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i'm seriously like abandoning this blog.. nothing much amazing happened this few eventful weeks.. kinda paradoxical.. still stuck in my disgusting camp waiting to be free.. argh..

its especially boring when u have realli nothing to do in camp but to wake up early in the morning for breakfast, have a run, go back to sleep, wake up for lunch, take a afternoon nap and have dinner again.. good thing is i'm booking out almost weekly for physio and medical appt..

human beings that is.. we complain when we have too much work to do.. i complain when i have to go outfield cheong sua and do lots of idiotic stuffs.. yet when i have absolutely nothing to do, i complain that life's boring.. dunno how to explain this feeling though.. perhaps the pre-ORD syndrome ba.. 3 more months plus to be freed of this mundane life.. or izzit juz the beginning?

at least the past week was fine.. had unit anniversary celebrations on thurs and friday and get to book out on thursday after so "exciting" games and went to wild wild wet on friday.. wild wild wet was alright.. one of the rides was exhilarating.. kinda free fall from dunno how high.. LOL..

that some what concludes this realli post for the sake of post de boring post.. LOL.. very long since i last went shopping.. i want new clothes new berms!! my sis is going taiwan soon.. hopefully can get some berms for mi.. LOL.. i want a holiday!!

should stop this from going on le.. gonna have block leave till wed.. going back to school on wed.. hopefully can see some of the teachers i have not seen for a long time le.. LOL.. update again ba.. till thens..

crossroad..


here i am.. right in the middle.. no turning back.. but yet shrouded in uncertainties.. which path to take, wat choice to make.. not lost.. but i dun noe where i should go.. 4 months seem so long.. yet it will disappear a a blink of an eye.. regrets are killing mi.. draining mi each and everyday.. now its the time.. everything lies in my hands.. its time to decide..

updates..

can't think of a title to put it up there.. more or less this is the best to descibe this post ba.. LOL.. been realli doing nothing much in camp recently.. except being outfield last week acting as enemy for another company's evaluation.. was almost bored to death.. supposed to do gaurd on friday but asked to go home after we reached camp.. apparently another company is doing.. wat a waste of time.. nvm..

at least the weekend was great.. met up with nat and yun feng for dinner at NYNY.. realli very very long since i last saw nat le.. think everything still the same.. haha.. but was realli happy on sunday to see joel after like a few months.. our busy schedule made it so impossible to meet up.. but great that we did.. haha.. caught up with so many things and meeting him for dinner this friday.. can't wait..

now on excuse.. heavy load, upper limb, RMJ and ACCT.. seems so chao keng la.. i feel so also.. but guess this is the aftermath for cheonging this whole yr.. seriously my neck and my knee is cui already.. went for a light jog this evening and my knee is like giving way already.. the neck aching as usual.. couldn't do ACCT next week.. cannot afford to strain myself anymore..

after all i realli start to wonder if everything is worth it anot.. work to prove to myself.. i guess this is.. but for army, no.. realli realli tired le.. 4 months plus to go before i realli step out the gates of SAF.. seems so near, looks so close.. but can't feel it, can't touch it yet.. the amazing thing is that my physio said the onli way for mi to get better is to ord.. haha.. oh wells.. this is life i guess.. we gain a little, we lose a little..

also gave up running standard chartered this yr le.. parents worried bout my health.. i got a little hypertension.. din want my parents to get worried also.. but more importantly i made the decision cauz of my neck and knee.. i can't train much now.. running has already become a problem.. guess i need to recuperate and hopefully i can next yr..

my basic theory test coming this friday.. haha.. haven realli study anything yet.. haha.. wonder how to get back to studies when i see juz a little more words and i wanna close the book liao.. zzz.. haha.. hopefully i'll pass though.. can get a license soon.. can't wait for book out.. LOL.. (i haven even book in yet..) update again ba.. till thens..

bookin in..

ok.. realise it has been a realli long time since i last dropped by here.. time to undust my rusty old blog liao.. haha.. life has been fine since i'm back from thailand.. the "lao jiao" aura in camp is making mi not wanting to do anything.. LOL..

realli time to remedy all the problems that army has caused mi.. been doing my physiotherapy for my neck religiously but i guess the onli way that my neck strain will recover is to ord.. sounds wrong but its right.. think my strain wun recover unless i realli stop carry extremely heavy stuffs and stop the training that is causing all the pain..

went for night cycling on friday night organised by meng fei.. very good job done.. settling all the crazy admin things and getting spammed here and there.. haha.. it wasn't that bad.. LOL.. well done xiao ming! LOL..

been going out here and there and nothing much happened recently though.. and doing LOTS of guard duty.. leave kenna eaten also.. hais.. suan le ba.. that day will come.. 9th feb 2009.. i can't wait.. doing duty on friday again.. looking forward to saturday.. finally meeting nat and yun feng for dinner after so so so long.. weekends pls come!! update again.. till thens..

P.S. hey anna if u see this realli my sincere apologies to u that i cannot make it for the bbq coming sat.. mistaken the date and its realli the mistake on my part that i made an empty promise i will come.. realli sorry!!!

5 more months to ord!!!

back from thailand!

woots.. i'm back from training from thailand.. haha.. 18 days of training had finally come to an end and marks more or less the end of my training in army.. finished with the final evaluation le.. and i cleared my ippt and soc le.. more or less counting down to ord onli le.. LOL..

it was my very trip overseas.. first time on a plane.. i was like a child getting my very first christmas present.. i was thankful i had this chance to train in thailand and to open my eyes to what i was ignorant of in the past..

this trip to thailand was a once in a lifetime experience.. the place we were training at were the northern part of thailand.. ppl there more or less grew crops to support their lives.. houses were make-shift ones.. wooden planks and zinc roofs.. thats a home for them.. back in singapore this is how fortunate we are.. hdb flats everytime.. everyone have proper housing.. a proper shelter.. yet so many ppl take wat we have for granted.. i do too..

this journey taught mi so many things.. to appreciate wat we have.. to be grateful to where we belong.. life there may be tough.. life there may not be as good.. but does it mean the ppl there are not happy? i realli dun have the answer.. what is true happiness? my frend often ask mi.. i finally got the closest answer.. to be satisfied.. to be contented.. to appreciate.. thats where true happiness comes from..

the thing in thailand is that the poor is very poor yet the rich is very rich.. there can be villagers living in such rundown conditions in the north of thailand yet there are ppl living in mansions in bangkok.. this poverty cycle seems to repeat itself.. the rich just gets richer and the poor remains poor.. life seems so unfair.. but how fair life is is how fair u want life to be for u.. its a matter of perception i guess..how u want to define ur life.. life is beautiful because we made it beautiful..

many times in thailand i asked myself wat i was working for.. wat i am working so hard for.. why am i there in the first place.. why i should put in so much effort when others dun bother.. thats the thing i have been asking myself even out of army.. i found an answer.. its for myself.. to prove to myself that i'm capable.. to push myself to the limits and to make myself believe.. i can if i believe.. there are so many beliefs that i have that is strengthened after this 18days.. i'll nv be the same again..

the most important thing i understood was the importance of my family and frends.. the position they had in mi.. i hanged on.. juz to see them again.. they are the purpose of my life.. they are the key to my happiness.. they are the motivation for mi to push on in life.. they are my life..

this thailand trip was a tough one.. but not that tough afterall.. 3 shellscrapes.. climbed a 85 degrees inclined hill twice.. haha.. but all was worthwhile.. and i'm glad everything was over.. experience the rich culture of thailand such as the floating market.. and things there are realli CHEAP.. LOL.. but didn't have much time buying and shopping cauz we spent more time on the bus than shopping.. thailand is seriously too big liao.. LOL.. nonetheless i still had fun..

stoning right now cauz of the jet lag i guess.. been sleeping non stop since i came back.. time to rejuvenate and hope to see some of my frends this week.. update again soon ba.. till thens.. (:

off to thailand!!!

after months and months of speculation and waiting.. the last and final hurdle is here.. off to thailand lo tonight lo.. my final test.. the final challenge in army.. supposedly.. LOL.. but more or less done with army after i'm finished ba.. wait for ord lo..

be back next month 8th.. will be looking forward till then.. in the meantime to my frends pls dun msg mi or call mi.. if not will waste ur phone bills de.. leave mi a email or something and i will get back to u real soon.. take care lo everyone.. cya guys soon!

till thens.. (:

OFF!!!

like finally i am getting wat i deserved.. LOL.. a long weekend break and off for us.. 5 days of rest.. the week was good.. nothing much.. 5km competitive run on wed at mac ritchie.. crazy runners there.. damn zai all.. i managed to run 5km in within 20 min though.. 19 plus.. personal best.. outcamp run on friday at batok and thats all for the week..

got to finally register for my driving on friday liao also.. been saying since the year started.. at last registered with cheng wei after the run.. cut queue cauz jeffrey's dad worked there.. LOL.. went swimming on saturday also.. suntan my white belly.. haha..

today caught money not enough 2 with my mum.. was a good movie.. always kinda negative towards recent jack neo's movies.. but realli impressed with this one though.. the neatness of the acting of the old lady.. moved mi alot.. shall not spoil the story for those who haven watch.. recommended though.. preferably bringing ur parents down..

parents are the pillars of our lives.. seek to give their children.. hoping nothing in return.. sometimes even if it means giving up their lives.. watching the movie with my mum beside mi, i guess i had not been a good son i ought to be.. they realli gave mi alot but nv did i ever say i love them before.. if i could onli be half as filial as my dad was to my late grandmother.. time is wat made up our lives.. i guess its up to us to treasure the time we have ba..

yucks.. i'm getting old again.. one of my frend found a picture of mi in jc.. like 2 plus yrs ago.. nostagia sia.. and i barely could believe that the person in the picture is mi.. yucks.. with credits to bin hao..

the time when i could hardly fit into my uniform and i couldn't find any jeans of my size.. i used to ask for size 38 for jeans and the reply i get is: "HUH? sorry my shop dun have such BIG SIZE de jeans.. maybe u can try finding at (insert random shop name).." and the vicious cycle carry on..

think the time when i still dared to step on the weighing machine was like when i was 97kg.. i believed i had achieved "better results" during my A levels period.. haha.. guess i should say a big thank you to army amidst all the disgust.. to make mi like officially 22kg less..

i'm like so random.. LOL.. guess shall stop here ba.. if not i'll be telling old grandmother stories le.. jogging tml evening and attending my physio session for my neck on tuesday.. hopefully it works.. but i guess it will be the same after thailand though.. enough of crap here le.. till thens..

HAPPY BDAE MENG FEI!!!

i'm done with local exercises! like finally.. haha.. last exercise in thailand and i'm done with my engineer training.. can concentrate on training up my running liao.. maintaining my gold.. heard from xiao ming standard chartered is out for registration le.. dunno whether i should sign up anot.. i ran 16km and i felt like dying.. 42.195km.. is like running to the end point and ppl tell u to restart.. LOL..

great saturday.. celebrated meng fei's belated bdae.. westmall sakae.. ate damn alot till i declared myself unfit for dinner.. the cheese cake i ordered was fantastic.. damn nice.. haha.. credits to my platoon mate's frend.. haha.. saw my ex colleagues there also.. haha.. some pictures of the bdae boy.. er no bdae adult.. cauz is the 21st..

total indulgence..

proud to present the bdae adult.. LOL..

went queensway ikea shopping for xiao ming's hall stuffs also.. bought a lot of this and that.. LOL.. 大包小包.. juz buy onli.. LOL.. went queensway look for running shoes also.. haha.. in the end each of us bought a pair of berms.. LOL.. went back jurong sheng siong and then back to jp shopping.. crazy amount of stuffs we bought.. went xiao ming's home consolidated them and this is wat we got.. MUAHAHA..

dunno how much also liao.. haha.. lost track..

great company, great day.. long time since i realli had fun le.. LOL.. life's good with friends ard.. even better with all the uncertainties in life.. going out tml again i guess.. update again soon.. till thens.. 3 more weeks to thailand.. can't wait.. LOL..

tired..


seemingly slack week went wrong.. 8km route march 12km route march 16km run.. SOC on thursday.. drained like crazy.. ankle's getting cui.. knee aching like crazy.. wat more exercise from monday to wednesday.. shellscrapes again..


but the consolation is i finally passed my SOC.. can get status liao.. seeing orthopaedic soon.. strained neck.. hai.. my knee and ankle going cui soon also.. got a medal on friday also.. for completing the 16km formation run at east coast..

went town yesterday then met with xun kai.. went marina hoping to see fireworks from the national day thingy but dun have.. but nice though..

i'm kinda disoriented now.. dunno wat i'm typing now also.. juz so not myself right now.. think i better end here ba.. booking in soon liao also.. hope can survive another hell of a exercise ba.. meeting xiao ming on saturday.. at least something to look forward to during the weekends.. update again.. till thens..

happy bdae anna!

celebrated anna's bdae yesterday at manhattan.. quite fun.. haha.. she was a lucky girl the whole day.. LOL.. wishing her all the best and good luck in everything..

booking in liao.. with a cui ankle and i can't find my ankle guard.. my god.. gonna bandage my ankle b4 running soc this week.. hopefully it works.. hopefully i pass.. if not gg.. no more weekends liao..

gtg.. crazy week ahead after this.. exercise again.. one more month to thailand.. woots.. busy week ahead also.. 我很忙.. LOL.. update again ba.. till thens..

sprained ankle..

great.. survived BEAR.. but now left with a sprained ankle.. damn.. thanks to the lady who swing her hand all of a sudden, made mi siam her and walked off with a pissed face when i was the one down.. forget it.. blame on my luck.. hope i din hit her also..

BEAR was crazy.. but finally finished.. 3 more exercises to go.. hopefully can survive thru.. haha.. managed to watch 赤壁 yesterday with hong rui also.. with a sprained ankle.. LOL.. not too bad.. nice show.. but i simply love the ending.. 4 words.. ask us to wait for part 2.. cool.. -.-

hope my ankle recover soon ba.. can run soc the following week.. if not RT is waiting for mi.. sian.. update sometime soon ba.. till thens..

BEAR woohh scary..

sian.. fail my soc.. complacency and unlucky.. haiz.. shouldn't have gave up on the run.. damn stupid.. oh wells.. here i go again.. watched 2 movies though.. hancock and get smart.. not too bad..

EX BEAR this coming week.. gonna be the worse 5 days in my army life i guess.. shellscrapes.. oh my.. cannot imagine yet.. hope i wun fall out ba.. update again soon ba.. have to survive thru this hell of a week.. gtg le.. till thens..

deployed...

coy deployment ex sux big time.. shellscrapes after shellscrapes and a garang coy 2IC drained the whole company or at least my platoon out.. dammit.. i hate shellscrapes..

the biggest consolation was the good bbq on thursday night.. good food.. and we get to book out for off on friday.. shopping with hong rui was eye opening.. LOL.. settled my temptation for jap food at ichiban that day also..

collected my passport on sat and had fun with xiao ming.. biggest present sent to mi from jeffrey that our guard today was cancelled.. woots.. haha.. but jogging with hong rui today made mi realise i'm getting weak le..

another exercise this week also.. hoping for all the best.. no mission fail.. if not gg.. gonna buy a new phone also.. realise my phone is going without a handset for a long time liao.. settling this weekend i guess.. bookin in le.. till thens..

GOLD~~~

woots.. hectic week.. rewarding one also.. struck gold le.. finally got my ippt gold.. woots.. 9.33 for 2.4km.. finally conquered myself.. $100 more and one more day off.. woots.. nominated for promotion to CPL liao also.. haha.. more money coming... wahaha..

section proficiency test was great.. first time saw my section working together.. everyone putting in the heart and soul into completing the various engineer tasks.. can say our section is considered the best le.. thats wat i was working hard for..

gonna be a crazy week ahead.. deployment exercise.. shellscrapes.. sian.. guard duty on sun somemore.. bo bian.. this is army.. gtg le ba.. update again.. till thens..

端午节..

today's dumpling festival.. dunno the exact name of the festival.. LOL.. not too bad.. but sinful.. lots of good food at home.. lots of dumpling at home also.. bad for digestion.. ate alot le.. think getting fat.. LOL..

chronicles was good.. for those who thinks its a kids movie and unwilling to watch, tear down that adulthood and watch it.. its a good movie.. nice.. good effects good plot.. but recommended to watch the first one beforehand.. easier to understand..

gonna fight one last time for gold till exercises come.. must do it this week.. soc also.. can go on off.. section proficiency test this week also.. torture.. good life's coming to an end.. no more movies.. zZz.. guard duty also.. here comes the pain.. going off le.. update again.. till thens..

back to camp..

weekends passed so quickly as usual.. going back camp later le.. nothing much for the week.. closer and closer to running 9.44 liao.. 9.57 now.. 13 more seconds.. must cheong hard.. been watching movie in camp this whole week.. stay alive, chronicles of narnia 1 and rush hour 3.. haha.. gonna have another this week i guess.. LOL..

went chevrons sing with xiao ming kieng tiong and xiao ming's frend on friday also.. kenna smoked by the person when i booked.. sian.. paid more.. haiz.. yesterday went bank to set up a MySavings account.. finally got a plan in place liao.. still considering another method to help myself save also.. also went jogging in the evening yesterday..

today rotted at home.. went cycling in the evening.. not too bad.. from home to jurong jj there.. now waiting to book in soon.. a lot of movies coming up recently.. wanna watch chronicles prince caspian this week.. cauz watched the first one le.. haha.. maybe during nights off or weekend ba..

gonna have SOC this week also.. must pass.. pass le jiu CPL liao.. more money le.. hopefully ba.. very long no take le.. and nv train also.. think will end here ba.. going off le.. hopefully have a peaceful week ahead in camp ba..

sian..

going back camp once again.. weekly rountine.. bookin in soon liao.. was a short break.. had out camp run on friday.. lame shit.. jurong camp ppl go punggol park run.. kinda brainless and wasted my cab fare.. damn.. did realli nothing much this weekend except occassionally going out and nua-ing at home..


managed to catch Made of Honour during nights out on wed.. went watch with leslie.. show was a little cheesy.. but it was nice though.. romantic comedy.. LOL.. quite a way to spend the nights out.. then had ichiban also..

as usual sat went for coffee with xun kai at night.. plaza was crazy.. got overnight sale or something liddat.. then today went for a haircut.. now damn damn short.. oh wells.. shorter hair means no need cut so often ba..

thinking of a saving plan to help mi save more with the allowance i get every month.. think that i am kinda overspending every month liao le.. realli need to save more.. so got more money to spend after i ord and eventually when i further my studies.. no need to strain on my parents..

watching the charity program on channel 8.. kinda upset looking at the ppl suffering in sichuan due to the earthquake.. i guess its realli hope and love that can push ppl to survive ba.. can onli pray that more survivors can be found.. hope that villages and infrastructure can be rebuilt soon.. hope for the best and hope for miracles to happen ba..

think will end here liao le.. gonna go down to the bank coming weekend.. should start my saving plan le.. have to start planning OG outing again le.. as requested by ming xiong.. LOL.. gtg.. till thens..

BOOK IN...

booking in a another hour's time.. went shopping with hong rui today.. went queensway ikea and walking ard queensway.. lucky could control myself and din not splurge my money on clothes and stuffs.. spent minimal money sia..

pondering bout some things yesterday night while toking to xun kai.. in life there are so many things that are opposites.. light and darkness, day and night, love and hate, good and bad.. opposites.. things totally different.. but issn't opposite itself a paradox? i guess its realli up to one's choice to decide ba..

bookin in le.. update again soon ba.. till then..

Weekends..

its realli juz great to be having my weekends this week.. supposedly to have my weekends burnt for a noble cause de.. but duty in camp saved my weekends.. LOL.. had a class bbq on saturday.. at chen chen place.. most came.. but some din.. but was still quite fun.. very very long no bbq le.. enjoyed the time bbq-ing food and cooking for everyone.. chen chen kept opening liquor.. ppl vomitted.. ppl almost buang liao.. including myself even though a onli drank a little..

class photo.. quality was bad due to the timer.. kinda disappointed with myself.. not able to take a photo well.. oh wells..

the one of much better quality.. in courtesy of keat kee.. nicely taken by him..

photo i took before leaving chen chen place..

great to be seeing old frends and able to catch up a little on everybody lives.. ppl busy in army and ppl busy with their uni lives.. kinda luxurious to be able to take some time off for everyone to gather together for a class outing at this time of the year.. appreciated the effort from keat kee, chen chen and from everyone who came.. its nv easy to organise.. haha.. hopefully in future have the chance to gather more often for outing and stuffs..

from this bbq also got something very important.. officially pronounce myself being ALLERGIC TO ALCOHOL.. no more liquor and alcohol for mi from now on.. had been tormented by rashes over my body due to mere 3 cups of diluted liquor.. guess this issn't a very bad news afterall.. i dun drink anyways also.. haha.. NO ALCOHOL to mi.. woots..

sunday that was like juz yesterday went out with my mum to bai bai at 四马路观音庙.. very long no go out with my mum le.. so promised to go out with her yesterday.. not too bad.. wasn't as impatient like in the past when i went out with her le.. kinda accomplished something liddat.. guess i should bring my mum out more often when i have the time when i book out.. she always been busy with housework and seldom gets to enjoy herself.. time to realli bring her ard le.. LOL..

went look for xun kai also.. good to see him jumping and running after his gruesome field camp in tekong.. LOL.. had a nice nice chat thru the night.. another luxury that we are able to make time out of the stupid army schedules to meet up for a casual meeting.. a luxury that always bring mi new surprises everytime..

tml would be meeting my 30 buddy hong rui out to do some shopping.. lol.. guess i will end here ba.. realise is 2 plus in the morning le.. and its vesak day.. LOL.. update again when i'm free ba.. till then..

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22sec.. i missed my gold again.. great.. no more time to train liao.. guess can onli retake everything after exercises and stuffs liao.. zZz..

saturday went celebrate jing shi's bdae.. at fish and co jp.. the service that day was realli realli bad.. i mean bad.. dun have this dun have that and even got mucus like stuffs in my cup la.. omg.. wasn't like this the previous time i went.. kinda disappointed.. but the celebration was alright.. haha.. bought a cake for the bdae girl..

group photo we took..

yesterday morning went to ntu with my frend jayne for some talk.. then in the afternoon went shopping with fat tummy.. LOL.. bought a shirt from topman and a belt at far east.. xin tong sia.. less and less money for the month to spend liao le.. must start controling my spending le.. but lucky got voucher from zi cheng.. haha.. no need spend so much for the shirt.. LOL.. juz enjoy going out with xiao ming.. LOL..

gonna have a class bbq coming sat but doubt can go liao le.. cauz weekend should be burnt due to some unprecendented events in camp.. zZz.. then all schedule gonna be rushed le.. guess should say goodbye to quite a lot of weekends for the few months ahead liao le.. sian..

gonna be booking early tonight.. some briefing.. sian.. think end here ba.. dunno when can update again liao.. till then..