today was a great great day.. very fun sia.. hahax.. today woke up early in the morning to watch anime again on youtube.. damn shiok.. think i going to complete the anime in no time.. going to watch another one joel lent mi the last time but i din finish one also..

ard noon time, went out with joel to catch a movie.. decided to meet at 12 noon.. hahax.. we decided to go causeway to catch the movie cauz dun wanna go to the usual places.. hahax.. reached there quite early ard 12.30 liddat.. then we went to cathay and see got wat movies available..

looked thru the available movies and decided to watch a trailer.. actually din realli like trailers.. cauz like no fun liddat.. looked thru the movie for a while before we decided to watch PULSE.. hahax.. then went to walk ard causeway and had lunch before catching the movie.. also went to buy some sushi to eat inside the cinema and was almost late.. but luckily made it in time..



















the show was good.. hahax.. budden a bit of no trill.. quite expected wat will happen.. i thought it would be those realli scary kind de.. budden not scared at all.. wahahax.. nonetheless the plot was good and the story was good also.. its about this some sort of virus that is spreading throughout the whole city through computers and high tech devices.. budden this is not a virus but beings from another dimension which is causing this.. ppl with internet connections or stuff will be affect and their lives will be sucked out of them and they would commit suicide..

the main character mattie and her frends were part of this and eventually all her frends lost their lives cauz of the beings.. mattie's boyfriend managed to contact the beings as he found a new frequency of internet connection.. and wanted to create something new but he lost his life cauz of this.. eventually mattie along with another guy dextor who bought mattie bf computer tried shutting down the program using the virus mattie's bf created but they failed and almost lost their lives.. they had no choice but to move out of the invaded city to areas where there are no high tech devices at all.. the the story ended.. realli quite a nice show.. wahahax.. budden i and joel kept laughing at the shocking parts and almost got scolded.. hahax..

after the show walked ard causeway for a while then took 187 back.. went to joel's home to watch some anime and he gave mi some anime also.. then chatted alot and looked thru the animes.. also played with joel's dog terry and it was super cute.. hahax.. had a nice time at his home and went home ard 8 liddat..

today realli had lots of fun.. hahax.. i doubt in the next month will have time to enjoy myself liao le.. will be too busy studying also.. hopefully after As can have fun ba.. hahax.. gtg le.. quite tired liao le.. flying off!!! tata!!! =)

P.S. 40 days till A levels..

sian.. i slacked again.. reading comics and watching anime on youtube the whole day sia.. thats why computers are like drugs.. u will get addicted to it and u can practically do anything using it.. and u can find almost anything u wan from the internet.. woo.. i'm such a IT savvy sia.. hahax..

i guess i should start studying a bit today liao.. complete my chemistry paper 3 de qns.. so when the teachers go thru i will understand.. yeah.. have to start studying everyday from now on.. though now still slacking period budden cannot drag until next week.. from next week on have to work 10 times harder liao le.. and it means no more reading comics and anime-ing liao le.. haiz..

guess i will stop here ba.. thats all for today le.. tml might be going out to watch movie with my frend.. dunno leh.. frend said he was thinking of watching trailer.. budden i thinking of watching the jackie chan movie.. hahahax.. tml then decide ba.. wahahahax.. gtg study.. flying off!!!

here are some pics i found.. damn cute.. wahahax..





























woo.. babies.. damn cute sia.. wahahax..

















P.S. 41 days till A levels..

yesterday while going jp with bin hao and hao chun.. was discussing about grad night thingy.. about the tickets.. i was thinking about it.. i got the ticket.. but do i have a purpose there? haiz.. pondering over it.. dunno la.. see wat to do till then ba.. maybe have to sell the ticket also if i cannot get out from btmc then also.. haiz..

i guess i have forget about all these liao le.. studying gave mi less time to think about stupid stuffs and make my life more meaningful.. i think its realli a paradox.. hahax.. when i always grumble that studying suxs and stuff.. irony.. wahahax.. starting to feel the insignificance of myself le..

i dunno why.. whenever i am not occupied with studies or not thinking of studies, my mind will go haywire and think of stuffs that i ought to have forgotten and placed aside.. cauz all these had been bothering for months.. in fact a yr.. i dunno.. i juz can't let go.. and i regret.. i complain and everything juz starts all over again.. haiz.. such a vicious cycle i can nv jump out of.. i am not depressed, but i juz feel that something missing in my skl life.. i'm not deprived of it, but i can nv get it.. dunno la.. guess i am deceiving myself all these while..

this morning i was sms-ing my senior zi cheng as he wanted mi to plan a outing for our og cauz he wanted to meet up with us before he goes taiwan for training.. i decided to do it cauz i had it in mind also.. as i was planning, i looked thru my file and saw the contact lists in my file.. and i started to feel sad..

i was also thinking of planning outing for my first 3 months class.. budden i din want to in the end.. actually i dun have the guts now le.. i dunno wat i can do.. i have lost all my confidence in facing the ppl i treasure in the past and till now.. i realli dunno wat i can say to them.. and i have drifted apart from them.. i'm realli sad as i reminisce about the past where i still had the confidence to organise something for everyone to get together and have fun.. but i am worried i will do the wrong things now and offend everyone like i did these few months.. i guess i should juz forget about all these and get on with my life.. shouldn't be too optimistic anymore..

i guess its realli time i give up liao le.. cannot afford to be distracted once again.. have to start cheong for studies once again.. and after As i would have a new life.. though mundane but at least wun have to worry bout such stuffs.. but i have to start learning how to treat ppl all over again so as not to make the same mistakes..

guess i will close this chapter of my depression story ba.. time to get back to reality liao.. actually i dunno wat i was toking about.. juz wanted to let off some steam.. yeah.. back to things that happen today..

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wooo.. damn shiok today.. rest at home din study or anything.. also din go to skl as i planned.. apparently i am too tired and too lazy liao le.. had a good time resting.. hahax.. manga-ing and anime-ing the whole day.. watched a few episodes of anime and also cleared many of my comics that i haven read becos of the exams.. one word to describe my feelings now.. shiok.. wahahax..

guess will be going to lot 1 to buy comics later on ba.. then can read again.. wahahax.. today i think dedicated to rest de.. like my junior said.. car also need to add petrol de.. direct translation from chinese.. actually should say car needs to refuel de.. wahahax.. so juz rest today and then start to cheong again tml.. yeah.. also have to put my heart and soul now to plan for my og outing.. hopefully can let zi cheng have a fun time to catch up with our og peeps.. =)

i guess i will end here ba.. going lot 1 liao le.. and tml going to skl to start mugging for As.. let studies occupy my whole mind now so i wun think of stuffs.. yeah.. flying off!!!

P.S. 42 days till A levels..

wOoOo.. prelims finally ended.. can be relieved from the stress for a moment.. think i will do very badly for my papers.. really badly.. this is an indication that i have to work 10 times harder for A levels.. haiz.. sian lo..

today had chemistry paper 1 and 2.. screwed both of them up.. big time.. budden forget it la.. time to look forward and study hard for my subjects.. have to cheong together.. so wun do badly for any one of the subjects.. yeah.. time to work hard again.. hahax.. really reluctant to say that.. wahahax..

today stayed in skl a while with hao chun.. cauz he wanted to study a bit before going play.. budden i slacked the whole time.. din study at all.. bad move.. cauz i think i might lose momentum.. budden i hope this rest can give mi more energy to study hard for As.. yeah..

ard 1 plus went to west coast entertainment centre there play pool with hao chun and bin hao.. quite fun.. enjoyed myself alot.. hahax.. budden the two of them realli pro.. so kanna thrash by them in many matches.. budden managed to win some also.. wahahax.. quite fun..

after that went jp play initial D.. haiz.. too lousy liao.. kanna thrash again.. cauz first time play.. hahax.. let them earn free game sia.. sian.. nvm.. hahax.. first time onli.. perhaps next time will be better.. wahahax.. then went home with bin hao and now rotting in front of the com.. sian..

still deciding whether to go skl study tml anot.. sian.. thinking of studying leh.. budden after exams like no mood liddat.. jia liat.. budden think would be going ba.. cauz realli have to buck up and study.. yeah.. so i guess i would go ba.. also having holidays till next monday.. hopefully wun waste time and can study a bit in these holidays.. i guess i will end here ba.. gtg le.. flying off!!! tata..

P.S. 43 days till A levels..

woohoo.. my 2ooth post on blogger.. hahax.. have been blogging for quite a long time liao le.. hahax.. and blogging has been part of my life for a long time liao le.. hahax.. all the different emotions and feelings i have are recorded on my blog.. seems like a place where i kept all my memories.. hahax..

anyways tml is last 2 papers for chemistry and prelims will be over le.. yay!!! budden i noe i wun do well for my prelims.. actually i noe i will screw up big time.. budden i think its a good time to reflect on why i din do well and study hard once again for A levels..

think tml will play play a bit after studying in skl after the papers.. yeah.. perhaps may be going pool or wat.. relax a bit after exams.. yeah.. then full force cheong for A levels liao le.. think i will stop here ba.. gtg study for chemistry.. hopefully can do well.. so can make up for the lousy performance in paper 3.. yeah.. flying off!!! tata..

P.S. 44 days till A levels..

sian.. i slack the whole of yesterday.. din study at all.. jia liat.. last 2 papers liao le.. cannot slack liao.. think will be starting to study at noon.. all the way till the night.. cannot afford to waste any time liao le.. have to understand and practice many questions for statistics and the remaining topics that i have not studied.. yeah.. gtg study le.. flying off!!! tata..

P.S. 45 days till A levels..

haiz.. this week is realli tiring.. but i guess its still ok ba.. yesterday slacked the whole day.. was too tired to continue studying.. slept for a long long time yesterday night.. budden i guess i have to continue studying today.. dun think i would be going to skl ba.. too tired le and a bit waste of time to travel during exam period.. so i guess would be studying at home..

exams seriously sux.. i tend to become a bit crazy in the mind and some things i do will juz go bersek and i would do weird weird stuffs.. and sometimes even do some idiotic stuffs.. yeah.. to xun kai if u see this i wanna say i'm sorry again for that prank i played on you that day.. so sorry.. i din mean to cauz u trouble de.. really sorry.. and to my frends if i said anything funny or offending, plz forgive mi cauz apparently the exams had made mi gone bonkers.. wahahax..

i'm realli appreciative to the fact that i have my frends supporting mi and asking mi to study right now.. and also ask mi not to give up.. it was my role actually.. budden now when i started to slacken down my frends who study with mi started encouraging mi to work hard like i said.. and i realli appreciate this fact.. woohoo.. thanks hao chun and bin hao.. for studying with mi all this while.. thanks for the time we spent studying hard and mugging together.. yeah..

i guess i have to end here le.. not time to blog so much.. hahax.. gtg le to study hard for the remaining chemistry and maths paper which i totally dun have faith in.. yeah.. good luck to all my frends too!!! persevere on!!! flying off!!! =)

P.S. 46 days till A levels..

sian.. here to officially announce i failed my chemistry paper 3 BIG TIME.. never do option topic, the rest also never do.. should say mind block dunno how to do.. sian la.. guess i have to bang on physics tml le.. and also on maths.. have to try my best to do well.. gtg le.. have to mug for physics so can pass.. flying off..

P.S. 48 days till A levels..

indeed screwed up my maths.. sian.. gone case liao.. means i have to get super good grades for paper 2 then i might pass.. sian la.. tml chemistry and friday physics.. mugging suxs.. sian.. gtg study le.. flying off!!!

P.S. 49 days till A levels..

saw a shooting star today.. cool.. wahahax.. mugging still in progress.. think might fail the maths paper tml.. jia liat.. full time mugger now.. sian.. gtg study le.. tata..

P.S. 50 days till A levels..

haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. zero day to prelims liao le.. thats tml!!! arghhh.. hate it.. haven fully prepare for prelims yet.. not yet study for maths and chemistry.. onli like gone thru 1/4 of the syllabus for physics.. think i gone case liao le.. like a book i saw in the lebrary yesterday titled "gone case".. think i would be a good character in that book.. haiz..

i not feeling demoralised though.. though i feel worried la.. even if i flunk i wun give up for my A levels.. like my frend told mi today if i give up now its like 17 yrs of my life wasted liao le.. i will try my best to pass.. yeah.. i wun give up..

here juz wanna wish all my frends taking prelims tml all the best and good luck.. jia you and all the best.. dun burn out ok? take care!!! =)

P.S. 52 days till A levels..

have to cheong for my maths today.. cheong.. if not sure fail.. jia liat.. haiz.. think should be going to JE library study ba.. senior offered to help mi.. yeah.. gtg le.. tata..

P.S. 1 day to prelims and 54 days till A levels..

wa sia.. 2 days to prelims and i haven touch maths yet.. gone case.. onli managed to finish some chemistry today.. sian sian sian.. haiz.. dunno how to pass my prelims sia.. kao.. budden cannot demoralised.. study as much as i can.. hopefully can pass ba..

P.S. 2 days till prelims and 55 days till A levels..

no time left liao.. jia liat jia liat.. have a feeling i might juz flunk prelims.. haiz... getting worried.. budden cannot be demoralised.. juz do wat i can.. gtg.. tata..

P.S. 3 days till prelims and 56 days till A levels..

din study much today.. slack quite a lot today.. then tml gonna waste a day for some stupid medical checkup.. haiz.. have to pia tonight or on friday ba.. no time to lose liao le.. sian sian sian.. very very tired liao le.. like my frend said.. now we are full time al-chemist.. or al-physicist.. lame la.. in other words.. full time student.. sian la.. onli thing is we dun get paid.. except allowance la.. haiz.. blogging lame and boring stuffs.. can see the state i am in now.. gtg study le.. flying off.. tata..

P.S. 4 days till prelims and 57 days till A levels..

today was good.. studied quite a lot.. though distracted in the morning and din concentrate hard, budden managed to concentrate fully when my frend came and we studied together at the benches area.. finished quite a bit for physics and also started reading thru chemistry de thermodynamics.. yeah.. cool..

yesterday heard news that thr croc hunter steve irwin passed away cauz of an attack by a sting ray.. i was devastated and really sad.. cauz he had been my idol in secondary skl days and till now.. cauz of his undying love for wildlife and his great contribution to the world for bringing nature to everyone in the world.. he had left a legacy behind him and many would remember him.. may he rest in peace and he would be my idol forever..




















i guess thats all for today le ba.. gtg study le.. flying off..
P.S. 5 days till prelims and 58 days till A levels..

studied in skl today.. from morning till evening.. din accomplish as much.. cauz wasn't concentrating well enough.. have to concentrate better tml.. and going to finish many stuffs tonight.. yeah.. saw my first 3 months frends wui siong and michelle at JP.. nice to see them after so long.. hahax.. chatted a bit then go home le.. hope next time got chances to catch up again.. gtg.. flying off.. tata..

P.S. 6 days till prelims and 59 days till A levels..

7 days till prelims and 60 days till A levels..

gtg study in skl later.. if not at home sure cannot concentrate.. yeah.. have to use my time wisely liao.. thursday will be wasted for some idiotic medical checkup.. so have to squeeze many things in the remaining days.. really have to go on hiatus liao.. have to study real real hard.. push myself to the max.. even if it means i am going to burn out after the exams.. i think i will continue to study in skl immediately after prelims.. cannot afford to lose time liao.. gtg.. flying off.. think wun be blogging for the next 2 weeks or so.. tata..

P.S. 8 days till prelims and 61 days till A levels..

mugging in progress.. 9 days till prelims.. haven study yet.. gone case liao.. but i will nv give up.. still got 10 dasy including today.. still can make a difference.. yeah.. flying off.. tata!!!

P.S. 9 days till prelims and 63 dasy till A levels..