my life

guess i realli have to clear some things up liao.. think some of the things i said and commented made some ppl uneasy or wat..

first i have to admit that i do go overboard saying some things.. and i noe that i am wrong.. and i sincerely apologise to ppl who i offended.. but realli do wan ppl to noe that i had made my best effort to change myself and stop crapping and joking about ppl.. but no matter how hard someone tries.. he or she cannot change totally de.. and i realli dun wanna transform myself into someone totally different from who i am.. thats why i still joke sometimes but i realli try to control myself.. and i realli hope ppl can sometimes tolerate and accept mi..

secondly i also wanna say that not that i am angry with ppl or wat.. but sometimes i realli cannot take it when some things.. when sometimes i joke about things, they are mostly untrue and i will be glad to stop it if someone can juz tell mi to shut up.. but about the gp teacher thingy, i realli cannot take it.. i think everyone in s14 would noe the comment that our gp teacher made to mr chai.. and he have been making such a silly comment and crapping in watever things related to gp to mi.. imagine u being bugged by a teacher at morning assembly to ask u to go entertain a teacher u dun realli like.. will u like it? sometimes the class even adds into the fun.. imagine u were mi on thursday.. being laughed at for at least ten minutes.. how would u take it? and someone even ask u to beg the teacher to come back and the whole class laugh about it.. will u feel good??? and this thing have been going on for at least a few weeks.. how would u feel??? will u hate gp like mi?? i bet u will ba.. and i had hardly been saying anything about it.. i hope that ppl can understand that it realli hurts inside mi.. not that i dun wan to give our gp teacher a chance or wat.. but imagine a comment she made can cause mi so much probs.. can u possibly like her???

third i have been posting all these posts to juz rant on some things that are unhappy in my life.. its becos i realli cannot tok to ppl sometimes becos of my unique character which most ppl are unable to accept.. thats why i choose to keep a blog and say some things to make mi feel better within mi sometimes.. and it realli made mi feel better this way.. if anything or comment i made makes anyone of u uneasy or unhappy.. once again i apologise sincerely and i realli hope u ppl can give mi some time to improve and change myself..

about ppl being able to take jokes anot, i also wanna say something again.. i noe that i made alot of silly jokes last yr and i wasn't able to consider many ppl de feelings.. and i had been thinking thru the whole of last yr.. and i feel bad i said some stupid things sometimes.. thats why i tried my best not to joke anymore in lessons and such.. and start to listen to lessons.. but sometimes ppl joke about mi and i treat as really a joke and i dun take to heart.. so i realli wish that ppl can forgive mi to anything i done wrong and give mi a chance to gain ur acceptance.. and all i need is a little time..

and all the things that i have posted regarding the hypocrite thingy.. i wasn't out to target the whole class.. but those ppl who juz come to my blog and scold mi without letting mi noe who u are.. i will feel better if u put down ur name and scold mi.. at least i noe who doesn't like some things that i do and i can change.. imagine u are the one being scolded at without knowing who is unhappy about u.. will this trouble u???

all i wanna say is that i realli need some time to change and improve myself.. and i need some tolerance and forgiveness to some things i do no matter it is last yr or this yr.. but i realli wish that everyone are willing to give mi the chance and accept mi.. hope that this will clear most of the things up..