senior zi cheng saying he would be coming back jj.. he's in ns now and its a very long time since i met him.. i din see his msg before i got in the bus towards sports complex.. budden went back to skl area to find him and had lunch together.. tok cock a lot.. very fun.. also very enjoyable.. cauz being stressed up for a very long long time liao le.. today finally everything is over le.. yeah..

zi cheng advised mi to start studying right now.. and i think i am going to do exactly wat he says.. i'm gonna start studying.. cannot afford to waste my 2 yrs and flunked everything at the end of the day.. that is not wat i want too.. yeah.. so i guess his advice is very true indeed..

then went one big round back to JE sports complex to get my grip.. finally got it.. bought 2 at 6 bucks.. quite ex.. budden guess its the cheapest and the best i can find liao le.. want play badminton also need to pump in capital de.. wahahax..

went back home afterwards and plucked up the courage to tell my dad i gonna flunk my common test big time.. to my surprise, he wasn't angry.. yet he was worried.. i cannot afford to disappoint him anymore.. i have to study hard liao.. he works so hard to let mi get my education.. yet i am not making the best use of it.. cannot carry on like this liao le..

now then realise one thing.. nv celebrated father's day before.. except when i was young and made cards for him when i attended arts class in the past.. my dad refuse to celebrate it.. he is worried that we waste money celebrating.. all he wants is to save as much for my future.. and i realli can't repay watever he had done for mi.. all i can do now is work harder and study hard so i can give my parents the best in the future.. yeah..

guess i will stop here ba.. suddenly so emotional today.. and updating so much.. now having cold war with mum.. hopefully can solve soon.. cauz i noe my mum din mean it too.. she nags for my own good.. budden have to forgive her also when she goes overboard.. tolerance is important cauz i noe my mum also tolerates watever i do.. ya.. hopefully everything will be fine soon.. gtg liao.. tata!!! =)

sian.. maths is gone.. like i expected.. everything dunno how to do.. onli managed to do 38 marks worth the qns.. and the 38 marks sure got lots of mistakes also.. gone case liao.. gonna fail big time for maths.. jia liat.. guess have to tell my dad bout this unfateful event first.. before i get back the results and he freak out and scold mi.. yeah..

have to study for physics today.. cannot afford to sleep tonight liao le.. have to hang in there.. cauz after tml no more exams liao.. can sleep like hell.. so have to study hard so that tml hopefully can pass my physics.. yup..

gtg start mug for physics liao le.. yeah.. last paper.. good luck to all my frends also.. cheong cheong cheong for tml's paper!!! all the best.. =)

damn.. screwed up my chemistry paper le.. all dunno how to do.. jia liat liao le.. sure fail de i think.. damn.. din manage to finish studying everything yesterday.. in fact got lots of unfinished stuffs.. especially periodicity.. took most of my marks away.. gone case liao le..

tml is maths paper.. another paper i think will gone case de.. cauz totally nv study in the holidays.. onli topic realli studied is complex numbers but i think i still wun be able to do it cauz i nv practice and dun understand fully.. haiya.. dun care liao le la.. study as much as i can.. 听天由命ba.. sian.. fail also no choice..

gtg le.. if not sure cannot finish studying de.. ya thats all for today.. good luck to everyone taking maths paper tml too!!!

sian diao liao.. can onli conclude i will fail the coming common test.. jia liat.. got lots of uncompleted topics for physics.. din finish everything.. still got many topics haven even look at it before de.. onli managed to finish till simple harmonic motion.. sian.. maths even worse.. haven start sia.. maths is sure gone case de le.. wednesday is onli try luck whether can pass onli de..

haiz.. but cannot care so much liao le.. tml start common test liao le.. chemistry.. have to try my very best tml.. cauz chemistry is the subject i am most confident in.. have to try and score good grades for chemistry.. haiz.. studying kinetics now.. quite a challenging topic.. later still have to study organic topics.. yup yup.. have to do my best.. no more distraction after noon.. study and study onli..

hopefully can pass this coming common test ba.. cauz i think parents will be called up if results cannot make it.. i am sure my teacher's comments about mi wun be good too.. haiz.. hopefully can pass ba.. than work harder on my subjects in the months to come.. ya.. gtg study le.. tata.. good luck to everyone taking common test too!!! jia you and good luck!!! to myself also.. wahahax..

yesterday managed to study faithfully the whole day.. studied till physics of fluids.. realise can understand everything in the notes if i am willing to study.. spent the whole afternoon and night studying.. damn stressed up realising i do not have enough time time to study liao le.. today gotta cheong my physics.. at least finish up to 3/4 of the things that will be tested..

then have to start study chemistry tonight le.. got alot to study also.. organic topics are enough to kill mi liao le.. still got kinetics and periodicity all those.. lucky finished revising electrochem liao.. if not more jia liat sia.. sian.. why one day onli got 24 hours.. why cannot have 48 hours.. sian la..

i guess i am realli damn stressed up liao le.. starting to have insomnia these few days.. totally can't get to sleep.. too many things going thru my head when i want to sleep.. state of confusion i say.. dunno thinking of wat.. counting sheeps also doesn't help.. then fear of sleep starts to sneak in.. i dunno why budden worried that this will affect my energy level for studies and exams.. jia liat liao le.. can't wait or exams to be over..

guess will be ending here ba.. guess will juz be mugging multiply to mugging to the power of mugging today.. haiz.. end with a pic i drew last night when i couldn't get to sleep.. edited with com today.. hahax.. drew it ard 2 plus yesterday night.. simply can't sleep.. hahax.. perhaps thats the best portrayal of my thoughts last night.. gtg.. tata..

yeah something i drew last night.. called it the Tree without Life.. dunno why.. hahax..

sian la.. realli no mood to study.. onli managed to finish a few topics for all the subjects.. high chance i gonna fail common test.. but i guess there is no point grumbling liao le.. juz get down and study.. haiz..

sian.. onli finished COE for physics.. still got like 11 topics left.. maths got like 12 big topics left.. chemistry onli finished electrochem.. wa sia.. big time screw up in mi.. couldn't sleep these few days in the night.. tossed and turned in bed and took ard half an hour before can realli get to sleep.. perhaps is the stress overwhelming mi liao le.. die..

shall stop my grumbles here.. feel better saying everything out.. thats the good thing bout blog.. signing off to mug.. tata..

have to finish studying notes no matter wat today.. have to.. cauz not much time left for mi liao le.. no more time to study liao le.. if i dun study i am gone.. started on current of electricity and DC circuits yesterday.. its rather manageable.. so i guess i will carry on studying the rest also ba.. try to make notes and finish everything today..

later tonight guess i will be going badminton again.. relieve stress.. realli cannot make it liao.. my stress level is damn damn high.. soon all the stress will come crashing down.. and i will be a goner.. guess tonight should be a time to take some time off from studying so wun die from all the stress.. yesterday watched a tv show.. saying "stress is a fact of life but don't make it a way of life.." yeah.. this is very true.. have to overcome my stress and study faithfully ba..

guess i will be ending here ba.. using the com a while more before i start studying.. yeah.. gtg le.. cya.. tata.. good luck to all my frends taking common test too!!! =)

i am a goner.. goner.. studied nothing.. and i mean nothing.. onli managed to complete complex numbers.. then studies nothing the whole day.. i am a goner.. damn it.. dunno why.. no motivation to study AT ALL.. sian sia.. i guess i am going to flunk this coming common test liao le.. flunk.. haiz..

had a weird dream had night.. or should i say this morning.. very weird.. dreamt that my results will be going downhill on august.. dunno why got this dream.. jia liat.. worried sia.. scared realli flunk my tests and exams all those in august.. this weird dream is bothering mi.. guess have to tok to someone bout it in my family soon.. hopefully can solve.. haiz.. damn damn worried..

guess have to start studying physics liao le.. no time liao le.. 5 days left till common test.. and i think i have to complete studying maths and physics within 3 days.. which i rather impossible.. realli impossible i guess.. but juz have to try my best ba.. mentally prepared i wun do well for the coming exams.. damn it..

budden i also dun wan to fail also.. have to realli start mugging liao le.. technology realli suxs.. created computers and internet.. giving mi so much temptation.. budden have to fight it!!! come on zheng xiang u can do it.. not using the com wun die de.. studies flunk then will die.. come on..

haiz.. guess i will end here ba.. start to clear up the mess i created.. thats to start studying.. yesh.. signing off.. tata.. haiz..

haiz.. din realli follow my study plan yesterday.. in fact screwed up.. the whole plan was screwed up.. not the plan.. but mi.. damn.. too many distractions to keep mi away from studying.. haven even complete complex numbers.. feeling that it is such a difficult topic to understand.. even overslept today.. damn.. guess my plan is seriously too idealistic liao le.. haiz..

guess wun be sticking to the plan anymore liao le.. juz study watever i can find.. budden still have to follow thru when to finish which subject.. hopefully can finish studying everything before common test.. realli getting very worried.. i am a goner sia.. cannot concentrate, cannot prioritise.. equivalent to cannot learn.. cannot learn implies fail exams.. fail exams therefore no future.. and no future means that i am a goner.. and this vicious cycle repeats itself..

but no.. have to try to break this vicious cycle.. from now on.. if not i'm gonna die for As also.. cannot flunk this common test.. have to start to put in 100 times, no a million times more effort than i am putting in now.. lucky now at least got at least 1% of effort input.. if not 0% input multiply to 1000000 times more effort still zero.. haiz.. lame la.. =.=lll

bottom line is to start and study!!! i have to.. i need to.. i want to.. and i must!!! i guess have to try my very best ba.. gtg study hard liao le.. cya.. tata.. anyway ending with a pic.. brazilian player kaka who scored a beautiful goal leading brazil to victory yesterday! woohoo!!!

brazil is my favourite team since young.. hope they retain the FIFA world cup title 2006!!!

starting to mug liao le.. studying maths the whole morning.. have to complete the topics i scheduled to be completed by today.. try to understand all the concepts and all the formulas plus reading thru the examples to understand how to do the qns.. as i was studying the notes, i think it is much much more important to do practice qns for maths. so can totally understand how to apply the various concepts.. guess i will do juz that ba.. practise and practise to make sure i noe everything..

will be focusing on maths till wednesday.. then start on physics and study till saturday.. physics require more of understanding.. have to read thru the notes thoroughly and understand the concepts and reason behind the formulas.. yeah.. then finish the practice qns that are given to us for the holidaes.. then i guess will be fine le.. at least can secure a pass hopefully..

then sunday and mondy concentrate fully on chemistry.. study and study.. chemistry is a relatively easier subject i would say.. hopefully the time i allocated for chemistry is enough.. hopefully i can do well for chemistry.. dun wanna fail cauz i got the most confidence in chemistry among all the other subjects..

yesterday night planned a intensive study plan for this week before common test.. cauz i simply wasted too much time le.. have to buck up le.. hopefully this plan will help mi better organise my time and so i can concentrate and study hard for the exams.. now still not keeping up to the plan for today.. budden i will try hard to stick to my plan so can do well.. erm at least to pass i think..

here's a picture of my study plan.. seems crazy.. budden the onli way for mi to pass my exams..



















another picture.. my chinese name.. written by chinese calligraphy teacher.. found it yesterday.. hahax.. realli nice handwriting.. hahax..





















guess i will end here ba.. have to go catch up with my plan liao.. lagging behind cauz woke up late today.. have to try finish wat i have planned for today.. yeah.. gtg le.. happy mugging to mi and frends.. wahahax.. tata.. =)

updating again.. hahax.. studied galvanic cell yesterday.. can understand most of it.. budden i guess i have to do practice to make sure that i am clear of the topic.. intending to concentrate on chemistry today.. and complete the revision homework that is given to us.. then i guess i will be going to start on physics..

physics also got lots of revision questions to be done.. i guess i will practice that ba.. budden wat i am realli afraid of is that i cannot complete my revision for maths.. cauz there is simply too many topics that have to be revised.. lucky i not watching world cup.. so can study.. heng arh..

i guess i will end here a.. going off to lunch then start mugging the whole afternoon.. yeah.. gtg le.. tata.. =)

i guess i will be updating now.. wun be using the com tonight or in the afternoon liao.. killing the temption within mi.. yeah.. kill it.. i will be concentrating on chemistry in the afternoon.. no matter wat.. have to finish studying some things by tonight.. yeah..

i guess physics and maths are my weaker subjects.. have to focus more on these 2 subjects in the coming week.. hopefully can finish studying.. while at least grasp all the concepts and understand the concepts well as well as complete the revision homework that are given to us.. i guess it will be a good practice to gauge whether i understand the subject anot..

nowadays realli want to go out and play.. like this morning already thinking of whether can find frends go out dota or play table tennis.. budden i guess this is not the time to do so liao.. for this week and for the rest of the yr.. cannot afford to play and enjoy so much le.. time to be strict with myself and make sure i can clear my As.. cauz already have a goal in mind..

also wanna clear my As well so i can enjoy myself after my exams.. yeah.. cauz i guess i will be going in NS early.. cauz i am obese.. budden i guess i still wanna spent time with my frends after my exams.. especially my og ppl.. regardless is this year's og or last yr's og.. i simply enjoy my times with them.. hopefully i can clear my exams well then plan stuffs for both my ogs.. hahax.. yeah..

yeah.. picture of og 28, 2005, during our bbq.. very memorable event.. cauz its the day when my phone committed suicide into the swimming pool.. hahax.. but more importantly it is the day when we all celebrated our birthdays together cauz all of us are december babys.. =)









also my og this yr.. made many frends being an ogl and i realli enjoy the times that i spent with my og.. the friendship that is forged will be remembered forever.. =)

















most importantly, wanna spent time with my family after my As.. though there seem to be quarrels all the time in the family, i realise i cherish my family and my family members very much.. i i love them.. especially my parents who care so much about mi and it alwaes seem that they are nagging so much.. budden i guess its realli for my own good.. yeah.. realli wanna spent time with them after As.. dun have any photo to upload cauz it seems that my family had nv taken a photo together before.. and i realli wish we can take one soon.. yeah.. i i noe i will try to do it no matter wat before NS.. yup yup..

i guess i will end here ba.. talking about so much of wat i wanna do and achieve.. budden i guess actions speaks louder than words.. cannot all talk no action.. it wun work to help achieve my goals.. gtg mug liao le.. tata.. =)

super pissed by my net today.. slow like hell.. load one page takes more than 1 minute.. wa kao sian diao sia.. so slow.. lately my net has been weird.. beginning to become very slow.. and takes lots of time to load a website.. sian.. dunno wats the problem with it.. haiz.. hopefully not kanna spyware or adware those shit.. haiz..

yesterday night watched world cup first match.. germany vs coasta rica.. quite an exciting match i guess.. so many goals scored which seem to be rather unexcepted.. especially the beautiful last goal by germany.. superb.. budden i still like brazil more.. wahahax..

today done nothing again.. rotting the whole day.. at this rate, common test will be a failure.. haiz.. have to get down and study.. have been saying this all the time budden the computer is such a temptation for mi.. want to use it all the time.. have to realli stop using the computer le.. restrict myself till after common test.. yeah.. hopefully can do it.. gotta study chemistry tonight.. organic topics.. hopefully can finish.. yeah.. try my best..

later going bai bai.. come back may be late le.. but have to finish studying nonetheless.. have to.. yeah.. i guess i will end here ba.. rot a while more then i think i will be going out le.. tata..

yeah i guess this is my hundredth post.. hahax.. blogging for so long le.. hahax.. guess blogging has become part of my life now le.. hehex.. and i guess i will continue blogging.. cauz its something realli interesting.. can vent any frustrations and unhappiness.. can also record down happy moments and nice things to share.. yeah.. i love blogging..

today i am realli relieved liao.. everything come to an end le.. realli an end.. everything is fine liao le.. and life is back to the normal rountine.. everything is solved.. ya.. so happy sia.. though i din manage to study anything today, but i guess its worth it cauz everything is alright le.. hahax.. budden i guess i have to realli buck up and start mugging tml.. yeap.. and i will..

seriously in love with F.I.R.. they roxs.. hahax.. listening to their songs the whole day.. its simply nice.. hehex.. waiting eagerly for their next album to com out.. hopefully soon ba..

yeah.. picture of F.I.R.. so cool.. hahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. going to play badminton liao.. yippee!!! love badminton so much.. finally can play today.. something that i look forward to every week.. gtg.. tata!!! =)

din do much today.. haven study also.. cauz went out in the morning and afternoon.. ya.. now rotting in front of the com.. i think i have to start studying already.. guess i will try to revise organic chem by reading thru the notes tonight.. still have quite a very clear idea of organic chem.. think it wun be a problem to finish studying everything tonight..

guess i would finally be able to stop worrying liao le.. everything is fine liao le.. finally can stop thinking bout things and start studying.. yeah.. i realli wanna do well for the coming common test.. realli.. dun wan anyone to look down on mi.. and dun wan to disappoint my parents.. i have to do well.. and i can't afford to fail a single subject.. thats wat i am working towards now..

yeah.. gtg study le.. tml can badminton again liao.. yipee.. need some relaxation also.. wahahax.. ending here ba.. tata.. =)

bought the 3 comics i wanted to buy yesterday night le.. hahax.. went to lot 1 to buy.. hehex.. finish reading 2 this morning.. damn nice.. hahax..

budden i guess have to start studying le.. i totally haven start anything yet.. and i mean.. ANYTHING.. dunno why.. no mood to study.. no motivation to study.. and too preoccupied with things to start studying.. i guess its realli high time that i start le..

guess i will first start with chemistry which is apparently the easiest subject among all.. i want to master everything by this friday.. then start cheonging for my maths and then my physics.. have to spent much more time on my physics and maths cauz i alwaes do badly for these 2 subjects.. hopefully i can finish studying all the notes and do enough practice by next weekend and start doing practice qns.. ya..

have to cut on my time using the computer and doing other stuffs le.. have to put my heart and my soul into studying and mastering my subjects.. it is barely 2 weeks to common test and 148 days to A levels le.. have to realli pull my my socks to my thigh even if it means i have to sacrifice many things that i enjoy doing.. yeah.. have to wake up le..

hopefully i can realli get the motivation to study hard soon and hopefully can pass and do well for my coming common test and ultimately my A levels.. yeah.. i guess i will end here ba.. nothing much i will be doing today le.. apart from studying and going out to attend to stuffs later in the evening.. ya.. gtg.. tata.. =)

woke up rather early today.. shocked i should say.. worries clinging onto mi the whole morning.. amd for the whole afternoon.. but i am glad everything is ok le.. wat a relieve for mi.. realli worried for the past week.. cauz too many things happened le.. budden now everything is ok le.. realli very relieved.. and not so worried anymore.. pew!!!

had gp common test today's afternoon.. was rather ok i think.. budden i guess i din do so well.. cauz was worried and such.. din realli have the mood to put in my 100% for the exams.. budden i hope i can pass ba.. realli hopefully.. cauz i think i might have written out of point liao le..

in a very bad mood today.. cauz keep getting scolded for nothing the whole time today.. so frustrated sia.. i wonder why parents are liddat.. especially my mum.. she can keep grumbling and grumbling at mi like i made hell lot of mistakes juz becos i din do a small little thing for her.. when it is her own fault, she will nv admit its her fault and instead push all the blame to mi.. whenever i tok back or my dad criticise her for wat she say, everything juz comes back at mi.. and she will scold mi for nothing juz becos she is unhappy..

hate it sia.. so stupid.. why is there this communication break down? i realli dunno.. i am realli frustrated.. izzit realli my fault? i realli dunno.. it is realli annoying to hear grumbling and idiotic comments when u are worried.. my mum juz dun get this point.. i realli dunno wat i can do to get my point across to her.. haiz..

gotta do some studying tonight.. cauz i presume i would be busy again tml.. have to get my comics also.. sian.. today everything juz comes out together.. dunno whether i have the time to get them tml anot.. sian la.. i guess i will end here ba.. gtg le.. tata..

very tiring day today.. woke up at 12pm today.. but was still tired.. then got things to attend to le.. spent the whole afternoon and evening.. yeah.. now back at home.. have to try to study a bit for tml's gp common test.. hopefully can pass ba..

now very worried and very scared.. dunno how to overcome my worries and fear.. hopefully everything will be fine tml.. hopefully my worries will not affect my performance for the exams tml.. hopefully.. hope everything goes smoothly tml.. yeah..

i end here ba.. too preoccupied to update anymore.. good luck for the gp exam to everyone i noe!!! tata..

i changed blogskin again.. hahax.. cauz the previous one seriously sux.. can't get anything done with it.. and i changed to this.. again.. i can't seem to add my pet there.. can't show the name and such.. i think i give up liao.. sian la.. keep trying to add this and that but everything fails.. this is the best i can offer with my "talent" on computer.. lolx..

did nothing much today.. except went to my aunt's home for lunch.. then went to temple to bai bai.. hahax.. then came back trying to figure out how to change my blog template which i failed.. hahax.. i guess i wun try anymore le.. too frustrated to try also.. hehex.. guess will be doing nothing much later also.. sianz..

guess will be reading comics again to kill time later.. gonna start studying tml liao le.. and realli study.. aimming for C C C at least for the coming common test.. hopefully i can do it.. yeah.. then coming tuesday still got gp common test.. damn bloody sian la.. have to go skl in the afternoon juz to do that bloody common test.. sian.. boring sia.. guess i will read some model essays and try to read thru some points and go the test ba.. hopefully can pass.. yeah..

guess i will end here ba.. nothing much or significant to update today also.. hahax.. gotta go.. cya.. =)

today.. a tiring day.. finally changed my blogskin liao le.. budden cannot put up some things that i wanna add for my blog.. damn frustrated.. budden i guess i am happy with wat i have currently.. guess that is the best i can do le.. i am a computer idiot u see.. hahax.. i guess that is the best a computer idiot could do for such complicated stuffs..

went swimming with my pal joel today.. i guess time to slim down le.. i looked weird in swimming trunks.. hahax.. and think can't swim as well as in the past le.. budden i guess i had a great time today.. and swimming realli builds up one's stamina.. have to go for more swimming sessions in the future.. hahax.. realli good to go swimming in a hot day.. cools one down.. and the feeling is great.. hahax..

after swimming went cck park tok cock with joel.. his mum fried bee hoon and chicken wings for us.. so nice of her.. hahax.. and we had the food in cck park.. it was a nice experience.. eating in the shades of the trees.. hahax.. toking alot also.. had great fun.. hahax..

wanna watch movie also.. pirates of carribean sea coming out again!!! wan to watch sia.. hahax.. wanna movie sia.. hahax.. think i will end here ba.. nothing much le.. tata!!! =)

a realli hot day today.. sunny but with sudden rain pouring sometimes.. dislike this kind of weather.. very humid.. makes one restless.. rotting at home today.. woke up late and started to use the computer..

then went for a haircut.. the uncle had quite a troublesome time getting my hair cut.. cauz i asked him not to cut too much.. budden i realise too long liao le.. then he cut again.. hahax.. gave him quite a bit of trouble i guess.. budden finally got my hair cut.. din wanna cut actually de.. cauz its skl holidaes right now.. waste money cauz skl reopen have to cut again.. haiz.. budden a short and tidy haircut is essential to tide mi over the hot and humid weather.. hahax..

then was watching anime at home.. finished 2 episode.. 14 more to go.. haiz.. so much sia.. hopefully can finish before skl starts.. haiz.. soon have to start mugging le also.. for mid yr exams.. sian la..

realli hoping to go swimming someday.. miss swimming alot.. guess it has been months since i last swam.. miss swimming alot.. hahax.. most important swimming can cool one down on a hot day.. hahax.. hopefully can ask my frend out soon to go swimming.. later tonight going play badminton at senja.. woo hoo!!! shiok.. can play badminton again.. hopefully the "old man from the sea", which my frend called him, will come today.. miss playing with him.. he's the best over there.. hahax.. ending here.. tata.. =)

woke up rather late today.. cauz was reading comic last night.. read till rather late.. so slept much more today.. hahax.. as usual, nothing much to do at hme today.. reading comics and watching anime.. haiz.. wanted to burn the anime into dvd.. got frustrated.. cauz that bloody disc lack of space to burn in the last episode.. i was like.. damn.. haiz.. nvm i guess.. this is fate that i got a disc of lower memory.. haizzz..

nothing much to do lately.. wanted to rest before i start to study next week.. gonna mug for the coming common tests.. and i mean MUG.. hahax.. cannot afford to waste time liao le.. have to catch up on my studies which i am lagging behind.. can see most of my counterparts working hard liao le.. high time to start studying le.. din have the mood to study this week cauz so much things happened lately and also wanted some rest before cheonging for my studies in the coming 2 weeks before the common test..

lately thinking of alot of things.. guess its affecting mi too much.. guess time to learn to manage my worries and stress.. perhaps becos of i'm thinking too much that the stress and worries came about.. but stress and worries are things that can nv be eliminated from our lives.. ppl alwaes say to learn to let go.. budden i guess this will nv work.. worries and stress is inevitable in one's life.. even if we can let go, worries and stress will still find a way to manuever and penetrate into our lives.. i guess the way to treat these is to face our worries and try to overcome them.. yeah..

hopefully i can do wat i say here ba.. to learn to manage and be a master of thyself.. yeah.. signing off here.. tata..

"The only courage that matters is the kind that gets you from one moment to the next."By Mignon McLaughlin.. food for thought.. hahax..

feeling much better today.. better things happened and i think it realli made mi feel better.. but i guess yesterday's movie-ing realli gave mi a time out and stop thinking too much.. realli appreciate my pal joel going out with mi and listening to my worries.. realli thanks so much bro..

today was a realli busy day.. becos it dumpling festival.. was very busy de whole day preparing these and that for prayers in the family.. realli tired right now after doing so much chores today.. and i guess these chores also made mi forget some of the worries that i had..

after the busy chores was done, went to lot 1 to get another comic that i have been collecting.. 射雕英雄传.. coming out realli slowly.. the releasing speed is like letting a tortoise complete a 2.4km walk.. haiz.. budden i'll wait.. also the other comics i am collecting is like stagnant la.. unheard of for ard 2 or 3 months liao le.. waiting like hell.. haiz..

though felt better today, but nonetheless still quite worried.. realli hope i can see a sunny sky soon.. yeah.. signing off..

went out with my pal joel to watch Da Vinci Code at the new cathay cinema next to plaza sing today.. quite a nice movie i think.. with the suspense and such happening.. its realli quite a good show to mi.. considering i din read the novel, couldn't understand some of the parts in the movie.. budden i guess i can understand most of the movie and understand the whole story ba..

realli wanna watch x- men III also.. hahax.. budden i guess wun have the chance ba.. cauz most of my frends should have watched le.. also bought a comic today..

now feeling a bit better after going out today.. toked and chatted with my frend and i realli felt much at ease.. thanks lots bro.. budden the worries is still lingering ard.. and getting worse i think.. hoprfully things will be fine ba.. ending here.. bye..

quote from mi de senior.. help mi alot today.. felt better after toking to him..

''when the going gets tough.. the tough gets going..''

yeah.. i will hang on and push on.. thanks alot chin hong!!!

life seriously sux.. seriously.. after one thing has been settled and it seem that i am fine liao, devastating things happened again.. damn it.. worried the whole of yesterday.. and things got worse today.. damn.. hate it.. i am afraid.. realli afraid.. i am worried.. very worried..

went for chemistry remedial today.. with my worries all along staying with mi.. i realli dunno wat to do.. i am on the verge of breaking down liao le.. and there is nothing i can do about it.. this has nothing to do with other ppl.. but mi myself.. i have seen too much.. and faced too much.. i am scared.. realli scared.. i dunno how to control myself..

i will end here ba.. no mood to carry on updating liao le..

today woke up rather early in the morning.. woke up at 10am.. considering the tiredness, i guess its realli early liao le.. hahax.. watched tv the whole morning.. schedule for tv programmes shifted here and there.. but lucky some shows i like to watch isn't changed.. nothing much to do today.. also din study.. cauz felt like resting..

in the afternoon went out dota with my frend.. quite fun.. budden dun realli noe how to play le.. sian.. cauz too long nv play liao le.. sian.. kanna thrashed by my frend.. damn pro lo.. sian.. budden i guess wun be playing so often le.. have to start studying hard for common test le.. and ultimately for As.. yeah.. hopefully can do well for the coming common test.. dun wanna disappoint myself.. yeah..

tml still got chemistry remedial tml afternoon sian.. have to travel back to skl for 1 to 2 hours of lessons.. haiz sian la.. now feeling worried.. something bothering mi right now.. haiz.. worried.. end here ba.. tata..

today was a GREAT day.. and i mean great.. realli had lots of fun today although very tired.. haha.. today is a very hectic day with so may things happening at the same day.. but it is all these things that have realli brought joy to mi today..

today woke up very early in the morning.. 6am.. to prepare and go to skl for the national chinese riddle competition.. competiton was won by hwa chong.. budden the most enjoyable part of the chinese riddle competition is none other than working with the j1s and getting to noe more of the j1s in cldds.. yeah.. it has been a memorable experience working together with them cauz i guess it will be the last event that i can work with them liao.. and i truly appreciate and treasure this experience.. and all of them are really nice ppl to work and play with.. hahax.. wanna wish all the j1s in cldds all the best.. hahax..

then went for lunch with some of the juniors from cldds jun lin, jing yi and yong xian.. went JE makan.. hahax.. chatted alot and joked alot.. but ultimately had fun relating and toking to them.. thanks guys..

but i guess the highlight for the day is LINE Night III held today.. i asked my group ppl for the past few days and invited them for the occasion.. din get much response and i thought i would have failed again.. jin hong's group also seem to be the same.. both of us can't confirm the ppl coming.. but we still decided to meet at 6pm at boon lay mrt station.. to our surprise, many ppl from both of our group came.. for my group, shak, shao ming, sarah, zuo ting, wei ying, firdaus came.. it was much more then the number i expected.. thats not all.. many of jin hong group members also came for the occasion.. hahax.. and all of us went to JP to pack dinner and ate in skl..

the whole group of us simply rox the bus.. we took 157 to jj and all of us had fun chatting and toking on the bus.. when we reached skl, had our dinner together in the canteen.. and we started the food cheer again.. memories of the last cluster camp.. yeah!!! to my surprise, i saw loqman, afiqah, amira and also jieson in skl.. i couldn't contact them and yet they came.. i am so so happy to see them.. managed to see some other facilitators in skl.. wei yuan, zheng long, rasyid and madeline.. after dinner everyone of us proceeded up to the hall and all of us were totally crazy and high la.. we rox that place lo..

did lots of cheering at line night.. everyone from last yr cluster camp were super duper high.. some other campers from other families also came.. and all of us cheer and dance together like a family.. yeah.. had mass dance.. did pump it, twist, 5 colours, chori chori and chicken dance.. and some others which i forgotten.. hahax.. thoroughly enjoyed the mass dance.. did more cheering and had fun cheering and dancing together with the ex cluster west 6 campers..

also went to take lots of photos after mass dance and such.. lots of group photos and lots of funky and funny ones.. hahax.. some ppl also zi lian-ing all the while.. guess everyone there might have taken a few dozens of photos.. and the photo taking session was damn fun also.. with all the jokes and funny stuffs.. hahax.. after the photo taking session, many ppl went home.. we stayed a while more chatting and some taking more photos and left the skl.. and realli sad that everyone is going to be separated again.. but i guess good times is alwaes short but the memories will be deeply engraved in everyone's hearts.. also updated phone numbers and contact stuffs.. hahax..

i guess i haven wasted my trip to LINE night tonight.. in fact, i felt it is a time well spent.. realli touched by everyone.. though some of us were from different families, and we din knew each other, but we still played and had great fun together like a family.. and everyone seem to be so bonded at the point of time and its realli touching to see all these happen.. despite the fact that some ppl also din noe each other, they came up to each other and left contact with each other.. and this is realli something priceless.. yeah.. some even suggested to have another outing together.. hahax.. so touched.. lost of words liao.. can onli use touched..

although i am realli tired at this point of time, i still feel it is totally worth it.. everything i experienced at LINE night today is totally priceless and it will be a great memory in my heart in times to come.. here wanna thank everyone who came today.. shak, shao ming, zuo ting, wei ying, sarah, amira, afiqah, loqman, jieson and firdaus from group 8.. u ppl rox.. and everyone in jing hong's group and everyone who i noe or i do not noe who came today and craved such a beautiful memory for mi.. and most importantly the faciltators who came today.. rasyid, madeline, shak, jonathan, jin hong, zheng long and wei yuan!!! thanks everyone!!! CLUSTER WEST 6 ROXS!!! I LOVE EVERYONE OF U!!! =)

too much controversy liao le.. seem to have caused discomfort to other.. deleted my previous post.. yeah.. dun wanna cause trouble for others liao.. sorted out my thinking le.. yeah!!! i shall start afresh from tml onwards and study hard to be a straight A student.. hopefully i can.. and i am sure i can if i try.. hehex..

today went badminton again.. had fun.. sweated alot.. and forgot bout all the worries.. but most importantly had fun fun and fun.. i love badminton.. yeah!!!

tml going to skl for the national chinese riddle competition thingy.. and also LINE night tml.. so excited.. looking forward to see my group members tml!! reunion!!! so cool.. looking forward to it tml.. yeah..

i will end here.. hahax.. and i will start my life afresh!!! tata!!! =)

stressful day today.. but feeling super ultra relaxed now.. cauz SPA exams is over!!! yay!!! no more SPA ever le.. yipee.. today's SPA was rather manageable.. i think i did alright.. cauz was damn stressed about it today.. worried weird questions will come out.. budden its finally over le.. dun wanna tok bout it anymore.. yay!!!

had the usual lessons today.. physics tutorial, maths lecture, chemistry tutorial and gp.. budden wasn't able to concentrate today cauz was too stressed up liao le.. haiz.. budden this hectic week is finally over le.. as in tml not much lessons.. hahax.. realli looking forward to tml.. can slack and its the last day of skl.. and also saturday got the national chinese riddle competition.. going to be usher.. realli looking forward to it.. think it will be a really grand event.. yeah!!!

and also LINE night on saturday night!!! yeah.. can go enjoy myself le.. yipee!!! trying to contact my group members from last yr to come back and meet up have fun.. yeah.. still confirming with them.. hopefully can contact some of them and they can come back ba..

took bus with my junior today.. toked alot.. hahax.. then come home slack.. read a new comic that i bought on tuesday.. title is 神.战国生徒会.. damn exciting and nice lo.. so cool.. the fighting and such.. realli looking forward to the next issue.. yeah.. and also waiting anxiously for others to come out also.. waiting for a realli realli realli long long time liao le.. haiz.. if next week all come out at the same time i'm gonna be broke once again.. haiz.. hahax..

tonight gotta sleep early.. looking forward tml.. last day of skl!!! can go badminton also.. yipee!!! tml will be such a wonderful day.. at least i hope so.. =)

yeah!!! success.. finally handed in my freaking maths file le.. the one which gave mi lots of trouble and cauz mi lots of sweat and pain to finally finish packing.. damn.. hahax.. but luckily handed in liao le.. yay!!! dun need worry liao le.. hahax.. budden was sleepy throughout the whole day cauz practically din sleep yesterday nite.. roughly 3 hours onli.. and wasn't good sleep also.. haiz.. tonight gotta conserve energy and sleep more so as to be able to manage my day well tml..

had chemistry tutorial this morning.. was sleeping in the tutorial cauz realli too tired to concentrate le.. and cannot finish the kinetics tutorial cauz din have the time to do it cauz was busy with the maths file.. ya.. then was chemistry lecture which i was practically stoning all the way also.. sian la.. then was chemistry make up lesson which i got scolded for not doing tutorial.. guess i realli deserve it ba.. blame it on my laziness.. then was maths tutorial and end of skl..

however got cca in the afternoon.. was rehearsal for the national chinese riddle competition this coming saturday.. yeah.. it was quite fun la.. acting and guessing stuffs.. budden din put in much effort cauz was worrying for the physics SPA tml.. yeah.. budden tried my best to help let the rehearsal run smoothly.. as in doing my part la.. hahax..

it din go as smoothly as expected.. cauz lack of ushers and communication break down between teachers and student helper plus CLDDS members.. yeah.. but i hope thing will run smoothly for the event on saturday.. yeah.. cauz i also volunteered to help out as usher.. dunno why.. i am juz passionate to help out in this kind of things.. like to be involved in these activities.. yeah.. so wanted to help out on saturday and got to be an usher.. yeah.. hahax..

i guess thats all for today le.. nothing much more to mention liao le.. cauz also having physics SPA exams tml.. last assessment le.. realli worried.. scared cannot understand the qn and dunno how to do.. somemore double weightage de sia.. haiz.. i guess have to study and go thru notes ba.. signing off.. tata.. =)

today is a sucky sucky sucky day in skl.. have been practically "doing" maths de tutorials and assignments.. kao so much de lo.. crazy de.. i spent my whole day "doing " liao le.. still got ard 10 left.. have to cheong finish tonight.. dunno whether can finish mah.. damn.. worried sia.. have practically no time left to do other things.. sian la.. stupid sia.. why am i so "lucky" at these times.. -.-lll haiz... sian la..

today had gp lesson which an unexpected incident occured after the lesson.. some of us witnessed the unfortunate event.. hahax.. then was physics lecture and maths tutorial.. got back P&C test.. failed.. 1/15.. forget it ba.. i simply can't do P&C.. zzz.. but the most scary lesson today is civics lesson.. first time saw miss ng so sad.. yeah.. so much for respect and education ppl receive in our lives.. and so much for ppl's character..

guess i will end here ba.. blog again next time.. have to cheong the rest of assignments and tutorials le.. tata.. sianz.. -.-lll

maths seriously sux big time.. and i mean BIG TIME.. damn it.. early in the morning got the shock of my life.. teacher said i was chosen to hand in my maths file for file checking.. damn it.. i was so "HENG" la.. tian lu drew the lot for mi.. cauz i went for cheering thing.. damn it.. then was chosen to hand in my freaking file when i wasn't ard.. so dun noe anything.. then frend also din tell mi in the weekend so i could prepare.. so.. sian diao liao le.. darn..

and there is nothing i can do about it.. but onli to complete all my tutorials lo.. 24 freaking tutorials and assignments i have to complete these 2 days.. and there is no negotiation i can do.. darn it.. that means i dun need to sleep liao le tonight and tml night.. if not i cannot "finish" them.. darn.. haiz.. no choice lo.. have to try my very best liao le.. even if i have to lose my precious sleeping time.. damn.. who call mi to be so so so "lucky".. damn..

then was worried for the whole day.. couldn't concentrate in lecture and tutorials.. thinking of how to solve this BIG problem.. asked my classmates to lend mi.. budden i guess most of them haven finish tidying theirs.. no choice.. haiz haiz haiz.. but luckily my frend from another class can lend mi.. so he saved mi life.. he helped mi.. realli realli realli thank him a few billions.. hahax.. realli grateful i have frends outside class.. hahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. have to go cheong and cheong and cheong for my maths le.. if not i will die tml.. and i mean die!!! ending with something to think about for myself.. "In this world, man is selfish and man is always for themselves.. The only way to survive in this society is to depend on ourselves and work with our own hands.." yeah.. thats all for today.. byez..

today din do homework.. sian.. slacking practically for the whole day.. watched tv in the morning and went out in the afternoon.. searching for full metal alchemist de comic.. i think i giving up liao le.. i first went to jp, then to causeway point, next to bukit panjang plaza and finally lot 1.. i couldn't find the 3rd and 4th book.. the shopkeeper in most shops said those were out of print liao le..

i guess i will give up on trying to collect that set of comic le.. haiz.. sian la.. budden i waiting for trinity blood to come out.. chuang yi got the right to publish it liao le.. and i think it is a good comic cauz the anime seem to be well commented about.. hahax.. so i will wait for it ba.. sian.. i collecting quite alot of comics.. i worried during the period when i go ns, i wun be able to buy most of them.. sian la.. especially one which comes out every 2 weeks.. i guess by then i will then decide wat to do ba.. now focus on studies first.. yeah..

i also found that i can practically watch the whole of gundam seed on you tube.. its so cool la.. yeah.. hehex.. i guess i will stop here ba.. have to go do physics and chemistry homework le.. a well as study for skill A for the physics SPA this thursday.. cauz wednesday got important stuffs for cca.. may not have time to study.. yeah.. thats all ba.. buaiz.. =)

continued my rotting at home rountine today.. hahax.. done nothing better today as usual.. reading my comics and watching anime.. and also watching tv.. watch cartoons in the morning and also the season finale of survivor panama exile island.. damn exciting sia.. finally over le this season.. next season survivor cook island also coming.. yeah!!! damn shiok..

also chatting to my senior this afternoon also.. he told mi many things that are realli true.. i guess there is no time left liao le.. he told mi that i should study realli hard.. if not in future will suffer de.. i guess wat he says is realli true.. i have to study hard.. especially in the june holidaes.. its the most important time to catch up with both my j1 and j2 work.. and its the best time to do it.. cauz there will not be much lessons and can study at home.. i will realli realli work hard in the june holidaes.. and show it to everyone wat i am capable of.. especially to some teachers and peers who look down on mi.. i will show u all wat i am made of.. yeah..

also read comics in the afternoon.. finish 2 more.. 3 more to go le.. yeah.. next week comic coming out liao le.. yeah!!! so happy.. also thinking of collecting the comic "Full Metal Alchemist".. it seems to be a realli nice comic.. cauz was watching a bit of the anime today.. seem to like the story very much.. budden couldn't find some of the books at lot 1.. so i think i will be looking ard for the missing books before i decide whether to buy the comic anot.. hahax..

thats all le.. nothing much for the day liao.. ending with something i thought of this afternoon.. "We reap what we sow.. What we want to achieve depends on the amount of effort we are willing to put in.." yeah.. thats all.. tata..

today din go out as expected.. cauz frend couldn't make it.. so i stayed at home and used the computer for the whole day.. watched an anime my frend lended mi the other day.. suzuka.. very nice anime.. interesting and touching storyline also.. finished watching 4 episodes today.. hahax.. budden the anime not complete de.. cauz comics still got further continuation of the story.. cauz i got collect the comic too.. hahax.. budden nvm i guess.. cauz i still like the story very much..

was also reading my comics in the whole afternoon.. managed to finish one.. i guess got 5 more to go ba.. and the comics i am waiting for is so slow.. waiting for the comics for a very very long time le.. budden haven come out yet.. sian la.. hopefully can come out faster.. so can noe wat happens.. hehex..

then in the evening went to play badminton as usual.. had quite alot of fun today.. also got to noe more ppl there liao le.. and guess i improved a bit liao le.. regaining the momentum to play badminton liao le.. yipee!!! its a good exercise and also a fun exercise.. most importantly less chances to get injured cauz no body contact.. budden i think i still got lots of injuries from the past ba.. wahahax.. waiting to play next week again..

i will stop here ba.. tml is saturday.. can rest liao le.. budden also have to do hw and study for my subjects.. and mid yr exams are coming.. have to buck up liao.. signing off.. tata.. =)

today is the last day of skl for this week.. hahax.. damn good.. budden today in skl suxs.. first had maths test which i am certain that i wun pass and then TCA4 for gp which i also wun pass.. sian diao la.. haiz.. stupid tests and tcas.. next week still got physics spa on thursday.. exams again.. arghhh..

actually today after skl got physics de extra lesson.. budden decided that i wanna go watch the soccer match and give our soccer team some support.. although we lost the match today, budden i still feel that the soccer boys had given their all and done their very best against a stronger team with 4 national players.. i guess its realli a good job done by the soccer boys.. yeah..

after the soccer match went off with the F3 and F6 ogls wei yuan, may, paterson, rasyid, azman, hui qin and bryan for dinner.. went to a muslim restaurant at bukit timah for our dinner.. the food there was good and the atmosphere is also good cauz everyone is chatting and joking together.. so fun.. and i also enjoyed myself alot and had lots of fun at dinner today.. also got to noe a new frend who was my og member classmate in sec skl as they also came along for the soccer match and joined us for dinner.. din regret going for the soccer match today.. hahax.. the night was time well spent.. hopefully next time got chances to have dinner together again..

today was a fun and enjoyable day regardless of the tests and stress in skl.. hopefully can enjoy myself as much in future.. looking forward to tml cauz can slack and rest a home.. and can also play badminton in the night.. yay!!! guess i will end here ba.. cya.. tata.. =)

today is a slack day.. had chemistry tutorial in the morning and chemistry lecture in the morning.. and i slept in chemistry lecture again.. sian la.. cauz was too boring liao le.. until miss goh come wake mi up.. then had maths tutorial after break.. during maths tutorial, there was one group of ppl crowding outside of our classroom.. got bats on the tree outside our classroom.. then my class also went out to see.. first time seeing a bat so closely.. hahax.. then skl ended liao le..

after skl went to play cards and chess at AR room.. then soon went to LT5 for cldds cauz got a chinese riddle de inter class competition.. then j2 went to see see and cannot go home.. reached there and ppl asked mi to carry tables.. sian la.. alwaes liddat de.. but nvm ba.. then a teacher asked mi to be a camera man for the event.. hahax.. fun taking pictures all ard ba.. also tok cock with the j1s.. today cldds not so boring after all.. after which went home with junior then went lot 1 buy comic..

tml still got maths permutations and combinations test plus probability test.. jia liat sia.. haven start studying.. still got stupid TCA to be completed.. haiz.. guess i will stop here ba.. study later.. buaiz..

today had chemistry spa right in the morning.. was so worried for it la.. cauz the previous night i din study much.. onli studied this morning.. budden when got the qns, it was better.. cauz it was an easy paper.. i guess i can do alright for it ba.. cauz i dun think i made too much mistakes.. juz that some uncertainties here and there ba..

then was gp lesson which was darn bloody boring and useless as usual.. then was physics pract which we went thru the tennis racket qn for skill A.. could understand but am realli worried i wun make it thru for the spa assessment next week.. cauz i totally got no confidence.. die sia.. and yes.. its next week!!! arghhh.. another thing to be worried about for the days to come le.. haizzz.. then was chinese lesson and then make up pc and dismissed le.. went play basketball a while then went jp walk walk.. after which went home liao le..

still got lots of homework to be completed tonight.. got chemistry kinetics de tutorial and maths tutorial to be done for tonight.. budden now very tired le.. haiz.. dunno whether can complete my homework anot.. sian.. but i think have to try my best to complete my homework ba.. guess i will end here ba.. tata..

today is such a tiring day.. now having a splitting headache again.. early in the morning had maths lecture which was so hard to concentrate in.. cannot understand a single thing that was taught in the lecture.. guess i am realli lagging far behind..

then was bloody pc which our class got scolded for ponning pc.. the new teacher's attitude can onli be described with one word: sux.. stupid de.. ok so wat we pon pc.. if want us to make up make up la.. dun need to give idiotic attitude.. stupid de.. somemore new teacher somemore.. 新官上任三把火.. wanna enforce discipline and scold us.. and wanted us to treat her with respect.. but fat hope la.. students wun give respect to teachers who dun give BASIC respect to students.. was so irritated with that teacher.. i guess most of us felt so too..

then was physics lecture and tutorial which i hardly concentrating in and chem tutorial which i managed to listen in.. sian..

then skl ended and i had lunch with my classmates and went to lot 1 to meet my pal.. he passed mi a disc for an anime i wanted.. hahax.. we chit chat and walk ard lot 1 and discussing about skl life and stuffs.. enjoy the time with my pal alot.. hahax.. he is the onli one i guess i can tok to realli freely i guess.. hahax.. hopefully can meet up soon again..

this thursday can be excused from skl in the afternoon cauz ogls are to go cheer for the soccer boys in our skl cauz we got into top 4 at national level.. budden not realli wanting to go cauz i scared miss lessons.. budden cauz i think it is highly likely to be missing gp lessons.. so i think i will be going and have fun.. wahahax.. friday also dun need go skl cauz got polling day thingy and also talentime.. can rest le.. another long weekend.. yipee!!!

have to go study for chemistry spa le.. and nothing much for the day liao.. wish everyone i noe taking spa tml all the best and good luck.. we can do it de.. jia you!!! tata.. =)

today is mother's day.. went out with my sis and mum for dinner at causeway point.. my sis booked a table at kampong dayz and we went there for dinner.. the table was reserved for 5pm.. budden we reached too early.. so went shopping ard causeway point.. went off on my own cause my sis and my mum will be looking at their clothes and i will be redundant there.. so went ard walk walk on my own..

visited comics connection to look at model kits and comics.. also went to sportslink and royal sporting house to look ard.. thinking of buying a new badminton racket.. hahax.. though my current one is still fine.. but tempted to buy muscle power de racket.. hahax.. so i think i would be saving up to buy it ba.. wahahax.. also "owe" my frend a racket for his birthday.. guess i will be saving up also ba..

it was ard 5 when we went to the restaurant.. ordered quite alot of food.. kampong fried rice, beggar chicken, suan la tang, gailan, garlic spare ribs and hot plate tofu.. the food there realli quite nice.. hahax.. especially the garlic spare ribs and beggar chicken.. kampong dayz.. highly recommended.. hahax..

after which went home and watched tv.. watch xXx.. quite cool show i think.. haiz.. but have to go cheong my homework later.. analogue electronics de tutorial.. have to finish it tonight.. lucky no more organic assignments le.. pew... wahahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. nothing much le.. but here wanna wish all mothers a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! hahax.. tata.. =)

did practically nothing today.. nothing but watch tv.. and tv.. rotting in front of the tv for the whole day.. woke up late today and missed a show.. sian.. haiz.. but managed to watch the others..

then afternoon wanted to watch survivor exile island with my dad which he recorded.. budden suddenly was overwrote and everything gone.. sian la.. budden internet is a powerful tool.. so got to noe wat happened.. next week finale liao le.. sure damn exciting de.. also finished watching xian jian qi xia zhuan i recorded and watch the medallion which i recorded long long long ago.. hahax.. managed to finish watching those i recorded.. yeah!!!

tonight xian jian qi xia zhuan last episode le.. should be damn nice de.. hahax.. waiting for it.. hahax.. i guess i will try to finish hw tonight cauz tml mother's day maybe going out celebrate.. scared no time to do.. i guess there is nothing much le.. i will end here ba.. tata.. =)

today is vesak day.. a holidae!!! damn shiok la.. can sleep alot yesterday.. woke up in the morning to use com.. then discussed with my sis wat to get for my mum on mother's day.. think we will be getting her a cake then perhaps my sis will bring her out for dinner or something.. dunno wat to buy for her gift as yet.. haiz.. shang nao jing sia..

then went to a buddhist temple with my aunt to go bai bai.. since it was vesak day.. alot of ppl there.. and many ppl praying there also.. very crowded.. did some prayers ard the temple then went to my aunt's home for lunch.. popiah.. hahax.. vegetarian de.. quite nice..

actually wanted to go dota with my frend.. budden he got something on.. hahax.. so i stayed at home for the afternoon and managed to clear some of my comics.. hahax.. left 5 more to go.. will try to finish by this weekends.. but will also study and complete my tutorials..

at night went to senja area to play badminton as usual.. guess i de-proved alot.. ard 1 month nv play le.. cauz was sick and had really busy schedules lately.. haha.. so din play so well today.. guess have to exercise more often ba.. sian.. hahax..

nothing much for the day le.. i will end here.. tata.. =)

gundam seed today finally over le!!! yipee!!! last episode damn nice.. ended the war.. genesis destroyed.. providence destroyed.. peace restored.. fighting damn nice la.. meaningful also.. hahax.. have been chasing after this series for a long long time le.. today finally over.. damn nice la.. hahax.. going to watch gundam seed destiny.. also very nice.. wahahax.. waiting for the next episode on sunday!!!

today had boring day in skl.. nothing much.. physics tutorial, chemistry tutorial, maths lecture and gp.. tired sia.. but lucky got the long weekend due to vesak day.. damn shiok la.. can enjoy liao le.. can rest a bit also. but also have to use this chance to catch on some of the tutorials and some of the work that i have not completed.. hopefully can catch up ba.. jia you..

tml i think nothing much to do.. hopefully can ask frend out play dota.. hahax.. i guess thats all for today liao le.. tata.. =)

very tired today.. so busy today.. though onli got chemistry tutorial where we discussed skill A and maths tutorial, but the most demanding part of the day is definitely the chemistry test we had during lecture.. din do realli well i think.. anyhow do some qns.. and quite alot din complete.. worried i would fail the test.. but i tried hard to study liao le.. hopefully can pass ba..

today got back numerical analysis test.. i passed!!! though onli 8/15, but i passed liao.. i am happy with it.. din do so well cauz i see the qn wrongly and wasted lots of time.. thats why din have time to do the other qn i knew how to do.. sian la.. but i guess its a blessing that i can pass.. cauz have been passing my tests lately liao.. hopefully can keep it up and do better for maths, chemistry and physics.. yeah..

then had CLDDS.. still quite slack and nothing much.. new j1s coming in and they get their shirts and becoming actual members.. also assigning jobs for the chinese riddle competition for skl and national level.. the j2s dun have any work that we have to do.. but teachers said we have other more important jobs to do.. hahax.. to observe.. wahahax.. but i guess i may still volunteer to help next week ba.. hahax.. i enjoying working.. can keep myself busy and forgot about troubles.. hahax..

later still have to complete physics pract worksheet, analogue tutorial and chemistry periodicity tutorial.. i guess i will end here ba.. nothing else le.. tata..

sian la.. boring day.. chemistry lecture which i slept, gp then was physics practical where the teacher din come.. when i tried hard to finish the work he wanted to check.. sian.. also got maths retest today.. screwed up la.. sure fail.. sian..

nothing better to do today le.. except for study and study and stduy.. for tml's electrochem test.. so worried i will fail the test tml.. haiz.. budden cannot afford to fail.. thats why have to try my best to memorise everything and get everything into my brain.. dunno whether i can do it mah.. cauz my brain onli have a little MB of memory space.. sian.. realised jc2 life is all about studies and tests and exams then studies again.. this is a vicious cycle which doesn't seem to end.. sian la.. so tired..

tonight have to finish physics pract ws then study for test.. speaking of pract, chem and physics SPA is coming soon also la.. sian diao.. time so little and schedule so bloody packed.. haiz.. nothing much i can do.. guess i will end here ba.. tata..

today is a hectic day.. and screwed up day also.. had maths lect in the morning then pc.. after which was physics tutorial and lecture.. then was chemistry tutorial where we had SPA trial then kanna chase out of class cauz nv do work.. sian la.. stupid.. actually supposed to have maths test today de.. budden postponed to tml cauz someone else wanted to take tml.. but when i asked in the morning whether can tml mah the teacher said cannot.. wth.. sian la.. spent so much time reading today in the end take tml cauz dun wanna take alone.. haiz.. sian la..

later still have to do physics tutorial then study for the test.. when everyone else is so free today.. guess thats the retribution i get when i dun do my homework all the time.. have to slowly complete everything liao.. cauz teachers are chasing after our work already.. sian

while on the way back was thinking of some things.. then suddenly, all these came to my mind..

望着渐渐离去的背影，
我突然感慨万端。
以往患难与共的人，
以慢慢的从手中流失。

那时美好的一切，
似乎像海市蜃楼，
是虚幻的，
摸不着，猜不透。
犹如不曾存在过。

我已无力挽回，
又不肯放手。
事实已对我证明了一切，
看来是时候放手。。。

guess i will end with this ba.. some thoughts when going home today.. haiz.. nothing much le..

watch tv the whole morning then went to my frend's home to study today.. complete organic assignment 8 today with my frend.. then decided we would go dota.. played for 2 hrs then went to my aunt's home.. then now rotting at home..

going to do chemistry tutorial and physics tutorial later.. then study for numerical analysis test and spa trial.. hopefully can finish studying ba.. haiz.. sian.. nothing much liao.. gtg.. tata..

today doing practically nothing at home.. feel much much better le.. can eat things liao.. but still eating porridge.. haiz.. watched tv the whole of the morning.. then slept for the whole afternoon.. then watch tv again.. sianz.. felt so bored la.. nothing at i can do.. sianzzz..

haven do any homework today yet.. sian la.. got so much homework that is to be completed today.. and got numerical analysis test this coming monday.. also got spa trial 2.. have to try complete some homework by tonight.. so tml more free to study for tests and such..

nothing for the day le.. rountine stuffs.. quite meaningless to update le.. end here ba.. tata..

went to skl today.. din feel very good also.. diarrhea starting all over again this morning.. went in and out toilet a few times today in skl.. damn.. could barely concentrate in the lessons cauz of the gastric pain i had as i was unable to eat anything.. cheong back home immediately at 1pm becos really not feeling well.. then went to see the doctor in the afternoon again.. the doctor gave mi some gastric pills and some medicine to stop the diarrhea.. rested for the whole afternoon and feeling better right now.. though stomach still a bit bloated..

the doctor was one whom i seen from young.. hahax.. so chatted a bit before i left.. he said A levels is very difficult and cannot play a fool with it.. i guess wat he says is realli true.. time to buck up and study.. he also said that concepts are the basics for A levels.. if we dun get it, means we are finished.. guess i have to pay more attention in skl liao ba.. if not i will sure flunk my As de.. and so little time is left liao le.. haiz..

lagging behind in lessons liao.. cauz missed 2 days of lessons on wednesday and thursday.. hopefully can try to catch up on my work over the weekends.. and try to complete watever incomplete work that i have ba.. guess i will end here ba.. nothing much for today le.. tata.. =)

din go to skl today as well.. dun feel too good this morning.. had slight fever and body aches.. so decided to stay at home and rest for one more day.. feeling much much better today le.. can eat a bit of porridge liao.. and had more energy today le.. think tml can go back for lessons liao.. think i had missed out quite alot of lessons and may not be able to catch up.. but hopefully i can ba.. try to study at home..

later i think i will try to complete test 3 for physics.. din do it for the past few days cauz not feeling well and din have the energy to do it.. i guess i will be able to complete it today ba.. then will also study for the numerical analysis test.. in case the retest is tml.. but hopefully can drag to next week so can have more time to revise and study..

guess i wun be doing anything more ba.. juz resting and study for the day.. hopefully can complete the things i wanna do today.. end here ba.. tata.. =)

din go to skl today.. because got stomach flu yesterday.. feeling bad.. thought it was ok yesterday.. cauz onli had a bit of diarrhea.. budden when night comes everything turned for the worse.. started to vomit badly and keep having diarrhea.. din sleep the whole night.. keep going in and out of the toilet.. onli endured the excruciating till this morning where i had body aches all over the body and the pain was unbearable.. mum brought mi to the doctor who administered i got stomach flu and gave mi an injection.. haven eaten anything for 1 full day.. this feeling sux..

din do any homework at all today.. and din study anything also.. cauz din have any energy to do homework and study.. tml still got numerical analysis test.. dunno whether can take mah.. i will sure fail if i go and take tml.. budden i got mc for 2 days.. so thinking whether wanna go skl tml anot.. dun realli wanna go cauz i wanna rest..

haiz.. i think i will end here ba.. no energy to continue liao.. tata..

skl's noodles plus chilli = diarrhea and vomit inducing food.. nv nv try that in skl.. it may simply mean u have to rot in the toilet for a long long time.. i experienced it le.. have u??? better not.. wahahax..

feeling sick right now.. having a stomachache and keep having the feeling of wanting to vomit.. sianz.. must have eaten something wrong.. think might be the noodles i had during break which i added lots and lots of chilli.. and i guess the chilli might have gone bad.. i think i wun add more chilli in future le.. arghhh..

nothing much today.. had gp, physics lecture, maths tutorial, civics and chemistry make up lesson.. managed to finish most of the work that were supposed to be discussed today.. especially chemistry.. managed to complete all the work miss goh assigned.. i think i am glad about it.. hahax..

tml will be a slacker day.. lesser lessons.. got maths tutorial and chem tutorial.. guess i will finish the homework later tonight ba.. try to finish all of them.. guess i will end here ba.. tata.. =)

nothing matters anymore.. and i start to feel refreshed for studies.. after so much things.. i guess i have seen the light.. nothing can distract mi anymore.. i have seen the truth to many things these few days.. and i am so happy about it.. i had sorted out my thinking.. i guess i can focus my attention on studies le.. after thinking and i wun be affected anymore by stuffs..

did nothing much today apart from sorting out my thinking.. and managed to clear my comic again.. hahax.. then went to buy bus concession and rotted in front of the computer for the whol afternoon..

guess i will be doing homework for the rest of the evening and night ba.. have to complete physics test, maths tutorials and chemistry organic assignment.. think i can finish all by tonight.. cauz will be putting my attention on studies le.. end here ba.. tata.. =)

guess nothing matters anymore.. i guess i dun need any form of sympathy or wat.. i dun need frends anymore.. ignore mi if u can.. heck care about mi.. i am someone with no significance.. so do ignore mi.. nothing matters anymore.. everything about friendship and things is fake.. and it doesn't last..

so much for trust between frends.. and so much for seeing thru someone.. but all these doesn't matter anymore.. world is cruel..