35 seconds..

hai.. juz 35 seconds.. and i missed my ippt gold juz liddat.. omg.. totally no motivation and will power to fight on in the last stretch.. omg.. and i juz missed it.. 10.19.. personal best.. but not good enough.. running 2.4 is real agony sia.. omg.. lonely battle against ourselves.. and i have to try again next week.. omg.. hai.. hopefully can get it by then ba..

tuesday had a great surprise right after ippt.. omg.. was totally caught by surprise.. but realli thanks to my platoon mates especially bunk mates who helped mi and jeffrey get thru.. everyone chionged to help the 2 of us stunned at that moment.. LOL.. the reason why i decided that i had to stay in platoon 1.. haha.. thanks to everyone in platoon 1 which made things happen..

having break till sunday.. long awaited long weekend.. finally can like take a long break liao le.. need to do so many things.. so many things on my mind yet totally disoriented on wat to do sia.. guess mood not very good recently.. have been irritating quite alot of ppl lately.. and didn't tok nicely to my mum also.. wah sia.. i'm a loser sia..

guess its realli time to wake up liao.. have to go back to where i came from.. have to start sorting out my life liao.. omg.. think stop here le ba.. gonna go rest soon.. thinking of going jogging tml morning.. need some training liao..

weekends..

woots.. the weekends was great.. out spending money.. LOL.. watched forbidden kingdom with fat tummy xiao ming yesterday.. haha.. putting a chinese cast acting in ang moh.. quite interesting ba.. the fighting scenes was not too bad.. haha.. but its still a little funny in a way.. haha.. 玉皇大帝speaking in english.. haha.. unexpectingly liu yi fei spoke the best english.. lol.. the combination of jet li and jackie chan.. godlike.. LOL..


omg liu yi fei.. haha.. she adds beauty to the show.. LOL..

last night went find xun kai also.. hahax.. botak.. LOL.. like i was in the past.. enlisted le.. LOL.. quite fun to see my juniors getting enlisted.. can ka jiao their botak heads like my seniors and frends did to mi.. haha.. realise that its fun.. wahaha..

today went out for lunch with joel.. haha.. went manhattan.. haha.. baked fish not too bad.. a very belated celebration for his bdae.. but felt a little bad.. cauz have been feeling drowsy due to medication.. then din realli tok very much.. next time think treat him to lunch again..

gonna be a short week this coming week.. cauz of labour day holidays.. haha.. can book out on wed i think.. friday block leave.. everything planned for us le.. lol.. but gonna have ippt on tuesday.. confirm $100 richer.. budden can i make it $200? haha.. can onli hope ba.. juz recovered.. and now i pulled my right arm.. how great.. think will end here le ba.. gonna book in later liao..

人因梦想而伟大，梦想因人而实现

WOOTS!

i'm like officially slimmed down 20kg le.. haha.. and going down sia.. LOL.. 97 to 77.. LOL.. note the difference..

my last time jeans and current jeans.. LOL.. more reasons to go shopping lo.. lol.. gonna book in soon liao le.. blog again ba.. gonna watch forbidden kingdom with xiao ming this weekend.. yay~~~ like finally.. going off lo.. (:

ATTEND C..

attended C for 2 days.. went to see the doctor again this morning.. got mc for tml also.. gonna book in tml night.. realli gotten very sick these few days.. apparently a virus is spreading among my company and everyone is getting it.. lucky i gone home and not spreading it to my platoon ppl..

been a very hectic few weeks.. busy with alot of things.. though nothing much to do in camp but have been busy during book out.. busy at home and meeting my frends here and there.. shopping with fat tummy and going out with my bmt frends..

its nice though.. can meet up with ppl i nv see for a long time le.. since tekong.. haha.. i guess alot have changed ba.. but do hope relationship hasn't..

guess i'm still sick ba.. a little incoherent here.. dun noe wat i realli driving about also.. time for my medication le.. haha.. going off le.. thanks for the well wishes fat tummy.. LOL..

One Year..

2 days back one yr ago.. a 18 yr old boy stepped into the realms of no return.. braved the waters and reached an island.. picked up the courage, drew my sword and fought the miserable war till now.. against the dark forces waiting to see the light.. the time will come.. the war will end.. everything will be restored.. my life.. my freedom..

all crap la.. hahax.. finally the long awaited one yr soldier.. been in service for 1 yr liao le.. been a very very long time.. there has been tough times and memorable times.. gone thru quite a bit and can finally say that i am more of a man already..

this whole yr has taken away a lot.. yet it has also given mi a lot.. learning to stay strong and learning so many invaluable lessons in life.. this will nv have happened if i have been staying in my comfort zone.. i would nv have learnt how to appreciate.. i would nv have found wat i wanted in life.. i would nv have known who i am..

10 more months to go before i reach another crossroad in life.. but i noe i will have the strength to overcome it.. and i will be able realise my dreams for the future.. and to gain more valuable lessons for the days to come before i ord..

someone very important has juz enlisted.. but i'm sure he would be doing well in tekong.. he enlisted on the exact date one yr later than mi.. lol.. here would like to wish him all the best and good luck in his army life.. all the best xun kai..

think i will stop here ba.. gonna be booking in soon le.. $400 out for grab this week.. hope i will be able to do well for both combat shoot and for ippt.. signing off lo..

sian..

had my friday night burnt and think my coming saturday will be burnt also.. 1 person screws us all sia.. haiz.. no choice la.. gonna be spending the whole 6 days in camp liao le.. wat a way to start a week..

need to start training le.. second yr window opening soon.. hoping for ippt gold this yr.. hope my jumping doesn't fail mi.. $200 sia.. lol.. going off le.. back to camp in few hours time.. WOOTS? 你

周杰伦-我不配..




小明问大华做人为何那么难，
大华反问为何要使做人难。

updates.. like finally..


wow.. cobwebs have been spinning ard here le i guess.. haven been updating for a long time le.. since chinese new yr i guess.. have been very very busy lately and for the past weeks.. the CECC held in seletar camp and something else.. cannot mention here i guess..


nonetheless the past book outs have been fun.. meeting up with frends here and then.. have been spending meaningful time with frends i have not seen for quite some time le.. haha.. at least not wasting my bookouts ba..

went karoke at chevrons with my juniors wanting and zichao yesterday also.. then today met up with my bmt buddy kai xian.. realli appreciate the fact that i have the time to catch up with them after so long.. after months and even yrs..

i guess frends are alwaes there.. whether u want to hang on to the friendship is up to one's choice le ba.. i will hold on.. so will u?? ending here ba.. nothing much le.. booking in tml again.. guard duty on friday.. wat a great week ahead.. LOL..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

the day i'm waiting for.. for so long.. lol.. its chinese new yr le.. haha.. here comes my holidaes.. lol.. having off till this coming sunday and i will embark on my trip to seletar camp to become a liscensed bangla from monday onwards.. LOL..

chinese new yr.. good food.. ang pao.. enjoyment.. haha.. guess that is wat most ppl think for chinese new year ba.. the spamming of ba kua and pineapple tarts at relative's house and the money making us richer.. LOL.. but i guess there is realli much more to chinese new yr than that..

chinese new yr is a season of celebration.. a season of joy and a season of enjoyment.. but more importantly, its a season of love and a time to pay tribute.. a season to show appreciation to the loved ones ard us..

while praying juz now, tears almost overwhelmed mi.. i endured.. i miss my loved ones so much.. i finally understood the fact that we will onli learn to appreciate until things are lost.. and its especially in these festivals that vividly arouse the feelings within mi..

i guess this is the most appropiate occassion to pay tribute ba.. to my family especially.. who had been thru all hardships with mi throughout these yrs and my parents who had painstakingly brought mi up to this world.. and also to my frends who had been there with mi when i was down and needed ppl to tok to.. i love u guys..

i sure everyone will be visiting relatives during cny.. but i guess many a times ppl are juz patronising one another.. even relatives do.. this is the sad part of cny.. visit relatives juz for the sake of visiting.. i do so too.. so wat do chinese new yr mean to each and everyone out there??? guess i will end here ba.. and leave this qn for u ppl whom might come across this post to ponder about.. i got an answer for myself.. so do you??? flying off!!!

bookin in soon...

its the time i am seriously not looking forward.. sian.. gonna book in in like 1 hour's time??? sian la.. 2 more weeks of sianzation for mi.. hopefully can pass by fast ba.. and soon will be chinese new yr le.. woots.. hahax.. did quite a bit of shopping with ming fei yesterday.. spent 100 over bucks on clothes and a new wallet.. LOL.. officially broke liao i guess..

guess i have to save and scrimp liao.. LOL.. still got so long till payday.. sobs.. have to survive on SAF rations ba.. LOL.. k la.. gtg le.. preparing for book in liao.. share a song here first.. hahax.. 无辜by曹格.. damn damn nice.. LOL.. flying off lo!!!

finally..

hahax.. finally not lazy to change skin le.. lol.. got a new skin liao.. actually lazy to blog also.. wahahax.. gonna be busy for the next 2 weeks.. hopefully can survive thru ba.. LOL.. to all my frends sorry for not replying tag.. thanks for the new yr wishes and everything.. take care..

and to my dearest zi cheng here wanna wish u get well soon worx..bikes are damn dangerous.. hope he recover soon ba.. gtg le.. need to book in again.. hopefully can blog regularly ba.. flying off lo..

2008!!!

woots.. its 2008 le.. another yr has passed so so so quickly worx.. last yr at this point of time i am still having the time of my life enjoying myself outside working.. LOL.. hanging out with colleagues and hanging out with frends.. cannot imagine now i am holding on to my 11B and now a soldier.. LOL..

2007 has been a great year.. though there were lots of ups and downs in life.. a lot of times feeling helpless and very lonely.. but realli glad to have a great bunch of frends ard and those very few confidants that had helped mi pulled thru the painful times throughout the yr.. LOL..

there were times i were sitting in the gutters.. but after solving all the problems and qns, i realised i have learnt a lot and grown a lot as a man.. started to appreciate so many things ard mi.. be it my family or my frends.. also learnt to let go bout lots of stuffs.. LOL..

a lot of memories engraved in my heart now.. all becos of my frends.. hahax.. like the surprise i got on sunday which will nv be forgotten.. LOL.. the dinner which i organised for sakae ppl.. LOL.. happened that they played prank on mi cauz its my bdae the day before.. and they made wei xia do the dirty job which was totally unconvincing.. LOL.. nonetheless it was fun.. hahax.. and realli appreciated everything that they got for mi.. the new urban male shirt and the wine.. budden not the pack of thing ba.. LOL..

then juz now went to countdown with xun kai at boon lay.. LOL.. totally wrong place.. LOL.. should have gone vivo instead.. haizZz.. ge tai and hokkien songs at boon lay.. totally mismatch with new yr worx.. LOL.. but i had fun though.. wahahax..then now reach home blogging lo.. lol.. guess will upload some photos later at the end of the post..

new yr.. ppl keeping toking bout new yr resolutions and writing them down on blogs.. i guess i wun do such stuffs ba.. a bit useless.. no point toking about resolutions and not doing things to make their hopes and wishes come true.. hahax.. i got wat my resolutions are for the yr in my heart and i will start working hard from today onwards.. and follow my principles for the yr to come..

i guess toking bout resolutions is less realistic.. hahax.. but i guess this is a very very special occassion to show aoppreciation to our loved ones and frends.. realli thank everyone for making 2007 a very special yr for mi.. LOL.. my sakae colleagues.. my og this yr.. my very own og 28.. my bmt buddies and unit buddies.. LOL.. most importantly, to my family who had been with mi throughout this yr in army..

have been thru quite a bit these few months or in fact this whole yr.. but special thanks to xun kai, zi cheng and joel who had been realli there to help mi whenever i needed something as simple as a listening ear.. hahax.. thanks tons ppl!!! can nv thank u ppl enough for being part of the pillar of support in my life..

hahax.. 2008 will be a very busy yr ahead also.. lots of training and hard work needed to be put in for final exercise in thailand next yr.. hopefully i can realli be ready and up to the task by this year.. its will also be another learning experience for mi in life and to learn more about myself.. to be a better man.. guess will end here le ba.. LOL..

guess time for some pics le.. LOL..



















the group photo we took at sakae heeren.. the fateful place where i was punked.. LOL..




















hahax.. the lot of presents i got.. bottle of wine, a pencil case, wisma voucher, a dragonfly, a new urban male Mr Masturbate shirt and of cos something i cannot take.. LOL..

block leave!!!

hahax.. has been an eventful block leave for mi.. lol.. did quite alot of things during this block leave and not forgetting to exercise also.. hahax.. been playing bball often in skl with my seniors zi cheng and meng fei.. LOL.. also did quite a bit of shopping here and there and splurging my money on food and clothes.. LOL.. bought a new topman shirt.. hahax.. xin tong si le.. LOL.. nonetheless it was still worth it..

last saturday was dong zhi 冬至.. woke up early in the morning to make 汤圆.. hahax.. prepared with my sister.. hahax.. have been doing this since young.. LOL.. it was quite a interesting time of the yr.. cauz its the very last chinese festival till chinese new yr le.. LOL.. alot of memories came back also.. memories of younger days when i sit with my sis to prepare tang yuan.. LOL.. it was nice.. LOL..

also went to a church last saturday with my senior to support my frend in her christmas musical.. hahax.. wasn' too bad ba.. hahax.. but nonetheless felt a bit out of place cauz i wasn't a christian.. LOL.. however it did opened my eyes a little and my heart a little to learn to accept things in life and strengthened my belief in my own religion also.. LOL..

hmmm.. forgot wat i did last week le.. hahax.. shopping here and there till dunno go where liao.. lol.. and this week was equally busy.. hahax.. christmas eve went out with xun kai to vivo.. shopping for presents and also the fateful day i splurged on the shirt.. LOL.. rotted at home on christmas day and yesterday celebrated xun kai's bdae.. hahax.. had botak jones.. damn nice.. LOL..

today went out with my buddy joel.. long long time since we had met le.. hahax.. so nice to see him once again.. watched the movie I am Legend.. damn nice.. loved the plot and the emotional aspects of the movie.. a movie worth watching.. LOL.. then had dinner at a jap restaurant at jurong west stadium.. not too bad.. LOL.. celebrating my birthday in advance.. LOL.. thanks worx bro..

gonna be out for the next 2 days also.. hahax.. tml meeting my study group frends for lunch and sunday meeting my colleagues for dinner.. hahax.. then soon can conclude my block leave over le.. haizZz.. but the time was well spent la.. LOL.. it was a nice block leave.. LOL.. will be back for more posts the next 2 days ba.. probably with photos also.. hahax.. nv upload.. LOL.. gtg le.. flying off lo!! =)

great week...

woots.. the past week has been great.. great.. lol.. it has been hectic and busy too.. in camp i mean.. busy preparing for my standby duties next yr.. preparing all the stores and stuffs.. budden when friday comes, here comes my block leave!!!

friday has been great.. went steamboat with my og frends.. my ogl zi cheng and valerie and all my og mates yee loong, ming xiong, jin chang, kai chuan, de yan and wei yuan.. the outing was great.. it has been like 1 yr plus since we last had our outing le.. very very long le.. everyone had been so so so busy.. but realli glad to be able to see them again.. reminicising the past and reliving the times we had in orientation.. the fun and joy i had.. hahax.. totally priceless..

realli very very grateful to have these bunce of ogls and og mates.. it has been a long 3 yrs.. and i'm so grateful that i am able to still get ppl out for dinner and stuffs.. intending to organise another outing sometime this week also.. hahax..

saturday morning went jogging and play bball with zi cheng.. very long no play bball le.. hahax.. getting lousier le.. then in the evening met up with zi cheng and natalie to go dinner at holland V.. hahax.. cauz long time no see nat le and she couln't make it for the outing.. so asked her out for dinner.. had nydc there.. hahax.. the food was great and the atmosphere was fun.. joked so much that my stomach started aching.. hahax.. it was simply fun.. hahax.. there's the pic we took together.. hahax.. zi cheng nat and mi..

sunday went off with my class in jc.. hahax.. long time no see many of them le.. went kbox at cineleisure.. but not many came.. but it was quite fun singing yesterday.. hahax.. going sing again with my cldds juniors sometime soon also.. lol..

my block leave officially starts today.. hahax.. last night book in juz to eat breakfast this morning but i cannot eat cauz got kidney checkup.. very lame.. book in juz to book out this morning.. but dun care la.. at least i have 2 weeks of civilian life somehow.. lol.. hopefully can meet up with more of my frends that i miss ba.. think i end here liao le.. gtg le.. flying off!!! =)

back from exercise...

shall not dwell on my experience from exercise ba.. its terrible.. got freakingly sick outfield.. din do anything but sleep.. reported sick so many times to no avail.. haizZz.. horrible.. juz my luck ba.. haizZz.. but managed to finally pull thru my sickness le ba.. feeling much much better liao.. guess i'm still blessed ba..

finally.. i'm smelling my block leave le.. smelling fresh air and freedom.. woots.. nothing can hide my excitment le.. hahax.. have been looking so forward to this block leave.. so many outings to plan and so many things to do.. will be a tiring month ba.. budden i guess its very worth it.. so looking forward to seeing my frends whom i have not met for months and might be yrs le.. finally..

og outings, class outings, study group outings, dinner with juniors and kbox sessions are waiting for mi.. lol.. realli cannot wait.. hope this coming week can pass very very soon.. and here comes my precious leave.. hahax.. seem to be very kua zhang.. budden it means alot alot to a someone serving NS.. LOL..

dunno leh.. in the process of organising outings, ppl cannot be contacted.. ppl forgot who we are.. ppl changed contact yet not informed.. the brittle human relationship.. the brittle frendship.. time seems to be able to shatter this easily.. so unbelieveable yet so true.. a fact that is so difficult to accept..

frends whom i used to see everyday in skl in the past now hardly spoke a word with mi.. nothing to tok about.. toking for the sake of toking.. and there's hardly time for ppl to keep the relationship in this fast progressing world.. every minute the world is changing.. every human being on this tiny earth is busy with their work and their life.. hardly got time to accomodate for each other.. for that little time to catch up with each other..

guess this is life ba.. guess this is reality.. but i guess wat we can do is to hang on tight to the relationships we have with everyone we noe ba.. we must try at least.. we nv try, we nv noe.. thats why till now i'm trying to make effort with my frends to organise outings and such.. to strengthen the frendships ba.. hahax.. better than regretting when we lost it.. hahax..

haizZz.. like old man liddat.. think realli getting older and older le ba.. think stop here le ba.. tired le.. blog again during block leave ba.. hope to get a new skin and revive my blog then.. LOL.. flying off lo..

finally back...

woots.. finally back from gruelling exercises the past 2 weeks and the busy preparation for the exercises for the past weeks.. very very drained digging shellscrape and performing the tasks during the exercises.. but glad to say i onli got the very last exercise next week and here comes my block leave!!! LOL..

my status is over le.. and my health is ok le also.. hahax.. specialist said my blood pressure going down le.. and i am losing more and more weight.. hahax.. 17kg lo.. wahahax.. bound to lose more next week during exercise cauz will onli be on combat ration.. shiok.. getting my $100 soon from ippt liao also.. wahahax..

hmmm.. guess i am realli disorganised in the things i say ba.. very very random thoughts.. alot of things recently on my mind.. thinking alot of things.. hahax.. i'm aging i guess.. thinking so much.. hahax.. guess army realli too bored le.. nothing to do.. LOL..

dunno la.. quite troubled actually.. alot of things on my mind and thinking thru alot of stuffs.. more about army stuffs ba.. things i wan to do and do not want to do.. its realli thru army that guys realli grow up and become a real men i guess.. cauz army not onli train us physically, but also mentally.. in a sense that we get to see alot of things in life.. selfishness in man and hypocrisy in human..

i guess as a human i am selfish too ba.. i'm a hypocrite also ba.. i dare say ppl put on masks in front of different ppl.. i'm no different.. i act differently in front of different ppl.. i have indeed become selfish in army.. i always have doubts and questions bout why i had to do this and that while others dun in camp.. and alwaes think i'm at a disadvantage doing so much work.. i'm selfish.. everyone does so too..

i guess this is part and parcel of life ba.. its something that humans cannot avoid in life.. its a cross junction in life ppl have choose their path from ba.. the choice to make a right decision that will not defeat one's purpose in life.. and not going against one's principles ba.. guess i have somehow made a choice le.. and i got answers to many many of my questions le.. guess i have to stand by my choice ba..

guess i have to go think thru lots more stuffs ba.. to realli grow up ba.. like my PS say.. hopefully we can ord noeing that we are real men who had gone thru national service and served our commitment.. but i guess its not the commitment that matters.. its the learning and the various lessons we gained at become a real man.. and that we have strengthened our beliefs and convictions in life ba.. hahax.. and that we nv regretted the choices we make in army and in life..

guess i will end here ba.. getting nagging le.. hahax.. like freaking old man liddat.. LOL.. hoping to get thru next week smoothly and that i can endure thru the final evaluation exercise for the year.. then i will be free for block leave!!! hahax.. ask mi out worx.. LOL.. guess i will end here ba.. will be back soon.. with pictures and stuffs i took recently.. flying off!!!

broke...

lol.. hahax.. i'm like officially broke liao le.. wahahax.. yesterday went plaza meet up my frend for coffee and came across this fujifilm sale.. woots.. got a brochere and read it.. freak.. the next second i decided i wanted a new digi cam.. lol.. reason why i broke liao..

LOL.. got the slim and sleek one.. finepix Z10fd.. lol.. 7.2megapixels.. at a price of $378.. hahax.. cauz went with my sis and she also happened to pass by the counter and got to noe the sales personel over there.. got quite a good bargain.. lol.. free extra battery and lens cleaning kit.. lol.. here's a pic of it.. i bought the black one.. lol..










guess i realli seemed super excited.. lol.. which some may think i'm over reacting.. lol.. but its like finally i got myself a digi cam of my own liao le.. no need borrow from my sis liao le.. hahax..

had alwaes been interested in photography but i juz dun have a camera of my own.. but now i do.. lol.. so happy.. wahahax.. finally can do something and learn something i alwaes wanted to.. something of my interest..


recently have been rather emo.. thinking alot of things in life.. thinking alot.. seriously.. looking for many answers within mi.. guess i can onli say i reverted back to who i was in the past le.. something i dread but it happened.. realli looking for answers.. trying to sort out the disagreements within mi.. figuring out wat i realli want.. and trying to be myself once again..


it was nice toking to my platoon mate sinda and leslie while we were doing sentry on friday live firing.. got more insights about life and got to noe more about religion.. and i somehow sort of found some answers.. even though din realli share with them wat i was thinking.. hahax.. nonetheless i realli appreciated the time i spent with them on friday.. hahax..


hahax.. still very happy that i got a new camera.. hahax.. think gonna bring it out where ever i go ba.. take pictures i like.. especially sunsets.. hahax.. next week gonna be a short week.. unit anniversary plus deepavali.. woots.. holidays coming!!! but no money to spurge liao.. lol.. think i go off le ba.. booking in in 2 hours time.. lol.. blog again next time ba.. flying off!!!

freaking bored...

book out on friday after out camp run.. went makan and play pool with my platoon mates.. refreshing experience ba.. first time going out with them.. hahax.. still not too bad.. had fun la.. wahahax..

yesterday went for a run early in the morning with joel.. lol.. ran from home to jj.. hahax.. estimated ard 10km.. LOL.. run wasn't too bad.. hahax.. at least still got stamina to run long distances.. LOL.. also did some shopping for things i need.. wahahax.. today rotted at home for the whole day.. sianzZz..

dunno leh.. recently dunno why keep feeling that there is something missing somehow in my life sia.. a part of mi that i had seemed to have lost since in entered army.. i realli dunno wat it is though.. feeling so empty inside..

every week book in to wait for book out.. but yet i dunno wat i should do during book out.. haizZz.. this feeling suxs man.. dunno why.. scrolling down my phonebook, realised i do noe many ppl.. but i realise there are not many i realli noe.. haizZz.. dunno la.. guess my mind is quite messed up right now ba.. and this suxs..

guess i realli should spend some time in camp thinking liao le.. sort out my mind ba.. dunno la.. dunno wat i thinking also.. hah.. such a irony..

think end here ba.. enough of my nonsense.. LOL.. A levels starting next week liao le.. here wishing all my juniors all the best and good luck for their exams.. hahax.. may everyone of them can do well for their exams ba.. hahax.. booking in soon.. flying off!!!

wow.. it has been freaking freaking long since i ever blogged liao le.. hahax.. had been busy going out on recent book out meeting my frends.. lol.. book out is precious for army guys u noe.. lol.. hahax..

the past few weeks have been fine.. not much of physical activities for mi cauz apparently i am still on light duties.. ya.. so dun have to do much also.. mostly sai gang when ppl are doing all the work.. lol..

budden recently the level of sian-zation has been rising in mi.. the more and more i feel fed up in my platoon.. everyday juz dota and dota among the rest of my platoon mates.. everyday tok about it wun sian de.. wa kao.. hear liao also sianzZz.. haizZz.. worse one is the unlimited complains and complains by some.. everyday complain bout training about life in camp and lots of shyt.. they juz cannot accept reality.. haizZz.. i realli wonder why some ppl are so naive in the way they see things.. haizZz..

i dunno leh.. i have a chance to get of of all the shyt.. and i guess i will be going for it ba.. down pes is the onli way le ba.. its not cauz of the mundane and labourious work liao.. its about the ppl.. i juz cannot work with some ppl ba.. haizZz.. hopefully i can get out of hell now.. haizZz.. afterall i guess humans are selfish ba.. including mi..

enough about nonsense in camp liao le ba.. weekends had still been great for mi going out and chilling out with frends.. lol.. yesterday juz went vivo dinner.. hahax.. hopefully next week can meet up some of my jc frends ba.. lol.. i'll stop here ba.. going back to camp later.. blog again sometime soon ba.. flying off!!!

haizZz..

got guard duty on sunday.. going back tonight.. sianzZz.. now worried sick.. my mum juz dislocated her shoulder.. again.. dunno wat to do sia.. juz now wanted to change guard duty.. but no one willing to help mi.. haizZz.. i dun blame ppl ba.. cauz its a sunday.. men is selfish, the world is cruel i guess.. haizZz..

realli worried now sia now that i not at home cannot help my mum do stuffs.. haizZz.. hope that she would be fine soon.. but i noe she wun recover so soon de.. the more worried i am now.. haizZz.. dunno how sia..

but i guess need to thank my PS who helped mi call the rest and tried his best to help mi.. realli thank him millions.. appreciated his help tons.. guess i will end here ba.. dunno wat else to say liao le.. flying off.....

who am i???

sianzZz.. continuously sick.. haven recover yet sia.. cough every night.. feeling so lethargic every single day in camp sia.. today finally book out le.. finally got some time off from camp to do the things i like to do le..

indeed army took away 2 yrs of my life.. but now i realli start to wonder.. izzit a realli bad thing??? these few weeks i been asking myself many qns.. looking for many answers within mi.. wat do i realli wan in my life??? wat are the things that i realli wan in life??? i seriously dunno..

i realli dunno leh.. this seems to be some sort of identity crisis ba.. now i'm in middle of nowhere.. not studying, not in the society.. i realli start to wonder who i realli am.. wat am i as a person??? i realli dunno.. wat do i wan for my future??? wat are the things i wanna do in the future.. i have not planned or neither decided.. i realli dunno wat i want..

few days back got a scolding from my frend.. guess that was realli the call that woke mi my.. and to realli start thinking of my life le.. from wat i can see from the past weeks i guess i am realli changing back to who i am in the past liao le.. i guess i dun wan that to happen ba.. i am realli a bastard in the past.. but i realli hope i wun change back..

this feeling realli sucks.. i seriously got no clue on wat to do.. and i seriously got no clue to wat i am thinking about also.. i guess its now up to mi to decide le ba.. wat i realli wan in life.. and to realli reflect on the things i did.. hopefully i can realli give myself am answer real soon ba.. haizZz..

guess i will end here ba.. a little tired liao le.. maybe blog again next time ba.. flying off!!!