my life

yesterday went for a performance at kallang theatre.. a children musicial show i say.. quite lame.. hahax.. our class de ppl decided to meet at kallang mrt station at 7pm today.. but sian.. most of the guys are late and they reached ard 7.25pm.. it was like damn late and no one really knew the way to the kallnag theatre.. we started walking there and most of us din realli noe the way there.. we twisted and turned and crossed roads and luckily we managed to get to the theatre in time for the performance.. most of them walked so fast that jia liang couldn't catch up due to his injured leg.. but we managed to reach the theatre b4 the performance started..

the show was rather cute and quite lame also.. Ali baba and the 21 bad and small bandits.. super lame.. there was one part where the bad guys wanted to catch ali baba by recognising the cross on his home door.. then suddenly they start to sing a song "cha cha cha cha cha cha cha".. which was damn lame la.. sian.. i keep commenting on the performance all the time and made stupid remarks.. though the performance is rather lame, but it is entertaining la.. wahahax.. can relax a bit..

after the performance went home.. super sian.. cauz its like actually wanted to go supper with frends.. but all din go in the end.. so go home.. actually also feel that it is really weird.. cauz there dun really have frends i noe very well.. on the train kept getting suaned and suaning ppl also.. sianz..

then i realise that i really din have frends in class.. and it is so sad la.. sianz.. all of them is so near and yet so far.. i wonder wat should i do so that i can blend in to the class one day.. sianz.. and i really wonder if that day will even come.. and till now i really doubt so.. sadded..

some of the frends that i had who were closer to mi in the past seems so far away from mi already.. and i feel so lost.. and i hardly spoke a word to them in class everyday.. i really dunno wat i can tok to them about all the time.. and i really want to let them noe how i feel.. but this seems so impossible.. cauz nowadays they are hanging ard with ppl that i hate and loathe so much.. i want to go home with them.. but the ppl i hate are alwaes ard them.. and i nv had the opportunity lately to go back with them.. i am so sad.. yet i dun wan to lose them as my frends cauz they are the ppl who could really tolerate mi and i believe they can be my frends.. but i could nv nv say out wat i feel to them.. maybe i am juz a coward.. wat should i do??? i feel so lost.. haiz~~~ i had been deceiving myself all the time saying let nature take its course.. but i noe it will nv work.. so troubled.. guess i am weak to face these problems.. haiz~~~