my life

zheng xiang is an idiot.. bastard.. stupid fool.. not revising for A levels and instead slacking like a piece of rotten shit lying ard somewhere filthy.. you are so moronic.. do u noe that is are asking for trouble and hell liddat??? are u trying to fail A levels??? u stupid idiotic asshole.. haizZz.. u are truly hopeless liao le.. and u keep playing basketball when ur results sux and u practically flunked ur prelims.. stupid stupid stupid..

erm.. i wasted this whole week.. 5 days.. wasted it big time.. practically nv study anything la.. and i am such a burden to my study mates.. affecting their revision also.. haizZz.. i am really a budden to them la..

it was in the evening when i was playing basketball with my frend and he started toking to mi about mi.. and commented on mi and some things that i am not doing well.. as in the way i do things.. he said i take things too seriously and criticism too hard.. and that becos of my frankness i will offend many ppl.. i dunno.. i cannot rebut him.. cauz i agree with him too.. and there is juz these flaws in the way i do and look at things.. haizZz.. sadded.. he told mi i have to try to change to turn for the better.. and i appreciated wat he says very much and wat he shared with him though we known each other like less then 1 month to be exact..

i'm having rather mixed feelings right now.. i feel bad and miserable.. budden i disagree with wat he says is that i am not hopeless.. i will persevere on and study as hard as i can from tml onwards.. i am not going to be a burden anymore and instead, i'm gonna cheong all the way liao le.. not time to look back and no time to hesitate liao le.. i'm not going to be a goner!!! i will persevere and strive on for my studies.. all the way!!!

i guess my resolution right now is to juz fight on no matter wat.. and not to let my emotions and feelings get the best of mi.. juz forget about everything and let down to study realli hard.. and i'm gonna push my frends also so that we wun slack together and we can do well for the upcoming As.. yeah.. juz study study study, eat, shit, sleep and repeat ba.. ya.. i think i will stop here ba.. no mood to carry on liao le.. flying off...

P.S. 33 days till A levels..