haizZz

back at home liao le.. cauz vesak day.. get to book out yesterday night.. woots.. but the book out isn't so great afterall.. have to book in again tonight liao le.. and now coughing and having a bad bad bad flu sia.. and i endured thru the 16km route march with the flu and cough.. painful experience.. plus the skin on my palm came off liao during SOC yesterday.. haizZz.. juz suxs..

this coming saturday ippt liao le.. dun think can pass in the first place.. now the more i think i cannot pass liao le.. sick and extremely painful hand.. cannot run cannot pull up.. sianzZz.. haizZz.. heck care la.. since i not aimming for command skl..

last night went clementi to find zhen lin, vincent, hock yong, anna, jing shi and wei xia after my book out.. cauz vin ask mi play pool.. budden onli get to play one game cauz i book out very late and can onli meet them round 11.. after that jiu went home liao le..

haizZz.. thanks to my stupid mouth, said something wrong again liao le.. haizZz.. nv think about others de feeling.. so insensitive of mi.. haizZz.. noe is my fault.. cauz is i say de.. haizZz.. dunno wat to do also.. haizZz.. my must i say the wrong things at the wrong time??? haizZz.. why din i care bout other's de feelings??? i think i deserved to be scolded sia.. haizZz.. sorry worx anna.. sorry i din cared about ur feelings.. forgive mi ok??? promise no more next time liao le worx.. sorry sorry!

haizZz.. think i will stop here ba.. no mood to carry on liao le.. think going rest liao.. taking medicine later.. flying off..

back from SITEST...

finally released from the tekong prison and now back to civilisation once again.. it has been a hell of a week.. very very very hectic and tiring.. all the activities came one after another this week.. had grenade live throw which i threw a blind.. haizZz.. then came sitest.. woots..

sitest was completely tiring.. crazy in fact.. had 12km route march to the camp site and started learning new things to help us in our mission.. but the fast march every morning is like crazy la.. lol.. nonetheless sitest was fun for mi.. many new things that are useful i have learnt.. there wasn't much of stress cauz i wasn't aimming for command skl liao le..

recently has been thinking about alot alot of things.. about my life and about myself.. i am planning to retake As.. hahax.. dunno why suddenly have this plan.. but i think i started to think more about my future liao le.. thats was partly why i gave up the idea of going command skl.. i think this 2 yrs is time for mi to think bout my life liao le.. wat i realli realli want in my life.. and its realli time to do it liao le..

last night i had somehow a debate with my section mate charles.. toking about things happening in army.. and him telling mi about my negative parts.. wat he said i already knew.. cauz i had close confidants telling mi bout that liao le.. but i guess he knew mi onli for a short time.. he cannot understand mi at all.. and i am not ready to say things bout myself..

yes.. ppl should be optimistic.. we should change our mindset.. but at the end of the day, nothing can be changed instantaneously.. time is the crucial factor in this game.. and i guess its also the ppl.. somehow some ppl i can connect immediately and open up to them.. but that is onli a few onli.. my section mate is helpful.. but he is giving too much.. we are humans afterall.. we are not immortal.. we are not all mighty.. there are some things that are realli up to thyself to solve.. others cannot help..

army indeed changes boys to men.. its realli a period of hardship that boys can mature and grow up, starting to think more about their lives and themselves.. to mi army is somehow good.. apart from the crazy training.. hope i can get myself a answer to all my qns soon ba..

i think i will stop here ba.. going out to swim later liao le.. hahax.. a hot hot weather.. shiok to swim.. wahahax.. meeting up with my senior 2LT zi cheng later.. lol.. wahahax.. flying off!!!

GREAT WEEKEND

this weekend has been a great weekend for mi.. very fun and enjoyed myself very very much.. first time in the week i felt happy in fact.. cauz was realli bothered by my injury and bothered over the fact that i missed field camp.. haizZz.. was feeling bad for the past week..

but on saturday went out with my frends wei xia, hock yong, zhen lin, vincent, anna, jing shi and kwang yee to go sentosa play play.. lol.. it was very very fun.. took the new monotrail to sentosa.. hahax.. first time i take worx.. very fun.. reached there ard noon and started playing volleyball all those.. couldn't go into the water cauz my wound not totally recovered yet..

yesterday keep making fun of vincent and keep on ka jiao-ing him.. hahax.. so fun to "play" with him sia.. hahax.. bury him in the sand and throwing him into the water.. also gave him new hair styles.. LOL.. its realli fun fun fun.. hahax.. shall upload some photos of wat we did to him.. hahax..


























poor ika buried to the ground.. LOL.. hahax..

the poor ika kanna throw into the water.. lol.

also did ika and fish hunting close to the evening when we were about to leave sentosa.. hahax.. it was fun.. hahax.. wei xia unleashes the kid in her and hunted keep trying to catch the fishes in the water.. hahax.. she managed to catch a few and also baby squid = baby ika.. lol.. thats why vincent got suaned again.. LOL.

at night went to marina bay to have steamboat.. hahax.. meet carey, yih pei, yih hao and xue pan over there cauz they were early and we are late.. lol.. yesterday din eat much cauz of my knee injury acting suddenly.. but the steamboat was still realli fun.. chat and joked alot together.. hahax.. on the way back home we practically laughed from marina to jurong east.. cauz we started to joke bout vincent again.. lol.. the trip yesterday as great and it realli lifted my spirits..

today went out to celebrate shi hua's bdae.. went for steamboat at marina also.. hahax.. 2 days in a row eating steamboat.. but ok la.. since is bdae celebration.. ate alot today during the steamboat.. its also nice to joke with ah wong and yih hao also.. hahax.. after which we went back to batok to cut the cake.. lol.. here are some of the photos of the bdae girl.. and also the group photo we took..























the bdae girl cutting the cake..




















the group photo we took.. hahax..

realli had fun this weekend.. hopefully next book out also so fun.. think i will stop here ba.. super tired liao le.. KO liao le.. think i will blog again another time ba.. flying off!!!

sianzZz sianzZz sianzZz...

today did nothing much in the morning.. came online for a while then went to polyclinic clean my wound.. waited for a long time to see doctor and clean my wound.. but one good thing is that the doctor said that my wound was nicely stitched and the scar wun be too bad afterall.. phew.. quite a relief..

got back home in the afternoon.. had lunch and online again.. realised there was one msg in my inbox.. its a friendster comment i received from my colleague amanada.. wat she said realli made mi disappointed with myself.. i realised that i have not been asking my frends and colleagues out as i have promised to do so.. ben and reggie also told mi this before.. and i realli cannot give them a good ans..

all i can say is that i have little book out time and most of the time ppl ask mi out instead of i ask ppl out.. i think this is realli an excuse.. its not a good reason.. i din make an effort to ask.. i did not try and i make a conclusion that ppl are busy and will not be free to go out together.. its realli assumptions that i make.. and i am ashamed that i even promised my colleagues i will try to maintain the frendship i have with them when i am not even trying..

i think its realli time i should stop giving myself excuses and realli time to fulfill my promise to my frends liao.. its realli time to do so liao le.. like wat i believe, i think its realli choice.. and i have now made a choice to fulfill my promise.. to all my frends.. sorry i somewhat broke the promise i given u all.. hope u all can forgive mi.. from today onwards, no matter how busy i am, i will make an effort to maintain the frendship i have with u all.. thats a promise and i will not break it ever again..

i think i will stop here ba.. a bit tired le.. going sleep perhaps.. tml gonna book in again liao le.. haizZz.. flying off!!! =)

ARGHHH!!!!

i have nv been so down in my mood ever since i finished my exams last yr.. feeling so empty and frustrated right now.. and i dunno how to express it out man.. this realli realli sux man.. even as i am writing this post i dunno wat i am trying to say also.. arghh.. this feeling is so disgusting..

why am i so unlucky to be injured at this point of time??? why must i be sent home??? why can't i go thru field camp together with my fellow frends??? this is realli exasperating.. i am nearing to POP liao le.. even if i wun be posted to a good vocation, i still wanna go thru everything in BMT.. now i missed field camp which is the most important part of BMT.. this feeling sux man..

i noe accidents wun be called an accident if we noe when it will happen.. but i realli dunno why it must happen to me.. i cannot go thru all the shyt and hardships with my platoon and bunk mates.. it also means i missed my chance to realli bond and connect with them liao le.. arghhh.. i doubt anyone can understand how i feel.. i keep asking myself why but i can never get an ans..

i might have to recourse.. it doesn't matter.. cauz i still serve the same period of time.. but wat i realli cannot let go is the frendship that i have forged in raven.. i started to bond with my frends.. the thought of the fact that i cannot pass out with my platoon mates juz sux man.. even if i managed to pass out, there will still be this regret that i have not realli completed BMT.. haizZz.. realli feeling so bad right now.. and this is realli a prob i cannot solve.. no matter how hard i try.. haizZz..

i realli wan to tok to someone.. but i dunno who i can tok to.. i dun wanna trouble my frends.. haizZz.. think i juz have to learn to accept reality once again ba.. but the world is cruel.. reality hurts.. flying off......

ATT C..

sianzZz diao.. i am now attending C.. attending C is for ppl who are realli sick in tekong to be send home to rest.. i am not sick.. but injured.. sianzZz diao.. got to attend C for 5 days.. meaning u will be grounded at home and not allowed to do anything except staying at home.. sianzZz..

the past week has been a easy yet tiring week.. had live range where we got to shoot real ammo.. all we had to do was to wait and wait and wait and wait for out turn to come to shoot.. the shooting took 2 days and i think i managed to pass live range.. and i was looking forward to field camp..

soon field camp came.. and saturday was the first day of field camp.. completely shagged that day.. had 8km route march to our camp site.. then had urban training and built basha in the evening for the night.. the day was extremely tiring.. but managed to get thru it..

second day come.. morning had field PT.. followed by urban training again.. that was when the unfortunate event occured.. when cheonging across a "danger area", i fell down.. i dunno why i fell cauz i cannot feel that i tripped on anything or neither my boots slipped.. i fell flat on the ground and immediately took off my helmet.. to my horror, blood was all over my helmet.. and i am dripping blood.. got a realli deep cut on my chin.. my SIR was stunned.. so were the medics.. cauz i was DRIPPING blood..

was sent to the medical centre for treatment.. budden in the end was sent out to changi hospital for treatment instead.. had 5 stitches.. luckily it was below my chin.. cannot reali be seen.. haizZz.. went back tekong to sleep in bunk.. i was the onli 1 in the whole company sleeping in bunk.. freakishly scared la.. but managed to get thru the night..

booked out and now back at night.. zZz.. cannot do anything sia.. haizZz.. attend C means i miss the whole of field camp liao le.. and i might not be able to pass out of bmt and might have to recourse.. sobs.. why must accidents happen at this point of time??? why why why??? but it cannot be helped ba.. an accident cannot be predicted.. guess i have to accept fate ba.. have to recourse recourse lo.. haizZz.. but realli cannot bare my platoon and bunk mates.. juz got to noe them better nia.. haizZz.. seriously dunno how to describe how i feel now.. haizZz..

think i stop here ba.. dun feel like carrying on liao le.. if got mood blog again next time ba.. gtg le.. feeling sleepy.. flying off......

woots.. it has been hell of a week.. finally book out liao yesterday.. budden the anticipation towards book out has been lessened.. dunno why.. seem to be like juz another book out liao le.. haizZz.. maybe realli getting used to the monotonous life in army liao le.. so feeling nothing much..

but i still had fun during these 2 days of book out.. yesterday went out with my colleagues anna, vincent, melvin, zhen lin and jing shi to walk walk have dinner and play pool.. hahax.. sianzZz sia.. cut my hair before book out.. anna and vincent laughed like hell when they saw my extremely short hair.. sobs.. haizZz.. nvm ba.. used to being botak liao.. wahahax..

then today went causeway watch spiderman 3 with wei xia, vincent and jing shi.. finally.. watch spiderman 3 liao le.. hahax.. the movie was good.. nice.. and some phrases in the ending realli caught mi.. cauz those are realli my convictions and beliefs in life.. after the movie met anna and kwang yee and went ichiban grab a bite.. then went off to meet my mum and sis for dinner..

this 2 days was fun and meaning.. and realli realli start to appreciate everyone ard mi liao le.. all my frends and my family.. hardly got the time to realli go out with them liao le.. simply too little time and freedom liao le.. and i hardly think these days liao le.. juz following orders all the while.. thats why had a rough time last night when chatting with my junior xun kai.. guess its realli time to start thinking again liao le.. wahahax..

i dunno leh.. i realli feel helpless recently.. many things i wanna do.. many things i hope to do.. frendships i wanna maintain.. relationships with ppl i wanna secure.. but i am realli helpless.. i realli dun have enough time to do wat i yearn to do.. but i wun give up trying.. cauz giving up on something is the last thing i would ever do in my life.. cauz everyone have a choice in their life.. i will definitely try my very best to maintain the frendship i have.. i will..

think i will stop here ba.. somehow dunno wat i am blabbering about liao.. hahax.. have to stop writing crap.. hahax.. will onli be back in 2 weeks time.. going field camp liao le.. confinement in tekong again.. sianzZz.. but i will pull thru.. blog again in 2 weeks time.. flying off!

1st book in.....

sianzZz.. booking in in a few hours time liao.. haizZz.. back to tekong "chalet" liao le.. hahax.. i am so "excited" sia.. can anyone feel my excitement??? zZz.. sianzZz diaozZz.. the thought of having to go back tekong will onli drive one nuts man.. tekong juz sux.. gonna be taken away from civilisation for another 3 to 4 days time liao le.. one word to describe: sianzZz..

haven pack my bag yet.. have to go pack liao le.. so many things to bring back to camp.. think my shoulder is going to break when i reach tekong sia.. haizZz.. tekong juz sux man.. haizZz.. sia la.. onli went in for 3 weeks feel this way liao le.. how to survive the rest of the time??? sianzZz..

ending here liao ba.. back for more boring update in my next book out.. which seems a long long long way away sia.. zZz.. flying off.....