my life

zZz.. today off day.. finally.. after 2 long days of tiring work.. can realli feel the fatigue running thru mi liao le.. back is aching and knee is also aching.. all those old injuries i had are coming back to mi liao le.. and i can realli feel the exhaustion liao le..

i realli start to think whether it was realli a right choice to join service in the first place.. dunno why.. izzit a big prob when i cannot bill?? does it mean i am useless when i cannot bill??? i was willing to take over my colleague job on valentines.. a off day for mi to rest and recharge.. but all i get is some shyt saying that my colleague shouldn't get someone to bill to come to work.. realli gotten very very pissed..

i start to hate the management in westmall already.. they are a bunch of big idiots.. nv care about staffs de feelings de.. when they need u they will call and ask u nicely whether u can help them work anot.. then when u are not needed u are a useless person.. shyt.. wat stupid logic is that??? narrow minded and stupid think i say.. management is bound to fail if the higher ups fail to treat staffs equally.. and i truly feel the management in my restaurant have failed in this sense.. arghhh..

i so feel like quitting.. i so feel like giving up liao le.. realli sick and tired of getting scolded.. yesterday cauz they din put enough staff to work and it was so damn freakingly busy.. kanna scolded by the new manager saying she damn messed up and centre very very busy.. shyt la.. like my fault liddat.. its their own prob when they decide to put onli 2 staffs for centre when the mininum needed is 3.. ya.. its all my fault.. and they got nothing to do with it.. idiots..

i am still hanging on recently cauz of some of my colleagues there.. but i realli cannot tahan the humiliation i get there.. i dun wanna get scolded all the time as if everything is the newcomer fault which is my fault.. i dun deserve all this i think.. and i think the rest who are going thru this also feel the same.. i realli dun feel respected working there.. arghhhh.. gonna quit soon i think..

sianzZz la.. tml got to work again.. and it is LAST MINUTE again.. cauz apparently someone copied my schedule wrongly and placed a X at my time slot tml.. but i had to work.. and that someone is apparently the one who planned the schedule.. and din bother to change it.. got to noe this onli yesteday and they called to say i have to work tml.. zZz.. and if i reject it will be all my fault and my irresponsibility again.. wow.. amazing.. thats work at sakae man..

haiya sianzZz la.. keep grumbling this few days.. and grumbling is not a nice thing to do.. especially before CNY.. its suxs.. haiya.. budden felt better liao le after ranting all my unhappiness out.. hahax.. i will end here ba.. if not start ranting again.. gtg.. going off..

when can i get the answers i want??????