my life

i am so tired.. so tired.. tired of studies and tired of life liao.. life has been realli realli mundane and rountine.. morning till evening go skl study and study.. come home study and study.. eat then sleep.. the second day go skl study and study and the whole rountine juz repeats itself.. its such a vicious cycle.. and i hate it.. can't seem to concentrate and get down to studies..

today totally flunked my maths test and the most i can get is 6 over 50.. idiot.. so much for not practising enough.. i am sure some ppl will think i deserve it.. yeah.. and i guess its time to start practising daily and study daily for my maths and other subjects liao le..

totally in no mood for chemistry and gp and was slacking all the while.. din pay any attention.. i am realli tired liao le.. very drained.. mentally and physically drained liao le.. guess that is why i slept more than 9 hours last night and nothing could get mi awake..

i guess there is too much distractions to keep mi studying liao le.. too many in skl.. and also in class.. i juz wanna study liao le.. and all these distractions are keeping mi away from my studies.. i feel very sad and very bad.. i dunno wat i have done.. i tried my best not to bother others liao le.. and keeping my mouth shut all the time.. budden sometimes can juz hear some remarks that realli made mi feel bad.. i dunno wat i have done wrong.. and the saddest thing is that i can't change anything now.. i am very miserable..

all i need is a space to study now.. i guess i need peace within mi to start motivating mi for studies.. i cannot afford to have any other distractions liao le.. if not i will die.. die die die die die.. yeah.. onli 5 weeks to prelims liao le.. cannot afford to lose any time for my studies liao le..

went back with my frends today and the chatting and joking somehow cheered mi up today.. and thinking of orientation and 1st three months also somehow made mi feel better.. tml going watch movie with joel and think will be going sakae sushi also.. yeah.. hopefully that can numb mi for a moment and enjoy myself ba..

i guess i will stop here ba.. gtg study for chemistry revision test for tml liao le.. and to everyone reading this entry, dis is the onli way i can relieve myself of my stress and worries and i am not trying to bring any problems or unhappiness to others.. plz understand.. thanks.. signing off.. tata!!! =)

P.S. 98 days till A levels..