zZzZz....

such a "great" week sia.. haizZz.. so much things happened this week sia.. very very hectic and a very very tiring week.. so tired sia.. despite the fact that i had the vesak day break, i dunno why i feel so weak.. so drained out.. izzit becos of the 16km route march this tuesday??? or izzit the ippt which i failed today??? i dunno leh..

haizZz.. feel so helpless this week man.. realli helpless.. been thinking about alot alot of things.. alot alot of things on my mind right now.. so many things for mi to consider right now.. so many things for mi to do right now.. i feel so powerless.. feel so weak.. feel that i dun have the ability to accomplish wat i wanna do sia.. this feeling sux man.. haizZz..

there are so many things which i dunno how to handle at all.. it has been a tough and demanding week sia.. so many things happened.. so much failures has occured to mi.. and i dun think i can take the stress.. and i realli start to doubt myself liao le.. doubt the fact whether i can face more failures in the future.. haizZz.. wat should i do??? can someone give mi an ans??? i dun think so ba.. cauz onli i can unlock the lock which i have secured on myself..

i start to dislike myself once again liao le.. i reverting back to my old self again liao le.. that insensitive and straight forward bastard going ard and kao bei ppl.. haizZz.. guess is high time i wake myself up liao le.. zheng xiang arh.. dun turn back into someone which everyone loathes and hates.. wake up man wake up man.. arghhhhh!!!

haizZz.. dun think i should write anymore ba.. think i should go figure out my thoughts liao le.. end here ba.. flying off..

will anyone understand the pain in mi???

haizZz

back at home liao le.. cauz vesak day.. get to book out yesterday night.. woots.. but the book out isn't so great afterall.. have to book in again tonight liao le.. and now coughing and having a bad bad bad flu sia.. and i endured thru the 16km route march with the flu and cough.. painful experience.. plus the skin on my palm came off liao during SOC yesterday.. haizZz.. juz suxs..

this coming saturday ippt liao le.. dun think can pass in the first place.. now the more i think i cannot pass liao le.. sick and extremely painful hand.. cannot run cannot pull up.. sianzZz.. haizZz.. heck care la.. since i not aimming for command skl..

last night went clementi to find zhen lin, vincent, hock yong, anna, jing shi and wei xia after my book out.. cauz vin ask mi play pool.. budden onli get to play one game cauz i book out very late and can onli meet them round 11.. after that jiu went home liao le..

haizZz.. thanks to my stupid mouth, said something wrong again liao le.. haizZz.. nv think about others de feeling.. so insensitive of mi.. haizZz.. noe is my fault.. cauz is i say de.. haizZz.. dunno wat to do also.. haizZz.. my must i say the wrong things at the wrong time??? haizZz.. why din i care bout other's de feelings??? i think i deserved to be scolded sia.. haizZz.. sorry worx anna.. sorry i din cared about ur feelings.. forgive mi ok??? promise no more next time liao le worx.. sorry sorry!

haizZz.. think i will stop here ba.. no mood to carry on liao le.. think going rest liao.. taking medicine later.. flying off..

back from SITEST...

finally released from the tekong prison and now back to civilisation once again.. it has been a hell of a week.. very very very hectic and tiring.. all the activities came one after another this week.. had grenade live throw which i threw a blind.. haizZz.. then came sitest.. woots..

sitest was completely tiring.. crazy in fact.. had 12km route march to the camp site and started learning new things to help us in our mission.. but the fast march every morning is like crazy la.. lol.. nonetheless sitest was fun for mi.. many new things that are useful i have learnt.. there wasn't much of stress cauz i wasn't aimming for command skl liao le..

recently has been thinking about alot alot of things.. about my life and about myself.. i am planning to retake As.. hahax.. dunno why suddenly have this plan.. but i think i started to think more about my future liao le.. thats was partly why i gave up the idea of going command skl.. i think this 2 yrs is time for mi to think bout my life liao le.. wat i realli realli want in my life.. and its realli time to do it liao le..

last night i had somehow a debate with my section mate charles.. toking about things happening in army.. and him telling mi about my negative parts.. wat he said i already knew.. cauz i had close confidants telling mi bout that liao le.. but i guess he knew mi onli for a short time.. he cannot understand mi at all.. and i am not ready to say things bout myself..

yes.. ppl should be optimistic.. we should change our mindset.. but at the end of the day, nothing can be changed instantaneously.. time is the crucial factor in this game.. and i guess its also the ppl.. somehow some ppl i can connect immediately and open up to them.. but that is onli a few onli.. my section mate is helpful.. but he is giving too much.. we are humans afterall.. we are not immortal.. we are not all mighty.. there are some things that are realli up to thyself to solve.. others cannot help..

army indeed changes boys to men.. its realli a period of hardship that boys can mature and grow up, starting to think more about their lives and themselves.. to mi army is somehow good.. apart from the crazy training.. hope i can get myself a answer to all my qns soon ba..

i think i will stop here ba.. going out to swim later liao le.. hahax.. a hot hot weather.. shiok to swim.. wahahax.. meeting up with my senior 2LT zi cheng later.. lol.. wahahax.. flying off!!!

GREAT WEEKEND

this weekend has been a great weekend for mi.. very fun and enjoyed myself very very much.. first time in the week i felt happy in fact.. cauz was realli bothered by my injury and bothered over the fact that i missed field camp.. haizZz.. was feeling bad for the past week..

but on saturday went out with my frends wei xia, hock yong, zhen lin, vincent, anna, jing shi and kwang yee to go sentosa play play.. lol.. it was very very fun.. took the new monotrail to sentosa.. hahax.. first time i take worx.. very fun.. reached there ard noon and started playing volleyball all those.. couldn't go into the water cauz my wound not totally recovered yet..

yesterday keep making fun of vincent and keep on ka jiao-ing him.. hahax.. so fun to "play" with him sia.. hahax.. bury him in the sand and throwing him into the water.. also gave him new hair styles.. LOL.. its realli fun fun fun.. hahax.. shall upload some photos of wat we did to him.. hahax..


























poor ika buried to the ground.. LOL.. hahax..

the poor ika kanna throw into the water.. lol.

also did ika and fish hunting close to the evening when we were about to leave sentosa.. hahax.. it was fun.. hahax.. wei xia unleashes the kid in her and hunted keep trying to catch the fishes in the water.. hahax.. she managed to catch a few and also baby squid = baby ika.. lol.. thats why vincent got suaned again.. LOL.

at night went to marina bay to have steamboat.. hahax.. meet carey, yih pei, yih hao and xue pan over there cauz they were early and we are late.. lol.. yesterday din eat much cauz of my knee injury acting suddenly.. but the steamboat was still realli fun.. chat and joked alot together.. hahax.. on the way back home we practically laughed from marina to jurong east.. cauz we started to joke bout vincent again.. lol.. the trip yesterday as great and it realli lifted my spirits..

today went out to celebrate shi hua's bdae.. went for steamboat at marina also.. hahax.. 2 days in a row eating steamboat.. but ok la.. since is bdae celebration.. ate alot today during the steamboat.. its also nice to joke with ah wong and yih hao also.. hahax.. after which we went back to batok to cut the cake.. lol.. here are some of the photos of the bdae girl.. and also the group photo we took..























the bdae girl cutting the cake..




















the group photo we took.. hahax..

realli had fun this weekend.. hopefully next book out also so fun.. think i will stop here ba.. super tired liao le.. KO liao le.. think i will blog again another time ba.. flying off!!!

sianzZz sianzZz sianzZz...

today did nothing much in the morning.. came online for a while then went to polyclinic clean my wound.. waited for a long time to see doctor and clean my wound.. but one good thing is that the doctor said that my wound was nicely stitched and the scar wun be too bad afterall.. phew.. quite a relief..

got back home in the afternoon.. had lunch and online again.. realised there was one msg in my inbox.. its a friendster comment i received from my colleague amanada.. wat she said realli made mi disappointed with myself.. i realised that i have not been asking my frends and colleagues out as i have promised to do so.. ben and reggie also told mi this before.. and i realli cannot give them a good ans..

all i can say is that i have little book out time and most of the time ppl ask mi out instead of i ask ppl out.. i think this is realli an excuse.. its not a good reason.. i din make an effort to ask.. i did not try and i make a conclusion that ppl are busy and will not be free to go out together.. its realli assumptions that i make.. and i am ashamed that i even promised my colleagues i will try to maintain the frendship i have with them when i am not even trying..

i think its realli time i should stop giving myself excuses and realli time to fulfill my promise to my frends liao.. its realli time to do so liao le.. like wat i believe, i think its realli choice.. and i have now made a choice to fulfill my promise.. to all my frends.. sorry i somewhat broke the promise i given u all.. hope u all can forgive mi.. from today onwards, no matter how busy i am, i will make an effort to maintain the frendship i have with u all.. thats a promise and i will not break it ever again..

i think i will stop here ba.. a bit tired le.. going sleep perhaps.. tml gonna book in again liao le.. haizZz.. flying off!!! =)

ARGHHH!!!!

i have nv been so down in my mood ever since i finished my exams last yr.. feeling so empty and frustrated right now.. and i dunno how to express it out man.. this realli realli sux man.. even as i am writing this post i dunno wat i am trying to say also.. arghh.. this feeling is so disgusting..

why am i so unlucky to be injured at this point of time??? why must i be sent home??? why can't i go thru field camp together with my fellow frends??? this is realli exasperating.. i am nearing to POP liao le.. even if i wun be posted to a good vocation, i still wanna go thru everything in BMT.. now i missed field camp which is the most important part of BMT.. this feeling sux man..

i noe accidents wun be called an accident if we noe when it will happen.. but i realli dunno why it must happen to me.. i cannot go thru all the shyt and hardships with my platoon and bunk mates.. it also means i missed my chance to realli bond and connect with them liao le.. arghhh.. i doubt anyone can understand how i feel.. i keep asking myself why but i can never get an ans..

i might have to recourse.. it doesn't matter.. cauz i still serve the same period of time.. but wat i realli cannot let go is the frendship that i have forged in raven.. i started to bond with my frends.. the thought of the fact that i cannot pass out with my platoon mates juz sux man.. even if i managed to pass out, there will still be this regret that i have not realli completed BMT.. haizZz.. realli feeling so bad right now.. and this is realli a prob i cannot solve.. no matter how hard i try.. haizZz..

i realli wan to tok to someone.. but i dunno who i can tok to.. i dun wanna trouble my frends.. haizZz.. think i juz have to learn to accept reality once again ba.. but the world is cruel.. reality hurts.. flying off......

ATT C..

sianzZz diao.. i am now attending C.. attending C is for ppl who are realli sick in tekong to be send home to rest.. i am not sick.. but injured.. sianzZz diao.. got to attend C for 5 days.. meaning u will be grounded at home and not allowed to do anything except staying at home.. sianzZz..

the past week has been a easy yet tiring week.. had live range where we got to shoot real ammo.. all we had to do was to wait and wait and wait and wait for out turn to come to shoot.. the shooting took 2 days and i think i managed to pass live range.. and i was looking forward to field camp..

soon field camp came.. and saturday was the first day of field camp.. completely shagged that day.. had 8km route march to our camp site.. then had urban training and built basha in the evening for the night.. the day was extremely tiring.. but managed to get thru it..

second day come.. morning had field PT.. followed by urban training again.. that was when the unfortunate event occured.. when cheonging across a "danger area", i fell down.. i dunno why i fell cauz i cannot feel that i tripped on anything or neither my boots slipped.. i fell flat on the ground and immediately took off my helmet.. to my horror, blood was all over my helmet.. and i am dripping blood.. got a realli deep cut on my chin.. my SIR was stunned.. so were the medics.. cauz i was DRIPPING blood..

was sent to the medical centre for treatment.. budden in the end was sent out to changi hospital for treatment instead.. had 5 stitches.. luckily it was below my chin.. cannot reali be seen.. haizZz.. went back tekong to sleep in bunk.. i was the onli 1 in the whole company sleeping in bunk.. freakishly scared la.. but managed to get thru the night..

booked out and now back at night.. zZz.. cannot do anything sia.. haizZz.. attend C means i miss the whole of field camp liao le.. and i might not be able to pass out of bmt and might have to recourse.. sobs.. why must accidents happen at this point of time??? why why why??? but it cannot be helped ba.. an accident cannot be predicted.. guess i have to accept fate ba.. have to recourse recourse lo.. haizZz.. but realli cannot bare my platoon and bunk mates.. juz got to noe them better nia.. haizZz.. seriously dunno how to describe how i feel now.. haizZz..

think i stop here ba.. dun feel like carrying on liao le.. if got mood blog again next time ba.. gtg le.. feeling sleepy.. flying off......

woots.. it has been hell of a week.. finally book out liao yesterday.. budden the anticipation towards book out has been lessened.. dunno why.. seem to be like juz another book out liao le.. haizZz.. maybe realli getting used to the monotonous life in army liao le.. so feeling nothing much..

but i still had fun during these 2 days of book out.. yesterday went out with my colleagues anna, vincent, melvin, zhen lin and jing shi to walk walk have dinner and play pool.. hahax.. sianzZz sia.. cut my hair before book out.. anna and vincent laughed like hell when they saw my extremely short hair.. sobs.. haizZz.. nvm ba.. used to being botak liao.. wahahax..

then today went causeway watch spiderman 3 with wei xia, vincent and jing shi.. finally.. watch spiderman 3 liao le.. hahax.. the movie was good.. nice.. and some phrases in the ending realli caught mi.. cauz those are realli my convictions and beliefs in life.. after the movie met anna and kwang yee and went ichiban grab a bite.. then went off to meet my mum and sis for dinner..

this 2 days was fun and meaning.. and realli realli start to appreciate everyone ard mi liao le.. all my frends and my family.. hardly got the time to realli go out with them liao le.. simply too little time and freedom liao le.. and i hardly think these days liao le.. juz following orders all the while.. thats why had a rough time last night when chatting with my junior xun kai.. guess its realli time to start thinking again liao le.. wahahax..

i dunno leh.. i realli feel helpless recently.. many things i wanna do.. many things i hope to do.. frendships i wanna maintain.. relationships with ppl i wanna secure.. but i am realli helpless.. i realli dun have enough time to do wat i yearn to do.. but i wun give up trying.. cauz giving up on something is the last thing i would ever do in my life.. cauz everyone have a choice in their life.. i will definitely try my very best to maintain the frendship i have.. i will..

think i will stop here ba.. somehow dunno wat i am blabbering about liao.. hahax.. have to stop writing crap.. hahax.. will onli be back in 2 weeks time.. going field camp liao le.. confinement in tekong again.. sianzZz.. but i will pull thru.. blog again in 2 weeks time.. flying off!

1st book in.....

sianzZz.. booking in in a few hours time liao.. haizZz.. back to tekong "chalet" liao le.. hahax.. i am so "excited" sia.. can anyone feel my excitement??? zZz.. sianzZz diaozZz.. the thought of having to go back tekong will onli drive one nuts man.. tekong juz sux.. gonna be taken away from civilisation for another 3 to 4 days time liao le.. one word to describe: sianzZz..

haven pack my bag yet.. have to go pack liao le.. so many things to bring back to camp.. think my shoulder is going to break when i reach tekong sia.. haizZz.. tekong juz sux man.. haizZz.. sia la.. onli went in for 3 weeks feel this way liao le.. how to survive the rest of the time??? sianzZz..

ending here liao ba.. back for more boring update in my next book out.. which seems a long long long way away sia.. zZz.. flying off.....

thought i would have to rot my precious book out day today le.. budden in the end din.. wahahax.. it turned out to be a good day instead.. lol.. went to buy some army stuffs in the afternoon.. then met anna and vincent to go for dinner.. hahax..

actually wanted to ask them out de.. but thought they wun be free today.. hahax.. so decided to abort the idea.. hahax.. vincent called mi and asked mi whether i wanted to go dinner.. hahax.. so decided to meet them cauz i got nothing much to do also.. wahahax..

went westmall to get some ziplock bags from the army shop over there.. sianzZz.. regretted not buying at beach road on saturday.. sianzZz.. met anna at westmall in which we took train to boon lay to met vincent.. go sakae.. wahahax.. 3rd time i eating sakae on my book out days liao worx.. wahahax..

met my ex manager irene there.. hahax.. good to see familiar faces once again after so long.. and its nice to be going out with my colleagues after so long.. chatting and playing with them.. stealing away vincent's handphone and suaning him.. hahax.. its juz great that they are willing to take time off to meet up today.. and i realli enjoyed myself alot today.. catching up with frends and joking ard.. its juz a bliss..

like anna said on her blog.. i also missed the times when we all go out in big groups to go for dinner or juz go out play.. everyone is busy with their own things.. be it studies or work.. whereas i'm in army.. hardly got the time to go out with everyone liao.. realli miss the times sia.. dunno when have to opportunity to meet up in big groups again liao le.. haizZz.. hopefully got chance ba..

tml gotta book in again liao.. sianzZz.. happy times are juz so so so short.. so fast going back to tekong liao.. the place without life.. haizZz.. now onli looking forward to the next book out.. hahax.. when i haven even book in yet.. LOL! think i will end here ba.. very tired liao le.. flying off!!!

sianzZz

haizZz.. cannot believe wat i am doing on my precious book out days.. rotting at home sia.. yucks.. yesterday all i did was to rot at home and use the com for the day.. and eating non stop.. omg.. i wasted one good day liao le.. today also dunno wat to do sia.. dun wanna waste another precious book out day liao le..

erm.. having this funny feeling going thru my mind right now.. i want to ask my frends to go chill out and go out have fun.. budden realli dunno who to ask.. how to ask sia.. my mind is like totally blank.. dunno wat i am thinking about sia.. haizZz.. this suxs man.. my whole brain is realli empty right now.. dun wanna think about anything sia..

dunno why is this happening to mi.. haizZz.. hope i can recover from this "illness" soon ba.. gtg le.. going buy some stuffs for next book in later.. flying off..

yesterday went out finally during my very first book out.. hahax.. long long time nv go out walk ard civilian world liao le.. hahax.. the feeling is juz great.. hahax.. went beach road in the afternoon with my senior zi cheng to get some stuff i need for army.. sianzZz sia.. waste money cauz apparently dun have time to go e-mart get the items.. haizZz.. no choice lo.. have to waste money..

rotted at home using the computer for the whole afternoon.. its realli a blessing to juz sit down in front of my com doing nothing.. and its juz great to be at home.. the comfort the everything.. computer and music.. hahax..

in the evening went to westmall eat sakae.. apparently its becos its ben's last day and he asked mi to go support him.. so asked jing shi vincent and zhen lin to go along.. hahax.. reached there ard 7 plus and luckily we were early.. queue wasn't so long.. hahax.. good to see so many familiar faces after so long.. hahax.. missed so many of them.. then went play pool for a while and went back to sakae at night to look for them.. hahax..

dunno leh.. feel very weird liao le.. feel somewhat different liao le.. like drifted away from my frends liao le.. dunno leh.. maybe i'm thinking too much.. dunno leh.. feel realli so so different liao le.. dunno wat to say and dunno wat to tok about liao le.. realli dunno leh.. haizZz.. its juz 17 days of confinement and i start to feel this way liao le.. how am i going to survive the next 2 yrs??? dunno la.. hope i am realli thinking too much ba..

think i will stop here ba.. dunno wat to write liao le.. hahax.. army makes a guy lose his ability to think.. i realli understand why liao le.. hahax.. might be going out later also.. flying off...

i'm finally back!!!

10th may.. enlisted.. took the oath.. became a soldier.. hahax.. now a full time NSF.. woots.. army life has been such a great transition in my life man.. such a great change.. its never easy to accept the fact that i am no longer a civilian.. hahax.. budden i am proud to say that i have adapted to this transition in my life..

NS is nv something easy.. i nv thought it is so tough.. took quite some time to realli get into the motion of things after my enlistment.. i nv knew we have to march alwaes from one location to another.. to be hearing commands that are totally alien to mi.. and also doing physical training every single day.. it was realli hard to adapt.. especially when u are so far away from ur loved ones and ur frends..

my bunk is a special bunk.. we have got the sea view everyday.. and i can see the sunset every single day.. can also see lots of stars in the night.. hahax.. its totally beautiful.. and i loved it.. budden it also bring about chains of thoughts for mi every single day.. missing all my frends and especially my family.. and making mi think of so many things everyday.. hahax.. in which all my platoon mates say i'm emo-ing.. lol.. budden i still appreciate the beautiful scenary i get to see everyday..

but realli start to adapt after the first week.. and when i got to noe my section mates better.. got lots of support from some of them.. grateful to have them ard.. learnt alot during this 3 weeks of confinement too.. learn to endure and learnt to face obstacles with courage and dun fear to fail.. cannot believe wat i have done for the past 17 days.. hahax.. completing 6km route march with uber heavy field pack and lbv.. clearing obstacle courses which i could nv do in the past at all.. hahax.. endurance and mental strength is realli the key.. hahax..

today finally book out after 17 days.. hahax.. finally can come home liao le.. missed home and my frends so much.. hahax.. went to my work place to takeaway food.. hahax.. 2 of my colleagues couldn't recognise mi.. lol.. hahax.. turned realli tanned and cannot recognise mi easily.. budden its a great feeling seeing so many of them after so long.. and so great to be back home right now..

gonna book in again next tuesday.. sianzZz.. budden still taking it positively.. its a chance to learn more new things and get to noe my platoon mates better.. hahax.. hope i can get all the best from bmt.. hahax.. like my platoon sgt said.. pain is temporary.. pride is forever.. hahahax.. think i will end here ba.. flying off!!!

Last post as a civilian...

sianzZz diao.. i'm like enlisting in like 17 hrs later??? LOL! wahahax.. no realli looking forward to it cauz there are so many things i have not done yet worx.. sianzZz diao.. but i am prepared for the challenge ahead liao.. finally able to let go of the things bothering mi for quite some time liao le.. and there is nothing drawing mi back from army liao le..

think i will take army as a opportunity to noe new ppl and to realli grow up ba.. its realli a once in a lifetime experience for every guy.. from a boy to man.. think it is realli a learning journey for mi in the 2 yrs to come..

here like to take this opportunity to thank all my frends for giving mi such a wonderful memory before i go NS.. especially to my colleagues.. thanks for all the fun i had working and hanging out with u guys.. my life before NS wun have been so colourful without u guys.. i realli had great fun going out with u all and i will bring the memories i have with u guys deeply etched at the bottom of my heart.. take lots of care ppl!!!

also wanna take this opportunity to thank my bro joel, my junior xun kai and my senior zi cheng for all the advices and help they have given mi whenever i have problems and whenever i am troubled.. thank you guys.. buddies forever..

and to all my juniors i wish u ppl luck in ur studies no matter where and where u guys are now and hope everyone of them are doing well and coping well for their studies.. all the best for As to all my juniors in JJ.. hahax.. to everyone of my frends, i hope everyone will take lots of care and may all the best in everything u guys do..

signing off for the last time as a civilian, take care all my frends!!! and also may smooth sailing in everything for my family.. hope to see everyone soon after my bmt.. hahax.. flying off!!! =)

看着缓缓落下的夕阳，
我的心开始暗了下来。
和朋友们一起走过的美好回忆，
仍然在我脑海里记忆犹新，
不停地在荡漾着，
不停地盘旋着。

但如今就要失去了自由，
我才学会如何真正的珍惜。
珍惜我曾拥有的美好的一切。

现实是残酷的，
现实是无情的。
尽管我如何努力地挽留，
感情还是会随着时间流逝。

但我也相信命运是掌控在我手里的。
我有能力改变我的命运。
尽管命运有多么无情，
我还是会努力地尝试，
决不轻言放弃。
这就是我的选择。

suddenly felt like writing something juz now.. so decided to pen down my thoughts for the past one or 2 weeks.. wat i wrote above is realli some thoughts before i go NS.. my helplessness.. but i still believe i can change my fate cauz i noe destiny is in my hands.. its my choice whether to do it anot.. hahax.. gtg le.. going bai bai for NS.. flying off!!!

today was also a good day.. wahahax.. went swimming in the afternoon with my seniors zi cheng and ming fei.. wahahax.. reached JE swimming pool ard 2.45 liddat.. ming fei reached also ard the same time.. zi cheng was already at KFC.. lol.. i and ming fei were lucky cauz a extremely heavy downpour started right after we stepped into the sports complex..

there was thunder and lightning.. so no choice but to wait in kfc for the rain to stop.. in the meantime playing with zi cheng's i-mac.. wahahax.. hahax.. tok cock sing song and listen to music until the rain subsided and we could go swim.. lol..

swam for like 2 plus hours.. wahahax.. i was juz playing ard cauz the weather was so poor and no mood to go swim.. lol.. most of the time the 3 of us were toking cock about army and stuffs liddat.. wahahax.. and also many funny funny de things.. hahax.. so fun de.. the times i spent with my seniors is alwaes fun.. hahax.. cauz we nv fail to crack funny jokes and say funny stuffs when we are out together.. lol..

went to wash up and was deciding where to go for dinner.. wanted to go town but i very sianzZz.. so in the end decided to go sakae to eat cauz my senior ming fei wanted to have sushi cauz he is craving for sushi cauz he juz came back from taiwan for his training.. lol.. so went westmall makan.. hahax.. ate alot.. but in the end paid very little.. thanks to kwang yee.. hahax.. thanks har ky.. wahahax..

after dinner went CSC play pool again.. uper on form.. wahahax.. won many games today.. damn shiok la the feeling.. wahahax.. after which zi cheng and ming fei went back home and i went find my ex colleagues to go back home together..

i had a great day.. hahax.. lots of fun today.. alwaes so fun to go out with my seniors.. nv fail to have fun everytime i go out with them.. wahahax.. appreciate the times i spent with them tons.. lol.. but on the way back on the train was thinking of some things.. bothering mi again.. but think should be fine soon ba.. hopefully.. wahahax.. but i still had a fantastic day today.. lol..

think i will end here ba.. gtg le.. tml going si ma lu bai bai.. for army ba.. alwaes go bai bai before anything major events for mi de.. hahax.. flying off!!!

great day

today i had a great day.. rotted in the afternoon then went to find my junior xun kai at his place.. hahax.. went swimming at the swimming pool at his place and also played table tennis there.. wahahax.. fun.. long time no play table tennis liao le.. after that went to makan at a coffee shop and went play badminton..

after badminton went bukit panjang plaza to go have supper.. my treat.. lol.. had mac.. chatted with him for a long long long time.. hahax.. we alwaes do so after badminton last time.. great to be able to juz chat with him cauz everytime i chat with him there will be things i realise and realli appreicate..

the things we do is alwaes so simple.. so common.. play sports and stuffs.. then chat.. but i realli appreciate the time i spent with this very special junior of mine.. and chatting with him alwaes relieve mi of the many problems i have.. its realli by chance we met at orientation.. would nv have met him if i din join ogl.. and realli din regret my choice of joining ogl..

this post is realli dedicated to this junior of mine.. realli cannot thank him enough for being there for mi all the time when i needed someone to juz listen.. and toking to him alwaes gives mi lots of surprises and i also learnt alot from him.. he is so mature compared to mi being older than him..

today while toking to him, he told mi to not think bout the worries i have.. bout my frends and stuffs.. bout worrying i might drift away from them.. wat he told mi is so true.. and i realise a fact in life.. nothing is forever in life.. life is ever changing and nothing will remain the same forever.. the many special moments in life will realli turn into memories that will follow us forever.. and that is realli the things we should appreicate in life.. and i will rmb all the special moments i had as eternal memory..

realli feel so good juz being with my junior.. he juz a great great frend.. a great confidant.. realli will like to take this opportunity to thank him for all he had done since the time i known him.. thanks so much xun kai.. hopefully army wun drift us apart.. and will make our frendship stronger.. like he said.. army is realli a test of frendship and i will see who my true frends are.. u are forever my greatest pal!!!

think i will stop here ba.. gtg le.. tml should be going out with my senior zi cheng.. lol.. flying off!!! =)

lol.. today was a tiring day.. early in the morning jiu wake up liao le.. cauz got bai bai at home.. qing ming jie.. have to bai zu xian.. ya.. plus last night sleep very very late.. thats why so tired and slept when my elders were praying.. very bad.. think next time should juz sleep earlier liao le.. and have to train to wake up early liao.. 4 more days to NS le..

after bai bai went market buy army de stuffs.. bought quite a lot of stuffs for army.. hahax.. slacked at home when mel called mi and wanted to come my home with ben.. hahax.. so met them at teck whye lrt station there de basketball court cauz i suggested to play bball.. but in the end still went my home to play com.. wahahax..

after that ben went to find his frend while melvin accompanied mi to jp to find a cap.. sianzZz.. in the end decided not to buy one.. cauz apparently my head too too big liao le.. cannot fit any of the caps and i looked ugly in them.. hahax.. so abolished the idea of buying a cap.. wahahax.. melvin bought a bball shorts instead.. lol..

after that went westmall to buy some stuffs i need for NS also.. sianzZz.. some stuffs.. hahax.. so pai sei la.. hahax.. sianzZz diao worx.. thanks mel for accompanying mi worx.. hahax.. then went back sakae to visit our colleagues.. hahax.. chatted with them for a while then went back home liao le.. then on the way back my jie ka jiao mi and asked mi wat i bought.. sianzZz.. so funny la.. think those on the train noe wat i mean.. wahahax.. dun wanna mention here.. lol.. thanks har jie.. wahahax..

saw something on melvin's blog.. so bad.. i sure will slim down de lo.. lol.. slim until u cannot recognise.. wahahax.. but realli hope we can keep in contact during my NS period also.. hahax.. dun wanna lose contact with u guys.. hahax.. take care worx everyone in sakae.. hahax.. think i will end here ba.. my posts getting boring day by day.. time to think of interesting stuffs to write liao le.. hahax.. so can entertain u guys reading.. wahahax.. gtg.. flying off..

back to JJ

after so long, went back to jj once again.. hahax.. the feeling is great.. hahax.. after such a long time i have not been back in skl, i realli miss the times in skl.. hahax.. sitting down and crapping with frends.. its juz so great.. jj is juz cool.. wahahax.. all the wonderful memories i have there.. hahax..

today went back to visit my juniors in cldds.. hahax.. nice to see them.. last time keep saying that i wanted to visit them after exams but din cauz was too occupied with work liao le.. today finally got the time to go fulfill my promise.. hahax.. reached skl and asked xun kai to meet mi at the gate so saved the trouble with the security guard.. but the guard was nice cauz noe him quite well liao le.. hahax..

toked cock with xun kai and his frend for a while then went to see cldds.. hahax.. cannot realli tok to my juniors cauz they were busy discussing about syf stuffs.. so stayed outside the room and met my junior jayne and started toking crap with her.. hahax.. toked for quite long worx.. bullying her.. wahahax.. but it was realli nice chatting with the juniors i noe after so long.. hahax.. so great..

walked ard the skl together with xun kai.. saw many many familiar faces and ppl.. hahax.. and ppl keep saying i slimmed down a lot a lot.. damn shiok la.. hahax.. hopefully can slim down more after BMT.. hahax.. onli got to tok abit with my cldds juniors after their cca.. think today went the worng day liao.. cauz they busy with stuffs.. but still good to be able to see them.. hahax..

after that rotted in skl with xun kai.. toked to his juniors also.. hahax.. rotted for quite some time in skl then went back liao le.. xun kai went back home while i went to buy things i needed for army.. starting to prepare liao le.. hahax.. spending quite a lot of money also.. lucky my dad gave mi allowance to buy my army stuffs.. hahax.. thanks dad..

its simply great to visit skl today.. juz simply toking to my juniors and chatting with them makes my day.. cauz i would be too busy in army to do so any time soon liao le.. so its realli a blessing i took time off to go back skl today.. realli realli treasure the times i spent in skl today.. every second toking to my juniors.. its juz great.. think no words can describe how i feel ba..

think i will stop here ba.. tml got things on at home.. so not going out.. but have to continue to get ready my things for ns.. hahax.. gtg le.. flying off!!! =)

fun fun fun..

these few days have been fun fun fun for mi.. hahax.. hahax.. monday went to my bro joel's home to pass him his bdae present.. lol.. played at his house for the whole day.. hahax.. it was fun.. hahax.. also had lots of fun cauz of joel's cute dog terry.. hahax.. super duper cute.. stick to mi the whole day also.. trying to grab attention also.. make mi sayang him.. wahahax.. uper cute worx.. shall upload some photos worx..

terry.. hahax..

that day played X box at his home for the whole day.. played DOA and also Halo 2.. wahahax.. quite fun.. hahax.. also had dinner over at his place.. his parents were so nice to have bought food for mi.. hahax..

then yesterday went out with zhen lin, wei xia, vincent and melvin.. hahax.. went back to sakae to have buffet.. hahax.. met many of my ex colleagues there.. lol.. so fun playing ard with them also.. but guess choose the wrong day liao le.. cauz not everyone.. but i still had fun.. hahax.. ate alot.. until my whole stomach super duper full.. hahax.. anna and jing shi also drew some funny funny pics.. i and vincent added stuffs also.. wahahax.. upload here.. wahahax..

hahax.. super cute worx.. lol..

ika, salmon head, fried tofu, ebi, hotate, kani and idako.. lol.. cute..

after the buffet went pool with lin xia and vincent.. melvin went play badminton with his frends.. hahax.. played ard 2 plus hours.. then lin xia and vincent went home liao.. went back to sakae to visit my ex colleagues again. can go home together with reggie also.. hahax.. helped xue pan with menu then everything done liao le.. had supper with reggie and anna at mac and then went back with reggie..

back at sakae reggie asked mi why i she bu de leave sakae.. i realli dunno how to ans his qn.. dunno leh.. i realli she bu de.. maybe its juz in mi ba.. cannot let go of the frends i noe.. even if i onli noe them for a very short period of time.. i'm this kind of person ba.. its in mi.. hahax.. thats why army suxs for mi.. and i had been feeling quite down recently having to be drifting away from my frends after i go NS.. hahax.. but let nature take its course ba.. i'm sure everything will be fine.. hahax..

think i will stop here ba.. gtg le.. later going back skl visit my cca juniors.. hahax.. last time alwaes say will visit them but din.. hahax.. today must go back and visit them.. lol.. think will be fun.. ending here le.. flying off!!! =)