my life

zZz.. today mood down to the fullest liao le.. haizZz.. heard from the news that A levels de results coming out this friday.. my heart sunk to the bottom.. its the moment of truth.. the release of results.. and the determination of my fate for the few yrs to come.. haizZz.. and i realli have not been looking forward to the arrival of this day..

realli stressed up liao le.. haizZz.. was juz complaining yesterday that i have so many things on my mind.. and oh wells, another burden is added on my shoulder.. thats my A level results.. sianzZz.. yucks.. haizZz.. worried till dunno wat to say liao le.. budden guess i have to face the truth ba.. i roughly noe where i am.. and i am realli not having much hopes for As de results.. dunno ba.. guess have to be realistic and think of wat i can do if i realli fail for A levels..

dunno leh.. i have been realli trying hard to stop thinking bout stuffs liao le.. and try to calm myself down.. think my frends realise i have been moodly recently.. no longer the one who can joke and have fun liao le.. and i cannot help it.. cauz there are simply so many things that are worrying mi.. and i am so helpless.. and i realli dunno wat to do.. haizZz..

there are many things i guess i should try to learn to let go and to learn to forget.. but i do not want to give up hope.. and i am not someone who will give up easily.. budden many a times life is cruel.. haizZz.. realli still hoping for a miracle to happen for my A level results and miracles to happen for the things i wanna achieve.. haizZz.. but it seems so hard to happen.. haizZz.. dunno la..

think should be getting a resignation form tml liao le ba.. think if results realli cannot make it i wun have the mood to carrying on working also.. sianzZz.. realli quitting soon le ba.. think i will stop here ba.. stop toking bout sad stuffs liao.. hahax.. have a feeling i am becoming a pessimistic person.. wahahax.. flying off..

do miracles exist?