my life

quite a week.. hahax.. finally back to blogging liao le.. hahax.. it was chinese new yr week last week.. onli work on the eve and then break for 2 days for the 1st day and 2nd day of new yr.. worked on tuesday, had off on wednesday then thursday worked full day..

it was quite a week.. full of ups and downs.. very tiring also.. hahax.. cny was as usual.. went visit relatives and then catch up with relatives.. budden for mi cny will nv be the same as in the past.. whenever there is such an important festival, one is bound to miss his or her loved ones who are no longer ard.. i do too.. thats why i can nv enjoy cny as much as the past anymore.. and the mood is juz not there..

have been thinking about lots of stuffs recently until i think too much sometimes.. sometimes i think i realli paranoid about stuffs.. there are juz too many things bothering mi liao le.. and i cannot help but worry and worry.. but there is nothing i can do about all of them.. my results is coming out soon.. my fate will be determined.. but the release of results is simply delayed and delayed.. zZz.. i'm worried.. freaking worried.. but i juz can't do anything about it.. haizZz..

wednesday was a better day for this week.. went out chill out with colleagues.. actually wanted to catch norbit at a earlier time.. long time no catch movie liao.. budden in the end cannot get tixs for the show.. so din watch.. had sakae buffet with reggie, melvin, jing shi and shi hua at frontier there de sakae.. after that melvin and jing shi left earlier cauz they had to work.. so reggie, shi hua and i decided to watch the show at 7pm..

the show was interesting.. hahax.. funny in fact.. very very funny.. the comedy cheered mi up alot and pulled mi away from the worries and the stuffs bothering mi.. hahax.. at least i was happy for the 2 hrs of show.. hahax..

today was a draining day.. work for 10.5 hrs.. wow.. scary.. till a point i almost felt the fatigue running thru every single vein in my body.. hahax.. especially my ankle and knee.. starting to feel the bad bad strain liao.. cauz last time had quite a bit of injuries from the sports i play.. budden in the end managed to pull thru today.. hahax.. after work went supper with reggie and ben then now resting at home finally.. one good thing for today is that i can finally bill already.. long awaited.. wahahax..

i realli starting to feel this job is getting mundane liao le.. actually quite tired liao le.. but i am still hanging on.. hope i can till the end of march.. then go NS liao le.. hahax.. budden NS will mean i will lose many things.. haizZz.. dun wanna think bout it ba.. haizZz.. already got enough qns i have for myself liao le.. dun wan another burden riding over mi.. think i might juz suffocate myself.. zZz..

i guess i will stop here ba.. not much things to blog liao le.. even if i do onli unhappy stuffs i think.. and there is juz so many many things i cannot express myself here.. dunno how to say also.. juz that weird feeling going thru the mind and heart.. haizZz.. gtg le.. flying off..

i'm trapped in a pool of uncertainties..