my life

today will be studying and studying for mi.. have to try to complete all my homework today.. then can leave tml for revision and revision for my maths and physics.. have to do chemistry de revision also.. apparently i have lots of stuffs that have to be done.. and prelims in onli in 5 weeks time.. so yeah.. no time to lose liao le..

budden one thing is that my chemistry remedial will be changed to saturday.. budden realli reluctant to go to skl on saturday.. means have to sacrifice my one hour of tv that i will definitely watch and i love to watch because of that.. sian.. cauz thats the onli time i can relax i guess.. and the more important reason is that i have many plans in mind for saturday and i am worried that it will affect my studies schedule on saturday.. cauz the travelling will cauz mi lots of precious time for studies.. sadded.. dunno leh.. i think i better have a tok with miss goh ba.. see wat i can do..

suddenly had some thoughts yesterday night while chatting with xun kai.. and shared with him.. this was wat my ogl told mi and also wat my teacher had told mi before.. and i find it super true.. its alwaes difficult trying to do the right things and there will definitely be the price to pay for doing the right things sometimes.. some may argue budden this is an undeniable fact.. been thru a lot and i realli start to understand and appreciate this fact liao le.. and it is definitely inevitable in life..

but one thing my ogl taught mi is that we should do things we deem right and so we wun have regrets in the future.. yeah.. thats very true.. i agree that there may be consequences to pay, budden at least we wun have regrets in the future.. however while chatting last night, xun kai told mi that ppl dunno wat is right and wat is wrong.. and i agree this happens sometimes.. but wat i truly believe in is that i am who i am.. ppl may have different perceptions bout who we are, budden we should nv change ourselves and our personality juz to suit other.. wat is right and wat is wrong is up to us to decide.. we make a choice and adhere it to wat our values and principles lie.. onli then we wun have regrets in the future..

and i also believe that if there is a problem or tangled knot, ppl should reflect and think about wat can be done to resolve the problem.. and carry the little hope that things will turn out fine no matter how tricky or problematic the situation is.. if the problem lies within ourselves, we should try to change.. not to put on a facade or hide away from a problem.. but to change the way we do things and carry ourselves forward to others to solve the problems.. thats wat i truly believe in.. escapism and hiding from a problem will nv help..

i do have many regrets in my life and regretted that i had not done the right things or in fact done something wrong.. budden important point is that we appreciate the lessons learnt and prevent these problems from happening again.. i am looking forward to the future and not looking back at the past.. wat done can nv be undone.. there are many problems that i face now budden i am glad to say that i have tried my best to solve my problems.. however if i can not get anything out of it, so be it.. cauz wat is past have passed.. so have to be optimistic and look forward to the future and prevent the same problems from happening again..

hahax.. juz some random thoughts that i have.. to xun kai, if u see this post, dun gave up hope.. u will nv noe wat u can get if u nv try.. hahax.. u r a much stronger person then mi and i am sure u are more capable than mi to solve any problems u have no matter how tricky they are.. yeah.. stay optimistic alrights? jia you..

i guess i will stop here ba.. have to go study hard liao le.. to finish all my assignments and all my homework.. gtg.. tata!!!

P.S. 42 days to prelims and 95 days till A levels!!!