my life

zZzZz....

such a "great" week sia.. haizZz.. so much things happened this week sia.. very very hectic and a very very tiring week.. so tired sia.. despite the fact that i had the vesak day break, i dunno why i feel so weak.. so drained out.. izzit becos of the 16km route march this tuesday??? or izzit the ippt which i failed today??? i dunno leh..

haizZz.. feel so helpless this week man.. realli helpless.. been thinking about alot alot of things.. alot alot of things on my mind right now.. so many things for mi to consider right now.. so many things for mi to do right now.. i feel so powerless.. feel so weak.. feel that i dun have the ability to accomplish wat i wanna do sia.. this feeling sux man.. haizZz..

there are so many things which i dunno how to handle at all.. it has been a tough and demanding week sia.. so many things happened.. so much failures has occured to mi.. and i dun think i can take the stress.. and i realli start to doubt myself liao le.. doubt the fact whether i can face more failures in the future.. haizZz.. wat should i do??? can someone give mi an ans??? i dun think so ba.. cauz onli i can unlock the lock which i have secured on myself..

i start to dislike myself once again liao le.. i reverting back to my old self again liao le.. that insensitive and straight forward bastard going ard and kao bei ppl.. haizZz.. guess is high time i wake myself up liao le.. zheng xiang arh.. dun turn back into someone which everyone loathes and hates.. wake up man wake up man.. arghhhhh!!!

haizZz.. dun think i should write anymore ba.. think i should go figure out my thoughts liao le.. end here ba.. flying off..

will anyone understand the pain in mi???