HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

the day i'm waiting for.. for so long.. lol.. its chinese new yr le.. haha.. here comes my holidaes.. lol.. having off till this coming sunday and i will embark on my trip to seletar camp to become a liscensed bangla from monday onwards.. LOL..

chinese new yr.. good food.. ang pao.. enjoyment.. haha.. guess that is wat most ppl think for chinese new year ba.. the spamming of ba kua and pineapple tarts at relative's house and the money making us richer.. LOL.. but i guess there is realli much more to chinese new yr than that..

chinese new yr is a season of celebration.. a season of joy and a season of enjoyment.. but more importantly, its a season of love and a time to pay tribute.. a season to show appreciation to the loved ones ard us..

while praying juz now, tears almost overwhelmed mi.. i endured.. i miss my loved ones so much.. i finally understood the fact that we will onli learn to appreciate until things are lost.. and its especially in these festivals that vividly arouse the feelings within mi..

i guess this is the most appropiate occassion to pay tribute ba.. to my family especially.. who had been thru all hardships with mi throughout these yrs and my parents who had painstakingly brought mi up to this world.. and also to my frends who had been there with mi when i was down and needed ppl to tok to.. i love u guys..

i sure everyone will be visiting relatives during cny.. but i guess many a times ppl are juz patronising one another.. even relatives do.. this is the sad part of cny.. visit relatives juz for the sake of visiting.. i do so too.. so wat do chinese new yr mean to each and everyone out there??? guess i will end here ba.. and leave this qn for u ppl whom might come across this post to ponder about.. i got an answer for myself.. so do you??? flying off!!!

bookin in soon...

its the time i am seriously not looking forward.. sian.. gonna book in in like 1 hour's time??? sian la.. 2 more weeks of sianzation for mi.. hopefully can pass by fast ba.. and soon will be chinese new yr le.. woots.. hahax.. did quite a bit of shopping with ming fei yesterday.. spent 100 over bucks on clothes and a new wallet.. LOL.. officially broke liao i guess..

guess i have to save and scrimp liao.. LOL.. still got so long till payday.. sobs.. have to survive on SAF rations ba.. LOL.. k la.. gtg le.. preparing for book in liao.. share a song here first.. hahax.. 无辜by曹格.. damn damn nice.. LOL.. flying off lo!!!

finally..

hahax.. finally not lazy to change skin le.. lol.. got a new skin liao.. actually lazy to blog also.. wahahax.. gonna be busy for the next 2 weeks.. hopefully can survive thru ba.. LOL.. to all my frends sorry for not replying tag.. thanks for the new yr wishes and everything.. take care..

and to my dearest zi cheng here wanna wish u get well soon worx..bikes are damn dangerous.. hope he recover soon ba.. gtg le.. need to book in again.. hopefully can blog regularly ba.. flying off lo..

2008!!!

woots.. its 2008 le.. another yr has passed so so so quickly worx.. last yr at this point of time i am still having the time of my life enjoying myself outside working.. LOL.. hanging out with colleagues and hanging out with frends.. cannot imagine now i am holding on to my 11B and now a soldier.. LOL..

2007 has been a great year.. though there were lots of ups and downs in life.. a lot of times feeling helpless and very lonely.. but realli glad to have a great bunch of frends ard and those very few confidants that had helped mi pulled thru the painful times throughout the yr.. LOL..

there were times i were sitting in the gutters.. but after solving all the problems and qns, i realised i have learnt a lot and grown a lot as a man.. started to appreciate so many things ard mi.. be it my family or my frends.. also learnt to let go bout lots of stuffs.. LOL..

a lot of memories engraved in my heart now.. all becos of my frends.. hahax.. like the surprise i got on sunday which will nv be forgotten.. LOL.. the dinner which i organised for sakae ppl.. LOL.. happened that they played prank on mi cauz its my bdae the day before.. and they made wei xia do the dirty job which was totally unconvincing.. LOL.. nonetheless it was fun.. hahax.. and realli appreciated everything that they got for mi.. the new urban male shirt and the wine.. budden not the pack of thing ba.. LOL..

then juz now went to countdown with xun kai at boon lay.. LOL.. totally wrong place.. LOL.. should have gone vivo instead.. haizZz.. ge tai and hokkien songs at boon lay.. totally mismatch with new yr worx.. LOL.. but i had fun though.. wahahax..then now reach home blogging lo.. lol.. guess will upload some photos later at the end of the post..

new yr.. ppl keeping toking bout new yr resolutions and writing them down on blogs.. i guess i wun do such stuffs ba.. a bit useless.. no point toking about resolutions and not doing things to make their hopes and wishes come true.. hahax.. i got wat my resolutions are for the yr in my heart and i will start working hard from today onwards.. and follow my principles for the yr to come..

i guess toking bout resolutions is less realistic.. hahax.. but i guess this is a very very special occassion to show aoppreciation to our loved ones and frends.. realli thank everyone for making 2007 a very special yr for mi.. LOL.. my sakae colleagues.. my og this yr.. my very own og 28.. my bmt buddies and unit buddies.. LOL.. most importantly, to my family who had been with mi throughout this yr in army..

have been thru quite a bit these few months or in fact this whole yr.. but special thanks to xun kai, zi cheng and joel who had been realli there to help mi whenever i needed something as simple as a listening ear.. hahax.. thanks tons ppl!!! can nv thank u ppl enough for being part of the pillar of support in my life..

hahax.. 2008 will be a very busy yr ahead also.. lots of training and hard work needed to be put in for final exercise in thailand next yr.. hopefully i can realli be ready and up to the task by this year.. its will also be another learning experience for mi in life and to learn more about myself.. to be a better man.. guess will end here le ba.. LOL..

guess time for some pics le.. LOL..



















the group photo we took at sakae heeren.. the fateful place where i was punked.. LOL..




















hahax.. the lot of presents i got.. bottle of wine, a pencil case, wisma voucher, a dragonfly, a new urban male Mr Masturbate shirt and of cos something i cannot take.. LOL..

block leave!!!

hahax.. has been an eventful block leave for mi.. lol.. did quite alot of things during this block leave and not forgetting to exercise also.. hahax.. been playing bball often in skl with my seniors zi cheng and meng fei.. LOL.. also did quite a bit of shopping here and there and splurging my money on food and clothes.. LOL.. bought a new topman shirt.. hahax.. xin tong si le.. LOL.. nonetheless it was still worth it..

last saturday was dong zhi 冬至.. woke up early in the morning to make 汤圆.. hahax.. prepared with my sister.. hahax.. have been doing this since young.. LOL.. it was quite a interesting time of the yr.. cauz its the very last chinese festival till chinese new yr le.. LOL.. alot of memories came back also.. memories of younger days when i sit with my sis to prepare tang yuan.. LOL.. it was nice.. LOL..

also went to a church last saturday with my senior to support my frend in her christmas musical.. hahax.. wasn' too bad ba.. hahax.. but nonetheless felt a bit out of place cauz i wasn't a christian.. LOL.. however it did opened my eyes a little and my heart a little to learn to accept things in life and strengthened my belief in my own religion also.. LOL..

hmmm.. forgot wat i did last week le.. hahax.. shopping here and there till dunno go where liao.. lol.. and this week was equally busy.. hahax.. christmas eve went out with xun kai to vivo.. shopping for presents and also the fateful day i splurged on the shirt.. LOL.. rotted at home on christmas day and yesterday celebrated xun kai's bdae.. hahax.. had botak jones.. damn nice.. LOL..

today went out with my buddy joel.. long long time since we had met le.. hahax.. so nice to see him once again.. watched the movie I am Legend.. damn nice.. loved the plot and the emotional aspects of the movie.. a movie worth watching.. LOL.. then had dinner at a jap restaurant at jurong west stadium.. not too bad.. LOL.. celebrating my birthday in advance.. LOL.. thanks worx bro..

gonna be out for the next 2 days also.. hahax.. tml meeting my study group frends for lunch and sunday meeting my colleagues for dinner.. hahax.. then soon can conclude my block leave over le.. haizZz.. but the time was well spent la.. LOL.. it was a nice block leave.. LOL.. will be back for more posts the next 2 days ba.. probably with photos also.. hahax.. nv upload.. LOL.. gtg le.. flying off lo!! =)

great week...

woots.. the past week has been great.. great.. lol.. it has been hectic and busy too.. in camp i mean.. busy preparing for my standby duties next yr.. preparing all the stores and stuffs.. budden when friday comes, here comes my block leave!!!

friday has been great.. went steamboat with my og frends.. my ogl zi cheng and valerie and all my og mates yee loong, ming xiong, jin chang, kai chuan, de yan and wei yuan.. the outing was great.. it has been like 1 yr plus since we last had our outing le.. very very long le.. everyone had been so so so busy.. but realli glad to be able to see them again.. reminicising the past and reliving the times we had in orientation.. the fun and joy i had.. hahax.. totally priceless..

realli very very grateful to have these bunce of ogls and og mates.. it has been a long 3 yrs.. and i'm so grateful that i am able to still get ppl out for dinner and stuffs.. intending to organise another outing sometime this week also.. hahax..

saturday morning went jogging and play bball with zi cheng.. very long no play bball le.. hahax.. getting lousier le.. then in the evening met up with zi cheng and natalie to go dinner at holland V.. hahax.. cauz long time no see nat le and she couln't make it for the outing.. so asked her out for dinner.. had nydc there.. hahax.. the food was great and the atmosphere was fun.. joked so much that my stomach started aching.. hahax.. it was simply fun.. hahax.. there's the pic we took together.. hahax.. zi cheng nat and mi..

sunday went off with my class in jc.. hahax.. long time no see many of them le.. went kbox at cineleisure.. but not many came.. but it was quite fun singing yesterday.. hahax.. going sing again with my cldds juniors sometime soon also.. lol..

my block leave officially starts today.. hahax.. last night book in juz to eat breakfast this morning but i cannot eat cauz got kidney checkup.. very lame.. book in juz to book out this morning.. but dun care la.. at least i have 2 weeks of civilian life somehow.. lol.. hopefully can meet up with more of my frends that i miss ba.. think i end here liao le.. gtg le.. flying off!!! =)

back from exercise...

shall not dwell on my experience from exercise ba.. its terrible.. got freakingly sick outfield.. din do anything but sleep.. reported sick so many times to no avail.. haizZz.. horrible.. juz my luck ba.. haizZz.. but managed to finally pull thru my sickness le ba.. feeling much much better liao.. guess i'm still blessed ba..

finally.. i'm smelling my block leave le.. smelling fresh air and freedom.. woots.. nothing can hide my excitment le.. hahax.. have been looking so forward to this block leave.. so many outings to plan and so many things to do.. will be a tiring month ba.. budden i guess its very worth it.. so looking forward to seeing my frends whom i have not met for months and might be yrs le.. finally..

og outings, class outings, study group outings, dinner with juniors and kbox sessions are waiting for mi.. lol.. realli cannot wait.. hope this coming week can pass very very soon.. and here comes my precious leave.. hahax.. seem to be very kua zhang.. budden it means alot alot to a someone serving NS.. LOL..

dunno leh.. in the process of organising outings, ppl cannot be contacted.. ppl forgot who we are.. ppl changed contact yet not informed.. the brittle human relationship.. the brittle frendship.. time seems to be able to shatter this easily.. so unbelieveable yet so true.. a fact that is so difficult to accept..

frends whom i used to see everyday in skl in the past now hardly spoke a word with mi.. nothing to tok about.. toking for the sake of toking.. and there's hardly time for ppl to keep the relationship in this fast progressing world.. every minute the world is changing.. every human being on this tiny earth is busy with their work and their life.. hardly got time to accomodate for each other.. for that little time to catch up with each other..

guess this is life ba.. guess this is reality.. but i guess wat we can do is to hang on tight to the relationships we have with everyone we noe ba.. we must try at least.. we nv try, we nv noe.. thats why till now i'm trying to make effort with my frends to organise outings and such.. to strengthen the frendships ba.. hahax.. better than regretting when we lost it.. hahax..

haizZz.. like old man liddat.. think realli getting older and older le ba.. think stop here le ba.. tired le.. blog again during block leave ba.. hope to get a new skin and revive my blog then.. LOL.. flying off lo..

finally back...

woots.. finally back from gruelling exercises the past 2 weeks and the busy preparation for the exercises for the past weeks.. very very drained digging shellscrape and performing the tasks during the exercises.. but glad to say i onli got the very last exercise next week and here comes my block leave!!! LOL..

my status is over le.. and my health is ok le also.. hahax.. specialist said my blood pressure going down le.. and i am losing more and more weight.. hahax.. 17kg lo.. wahahax.. bound to lose more next week during exercise cauz will onli be on combat ration.. shiok.. getting my $100 soon from ippt liao also.. wahahax..

hmmm.. guess i am realli disorganised in the things i say ba.. very very random thoughts.. alot of things recently on my mind.. thinking alot of things.. hahax.. i'm aging i guess.. thinking so much.. hahax.. guess army realli too bored le.. nothing to do.. LOL..

dunno la.. quite troubled actually.. alot of things on my mind and thinking thru alot of stuffs.. more about army stuffs ba.. things i wan to do and do not want to do.. its realli thru army that guys realli grow up and become a real men i guess.. cauz army not onli train us physically, but also mentally.. in a sense that we get to see alot of things in life.. selfishness in man and hypocrisy in human..

i guess as a human i am selfish too ba.. i'm a hypocrite also ba.. i dare say ppl put on masks in front of different ppl.. i'm no different.. i act differently in front of different ppl.. i have indeed become selfish in army.. i always have doubts and questions bout why i had to do this and that while others dun in camp.. and alwaes think i'm at a disadvantage doing so much work.. i'm selfish.. everyone does so too..

i guess this is part and parcel of life ba.. its something that humans cannot avoid in life.. its a cross junction in life ppl have choose their path from ba.. the choice to make a right decision that will not defeat one's purpose in life.. and not going against one's principles ba.. guess i have somehow made a choice le.. and i got answers to many many of my questions le.. guess i have to stand by my choice ba..

guess i have to go think thru lots more stuffs ba.. to realli grow up ba.. like my PS say.. hopefully we can ord noeing that we are real men who had gone thru national service and served our commitment.. but i guess its not the commitment that matters.. its the learning and the various lessons we gained at become a real man.. and that we have strengthened our beliefs and convictions in life ba.. hahax.. and that we nv regretted the choices we make in army and in life..

guess i will end here ba.. getting nagging le.. hahax.. like freaking old man liddat.. LOL.. hoping to get thru next week smoothly and that i can endure thru the final evaluation exercise for the year.. then i will be free for block leave!!! hahax.. ask mi out worx.. LOL.. guess i will end here ba.. will be back soon.. with pictures and stuffs i took recently.. flying off!!!

broke...

lol.. hahax.. i'm like officially broke liao le.. wahahax.. yesterday went plaza meet up my frend for coffee and came across this fujifilm sale.. woots.. got a brochere and read it.. freak.. the next second i decided i wanted a new digi cam.. lol.. reason why i broke liao..

LOL.. got the slim and sleek one.. finepix Z10fd.. lol.. 7.2megapixels.. at a price of $378.. hahax.. cauz went with my sis and she also happened to pass by the counter and got to noe the sales personel over there.. got quite a good bargain.. lol.. free extra battery and lens cleaning kit.. lol.. here's a pic of it.. i bought the black one.. lol..










guess i realli seemed super excited.. lol.. which some may think i'm over reacting.. lol.. but its like finally i got myself a digi cam of my own liao le.. no need borrow from my sis liao le.. hahax..

had alwaes been interested in photography but i juz dun have a camera of my own.. but now i do.. lol.. so happy.. wahahax.. finally can do something and learn something i alwaes wanted to.. something of my interest..


recently have been rather emo.. thinking alot of things in life.. thinking alot.. seriously.. looking for many answers within mi.. guess i can onli say i reverted back to who i was in the past le.. something i dread but it happened.. realli looking for answers.. trying to sort out the disagreements within mi.. figuring out wat i realli want.. and trying to be myself once again..


it was nice toking to my platoon mate sinda and leslie while we were doing sentry on friday live firing.. got more insights about life and got to noe more about religion.. and i somehow sort of found some answers.. even though din realli share with them wat i was thinking.. hahax.. nonetheless i realli appreciated the time i spent with them on friday.. hahax..


hahax.. still very happy that i got a new camera.. hahax.. think gonna bring it out where ever i go ba.. take pictures i like.. especially sunsets.. hahax.. next week gonna be a short week.. unit anniversary plus deepavali.. woots.. holidays coming!!! but no money to spurge liao.. lol.. think i go off le ba.. booking in in 2 hours time.. lol.. blog again next time ba.. flying off!!!

freaking bored...

book out on friday after out camp run.. went makan and play pool with my platoon mates.. refreshing experience ba.. first time going out with them.. hahax.. still not too bad.. had fun la.. wahahax..

yesterday went for a run early in the morning with joel.. lol.. ran from home to jj.. hahax.. estimated ard 10km.. LOL.. run wasn't too bad.. hahax.. at least still got stamina to run long distances.. LOL.. also did some shopping for things i need.. wahahax.. today rotted at home for the whole day.. sianzZz..

dunno leh.. recently dunno why keep feeling that there is something missing somehow in my life sia.. a part of mi that i had seemed to have lost since in entered army.. i realli dunno wat it is though.. feeling so empty inside..

every week book in to wait for book out.. but yet i dunno wat i should do during book out.. haizZz.. this feeling suxs man.. dunno why.. scrolling down my phonebook, realised i do noe many ppl.. but i realise there are not many i realli noe.. haizZz.. dunno la.. guess my mind is quite messed up right now ba.. and this suxs..

guess i realli should spend some time in camp thinking liao le.. sort out my mind ba.. dunno la.. dunno wat i thinking also.. hah.. such a irony..

think end here ba.. enough of my nonsense.. LOL.. A levels starting next week liao le.. here wishing all my juniors all the best and good luck for their exams.. hahax.. may everyone of them can do well for their exams ba.. hahax.. booking in soon.. flying off!!!

wow.. it has been freaking freaking long since i ever blogged liao le.. hahax.. had been busy going out on recent book out meeting my frends.. lol.. book out is precious for army guys u noe.. lol.. hahax..

the past few weeks have been fine.. not much of physical activities for mi cauz apparently i am still on light duties.. ya.. so dun have to do much also.. mostly sai gang when ppl are doing all the work.. lol..

budden recently the level of sian-zation has been rising in mi.. the more and more i feel fed up in my platoon.. everyday juz dota and dota among the rest of my platoon mates.. everyday tok about it wun sian de.. wa kao.. hear liao also sianzZz.. haizZz.. worse one is the unlimited complains and complains by some.. everyday complain bout training about life in camp and lots of shyt.. they juz cannot accept reality.. haizZz.. i realli wonder why some ppl are so naive in the way they see things.. haizZz..

i dunno leh.. i have a chance to get of of all the shyt.. and i guess i will be going for it ba.. down pes is the onli way le ba.. its not cauz of the mundane and labourious work liao.. its about the ppl.. i juz cannot work with some ppl ba.. haizZz.. hopefully i can get out of hell now.. haizZz.. afterall i guess humans are selfish ba.. including mi..

enough about nonsense in camp liao le ba.. weekends had still been great for mi going out and chilling out with frends.. lol.. yesterday juz went vivo dinner.. hahax.. hopefully next week can meet up some of my jc frends ba.. lol.. i'll stop here ba.. going back to camp later.. blog again sometime soon ba.. flying off!!!

haizZz..

got guard duty on sunday.. going back tonight.. sianzZz.. now worried sick.. my mum juz dislocated her shoulder.. again.. dunno wat to do sia.. juz now wanted to change guard duty.. but no one willing to help mi.. haizZz.. i dun blame ppl ba.. cauz its a sunday.. men is selfish, the world is cruel i guess.. haizZz..

realli worried now sia now that i not at home cannot help my mum do stuffs.. haizZz.. hope that she would be fine soon.. but i noe she wun recover so soon de.. the more worried i am now.. haizZz.. dunno how sia..

but i guess need to thank my PS who helped mi call the rest and tried his best to help mi.. realli thank him millions.. appreciated his help tons.. guess i will end here ba.. dunno wat else to say liao le.. flying off.....

who am i???

sianzZz.. continuously sick.. haven recover yet sia.. cough every night.. feeling so lethargic every single day in camp sia.. today finally book out le.. finally got some time off from camp to do the things i like to do le..

indeed army took away 2 yrs of my life.. but now i realli start to wonder.. izzit a realli bad thing??? these few weeks i been asking myself many qns.. looking for many answers within mi.. wat do i realli wan in my life??? wat are the things that i realli wan in life??? i seriously dunno..

i realli dunno leh.. this seems to be some sort of identity crisis ba.. now i'm in middle of nowhere.. not studying, not in the society.. i realli start to wonder who i realli am.. wat am i as a person??? i realli dunno.. wat do i wan for my future??? wat are the things i wanna do in the future.. i have not planned or neither decided.. i realli dunno wat i want..

few days back got a scolding from my frend.. guess that was realli the call that woke mi my.. and to realli start thinking of my life le.. from wat i can see from the past weeks i guess i am realli changing back to who i am in the past liao le.. i guess i dun wan that to happen ba.. i am realli a bastard in the past.. but i realli hope i wun change back..

this feeling realli sucks.. i seriously got no clue on wat to do.. and i seriously got no clue to wat i am thinking about also.. i guess its now up to mi to decide le ba.. wat i realli wan in life.. and to realli reflect on the things i did.. hopefully i can realli give myself am answer real soon ba.. haizZz..

guess i will end here ba.. a little tired liao le.. maybe blog again next time ba.. flying off!!!

sick..

its such a great feeling to be able to book out after a week in camp every weekend.. but it isn't a good feeling to be sick during book out.. cough and cough, runny nose and having fever.. wat can be worse than this??? though i went out still.. but the cough is seriously killing mi.. arghhh.. this suxs..

finally completed FPC liao le.. course is finally over on friday.. does this mean life is going to get better??? i dunno.. but i guess not for mi.. cauz the review for my recent medical appointment wasn't good.. my blood pressure is going sky high.. and yet i am normal.. can run can jump can play.. haizZz.. wat is happening to my body??? izzit failing mi already???

i might be able to down pes soon.. might.. cauz of my blood pressure.. i am happy.. yet unhappy.. isn't that contradicting??? isn't that stupid??? down pes means my body is realli down le ba.. should i realli be happy??? i realli dunno.. so sianzZz sia this feeling.. i want to down pes yet i dun wan my body to fail mi.. haizZz..

realli dunno wat to say now sia.. dunno wat i am feeling also.. down pes can definitely give mi a much better life.. yet i wanna hold on to the brotherhood i had juz fostered with my platoon mates.. such mixed feelings sia.. haizZz.. guess i am juz stupid ba.. go and think of such stuffs.. sianzZz..

guess i will end here liao le ha.. dun wanna complain anymore liao le.. bl;og again sometime when i book out again ba.. waiting for 27th to come.. the moment of truth.. haizZz.. flying off..

i'm scared.. wat should i do???

haizZz...

did lots of cleaning up today.. washing field pack and uniforms.. my god.. it was crazy.. took 3 whole hours to finish washing away all the mud and dirt.. burnt my afternoon away sia.. late afternoon went joel's home.. hahax.. terry is still as adorable.. hahax.. kept chasing mi ard when i reached joel's home.. hahax.. somehow my spirit was lifted in the day.. then at night went dinner with my sis and played pool also..

now late in the night in front of my computer.. nothing much to do.. starting to think about so many stuffs.. seriously there are so many things on my mind now.. and i dunno how to put them across in words.. nothing much i can say bout the army cauz i might get charged if i said the wrong stuffs..

i dunno leh.. nowadays i'm seriously feeling helpless.. in fact useless liao le.. army has realli changed my life so much so much.. i hardly have time for my family.. needless to say my frends.. i'm seriously feeling guilty.. for not putting in the effort to find time for my parents and frends..

the dinner i wanted to organise failed.. cauz i din have the time to go and ask my frends personally.. onli asked linda to help mi cauz of the field camp.. in the end it failed.. the commitment is seriously too heavy for mi to handle liao le.. and i realli have the feeling that i am drifting away from so many of my frends.. haizZz..

i realli feel so bad that i cannot be there for some of my frends when they needed someone to tok to.. juz a listening ear, i cannot be there.. all i can do is to chat during my book out and i realli can hardly do anything about it cauz the next day i'm back in camp.. haizZz.. i'm seriously lost liao le.. i seriously dunno wat i should do.. i'm juz so helpless.. i'm juz so useless.. haizZz..

guess i will stop here ba.. realli dunno wat to say le.. haizZz.. sianzZz.. think better sleep earlier.. sleep liao jiu no need think about probs liao le.. hahax.. but i guess escapism doesn't solve a problem right??? sianzZz.. flying off..

finally back..

woots.. finallu back to blogging after so so so long liao le.. haven been blogging for a few weeks liao le.. guess this few weeks had been hectic and going out with frends is more important than crouching in front of the computer ba.. LOL..

guess some quick updates ba.. juz finished a gruesome field camp this week.. and i mean gruesome.. had to do our job in mud.. a whole area of mud.. high sia.. hahax.. everyone is totally muddy after the field camp sia.. now have a big big bag of laundry and dirty stuffs inside my duffel bag awaiting mi to clean up.. guess my mum will kill me if she sees..LOL..

seriously dunno wat to do during this book out.. totally no aim about wat to do.. supposed to have a dinner for everyone in sakae de.. budden cancelled liao le cauz i guess too many ppl cannot make it liao le.. no point organising something that onli a few ppl come.. defeats the purpose of a group dinner ba.. LOL.. a bit disappointed though.. cauz realli thought can meet up with everyone to have fun.. haizZz.. but i guess still got next time ba.. forget it..

think i will end here ba.. a bit sleepy le.. cauz onli slept at 4am this morning cauz was doing cleaning up.. hahax.. cleaning is a super crazy and tiring job.. hahax.. try to blog again sometime soon ba.. hahax.. flying off..

was i wrong???

great weekend!!!

woots.. it was a great weekend.. hahax.. booked out on friday after a super tiring field camp i had.. hahax.. managed to pull thru the tough field camp.. hahax.. some encouragement for mi ba.. lol.. the week after gonna have another field camp again.. zZz.. no choice lo.. cauz i field engineer mah.. suck thumb and do it ba.. lol..

on friday rushed back home from kent ridge park after the out camp run.. hahax.. went to watch the fireworks with anna, zhen lin, jing shi, wei xia and melvin.. managed to get a great place and we had a great view of the fireworks.. the fireworks was simply amazing.. super super nice to watch de.. hahax.. i'm mesmerised by the super beautiful fireworks also.. hahax.. it was a compensation somehow cauz i din manage to watch the fireworks with them on national day..

realli had lots of fun on that day.. hahax.. especially the fireworks.. hahax.. more importantly its the company i went with.. guess it wun be as fun if the company wasn't right.. hahax.. so thanks guys for coming even though it was such a last minute arrangement and u all managed to make it even though of study commitments.. thanks guys.. hahax.. shall upload some photos too.. hahax..

the fireworks are simply amazing.. hehex..

beautiful.. hahax..

hehex.. not forgetting we met linda too.. wahahax.. the lao ren jia.. wahahax..

yesterday did practically nothing.. din go for the fireworks also.. cauz couldn't find frend to go with.. hahax.. suan le ba.. lol.. wait for linda to send mi the pics she took.. see whether realli nicer mah.. lol.. today went watch movie with my mum.. 881.. hahax.. some show about getai in singaopore de.. quite a nice show.. funny yet touching.. and a little heart wrenching also.. hahax.. now waiting to book into camp liao.. haizZz..

next week sat hoping to go out dinner with the peeps in sakae.. long long time no see everyone liao le.. hahax.. organising a get together.. hope many can make it ba.. hahax.. guess i will end here ba.. flying off le.. hahax..

sick.. zZz..

sia la.. wat a nice timing to be sick sia.. booked out from camp yesterday afternoon and it was damn damn shiok cauz i onli have to book in on tuesday night.. sianzZz.. now having cough flu fever.. cannot enjoy the long long weekend liao le.. grounded at home today cauz my fever was on and off.. slept thru the whole afternoon onli to find my fever came back.. haizZz.. thats juz great..

enough of whining liao le.. hopefully i will be fine by tml ba.. need to go beach road tml de.. lol.. and there will be field camps coming up soon liao.. one immediately after national day.. 4 day 3 night.. doubt there will be much of rest and i bet it will be a hell of a time.. haizZz.. suck thumb and endure lo.. LOL..

haizZz.. NS is realli a funny thing sia.. dun realli noe how to describe.. sometimes realli think NS is not too bad afterall.. all we have to do is to follow orders and do things that our commanders ask us to.. no need to think much about anything.. juz to get thru the week and wait for bookout onli.. nothing much to consider and nothing much to worry about unlike civilian world.. so many things to do and so many things to think about..

budden whenever in camp, all we think about is to go back civilian world and not stay in camp.. cauz army life suxs.. budden yet wanna go back to civilian world where we have to think about so many things.. like to catch up with frends and maintain relationship.. such an irony sia.. realli puzzled about wat is my stand towards NS also.. zZz..

however one thing i am sure is that this 2 yrs is realli a test for mi.. to learn to discipline myself and to understand myself.. NS has taken alot away from mi.. but it has also taught mi alot.. NS has taken time away from mi from my frends and family, but yet it taught mi to appreciate and cherish them much much better..

haizZz.. nonetheless NS has also made mi realli helpless in my life.. helpless towards my frends especially.. there are so many things i wanna do.. to maintain the friendship like i alwaes said.. budden now i am so helpless.. i hardly got time to even contact so many of my frends.. even those whom i can contact i can hardly help them when they have their problems.. cauz i'm stuck in camp and dun noe wat happen exactly.. it makes mi feel so bad.. cauz i can onli noe wat happen when i read their blogs and stuffs.. it makes mi feel like a failure..

i guess the onli thing i can do is to cherish the time i have during book out to catch up with my frends ba.. i noe many of my frends are facing problems of their own right now.. i guess the onli thing i can say is hope u guys can face life with courage and to overcome the problems.. its easy to say but i noe its difficult to do it.. but i hope u guys can gain the courage to solve ur problems ba..

i guess i will end here ba.. think should stop le.. if not will go on and on and on.. hahax.. i'm a naggy person lol.. gtg le.. flying off!!! take care everyone!!! =)

moodless...

sianzZz.. a few more minutes i'm going off liao le.. booking in back into jurong camp.. zZz.. totally sianzZz.. haizZz.. have to endure another week before i will be back.. CEC ended.. start of the actual course field pioneer course FPC... which will be a crazy and extremely xiong course.. bo bian suck thumb endure thru the next 3 months ba..

hopefully this friday can book out ba.. cauz got chance no need go for ndp this coming week.. hopefully lo.. budden i am in jurong camp.. guess chance not high ba.. think i will stop here le ba.. going off le... take care all my frends.. cya all soon.. flying off..

haizZz...

finally back at home right now after a long day yesterday at NDP.. managed to book out earlier at 11 liddat.. but guess wat.. i am going back to jurong camp tonight worx.. thats juz amazing man.. my off-in-lieu flew away juz becos of a live firing i going to have tml.. arghhh!!! damn sian la.. hardly got a day of off sia.. zZz..

seriously.. life is terrible right now.. going thru shyt every single day.. doing stuffs that seems so useless in my life.. doing things that will nv benefit my life in any single way.. life has become mundane and hard to pass.. went to see MO.. got excused heavy loads and upper limbs cauz of aggravation of ligament tear on my little finger.. budden still got punished.. why??? the sgts reasoning is this: "ur body very heavy meh???" lan lan suck thumb.. zZz..

haizZz.. yesterday mi and my frend got scolded by a sgt in public while on duty.. he's an idiot.. call him ask him for instructions say we cannot wait.. after that come back see us say we not doing our job and used vulgar on us in public.. seriously i dun think thats showing authority.. but showing that he's juz an uncivilised being.. so much for the civilised and cultured society every country is aimming for..

sianzZz la.. now can onli endure lo.. common engineering course is ending this week le.. which means the real shyt is coming le.. might or might not be posted to plant.. i dunno.. i realli pray hard these sufferings can end soon ba.. 1 yr 10 months.. seems so short.. but everyday is simply a torture.. enduring everyday juz to be able to see my family and frends every weekend.. guess i will be doing so for the rest of my army life ba..

realli thinking a lot recently.. i realli question myself why am i so suay ba.. budden i guess i got the ans to my question le.. life is unfair always.. and guess everything is destined ba.. onli thing we can do is to live on a hope.. and endure thru everything life has got for us.. it will make us stronger and to endure greater hardships in future.. thats when i can truly say i have grown up and finally a real man..

guess i will end here ba.. enough of grumbling for the week le.. looking forward to the next book out ba.. hahax.. book in timing: 1930.. level of sianzation: limitless.. hahax.. flying off!!!