my life

a new goal in life,
a new lease of life...

to ppl in s14, in case u dunno wat mr chai is toking about.. wat he said is toking about mi.. ya.. it appears that everything is my fault.. and i think there is no point trying to clarify anything now because no one will listen or believe in mi anymore.. so ya.. however, there is one important thing that i have to say.. watever i have done these 1 years or so that have offended u guys, i am realli sorry.. i noe i dun think when i say some things and i noe many of u are tolerating mi.. i can onli apologise.. i noe that its nv easy to forgive someone.. and i dun dare to seek forgiveness..

budden now wat i realli hope is that i have some space to learn and hopefully u ppl can give mi the space.. yeah.. i will nv bother anyone of u ppl now and i will not distract u guys in or outside class.. thats the least i can do for u ppl.. i dun seek for acceptance as i noe i will nv ever get it.. yup.. i realli dun wanna bring any trouble to anyone anymore.. i noe u ppl hate mi and i have accepted this fact.. yup.. i sincerely hope for the best for everyone in class and hopefully that everyone can do well for prelims and ultimately A levels..

i am not writing this to gain acceptance or forgiveness.. i think this thing has been on my mind for very long le.. and i onli have the courage to say out now.. not that am a hypocrite or wat.. i juz wanted to avoid conflict and bothering u guys.. ya..

like wat i said in my title, a new goal and a new lease of life.. i will now focus all my attention and energy to my studies.. and to get excellent results for my A levels.. i have no time to lose liao le.. and i guess everyone's attention should be focused on studies liao le.. i will ignore everything liao le.. wun care about the distractions and plainly study and study.. ya.. this will be my life till the end of A levels.. and i will work extremely hard towards my goal thats to get into a good university.. yeah.. i dun wanna disappoint my parents and also regret in the future..

i guess i will be starting intensive studying from next week onwards.. especially night studies.. i guess i will start studying daily till 10pm then go back home.. yeah.. i think that will realli help in improving my grades.. today's motivational talk also somehow made mi wake up.. time to put down my pride and start asking questions consistently liao le.. onli this can help mi now..

i guess i will end here ba.. i am sure that this post will have many controversy and many arguments over wat i have said.. feel free to tag watever u are unhappy about mi.. at least i noe i got the point across liao le.. ya.. and i will never ever disturb u again.. ya.. thanks so much!!! signing off here.. tata..

P.S. 38 days till prelims and 91 days till A levels..