din go to skl today.. cauz went for NS medical checkup.. woke up quite early in the morning to travel to CMPB for the checkup up.. agreed to meet bin hao at lot 1 control station at 7.30am to go together.. took train to redhill then changed to bus to CMPB.. had some soya bean milk before going for the checkup cauz was a little hungry.. after which we took 145 and arrived at our destination..

reached there rather late.. had some intimidating checks before going into CMPB.. checked our bags and stuffs.. reached the registeration counter and went for photo taking first.. wore NS uniform and took our photos.. quite weird de.. hahax.. first time ever in military uniform.. then went for full body checkup..

first had blood test.. one of the test i was most afraid of.. waited for a long long time before i and hao had our blood tested.. before that was something very interesting.. had urine test.. the poor army officier there had to repeat the same instruction over and over again.. that was "take a bottle take a stick and go toilet read instructions".. he repeated this instruction umpteen times whenever someone comes for the test.. super funny there lo.. after some waiting, i and hao had our blood test.. hao was the first time taking blood and i was still afraid of needles due to bad experiance i had.. lucky the army officier was patient and he slowly looked for my vein and it wasn't so painful cauz he should have quite alot of experience liao.. also saw wei xiang there at CMPB..

then had dental test, x-ray, hearing test and eye test.. at CMPB, i and hao saw a lady there.. quite stunned.. woman also coming for medical checkup.. seems like she wants to serve NS too.. weird.. hahax.. then went for body checkup after the eye test..

the body checkup was er.. weird.. nothing on but pants.. done ECG and took height and weight plus blood pressure.. today my blood pressure was normal.. no more slight high blood pressure liao.. hopefully can maintain for a long time.. hahax.. then saw a doctor and checked errrr.. ya.. wahahax.. then given a pes.. bin hao got into PES A.. i got in PES BP.. cauz i obese.. budden i think it doesn't matter.. cauz finish the 2 yrs and so be it liao.. cauz i want to study.. dun want sign on de.. so it is fine..

after which was the killer for NS checkup.. IQ test.. hao and i also meet some jj ppl there.. though dun noe each other budden since from same skl, we waited together for the IQ test and chatted together.. waited for long hours before its our turn to do the checkup.. wah sian la.. then the whole IQ test was weird la.. the qns were weird.. and some totally dun noe what they are asking for.. the easiest ones are physics qns and maths sequences qns.. haiz.. done more than 100 plus qns and took hell lot of time.. bin hao finished first and waited for mi and i soon completed and was released from CMPB officially.. damn relieved sia.. we went out of CMPB and took the bus back to redhill.. took train back to lot 1 to buy some food cauz both of us haven eaten anything since the morning.. then went home liao le..

later will be going badminton.. yeah.. so damn cool.. waiting for every friday to come.. cauz can play badminton.. now i got blue black on my left hand.. a bit painful.. cauz quite a big patch.. budden think wun affect mi play badminton de.. hahax.. ya.. ending here.. tata!!! =)

today is a mentally and physically draining day.. although dun have many lessons, budden the afternoon was the most taxing of all.. had one an a half hours of maths followed by 1 hour of maths.. thw worse thing wasn't this.. had THREE HOURS of gp straight.. crazy de.. tired like hell.. can't even listen.. especially in afternoon.. the best time to sleep.. now damn tired..

lucky tml no need go skl.. cauz got NS medical checkup.. means got long weekend for mi cauz monday is youth day holiday.. dun need to go skl also.. damn shiok la.. can rest a lot.. budden have to study also.. catch up on my work.. realli worried for tml's checkup.. cauz need take blood.. i hate needles seriously.. the repurcusion from my last blood test.. a trainee nurse poke a few times yet can't find the vein.. then pass to an experienced nurse who got it at the first try.. hopfully tml will be successful the first time round.. sian..

haiz.. guess tml will be a long day at CMPB.. got lots of tests and examinations to be done.. hopefully wun end so late ba.. hopefully.. so perhaps can go dota after the checkup.. wahahax.. i guess i will end here ba.. nothing much.. cya.. tata.. =)

today is a realli boring day in skl.. nothing much.. had chemistry remedial and chemistry lecture.. chem tutorial got back chem results.. i passed.. cauz my mcq pushed my grades up.. lucky.. on the dot pass onli.. 50.8.. lucky got pass.. budden physics results left.. that one sure jia liat jia liat de.. din realli have maths remedial.. then skl ended..

went to the student leader's meeting today.. actually i felt quite a waste of time.. shouldn't have gone la.. should have gone cca instead.. watched orientation video and heard "motivational and inspiring" speech in the meeting.. yeah.. can already predict wat will be said liao le.. and the same things is repeated over and over again.. sian.. waste of time seriously..

then went for cca.. today we all step down liao le.. choosing new batch of committee members for the j1s.. to say the bunch choosen was rather ok.. ya.. budden i dunno leh.. j2s also voted and i looked at the tally of results.. they decided to choose people based on votes.. haiz.. dunno whether it is fair anot.. most j2s in cldds dun realli tok to the j1s.. realli worried the choice wasn't good cauz we din realli get to noe all the j1s.. actually i thought a interview for the more important positions are still important.. budden reults are based on votes.. haiz.. worried a bit unfair.. also felt quite sad for some j1s who was all along in cldds from first 3 months but din get in the committee.. haiz.. dunno la.. let the teacher decide wat they want ba.. we have no control le..

now getting worried for NS medical checkup liao le.. scared will find something wrong.. haiz.. quite worried.. budden cannot be afraid also la.. have to face things bravely even if things do happen.. hahax.. have to be positive.. the NS thingy as been lingering in mi for quite long le.. can't shake it off.. sian.. now skl still wan mi retake napfa when i will nv pass and i will definitely go obese bmt so it doesn't matter whether i pass anot.. super sian sia.. haiz.. hopefully everything will be fine in the checkup..

i guess i will end here liao.. have to go pia physics homework liao le.. if not mr mak gonna kill mi.. hahax.. gtg.. tata..

today is a very slack day.. no lessons practically.. budden got back results for GP and maths liao le.. did very badly.. especially maths.. got onli 30 marks.. dead.. gp equally bad.. 45 marks onli.. gone case liao le.. sian sia.. this is onli the appetitiser.. i guess my physics and chemistry will be the main course in which i will get the most "surprise".. yeah..

din realli realli listen in skl today.. had GP lessons in ther morning.. not realli in the mood to listen.. the holidae mood still lingers.. then was physics lecture which i din managed to pay attention to also.. cauz too boring liao le.. then break went lunch and played chinese chess.. after which was a super short civics and dismiss le.. yeah..

after skl wei qi and my maths teacher was playing chinese chess.. toking bout the lousy results.. i guess my results sux to the core.. and our teacher said that its realli late to start studying onli now for As.. budden i beg to differ la.. sian.. though results now sux like hell, i noe that its becos my lack of preparation.. and lack of sustained effort to study.. guess have to work on that.. budden wat my teacher said is true la.. no time liao le.. i guess time to buck up liao le.. no time to lack le.. come JC to pass instead of fail exams de..

guess have to work lot more harder from today onwards le.. later gtg cheong chemistry homework liao le.. holiday homework.. cauz can't seem to be able to save the ans from the chemistry webby.. can't refer to it to do also.. sian la.. die liao le.. have to cheong for a long time liao le.. damn.. i will end here ba.. gtg.. tata..

skl reopens today le.. and indeed.. very sianz.. cauz still in holiday mood.. still cannot adjust back to the studying mode.. and i guess many ppl can' t too.. saw that many ppl ain't concentrating as much today.. the post-holiday effect perhaps.. hahax..

so as said, did nothing much today.. din even bother to listen to maths lecture.. cauz din revise a single bit in the holidaes.. so dunno wat the teacher is toking about.. instead was drawing some crap.. wahahax.. then was chemistry tutorial.. got back chemistry paper 1 results le.. i passed i think.. budden the rest i think is gone case de.. juz like maths and physics.. then physics lesson mr mak seems disappointed.. seems like he is abit unhappy with some of our performance.. i am sure i am one of them ba.. haiz.. then had physics lecture and dismissal.. cauz maths tutorial was cancelled..

walked to lakeside to take 180.. din had concession this month so had to save and scrimp for the time being till july comes.. budden waited for that bus for like donkey hours budden the bus still refused to come.. so decided to take train to go lot one and as well as buy some things for aunt.. also wanted to look for a elbow support.. cauz lately have been playing too much badminton and elbow is getting worn out and injured.. need one to protect my elbow..

yeah.. the one i bought.. wrap ard elbow de.. $9.95.. rather ex cauz juz after holidays a bit broke.. din have much money to buy things le.. especially after yesterday where i bought hell lot of stationaries and such.. so broke liao.. budden its still a good form of investment ba.. cauz can be used for a rather long time and can prevent injuries.. wahahax.. yeah i'm crapping.. wahahax..











after which i went to my aunt's home and passed her the things i bought for her.. yeah.. tried out the elbow support and it was rather ok.. guess i'll need some time to get used to using it.. yeah.. tml will be a damn slack day for mi.. cauz practically no lessons.. yeah.. so can enjoy a bit tml.. budden have to cheong physics homework also.. dun wan mr mak to kill mi.. ya.. hahax.. gtg le.. signing off.. tata..

today is sunday.. and tml is monday.. monday means SKL REOPENS!!! shit.. haven do any homework yet.. nothing done at all.. jia liat liao.. and realli in no mood to do any homework today.. damn.. and i think gettting common test results soon.. maybe even tml.. omg.. jaw drop.. i guess my civics tutor will be asking to meet my parents liao.. jia liat.. lucky already told my dad the truth le.. if not he is gonna kill mi when i get back my results..

haiz.. skl finally reopening liao.. and closer and closer to A levels liao le.. now have to kiss goodbye sleeping till late in the morning liao.. haiz.. means have to wake up at 5.30 daily again liao le.. haiz.. and all the stress from studies will be flooding in liao le.. especially ppl like mi who flunked our common test and practically had nothing in our brains.. have to put in at least a thousand and ten more percent of effort in order to catch up and can do well at the end of the day.. sian.. meaning that have to mug daily liao le.. sianzZz..

actually dreading the skl nowadays.. skl is such a cold place.. j1 and starting of j2 still very fun and interesting.. cauz playing ard all the time.. especially during orientation period last yr and this yr.. had the most fun.. and realli enjoyed myself a lot.. budden now skl is all about studies.. especially at this point of time.. the stress is coming.. u fail this yr u are gone.. no results, no future.. guess have to live in this environment and under this intense stress for the rest of my stay in jj.. and have to overcome this alone.. haiz..

lately my og frend msg mi and i guess the whole of og 28 from last yr.. she said she missed our og.. actually, i did too.. miss everyone so much.. has been like 6 months since we all have met liao.. since last yr's celebration.. i miss everyone who left jj.. haiz.. and i guess there will be no more outings this yr that i can attend liao.. ok.. like wat ming xiong and yee loong sarca mi.. haiz.. cauz will be going NS after exams immediately.. especially these few days when i went out with my senior and he told mi all about it.. sian.. regretted not trying to slim down.. haiz.. also no point liao le i guess.. cauz medical checkup this coming friday.. cannot probably slim down 20 kg in one week.. hahax.. so i guess can onli treasure the time i have with everyone i can see daily in og 28 ba.. sobs..

i guess i will stop here ba.. if i go on elaborating this can go on for days.. hahax.. gtg liao le.. hasn't been a realli good holiday, budden i hope everyone had enjoyed themselves.. ya.. hope to see everyone soon!!! =)

today did nothing much today.. watched tv in the morning then went out with my frend to dota.. long time nv play le.. seems that i dun noe how to play liao.. kanna trashed today in the starting game.. then after that can play better liao.. wahahax.. then went aunt's home and chatted about ns and stuffs.. and my bad results.. lucky she gave mi lots of encouragement and spurred mi to work hard.. ya..

budden i still quite frustrated.. cauz of an person who made use of my nick to tag at my frend's blog.. he or she caused lots of problems.. especially to my frend.. caused him so much trouble and problems.. budden dunno whether that person's nick is "xiang" also.. so realli dunno.. how i wish can find out who that immature and childish person is..

but i realli glad that my frend trusted mi and believed in mi that it wasn't mi.. and having complete trust in mi.. cauz of the my nick that gave him so much problems and caused so much trouble for him.. realli very sorry.. we toked about this thing and we still can't figure out why that person wanted to do this and made so idiotic and irresponsible remarks.. so much for his or her courage and character.. hey ha0.. thanks for ur trust.. appreciate it very very much.. hopefully ur problems can be solved quickly and sorry for all the trouble caused.. take care k?

guess i will be ending here liao le.. cauz nothing good to blog about liao.. mood realli spoilt.. ya.. gtg.. tata..

today is a realli good day for mi.. went out with my senior today.. went to funan and beach road.. cauz he wanted to to repair his X box and get his NS stuffs done.. rested very well yesterday and slept alot last night.. sleep till late in the morning.. so had lots of energy today.. also promised to meet my senior today to go with him.. so ya.. hahax..

went to funan first to try to get his X box fixed.. budden couldn't find the shop that repairs X box.. no choice but to go off.. hopefully he can get his X box fixed soon.. ya.. enjoyed chatting with him.. on the train trip.. joked alot and chatted about our og things.. also chatted about his NS life.. also got a shock of my life.. cauz he said that ppl going for obese BMT will have to go in camp immediately after As.. onli perhaps 2 to 3 days of rest and preparation.. i was like.. =_= gone case liao.. after exams cannot enjoy liao le.. can't organise anything fun for my ogs and things.. thats wat we call sian diao.. haiz..

we also went to beach road.. being a big su gu, i nv ever went to beach road before.. had an eye opener.. everything there is related to army.. sewing of stuffs.. buying of ns things.. ya.. senior was going to add things to his uniform.. ya.. name and Singapore tag.. ya.. so he left his uniforms to the tailor there and we headed for dinner cauz things will onli be done after 1 hr.. had dinner and i was amazed by his GREAT appetite.. he ate ALOT.. ya.. then we went to get his uniform after dinner..

but unfortunate things happen today too.. the tailor overcharged.. her rate for tags and stuffs and over charged.. in the end my senior kanna toked 1 dollar.. though not big thing.. budden its like wa kao.. during dinner also sian diao.. got a one dollar coin on the table.. a auntie came to clear up for us.. thought she wun do anything to it so left it at the corner.. budden as she was wiping the table, she kopped my senior's money budden happens to be mine cauz it was meant to be paid for juice i bought for him.. the auntie stole my money in my face.. and i can do nothing bout it cauz can't argue cauz she was rather old and i wun win.. ya.. so saw my money kanna stolen.. sian.. in the end we both lost one dollar.. hahax..

we went home after that and chatted again on the train.. today was a fun day.. managed to meet my senior and tok cock have fun.. ya.. hopefully can have fun again soon.. thanks for the day zi cheng!!!

then reached home and went play badminton.. as usual.. played till ten plus and went home.. did alot of toking with my frend xun kai.. chatted bout life and things.. realli quite fun chatting and such.. chatting lets mi get to noe others better.. yeah.. so who says chatting is always bad??? hahax.. can be a gp qn also.. "Is chatting always bad?" wahahax.. being lame here..

budden something infuriating happened today also.. someone idiot used my nick and tag at my frend's blog.. scolded him and such.. idiot lai de.. using my nick and scold my frend.. and trying to break my frendship with him.. wa kao.. shocked when my frend called mi and told mi bout this.. though i may be bad but i wun use indespicible methods.. and i wun do this to break my frendship with my frend.. which idiot will do that??? ya.. fuming mad bout this now.. haiz.. there nothing i can do also.. to my other frends whom i have linked, if anyone flamed u with my nick plz dun believe it.. i wun do such a thing.. ya.. hopefully u guys can understand..

i guess i will end here ba.. such a long post.. wahahax.. gtg liao le.. realli tired.. cya.. tata!!! =)

common test finally over le.. and it also mean die liao le.. teachers will be calling up my parents liao le.. i flunked my physics paper BIG TIME.. none of the qns there i could do.. cannot understand a single bit wat the paper is asking about.. i guess mr mak will be fuming mad when he sees my paper.. 70 to 80 percent not complete.. those completed de also anyhow do de..

dunno why leh.. i tried my very best to study for today common test and i can understand the things in the notes.. din sleep the whole night juz to study for the common test today.. budden today when i go do the exam mind block like hell.. totally stunned when i saw all the qns.. last hr when doing paper 2, i decided to give up liao le.. decided to think of how i should confess to my dad.. jia liat.. i guess realli lack the practice.. the consequence of not studying and doing homework daily and consistently.. arghhh..

went to jurong east sports complex to buy grip for my badminton racket after common test.. when i got there i got shocked.. it was 12 noon when i reached.. to my horror i saw the sign stating that the shop will onli be opened after 1pm.. and i was like one hr earlier.. damn.. no choice but to leave and go back later..

before i reached the sports complex, got a msg from my senior zi cheng saying he would be coming back jj.. he's in ns now and its a very long time since i met him.. i din see his msg before i got in the bus towards sports complex.. budden went back to skl area to find him and had lunch together.. tok cock a lot.. very fun.. also very enjoyable.. cauz being stressed up for a very long long time liao le.. today finally everything is over le.. yeah..

zi cheng advised mi to start studying right now.. and i think i am going to do exactly wat he says.. i'm gonna start studying.. cannot afford to waste my 2 yrs and flunked everything at the end of the day.. that is not wat i want too.. yeah.. so i guess his advice is very true indeed..

then went one big round back to JE sports complex to get my grip.. finally got it.. bought 2 at 6 bucks.. quite ex.. budden guess its the cheapest and the best i can find liao le.. want play badminton also need to pump in capital de.. wahahax..

went back home afterwards and plucked up the courage to tell my dad i gonna flunk my common test big time.. to my surprise, he wasn't angry.. yet he was worried.. i cannot afford to disappoint him anymore.. i have to study hard liao.. he works so hard to let mi get my education.. yet i am not making the best use of it.. cannot carry on like this liao le..

now then realise one thing.. nv celebrated father's day before.. except when i was young and made cards for him when i attended arts class in the past.. my dad refuse to celebrate it.. he is worried that we waste money celebrating.. all he wants is to save as much for my future.. and i realli can't repay watever he had done for mi.. all i can do now is work harder and study hard so i can give my parents the best in the future.. yeah..

guess i will stop here ba.. suddenly so emotional today.. and updating so much.. now having cold war with mum.. hopefully can solve soon.. cauz i noe my mum din mean it too.. she nags for my own good.. budden have to forgive her also when she goes overboard.. tolerance is important cauz i noe my mum also tolerates watever i do.. ya.. hopefully everything will be fine soon.. gtg liao.. tata!!! =)

sian.. maths is gone.. like i expected.. everything dunno how to do.. onli managed to do 38 marks worth the qns.. and the 38 marks sure got lots of mistakes also.. gone case liao.. gonna fail big time for maths.. jia liat.. guess have to tell my dad bout this unfateful event first.. before i get back the results and he freak out and scold mi.. yeah..

have to study for physics today.. cannot afford to sleep tonight liao le.. have to hang in there.. cauz after tml no more exams liao.. can sleep like hell.. so have to study hard so that tml hopefully can pass my physics.. yup..

gtg start mug for physics liao le.. yeah.. last paper.. good luck to all my frends also.. cheong cheong cheong for tml's paper!!! all the best.. =)

damn.. screwed up my chemistry paper le.. all dunno how to do.. jia liat liao le.. sure fail de i think.. damn.. din manage to finish studying everything yesterday.. in fact got lots of unfinished stuffs.. especially periodicity.. took most of my marks away.. gone case liao le..

tml is maths paper.. another paper i think will gone case de.. cauz totally nv study in the holidays.. onli topic realli studied is complex numbers but i think i still wun be able to do it cauz i nv practice and dun understand fully.. haiya.. dun care liao le la.. study as much as i can.. 听天由命ba.. sian.. fail also no choice..

gtg le.. if not sure cannot finish studying de.. ya thats all for today.. good luck to everyone taking maths paper tml too!!!

sian diao liao.. can onli conclude i will fail the coming common test.. jia liat.. got lots of uncompleted topics for physics.. din finish everything.. still got many topics haven even look at it before de.. onli managed to finish till simple harmonic motion.. sian.. maths even worse.. haven start sia.. maths is sure gone case de le.. wednesday is onli try luck whether can pass onli de..

haiz.. but cannot care so much liao le.. tml start common test liao le.. chemistry.. have to try my very best tml.. cauz chemistry is the subject i am most confident in.. have to try and score good grades for chemistry.. haiz.. studying kinetics now.. quite a challenging topic.. later still have to study organic topics.. yup yup.. have to do my best.. no more distraction after noon.. study and study onli..

hopefully can pass this coming common test ba.. cauz i think parents will be called up if results cannot make it.. i am sure my teacher's comments about mi wun be good too.. haiz.. hopefully can pass ba.. than work harder on my subjects in the months to come.. ya.. gtg study le.. tata.. good luck to everyone taking common test too!!! jia you and good luck!!! to myself also.. wahahax..

yesterday managed to study faithfully the whole day.. studied till physics of fluids.. realise can understand everything in the notes if i am willing to study.. spent the whole afternoon and night studying.. damn stressed up realising i do not have enough time time to study liao le.. today gotta cheong my physics.. at least finish up to 3/4 of the things that will be tested..

then have to start study chemistry tonight le.. got alot to study also.. organic topics are enough to kill mi liao le.. still got kinetics and periodicity all those.. lucky finished revising electrochem liao.. if not more jia liat sia.. sian.. why one day onli got 24 hours.. why cannot have 48 hours.. sian la..

i guess i am realli damn stressed up liao le.. starting to have insomnia these few days.. totally can't get to sleep.. too many things going thru my head when i want to sleep.. state of confusion i say.. dunno thinking of wat.. counting sheeps also doesn't help.. then fear of sleep starts to sneak in.. i dunno why budden worried that this will affect my energy level for studies and exams.. jia liat liao le.. can't wait or exams to be over..

guess will be ending here ba.. guess will juz be mugging multiply to mugging to the power of mugging today.. haiz.. end with a pic i drew last night when i couldn't get to sleep.. edited with com today.. hahax.. drew it ard 2 plus yesterday night.. simply can't sleep.. hahax.. perhaps thats the best portrayal of my thoughts last night.. gtg.. tata..

yeah something i drew last night.. called it the Tree without Life.. dunno why.. hahax..

sian la.. realli no mood to study.. onli managed to finish a few topics for all the subjects.. high chance i gonna fail common test.. but i guess there is no point grumbling liao le.. juz get down and study.. haiz..

sian.. onli finished COE for physics.. still got like 11 topics left.. maths got like 12 big topics left.. chemistry onli finished electrochem.. wa sia.. big time screw up in mi.. couldn't sleep these few days in the night.. tossed and turned in bed and took ard half an hour before can realli get to sleep.. perhaps is the stress overwhelming mi liao le.. die..

shall stop my grumbles here.. feel better saying everything out.. thats the good thing bout blog.. signing off to mug.. tata..

have to finish studying notes no matter wat today.. have to.. cauz not much time left for mi liao le.. no more time to study liao le.. if i dun study i am gone.. started on current of electricity and DC circuits yesterday.. its rather manageable.. so i guess i will carry on studying the rest also ba.. try to make notes and finish everything today..

later tonight guess i will be going badminton again.. relieve stress.. realli cannot make it liao.. my stress level is damn damn high.. soon all the stress will come crashing down.. and i will be a goner.. guess tonight should be a time to take some time off from studying so wun die from all the stress.. yesterday watched a tv show.. saying "stress is a fact of life but don't make it a way of life.." yeah.. this is very true.. have to overcome my stress and study faithfully ba..

guess i will be ending here ba.. using the com a while more before i start studying.. yeah.. gtg le.. cya.. tata.. good luck to all my frends taking common test too!!! =)

i am a goner.. goner.. studied nothing.. and i mean nothing.. onli managed to complete complex numbers.. then studies nothing the whole day.. i am a goner.. damn it.. dunno why.. no motivation to study AT ALL.. sian sia.. i guess i am going to flunk this coming common test liao le.. flunk.. haiz..

had a weird dream had night.. or should i say this morning.. very weird.. dreamt that my results will be going downhill on august.. dunno why got this dream.. jia liat.. worried sia.. scared realli flunk my tests and exams all those in august.. this weird dream is bothering mi.. guess have to tok to someone bout it in my family soon.. hopefully can solve.. haiz.. damn damn worried..

guess have to start studying physics liao le.. no time liao le.. 5 days left till common test.. and i think i have to complete studying maths and physics within 3 days.. which i rather impossible.. realli impossible i guess.. but juz have to try my best ba.. mentally prepared i wun do well for the coming exams.. damn it..

budden i also dun wan to fail also.. have to realli start mugging liao le.. technology realli suxs.. created computers and internet.. giving mi so much temptation.. budden have to fight it!!! come on zheng xiang u can do it.. not using the com wun die de.. studies flunk then will die.. come on..

haiz.. guess i will end here ba.. start to clear up the mess i created.. thats to start studying.. yesh.. signing off.. tata.. haiz..

haiz.. din realli follow my study plan yesterday.. in fact screwed up.. the whole plan was screwed up.. not the plan.. but mi.. damn.. too many distractions to keep mi away from studying.. haven even complete complex numbers.. feeling that it is such a difficult topic to understand.. even overslept today.. damn.. guess my plan is seriously too idealistic liao le.. haiz..

guess wun be sticking to the plan anymore liao le.. juz study watever i can find.. budden still have to follow thru when to finish which subject.. hopefully can finish studying everything before common test.. realli getting very worried.. i am a goner sia.. cannot concentrate, cannot prioritise.. equivalent to cannot learn.. cannot learn implies fail exams.. fail exams therefore no future.. and no future means that i am a goner.. and this vicious cycle repeats itself..

but no.. have to try to break this vicious cycle.. from now on.. if not i'm gonna die for As also.. cannot flunk this common test.. have to start to put in 100 times, no a million times more effort than i am putting in now.. lucky now at least got at least 1% of effort input.. if not 0% input multiply to 1000000 times more effort still zero.. haiz.. lame la.. =.=lll

bottom line is to start and study!!! i have to.. i need to.. i want to.. and i must!!! i guess have to try my very best ba.. gtg study hard liao le.. cya.. tata.. anyway ending with a pic.. brazilian player kaka who scored a beautiful goal leading brazil to victory yesterday! woohoo!!!

brazil is my favourite team since young.. hope they retain the FIFA world cup title 2006!!!

starting to mug liao le.. studying maths the whole morning.. have to complete the topics i scheduled to be completed by today.. try to understand all the concepts and all the formulas plus reading thru the examples to understand how to do the qns.. as i was studying the notes, i think it is much much more important to do practice qns for maths. so can totally understand how to apply the various concepts.. guess i will do juz that ba.. practise and practise to make sure i noe everything..

will be focusing on maths till wednesday.. then start on physics and study till saturday.. physics require more of understanding.. have to read thru the notes thoroughly and understand the concepts and reason behind the formulas.. yeah.. then finish the practice qns that are given to us for the holidaes.. then i guess will be fine le.. at least can secure a pass hopefully..

then sunday and mondy concentrate fully on chemistry.. study and study.. chemistry is a relatively easier subject i would say.. hopefully the time i allocated for chemistry is enough.. hopefully i can do well for chemistry.. dun wanna fail cauz i got the most confidence in chemistry among all the other subjects..

yesterday night planned a intensive study plan for this week before common test.. cauz i simply wasted too much time le.. have to buck up le.. hopefully this plan will help mi better organise my time and so i can concentrate and study hard for the exams.. now still not keeping up to the plan for today.. budden i will try hard to stick to my plan so can do well.. erm at least to pass i think..

here's a picture of my study plan.. seems crazy.. budden the onli way for mi to pass my exams..



















another picture.. my chinese name.. written by chinese calligraphy teacher.. found it yesterday.. hahax.. realli nice handwriting.. hahax..





















guess i will end here ba.. have to go catch up with my plan liao.. lagging behind cauz woke up late today.. have to try finish wat i have planned for today.. yeah.. gtg le.. happy mugging to mi and frends.. wahahax.. tata.. =)

updating again.. hahax.. studied galvanic cell yesterday.. can understand most of it.. budden i guess i have to do practice to make sure that i am clear of the topic.. intending to concentrate on chemistry today.. and complete the revision homework that is given to us.. then i guess i will be going to start on physics..

physics also got lots of revision questions to be done.. i guess i will practice that ba.. budden wat i am realli afraid of is that i cannot complete my revision for maths.. cauz there is simply too many topics that have to be revised.. lucky i not watching world cup.. so can study.. heng arh..

i guess i will end here a.. going off to lunch then start mugging the whole afternoon.. yeah.. gtg le.. tata.. =)

i guess i will be updating now.. wun be using the com tonight or in the afternoon liao.. killing the temption within mi.. yeah.. kill it.. i will be concentrating on chemistry in the afternoon.. no matter wat.. have to finish studying some things by tonight.. yeah..

i guess physics and maths are my weaker subjects.. have to focus more on these 2 subjects in the coming week.. hopefully can finish studying.. while at least grasp all the concepts and understand the concepts well as well as complete the revision homework that are given to us.. i guess it will be a good practice to gauge whether i understand the subject anot..

nowadays realli want to go out and play.. like this morning already thinking of whether can find frends go out dota or play table tennis.. budden i guess this is not the time to do so liao.. for this week and for the rest of the yr.. cannot afford to play and enjoy so much le.. time to be strict with myself and make sure i can clear my As.. cauz already have a goal in mind..

also wanna clear my As well so i can enjoy myself after my exams.. yeah.. cauz i guess i will be going in NS early.. cauz i am obese.. budden i guess i still wanna spent time with my frends after my exams.. especially my og ppl.. regardless is this year's og or last yr's og.. i simply enjoy my times with them.. hopefully i can clear my exams well then plan stuffs for both my ogs.. hahax.. yeah..

yeah.. picture of og 28, 2005, during our bbq.. very memorable event.. cauz its the day when my phone committed suicide into the swimming pool.. hahax.. but more importantly it is the day when we all celebrated our birthdays together cauz all of us are december babys.. =)









also my og this yr.. made many frends being an ogl and i realli enjoy the times that i spent with my og.. the friendship that is forged will be remembered forever.. =)

















most importantly, wanna spent time with my family after my As.. though there seem to be quarrels all the time in the family, i realise i cherish my family and my family members very much.. i i love them.. especially my parents who care so much about mi and it alwaes seem that they are nagging so much.. budden i guess its realli for my own good.. yeah.. realli wanna spent time with them after As.. dun have any photo to upload cauz it seems that my family had nv taken a photo together before.. and i realli wish we can take one soon.. yeah.. i i noe i will try to do it no matter wat before NS.. yup yup..

i guess i will end here ba.. talking about so much of wat i wanna do and achieve.. budden i guess actions speaks louder than words.. cannot all talk no action.. it wun work to help achieve my goals.. gtg mug liao le.. tata.. =)

super pissed by my net today.. slow like hell.. load one page takes more than 1 minute.. wa kao sian diao sia.. so slow.. lately my net has been weird.. beginning to become very slow.. and takes lots of time to load a website.. sian.. dunno wats the problem with it.. haiz.. hopefully not kanna spyware or adware those shit.. haiz..

yesterday night watched world cup first match.. germany vs coasta rica.. quite an exciting match i guess.. so many goals scored which seem to be rather unexcepted.. especially the beautiful last goal by germany.. superb.. budden i still like brazil more.. wahahax..

today done nothing again.. rotting the whole day.. at this rate, common test will be a failure.. haiz.. have to get down and study.. have been saying this all the time budden the computer is such a temptation for mi.. want to use it all the time.. have to realli stop using the computer le.. restrict myself till after common test.. yeah.. hopefully can do it.. gotta study chemistry tonight.. organic topics.. hopefully can finish.. yeah.. try my best..

later going bai bai.. come back may be late le.. but have to finish studying nonetheless.. have to.. yeah.. i guess i will end here ba.. rot a while more then i think i will be going out le.. tata..

yeah i guess this is my hundredth post.. hahax.. blogging for so long le.. hahax.. guess blogging has become part of my life now le.. hehex.. and i guess i will continue blogging.. cauz its something realli interesting.. can vent any frustrations and unhappiness.. can also record down happy moments and nice things to share.. yeah.. i love blogging..

today i am realli relieved liao.. everything come to an end le.. realli an end.. everything is fine liao le.. and life is back to the normal rountine.. everything is solved.. ya.. so happy sia.. though i din manage to study anything today, but i guess its worth it cauz everything is alright le.. hahax.. budden i guess i have to realli buck up and start mugging tml.. yeap.. and i will..

seriously in love with F.I.R.. they roxs.. hahax.. listening to their songs the whole day.. its simply nice.. hehex.. waiting eagerly for their next album to com out.. hopefully soon ba..

yeah.. picture of F.I.R.. so cool.. hahax..

i guess i will end here ba.. going to play badminton liao.. yippee!!! love badminton so much.. finally can play today.. something that i look forward to every week.. gtg.. tata!!! =)

din do much today.. haven study also.. cauz went out in the morning and afternoon.. ya.. now rotting in front of the com.. i think i have to start studying already.. guess i will try to revise organic chem by reading thru the notes tonight.. still have quite a very clear idea of organic chem.. think it wun be a problem to finish studying everything tonight..

guess i would finally be able to stop worrying liao le.. everything is fine liao le.. finally can stop thinking bout things and start studying.. yeah.. i realli wanna do well for the coming common test.. realli.. dun wan anyone to look down on mi.. and dun wan to disappoint my parents.. i have to do well.. and i can't afford to fail a single subject.. thats wat i am working towards now..

yeah.. gtg study le.. tml can badminton again liao.. yipee.. need some relaxation also.. wahahax.. ending here ba.. tata.. =)

bought the 3 comics i wanted to buy yesterday night le.. hahax.. went to lot 1 to buy.. hehex.. finish reading 2 this morning.. damn nice.. hahax..

budden i guess have to start studying le.. i totally haven start anything yet.. and i mean.. ANYTHING.. dunno why.. no mood to study.. no motivation to study.. and too preoccupied with things to start studying.. i guess its realli high time that i start le..

guess i will first start with chemistry which is apparently the easiest subject among all.. i want to master everything by this friday.. then start cheonging for my maths and then my physics.. have to spent much more time on my physics and maths cauz i alwaes do badly for these 2 subjects.. hopefully i can finish studying all the notes and do enough practice by next weekend and start doing practice qns.. ya..

have to cut on my time using the computer and doing other stuffs le.. have to put my heart and my soul into studying and mastering my subjects.. it is barely 2 weeks to common test and 148 days to A levels le.. have to realli pull my my socks to my thigh even if it means i have to sacrifice many things that i enjoy doing.. yeah.. have to wake up le..

hopefully i can realli get the motivation to study hard soon and hopefully can pass and do well for my coming common test and ultimately my A levels.. yeah.. i guess i will end here ba.. nothing much i will be doing today le.. apart from studying and going out to attend to stuffs later in the evening.. ya.. gtg.. tata.. =)

woke up rather early today.. shocked i should say.. worries clinging onto mi the whole morning.. amd for the whole afternoon.. but i am glad everything is ok le.. wat a relieve for mi.. realli worried for the past week.. cauz too many things happened le.. budden now everything is ok le.. realli very relieved.. and not so worried anymore.. pew!!!

had gp common test today's afternoon.. was rather ok i think.. budden i guess i din do so well.. cauz was worried and such.. din realli have the mood to put in my 100% for the exams.. budden i hope i can pass ba.. realli hopefully.. cauz i think i might have written out of point liao le..

in a very bad mood today.. cauz keep getting scolded for nothing the whole time today.. so frustrated sia.. i wonder why parents are liddat.. especially my mum.. she can keep grumbling and grumbling at mi like i made hell lot of mistakes juz becos i din do a small little thing for her.. when it is her own fault, she will nv admit its her fault and instead push all the blame to mi.. whenever i tok back or my dad criticise her for wat she say, everything juz comes back at mi.. and she will scold mi for nothing juz becos she is unhappy..

hate it sia.. so stupid.. why is there this communication break down? i realli dunno.. i am realli frustrated.. izzit realli my fault? i realli dunno.. it is realli annoying to hear grumbling and idiotic comments when u are worried.. my mum juz dun get this point.. i realli dunno wat i can do to get my point across to her.. haiz..

gotta do some studying tonight.. cauz i presume i would be busy again tml.. have to get my comics also.. sian.. today everything juz comes out together.. dunno whether i have the time to get them tml anot.. sian la.. i guess i will end here ba.. gtg le.. tata..

very tiring day today.. woke up at 12pm today.. but was still tired.. then got things to attend to le.. spent the whole afternoon and evening.. yeah.. now back at home.. have to try to study a bit for tml's gp common test.. hopefully can pass ba..

now very worried and very scared.. dunno how to overcome my worries and fear.. hopefully everything will be fine tml.. hopefully my worries will not affect my performance for the exams tml.. hopefully.. hope everything goes smoothly tml.. yeah..

i end here ba.. too preoccupied to update anymore.. good luck for the gp exam to everyone i noe!!! tata..

i changed blogskin again.. hahax.. cauz the previous one seriously sux.. can't get anything done with it.. and i changed to this.. again.. i can't seem to add my pet there.. can't show the name and such.. i think i give up liao.. sian la.. keep trying to add this and that but everything fails.. this is the best i can offer with my "talent" on computer.. lolx..

did nothing much today.. except went to my aunt's home for lunch.. then went to temple to bai bai.. hahax.. then came back trying to figure out how to change my blog template which i failed.. hahax.. i guess i wun try anymore le.. too frustrated to try also.. hehex.. guess will be doing nothing much later also.. sianz..

guess will be reading comics again to kill time later.. gonna start studying tml liao le.. and realli study.. aimming for C C C at least for the coming common test.. hopefully i can do it.. yeah.. then coming tuesday still got gp common test.. damn bloody sian la.. have to go skl in the afternoon juz to do that bloody common test.. sian.. boring sia.. guess i will read some model essays and try to read thru some points and go the test ba.. hopefully can pass.. yeah..

guess i will end here ba.. nothing much or significant to update today also.. hahax.. gotta go.. cya.. =)

today.. a tiring day.. finally changed my blogskin liao le.. budden cannot put up some things that i wanna add for my blog.. damn frustrated.. budden i guess i am happy with wat i have currently.. guess that is the best i can do le.. i am a computer idiot u see.. hahax.. i guess that is the best a computer idiot could do for such complicated stuffs..

went swimming with my pal joel today.. i guess time to slim down le.. i looked weird in swimming trunks.. hahax.. and think can't swim as well as in the past le.. budden i guess i had a great time today.. and swimming realli builds up one's stamina.. have to go for more swimming sessions in the future.. hahax.. realli good to go swimming in a hot day.. cools one down.. and the feeling is great.. hahax..

after swimming went cck park tok cock with joel.. his mum fried bee hoon and chicken wings for us.. so nice of her.. hahax.. and we had the food in cck park.. it was a nice experience.. eating in the shades of the trees.. hahax.. toking alot also.. had great fun.. hahax..

wanna watch movie also.. pirates of carribean sea coming out again!!! wan to watch sia.. hahax.. wanna movie sia.. hahax.. think i will end here ba.. nothing much le.. tata!!! =)

a realli hot day today.. sunny but with sudden rain pouring sometimes.. dislike this kind of weather.. very humid.. makes one restless.. rotting at home today.. woke up late and started to use the computer..

then went for a haircut.. the uncle had quite a troublesome time getting my hair cut.. cauz i asked him not to cut too much.. budden i realise too long liao le.. then he cut again.. hahax.. gave him quite a bit of trouble i guess.. budden finally got my hair cut.. din wanna cut actually de.. cauz its skl holidaes right now.. waste money cauz skl reopen have to cut again.. haiz.. budden a short and tidy haircut is essential to tide mi over the hot and humid weather.. hahax..

then was watching anime at home.. finished 2 episode.. 14 more to go.. haiz.. so much sia.. hopefully can finish before skl starts.. haiz.. soon have to start mugging le also.. for mid yr exams.. sian la..

realli hoping to go swimming someday.. miss swimming alot.. guess it has been months since i last swam.. miss swimming alot.. hahax.. most important swimming can cool one down on a hot day.. hahax.. hopefully can ask my frend out soon to go swimming.. later tonight going play badminton at senja.. woo hoo!!! shiok.. can play badminton again.. hopefully the "old man from the sea", which my frend called him, will come today.. miss playing with him.. he's the best over there.. hahax.. ending here.. tata.. =)

woke up rather late today.. cauz was reading comic last night.. read till rather late.. so slept much more today.. hahax.. as usual, nothing much to do at hme today.. reading comics and watching anime.. haiz.. wanted to burn the anime into dvd.. got frustrated.. cauz that bloody disc lack of space to burn in the last episode.. i was like.. damn.. haiz.. nvm i guess.. this is fate that i got a disc of lower memory.. haizzz..

nothing much to do lately.. wanted to rest before i start to study next week.. gonna mug for the coming common tests.. and i mean MUG.. hahax.. cannot afford to waste time liao le.. have to catch up on my studies which i am lagging behind.. can see most of my counterparts working hard liao le.. high time to start studying le.. din have the mood to study this week cauz so much things happened lately and also wanted some rest before cheonging for my studies in the coming 2 weeks before the common test..

lately thinking of alot of things.. guess its affecting mi too much.. guess time to learn to manage my worries and stress.. perhaps becos of i'm thinking too much that the stress and worries came about.. but stress and worries are things that can nv be eliminated from our lives.. ppl alwaes say to learn to let go.. budden i guess this will nv work.. worries and stress is inevitable in one's life.. even if we can let go, worries and stress will still find a way to manuever and penetrate into our lives.. i guess the way to treat these is to face our worries and try to overcome them.. yeah..

hopefully i can do wat i say here ba.. to learn to manage and be a master of thyself.. yeah.. signing off here.. tata..

"The only courage that matters is the kind that gets you from one moment to the next."By Mignon McLaughlin.. food for thought.. hahax..