my life

woots.. tml is the moment of truth liao.. the day has finally arrived.. the day i had not been looking forward to.. the day which my fate will be determined.. omg.. i'm so freakingly not prepared la.. zZzZz.. haizZz.. but guess its time to face the truth liao le.. and time to think of wat to do liao le..

having this yucky feeling that i will realli do very very badly.. though many best wished from my frends and colleagues, i think i still wun make it.. think will do realli realli badly.. haizZz.. feeling so bad right now..

yesterday night was the first time i nv had insommia in my life.. couldn't sleep.. was actually planning outing de.. cauz today one of our colleague going overseas and we were intending to song her.. in the end onli mi and mel went.. hahax.. also actually intended to cycle at east coast de.. budden raining.. so cancelled again..

yesterday night could not sleep totally.. chatted with my junior till 4 plus.. then onli managed to turn in ard 4.30.. dunno why.. keep thinking about things and worrying bout things.. budden at least i sorted out some thoughts liao le.. and realised some stuffs liao le.. think i had been having too much hopes bout some stuffs liao le.. budden i finally decided to give up le.. it has been too antagonising for mi.. think should juz stop thinking.. i will nv figure out an answer myself..

luckily today went out with mel.. if not i would have been hu si luan xiang-ing at home today.. went sent our colleague linda off liao then took 858 to causeway watch protege.. a nice movie.. meaningful also.. lol.. hahax.. chatted quite alot with melvin and reggie today also.. it was fun today outside.. at least i stop thinking during the time i was out.. zZzZz...

think i wun be able to sleep tonight also ba.. thinking will hu si luan xiang again for the whole night.. haizZz.. again still got many things on my mind.. yucks.. dunno wat to do!!! sianzZz.. i think i will stop here ba.. no mood to carry on le.. flying off....