my life

finally back...

woots.. finally back from gruelling exercises the past 2 weeks and the busy preparation for the exercises for the past weeks.. very very drained digging shellscrape and performing the tasks during the exercises.. but glad to say i onli got the very last exercise next week and here comes my block leave!!! LOL..

my status is over le.. and my health is ok le also.. hahax.. specialist said my blood pressure going down le.. and i am losing more and more weight.. hahax.. 17kg lo.. wahahax.. bound to lose more next week during exercise cauz will onli be on combat ration.. shiok.. getting my $100 soon from ippt liao also.. wahahax..

hmmm.. guess i am realli disorganised in the things i say ba.. very very random thoughts.. alot of things recently on my mind.. thinking alot of things.. hahax.. i'm aging i guess.. thinking so much.. hahax.. guess army realli too bored le.. nothing to do.. LOL..

dunno la.. quite troubled actually.. alot of things on my mind and thinking thru alot of stuffs.. more about army stuffs ba.. things i wan to do and do not want to do.. its realli thru army that guys realli grow up and become a real men i guess.. cauz army not onli train us physically, but also mentally.. in a sense that we get to see alot of things in life.. selfishness in man and hypocrisy in human..

i guess as a human i am selfish too ba.. i'm a hypocrite also ba.. i dare say ppl put on masks in front of different ppl.. i'm no different.. i act differently in front of different ppl.. i have indeed become selfish in army.. i always have doubts and questions bout why i had to do this and that while others dun in camp.. and alwaes think i'm at a disadvantage doing so much work.. i'm selfish.. everyone does so too..

i guess this is part and parcel of life ba.. its something that humans cannot avoid in life.. its a cross junction in life ppl have choose their path from ba.. the choice to make a right decision that will not defeat one's purpose in life.. and not going against one's principles ba.. guess i have somehow made a choice le.. and i got answers to many many of my questions le.. guess i have to stand by my choice ba..

guess i have to go think thru lots more stuffs ba.. to realli grow up ba.. like my PS say.. hopefully we can ord noeing that we are real men who had gone thru national service and served our commitment.. but i guess its not the commitment that matters.. its the learning and the various lessons we gained at become a real man.. and that we have strengthened our beliefs and convictions in life ba.. hahax.. and that we nv regretted the choices we make in army and in life..

guess i will end here ba.. getting nagging le.. hahax.. like freaking old man liddat.. LOL.. hoping to get thru next week smoothly and that i can endure thru the final evaluation exercise for the year.. then i will be free for block leave!!! hahax.. ask mi out worx.. LOL.. guess i will end here ba.. will be back soon.. with pictures and stuffs i took recently.. flying off!!!