my life

sick..

its such a great feeling to be able to book out after a week in camp every weekend.. but it isn't a good feeling to be sick during book out.. cough and cough, runny nose and having fever.. wat can be worse than this??? though i went out still.. but the cough is seriously killing mi.. arghhh.. this suxs..

finally completed FPC liao le.. course is finally over on friday.. does this mean life is going to get better??? i dunno.. but i guess not for mi.. cauz the review for my recent medical appointment wasn't good.. my blood pressure is going sky high.. and yet i am normal.. can run can jump can play.. haizZz.. wat is happening to my body??? izzit failing mi already???

i might be able to down pes soon.. might.. cauz of my blood pressure.. i am happy.. yet unhappy.. isn't that contradicting??? isn't that stupid??? down pes means my body is realli down le ba.. should i realli be happy??? i realli dunno.. so sianzZz sia this feeling.. i want to down pes yet i dun wan my body to fail mi.. haizZz..

realli dunno wat to say now sia.. dunno wat i am feeling also.. down pes can definitely give mi a much better life.. yet i wanna hold on to the brotherhood i had juz fostered with my platoon mates.. such mixed feelings sia.. haizZz.. guess i am juz stupid ba.. go and think of such stuffs.. sianzZz..

guess i will end here liao le ha.. dun wanna complain anymore liao le.. bl;og again sometime when i book out again ba.. waiting for 27th to come.. the moment of truth.. haizZz.. flying off..

i'm scared.. wat should i do???