my life

sick.. zZz..

sia la.. wat a nice timing to be sick sia.. booked out from camp yesterday afternoon and it was damn damn shiok cauz i onli have to book in on tuesday night.. sianzZz.. now having cough flu fever.. cannot enjoy the long long weekend liao le.. grounded at home today cauz my fever was on and off.. slept thru the whole afternoon onli to find my fever came back.. haizZz.. thats juz great..

enough of whining liao le.. hopefully i will be fine by tml ba.. need to go beach road tml de.. lol.. and there will be field camps coming up soon liao.. one immediately after national day.. 4 day 3 night.. doubt there will be much of rest and i bet it will be a hell of a time.. haizZz.. suck thumb and endure lo.. LOL..

haizZz.. NS is realli a funny thing sia.. dun realli noe how to describe.. sometimes realli think NS is not too bad afterall.. all we have to do is to follow orders and do things that our commanders ask us to.. no need to think much about anything.. juz to get thru the week and wait for bookout onli.. nothing much to consider and nothing much to worry about unlike civilian world.. so many things to do and so many things to think about..

budden whenever in camp, all we think about is to go back civilian world and not stay in camp.. cauz army life suxs.. budden yet wanna go back to civilian world where we have to think about so many things.. like to catch up with frends and maintain relationship.. such an irony sia.. realli puzzled about wat is my stand towards NS also.. zZz..

however one thing i am sure is that this 2 yrs is realli a test for mi.. to learn to discipline myself and to understand myself.. NS has taken alot away from mi.. but it has also taught mi alot.. NS has taken time away from mi from my frends and family, but yet it taught mi to appreciate and cherish them much much better..

haizZz.. nonetheless NS has also made mi realli helpless in my life.. helpless towards my frends especially.. there are so many things i wanna do.. to maintain the friendship like i alwaes said.. budden now i am so helpless.. i hardly got time to even contact so many of my frends.. even those whom i can contact i can hardly help them when they have their problems.. cauz i'm stuck in camp and dun noe wat happen exactly.. it makes mi feel so bad.. cauz i can onli noe wat happen when i read their blogs and stuffs.. it makes mi feel like a failure..

i guess the onli thing i can do is to cherish the time i have during book out to catch up with my frends ba.. i noe many of my frends are facing problems of their own right now.. i guess the onli thing i can say is hope u guys can face life with courage and to overcome the problems.. its easy to say but i noe its difficult to do it.. but i hope u guys can gain the courage to solve ur problems ba..

i guess i will end here ba.. think should stop le.. if not will go on and on and on.. hahax.. i'm a naggy person lol.. gtg le.. flying off!!! take care everyone!!! =)