my life

back from SITEST...

finally released from the tekong prison and now back to civilisation once again.. it has been a hell of a week.. very very very hectic and tiring.. all the activities came one after another this week.. had grenade live throw which i threw a blind.. haizZz.. then came sitest.. woots..

sitest was completely tiring.. crazy in fact.. had 12km route march to the camp site and started learning new things to help us in our mission.. but the fast march every morning is like crazy la.. lol.. nonetheless sitest was fun for mi.. many new things that are useful i have learnt.. there wasn't much of stress cauz i wasn't aimming for command skl liao le..

recently has been thinking about alot alot of things.. about my life and about myself.. i am planning to retake As.. hahax.. dunno why suddenly have this plan.. but i think i started to think more about my future liao le.. thats was partly why i gave up the idea of going command skl.. i think this 2 yrs is time for mi to think bout my life liao le.. wat i realli realli want in my life.. and its realli time to do it liao le..

last night i had somehow a debate with my section mate charles.. toking about things happening in army.. and him telling mi about my negative parts.. wat he said i already knew.. cauz i had close confidants telling mi bout that liao le.. but i guess he knew mi onli for a short time.. he cannot understand mi at all.. and i am not ready to say things bout myself..

yes.. ppl should be optimistic.. we should change our mindset.. but at the end of the day, nothing can be changed instantaneously.. time is the crucial factor in this game.. and i guess its also the ppl.. somehow some ppl i can connect immediately and open up to them.. but that is onli a few onli.. my section mate is helpful.. but he is giving too much.. we are humans afterall.. we are not immortal.. we are not all mighty.. there are some things that are realli up to thyself to solve.. others cannot help..

army indeed changes boys to men.. its realli a period of hardship that boys can mature and grow up, starting to think more about their lives and themselves.. to mi army is somehow good.. apart from the crazy training.. hope i can get myself a answer to all my qns soon ba..

i think i will stop here ba.. going out to swim later liao le.. hahax.. a hot hot weather.. shiok to swim.. wahahax.. meeting up with my senior 2LT zi cheng later.. lol.. wahahax.. flying off!!!