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haizZzZz..

dunno wat to do liao le.. haizZz.. gotten my results for As.. for those who are interested to noe, i got straight D and B3 for gp.. hopefully it answered many de qns.. din feel like replying to messages ppl sent mi.. dunno how to reply also.. mood so down le still expect to tell others "oh i got a straight D for As and B3 for gp" meh??? haiya..

din feel like blogging these few days after getting results.. too tramautised liao le.. devastated in fact.. before getting results i already planned a few routes i can take.. but after getting results i realised i am too naive in my thinking liao le.. i have been too optimistic liao le.. thought i can realli face the music..

budden i still took time and think of realli wat i should do.. have been calling my seniors and also some of my closer frends to seek for advice and help.. this thursday going skl seek teacher de opinion also.. there are still many routes out there.. hopefully i can make a decision real soon.. and can crawl out of this dire state i am in now..

these few days i realised i realli cannot face the truth.. the reality.. been numbing myself with games and stuffs.. go out with frends and go swimming all those stuffs.. hoping to escape from reality.. i reali wish i had nv been thru all these.. i had been too optimistic liao le.. but when disaster realli strikes, i am realli helpless.. and i dunno wat to do.. i am realli lost in my own dimension, lost in my thoughts and lost in time..

realli hate this feeling.. but at least i got my answers.. at least i will not be carrying a false hope and wish that everything will turn out right.. a least i will not be trapped in a whirlpool of uncertainties.. being sucked in and dun have the chance to ever get out.. reality is cruel but its a way for one to become stronger.. reality is painful but it also gives one a chance to move on in life.. and i think its time i realli learn to face the monster of reality..

learning to let go and learning to move on is a difficult and painful journey.. but i am sure i will overcome it.. results is nv everything.. failure is nv a big thing.. its the journey and the lessons that are important.. learn from mistakes and correct them.. thats the key..

hopefully i can crawl out of the bottom of the pit soon.. hopefully i can overcome all the unhappiness and sadness in mi.. i am sure i can.. so to all my frends dun have to worry about mi.. i wun do anything stupid cauz there are much more important things in life for mi.. think i will stop here ba.. leaving this phrase for u guys reading this post to ponder about.. 到底逃避现实痛苦还是面对现实痛苦??? signing off...