my life

who am i???

sianzZz.. continuously sick.. haven recover yet sia.. cough every night.. feeling so lethargic every single day in camp sia.. today finally book out le.. finally got some time off from camp to do the things i like to do le..

indeed army took away 2 yrs of my life.. but now i realli start to wonder.. izzit a realli bad thing??? these few weeks i been asking myself many qns.. looking for many answers within mi.. wat do i realli wan in my life??? wat are the things that i realli wan in life??? i seriously dunno..

i realli dunno leh.. this seems to be some sort of identity crisis ba.. now i'm in middle of nowhere.. not studying, not in the society.. i realli start to wonder who i realli am.. wat am i as a person??? i realli dunno.. wat do i wan for my future??? wat are the things i wanna do in the future.. i have not planned or neither decided.. i realli dunno wat i want..

few days back got a scolding from my frend.. guess that was realli the call that woke mi my.. and to realli start thinking of my life le.. from wat i can see from the past weeks i guess i am realli changing back to who i am in the past liao le.. i guess i dun wan that to happen ba.. i am realli a bastard in the past.. but i realli hope i wun change back..

this feeling realli sucks.. i seriously got no clue on wat to do.. and i seriously got no clue to wat i am thinking about also.. i guess its now up to mi to decide le ba.. wat i realli wan in life.. and to realli reflect on the things i did.. hopefully i can realli give myself am answer real soon ba.. haizZz..

guess i will end here ba.. a little tired liao le.. maybe blog again next time ba.. flying off!!!