thought i would have to rot my precious book out day today le.. budden in the end din.. wahahax.. it turned out to be a good day instead.. lol.. went to buy some army stuffs in the afternoon.. then met anna and vincent to go for dinner.. hahax..

actually wanted to ask them out de.. but thought they wun be free today.. hahax.. so decided to abort the idea.. hahax.. vincent called mi and asked mi whether i wanted to go dinner.. hahax.. so decided to meet them cauz i got nothing much to do also.. wahahax..

went westmall to get some ziplock bags from the army shop over there.. sianzZz.. regretted not buying at beach road on saturday.. sianzZz.. met anna at westmall in which we took train to boon lay to met vincent.. go sakae.. wahahax.. 3rd time i eating sakae on my book out days liao worx.. wahahax..

met my ex manager irene there.. hahax.. good to see familiar faces once again after so long.. and its nice to be going out with my colleagues after so long.. chatting and playing with them.. stealing away vincent's handphone and suaning him.. hahax.. its juz great that they are willing to take time off to meet up today.. and i realli enjoyed myself alot today.. catching up with frends and joking ard.. its juz a bliss..

like anna said on her blog.. i also missed the times when we all go out in big groups to go for dinner or juz go out play.. everyone is busy with their own things.. be it studies or work.. whereas i'm in army.. hardly got the time to go out with everyone liao.. realli miss the times sia.. dunno when have to opportunity to meet up in big groups again liao le.. haizZz.. hopefully got chance ba..

tml gotta book in again liao.. sianzZz.. happy times are juz so so so short.. so fast going back to tekong liao.. the place without life.. haizZz.. now onli looking forward to the next book out.. hahax.. when i haven even book in yet.. LOL! think i will end here ba.. very tired liao le.. flying off!!!

sianzZz

haizZz.. cannot believe wat i am doing on my precious book out days.. rotting at home sia.. yucks.. yesterday all i did was to rot at home and use the com for the day.. and eating non stop.. omg.. i wasted one good day liao le.. today also dunno wat to do sia.. dun wanna waste another precious book out day liao le..

erm.. having this funny feeling going thru my mind right now.. i want to ask my frends to go chill out and go out have fun.. budden realli dunno who to ask.. how to ask sia.. my mind is like totally blank.. dunno wat i am thinking about sia.. haizZz.. this suxs man.. my whole brain is realli empty right now.. dun wanna think about anything sia..

dunno why is this happening to mi.. haizZz.. hope i can recover from this "illness" soon ba.. gtg le.. going buy some stuffs for next book in later.. flying off..

yesterday went out finally during my very first book out.. hahax.. long long time nv go out walk ard civilian world liao le.. hahax.. the feeling is juz great.. hahax.. went beach road in the afternoon with my senior zi cheng to get some stuff i need for army.. sianzZz sia.. waste money cauz apparently dun have time to go e-mart get the items.. haizZz.. no choice lo.. have to waste money..

rotted at home using the computer for the whole afternoon.. its realli a blessing to juz sit down in front of my com doing nothing.. and its juz great to be at home.. the comfort the everything.. computer and music.. hahax..

in the evening went to westmall eat sakae.. apparently its becos its ben's last day and he asked mi to go support him.. so asked jing shi vincent and zhen lin to go along.. hahax.. reached there ard 7 plus and luckily we were early.. queue wasn't so long.. hahax.. good to see so many familiar faces after so long.. hahax.. missed so many of them.. then went play pool for a while and went back to sakae at night to look for them.. hahax..

dunno leh.. feel very weird liao le.. feel somewhat different liao le.. like drifted away from my frends liao le.. dunno leh.. maybe i'm thinking too much.. dunno leh.. feel realli so so different liao le.. dunno wat to say and dunno wat to tok about liao le.. realli dunno leh.. haizZz.. its juz 17 days of confinement and i start to feel this way liao le.. how am i going to survive the next 2 yrs??? dunno la.. hope i am realli thinking too much ba..

think i will stop here ba.. dunno wat to write liao le.. hahax.. army makes a guy lose his ability to think.. i realli understand why liao le.. hahax.. might be going out later also.. flying off...

i'm finally back!!!

10th may.. enlisted.. took the oath.. became a soldier.. hahax.. now a full time NSF.. woots.. army life has been such a great transition in my life man.. such a great change.. its never easy to accept the fact that i am no longer a civilian.. hahax.. budden i am proud to say that i have adapted to this transition in my life..

NS is nv something easy.. i nv thought it is so tough.. took quite some time to realli get into the motion of things after my enlistment.. i nv knew we have to march alwaes from one location to another.. to be hearing commands that are totally alien to mi.. and also doing physical training every single day.. it was realli hard to adapt.. especially when u are so far away from ur loved ones and ur frends..

my bunk is a special bunk.. we have got the sea view everyday.. and i can see the sunset every single day.. can also see lots of stars in the night.. hahax.. its totally beautiful.. and i loved it.. budden it also bring about chains of thoughts for mi every single day.. missing all my frends and especially my family.. and making mi think of so many things everyday.. hahax.. in which all my platoon mates say i'm emo-ing.. lol.. budden i still appreciate the beautiful scenary i get to see everyday..

but realli start to adapt after the first week.. and when i got to noe my section mates better.. got lots of support from some of them.. grateful to have them ard.. learnt alot during this 3 weeks of confinement too.. learn to endure and learnt to face obstacles with courage and dun fear to fail.. cannot believe wat i have done for the past 17 days.. hahax.. completing 6km route march with uber heavy field pack and lbv.. clearing obstacle courses which i could nv do in the past at all.. hahax.. endurance and mental strength is realli the key.. hahax..

today finally book out after 17 days.. hahax.. finally can come home liao le.. missed home and my frends so much.. hahax.. went to my work place to takeaway food.. hahax.. 2 of my colleagues couldn't recognise mi.. lol.. hahax.. turned realli tanned and cannot recognise mi easily.. budden its a great feeling seeing so many of them after so long.. and so great to be back home right now..

gonna book in again next tuesday.. sianzZz.. budden still taking it positively.. its a chance to learn more new things and get to noe my platoon mates better.. hahax.. hope i can get all the best from bmt.. hahax.. like my platoon sgt said.. pain is temporary.. pride is forever.. hahahax.. think i will end here ba.. flying off!!!

Last post as a civilian...

sianzZz diao.. i'm like enlisting in like 17 hrs later??? LOL! wahahax.. no realli looking forward to it cauz there are so many things i have not done yet worx.. sianzZz diao.. but i am prepared for the challenge ahead liao.. finally able to let go of the things bothering mi for quite some time liao le.. and there is nothing drawing mi back from army liao le..

think i will take army as a opportunity to noe new ppl and to realli grow up ba.. its realli a once in a lifetime experience for every guy.. from a boy to man.. think it is realli a learning journey for mi in the 2 yrs to come..

here like to take this opportunity to thank all my frends for giving mi such a wonderful memory before i go NS.. especially to my colleagues.. thanks for all the fun i had working and hanging out with u guys.. my life before NS wun have been so colourful without u guys.. i realli had great fun going out with u all and i will bring the memories i have with u guys deeply etched at the bottom of my heart.. take lots of care ppl!!!

also wanna take this opportunity to thank my bro joel, my junior xun kai and my senior zi cheng for all the advices and help they have given mi whenever i have problems and whenever i am troubled.. thank you guys.. buddies forever..

and to all my juniors i wish u ppl luck in ur studies no matter where and where u guys are now and hope everyone of them are doing well and coping well for their studies.. all the best for As to all my juniors in JJ.. hahax.. to everyone of my frends, i hope everyone will take lots of care and may all the best in everything u guys do..

signing off for the last time as a civilian, take care all my frends!!! and also may smooth sailing in everything for my family.. hope to see everyone soon after my bmt.. hahax.. flying off!!! =)

看着缓缓落下的夕阳，
我的心开始暗了下来。
和朋友们一起走过的美好回忆，
仍然在我脑海里记忆犹新，
不停地在荡漾着，
不停地盘旋着。

但如今就要失去了自由，
我才学会如何真正的珍惜。
珍惜我曾拥有的美好的一切。

现实是残酷的，
现实是无情的。
尽管我如何努力地挽留，
感情还是会随着时间流逝。

但我也相信命运是掌控在我手里的。
我有能力改变我的命运。
尽管命运有多么无情，
我还是会努力地尝试，
决不轻言放弃。
这就是我的选择。

suddenly felt like writing something juz now.. so decided to pen down my thoughts for the past one or 2 weeks.. wat i wrote above is realli some thoughts before i go NS.. my helplessness.. but i still believe i can change my fate cauz i noe destiny is in my hands.. its my choice whether to do it anot.. hahax.. gtg le.. going bai bai for NS.. flying off!!!

today was also a good day.. wahahax.. went swimming in the afternoon with my seniors zi cheng and ming fei.. wahahax.. reached JE swimming pool ard 2.45 liddat.. ming fei reached also ard the same time.. zi cheng was already at KFC.. lol.. i and ming fei were lucky cauz a extremely heavy downpour started right after we stepped into the sports complex..

there was thunder and lightning.. so no choice but to wait in kfc for the rain to stop.. in the meantime playing with zi cheng's i-mac.. wahahax.. hahax.. tok cock sing song and listen to music until the rain subsided and we could go swim.. lol..

swam for like 2 plus hours.. wahahax.. i was juz playing ard cauz the weather was so poor and no mood to go swim.. lol.. most of the time the 3 of us were toking cock about army and stuffs liddat.. wahahax.. and also many funny funny de things.. hahax.. so fun de.. the times i spent with my seniors is alwaes fun.. hahax.. cauz we nv fail to crack funny jokes and say funny stuffs when we are out together.. lol..

went to wash up and was deciding where to go for dinner.. wanted to go town but i very sianzZz.. so in the end decided to go sakae to eat cauz my senior ming fei wanted to have sushi cauz he is craving for sushi cauz he juz came back from taiwan for his training.. lol.. so went westmall makan.. hahax.. ate alot.. but in the end paid very little.. thanks to kwang yee.. hahax.. thanks har ky.. wahahax..

after dinner went CSC play pool again.. uper on form.. wahahax.. won many games today.. damn shiok la the feeling.. wahahax.. after which zi cheng and ming fei went back home and i went find my ex colleagues to go back home together..

i had a great day.. hahax.. lots of fun today.. alwaes so fun to go out with my seniors.. nv fail to have fun everytime i go out with them.. wahahax.. appreciate the times i spent with them tons.. lol.. but on the way back on the train was thinking of some things.. bothering mi again.. but think should be fine soon ba.. hopefully.. wahahax.. but i still had a fantastic day today.. lol..

think i will end here ba.. gtg le.. tml going si ma lu bai bai.. for army ba.. alwaes go bai bai before anything major events for mi de.. hahax.. flying off!!!

great day

today i had a great day.. rotted in the afternoon then went to find my junior xun kai at his place.. hahax.. went swimming at the swimming pool at his place and also played table tennis there.. wahahax.. fun.. long time no play table tennis liao le.. after that went to makan at a coffee shop and went play badminton..

after badminton went bukit panjang plaza to go have supper.. my treat.. lol.. had mac.. chatted with him for a long long long time.. hahax.. we alwaes do so after badminton last time.. great to be able to juz chat with him cauz everytime i chat with him there will be things i realise and realli appreicate..

the things we do is alwaes so simple.. so common.. play sports and stuffs.. then chat.. but i realli appreciate the time i spent with this very special junior of mine.. and chatting with him alwaes relieve mi of the many problems i have.. its realli by chance we met at orientation.. would nv have met him if i din join ogl.. and realli din regret my choice of joining ogl..

this post is realli dedicated to this junior of mine.. realli cannot thank him enough for being there for mi all the time when i needed someone to juz listen.. and toking to him alwaes gives mi lots of surprises and i also learnt alot from him.. he is so mature compared to mi being older than him..

today while toking to him, he told mi to not think bout the worries i have.. bout my frends and stuffs.. bout worrying i might drift away from them.. wat he told mi is so true.. and i realise a fact in life.. nothing is forever in life.. life is ever changing and nothing will remain the same forever.. the many special moments in life will realli turn into memories that will follow us forever.. and that is realli the things we should appreicate in life.. and i will rmb all the special moments i had as eternal memory..

realli feel so good juz being with my junior.. he juz a great great frend.. a great confidant.. realli will like to take this opportunity to thank him for all he had done since the time i known him.. thanks so much xun kai.. hopefully army wun drift us apart.. and will make our frendship stronger.. like he said.. army is realli a test of frendship and i will see who my true frends are.. u are forever my greatest pal!!!

think i will stop here ba.. gtg le.. tml should be going out with my senior zi cheng.. lol.. flying off!!! =)

lol.. today was a tiring day.. early in the morning jiu wake up liao le.. cauz got bai bai at home.. qing ming jie.. have to bai zu xian.. ya.. plus last night sleep very very late.. thats why so tired and slept when my elders were praying.. very bad.. think next time should juz sleep earlier liao le.. and have to train to wake up early liao.. 4 more days to NS le..

after bai bai went market buy army de stuffs.. bought quite a lot of stuffs for army.. hahax.. slacked at home when mel called mi and wanted to come my home with ben.. hahax.. so met them at teck whye lrt station there de basketball court cauz i suggested to play bball.. but in the end still went my home to play com.. wahahax..

after that ben went to find his frend while melvin accompanied mi to jp to find a cap.. sianzZz.. in the end decided not to buy one.. cauz apparently my head too too big liao le.. cannot fit any of the caps and i looked ugly in them.. hahax.. so abolished the idea of buying a cap.. wahahax.. melvin bought a bball shorts instead.. lol..

after that went westmall to buy some stuffs i need for NS also.. sianzZz.. some stuffs.. hahax.. so pai sei la.. hahax.. sianzZz diao worx.. thanks mel for accompanying mi worx.. hahax.. then went back sakae to visit our colleagues.. hahax.. chatted with them for a while then went back home liao le.. then on the way back my jie ka jiao mi and asked mi wat i bought.. sianzZz.. so funny la.. think those on the train noe wat i mean.. wahahax.. dun wanna mention here.. lol.. thanks har jie.. wahahax..

saw something on melvin's blog.. so bad.. i sure will slim down de lo.. lol.. slim until u cannot recognise.. wahahax.. but realli hope we can keep in contact during my NS period also.. hahax.. dun wanna lose contact with u guys.. hahax.. take care worx everyone in sakae.. hahax.. think i will end here ba.. my posts getting boring day by day.. time to think of interesting stuffs to write liao le.. hahax.. so can entertain u guys reading.. wahahax.. gtg.. flying off..

back to JJ

after so long, went back to jj once again.. hahax.. the feeling is great.. hahax.. after such a long time i have not been back in skl, i realli miss the times in skl.. hahax.. sitting down and crapping with frends.. its juz so great.. jj is juz cool.. wahahax.. all the wonderful memories i have there.. hahax..

today went back to visit my juniors in cldds.. hahax.. nice to see them.. last time keep saying that i wanted to visit them after exams but din cauz was too occupied with work liao le.. today finally got the time to go fulfill my promise.. hahax.. reached skl and asked xun kai to meet mi at the gate so saved the trouble with the security guard.. but the guard was nice cauz noe him quite well liao le.. hahax..

toked cock with xun kai and his frend for a while then went to see cldds.. hahax.. cannot realli tok to my juniors cauz they were busy discussing about syf stuffs.. so stayed outside the room and met my junior jayne and started toking crap with her.. hahax.. toked for quite long worx.. bullying her.. wahahax.. but it was realli nice chatting with the juniors i noe after so long.. hahax.. so great..

walked ard the skl together with xun kai.. saw many many familiar faces and ppl.. hahax.. and ppl keep saying i slimmed down a lot a lot.. damn shiok la.. hahax.. hopefully can slim down more after BMT.. hahax.. onli got to tok abit with my cldds juniors after their cca.. think today went the worng day liao.. cauz they busy with stuffs.. but still good to be able to see them.. hahax..

after that rotted in skl with xun kai.. toked to his juniors also.. hahax.. rotted for quite some time in skl then went back liao le.. xun kai went back home while i went to buy things i needed for army.. starting to prepare liao le.. hahax.. spending quite a lot of money also.. lucky my dad gave mi allowance to buy my army stuffs.. hahax.. thanks dad..

its simply great to visit skl today.. juz simply toking to my juniors and chatting with them makes my day.. cauz i would be too busy in army to do so any time soon liao le.. so its realli a blessing i took time off to go back skl today.. realli realli treasure the times i spent in skl today.. every second toking to my juniors.. its juz great.. think no words can describe how i feel ba..

think i will stop here ba.. tml got things on at home.. so not going out.. but have to continue to get ready my things for ns.. hahax.. gtg le.. flying off!!! =)

fun fun fun..

these few days have been fun fun fun for mi.. hahax.. hahax.. monday went to my bro joel's home to pass him his bdae present.. lol.. played at his house for the whole day.. hahax.. it was fun.. hahax.. also had lots of fun cauz of joel's cute dog terry.. hahax.. super duper cute.. stick to mi the whole day also.. trying to grab attention also.. make mi sayang him.. wahahax.. uper cute worx.. shall upload some photos worx..

terry.. hahax..

that day played X box at his home for the whole day.. played DOA and also Halo 2.. wahahax.. quite fun.. hahax.. also had dinner over at his place.. his parents were so nice to have bought food for mi.. hahax..

then yesterday went out with zhen lin, wei xia, vincent and melvin.. hahax.. went back to sakae to have buffet.. hahax.. met many of my ex colleagues there.. lol.. so fun playing ard with them also.. but guess choose the wrong day liao le.. cauz not everyone.. but i still had fun.. hahax.. ate alot.. until my whole stomach super duper full.. hahax.. anna and jing shi also drew some funny funny pics.. i and vincent added stuffs also.. wahahax.. upload here.. wahahax..

hahax.. super cute worx.. lol..

ika, salmon head, fried tofu, ebi, hotate, kani and idako.. lol.. cute..

after the buffet went pool with lin xia and vincent.. melvin went play badminton with his frends.. hahax.. played ard 2 plus hours.. then lin xia and vincent went home liao.. went back to sakae to visit my ex colleagues again. can go home together with reggie also.. hahax.. helped xue pan with menu then everything done liao le.. had supper with reggie and anna at mac and then went back with reggie..

back at sakae reggie asked mi why i she bu de leave sakae.. i realli dunno how to ans his qn.. dunno leh.. i realli she bu de.. maybe its juz in mi ba.. cannot let go of the frends i noe.. even if i onli noe them for a very short period of time.. i'm this kind of person ba.. its in mi.. hahax.. thats why army suxs for mi.. and i had been feeling quite down recently having to be drifting away from my frends after i go NS.. hahax.. but let nature take its course ba.. i'm sure everything will be fine.. hahax..

think i will stop here ba.. gtg le.. later going back skl visit my cca juniors.. hahax.. last time alwaes say will visit them but din.. hahax.. today must go back and visit them.. lol.. think will be fun.. ending here le.. flying off!!! =)

tired...

today was a super super hectic day for mi.. woke up ard 12 plus in the afternoon.. cauz last night slept very late.. ard 4 plus in the morning.. cauz was chatting with my junior on the phone for the night.. so good to be toking to him after so long.. hahax.. felt better toking to him also.. cauz he alwaes seem to be able to give mi extra sensible advices.. hahax..

went bai bai today.. cauz qing ming jie.. went sao mu for my grandparents.. once in a yr onli.. so it was an important event.. had lunch at my aunt's place today.. then head off to sao mu.. there was a great traffic jam.. so took a long time to reach.. then somehow halfway thru heard my uncle and aunt had a great quarrel.. to an extend my uncle headed back home.. but somehow he came back in the end..

i realli cannot understand adults.. they can be grumbling at every single thing.. though i dun noe wat realli happened, but i heard from my sis it started from something so lame.. i realli cannot understand why adults like to quarrel over trivial stuffs.. haizZz.. and i also cannot help in any way.. can onli keep quiet.. cauz i noe my elders can nv listen to wat i say de.. they think they are forever right.. thats my family.. still did sao mu.. went sao mu for my grandma after we finish bai bai at my grandpa place..

that was the time i broke down liao le.. realli emotional broke down.. tears flowed down my face when we were finished and my dad ask mi to pray to my grandma to bless mi for my NS.. i broke down totally.. i missed my grandma so so so much.. she was the one who doted on mi the most all the time.. and listened to wat i say.. rmbing her saying she wanted to see mi thru NS.. but now she can't liao le.. i simply dunno how to describe how i feel.. i realli miss her so so so much.. but in the end i picked myself up and stopped crying.. cauz i noe this is life..

haizZz.. thinking over these few days bout my life when i go in NS.. and whenever i think bout such things nothing comes out of it.. hahax.. realli feel helpless.. quite difficult for mi to accept the fact that i am going to drift apart from my frends.. cauz no time to contact them.. my colleagues.. my study buddies.. my og frends.. my senior..my junior.. my best pals.. this feeling totally sux.. especially my colleagues.. so difficult to accept the fact that i will not be that close to them liao le.. cauz juz started to get to noe them better and i left them already.. this sux.. hate this..

but wat my junior told mi last night realli made mi feel better.. and i think its realli life.. this is inevitable for a guy in his life.. and he told mi life is onli meaningful when we lose something.. its true.. but to mi i also think ppl onli learn to appreciate things in life when they are going to lose something.. i realli deeply understand this fact.. but juz this is also another chance to learn something ba.. learning to let go and move on.. nonetheless i will try my very best to hold on to the frendship i have with all my frends..

think i will end here ba.. tml going to try meet my bro joel to give him his bdae present.. lol.. hahax.. gtg le.. very very tired now liao le.. juz like the title.. wat a day.. flying off..

a song my junior juz sent mi.. very nice.. Last request by Paolo Nutini..



here's the lyrics..

Slow down, lie down, remember it's just you and me
Don't sell out, bow out, remember how this used to be
I just want you closer is that alright, baby let's get closer tonight

Grant my last request and just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time let's go there, lay down beside me

Now I've found, that I'm bound, to wander down that one-way road
And I realise all about your lies, but I'm no wiser than the fool that I was before
I just want you closer is that alright, baby let's get closer tonight

Grant my last request and just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time let's go there, lay down beside me

Baby, baby, baby, tell me how can, how can this be wrong?
Grant my last request and just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time let's go there, lay down beside me
One last time let's go there, lay down beside me

OMG.....

haizZz.. onli 10 days left till NS liao le.. this feeling sux.. realli realli sux man.. from last night thinking till today.. there are so many things i haven accomplish yet.. and there are so many things i wanna do before NS.. but time is realli running out for mi.. i can hardly do anything in this short ten days..

but i think i will look on a brighter side.. 10 days.. seems short.. but there is still time.. better than nothing.. now that i am free from my job, i can realli get down to plan stuffs and outings.. there are so many ppl i wanna meet.. it has been so long so long since i have met some of my frends liao le.. realli miss them so much..

yesterday went for dinner with my study buddies liao le.. hahax.. so great.. at least i managed to meet a group of great pals i realli wanted to meet.. there are still so many frends i wanna catch up with.. think its time i take a step and go plan outings already..

1) outing with my very own og 28.. miss everyone of them to bits..
2) go out with my sec skl buddies joel and dinesh..
3) meet up with my best best junior xun kai..
4) chill out with my senior zi cheng
5) catch up with zhen lin, wei xia and vincent they all..
6) visit my colleagues at westmall..
7) have dinner with my family..

haiyo.. so many things to do.. need to prepare my buddy de bdae present also.. hahax.. some other things also.. haiyo.. sianzZz.. time is running out!!! hope i can finish wat i wanna do before NS.. hope i realli do.. think gtg le.. have to go apply for teacher liao le.. and might be going swimming later with joel.. flying off!!!

woohoo..

2 straight days going out.. hahax.. thursday went for bbq at my colleague ky house.. lol.. the bbq was still alrights.. juz that atmosphere wasn't right.. aiya.. dunno la.. was moody during the bbq.. thinking bout lots of stuffs.. din play much also.. hahax.. so bad.. din go and have fun with my colleagues..

after the bbq tonned at ky place for the night.. watched dead or alive the movie.. super stupid movie.. lame de.. fight from the start till the end.. no plot de.. lol.. then after the movie reggie, melvin, kwang yee and shi hua fell asleep.. onli left mi zhen lin and vincent awake.. hahax.. chatted the whole night and played cards to entertain ourselves the whole night.. hahax.. its so nice toking and chatting with them.. realli feel there is a connection there with them..

in the morning went play bball at ky house there de bball court.. fun but reggie got injured.. but ok le.. then sent reggie off cauz he going SP.. actually going with him de but his frend going with him so decided not to go.. hahax.. actually wanted to go back liao le budden in the end jumped into the swimming pool and swam for a while.. wahahax.. after that went boon lay have breakfast with xia and go home liao..

yesterday sleep for like 4 plus hours when i reached home.. then woke up and prepare to go out again with my jc study buddies.. actually nazi and bin hao coming de.. but nazi mum got sick and bin hao decided to ps us.. sianzZz.. so onli mi, yvonne and hao chun met up.. lol..

went town to find yvonne cauz she at taka.. reached there le but in the end cannot find her.. lol.. so retarded.. kept making calls to find where she is.. hahax.. in the end still found her.. there was a sudden change of plans and in the end we decided to go suntec makan.. met hao chun at city hall mrt.. hahax..

so went makan at suntec city.. went secret recipe for dinner.. hahax.. the food was nice.. not bad.. i had grilled chicken rice and a choc cheese cake.. uper nice the cheese cake.. hao chun had stewed lamb and von had fish and chips.. chatted during the dinner and it was so fun.. long time no chat with them le.. hahax.. realli like the past during study period.. hahax.. after the dinner we decided to go visit nazi at her place.. lol.. bought her a white choc cake from secret recipe.. lol..

chatted alot with them in the night.. it was so so so good.. the feeling is simply great.. like last time we used to be chatting in skl.. hahax.. so fun.. shared my troubles with them and i realli felt so so so good.. relieved in fact.. with my frends listening to my troubles and i seem to be relieved a bit of my burden.. hahax.. thanks guys for making my day.. hopefully still got chance to go out have fun again after my bmt.. hahax..

its like 10 days till my NS liao le.. still got so many many things i have not completed.. and so many things i have not learnt how to let go.. sianzZz.. hate this feeling.. it sucks..army means my freedom, my time and my frends.. realli dun wish to lose any of my frendships.. haizZz.. i hope i wun.. cauz i will try my best to hold on tight.. and i think i have to realli try to let go of things before i go NS.. sianzZz.. hopefully i can..

life is not about the number of breaths we take, but the moments which take our breaths away.. realli glad i have so many memorable times with my frends..hope i will keep in contact with them still.. think i will end here ba.. very very tired.. flying off!!!

学会了放手，才能够得到真正的自由...

Goodbye Sakae..

today is my last day in sakae liao le.. very last day le.. it marks the end of my stay in sakae westmall le.. lots of emotions going thru mi.. having mixed feelings today when i left.. hahax.. happy that i no longer have to shou qi anymore.. but realli sad to be leaving my bunch of super great colleagues..

dunno how to say leh.. joined as a promoter in dec.. then decided to stay in service crew.. many a times i wanted to quit and resign.. cauz realli hate the job.. getting scolded and yelled at for nothing most of the time.. but its realli the bunch of great colleagues i have that kept mi going.. realli forged so many great friendship in my stay in sakae..

actually din expect to make so many frends de.. cauz its still a job and i thought ppl will realli be like juz colleagues.. but wat i experienced is totally different from wat i reckon to be.. i realli made a great bunch of frends in sakae.. we are a united team of ppl.. and alwaes go out have fun also.. lol.. had lots of memories in sakae.. most of it are good ones and becos of my colleagues.. the fun and joy i had spending my time with them is realli limitless.. lol..

realli lots of ups and downs in my course of work.. results and lots of probs troubling mi.. but whenever i go out with my colleagues, i can forget bout the troubles i had for the time being and have fun with them.. realli realli grateful to have known everyone in sakae westmall..

here would realli like to take this opportunity to thank all my colleagues i worked with.. melvin, reggie, ben, linda, xue pan, jing shi, amanda, anna, shi hua, kwang yee, caseline, agnes, hock yong, wei xia, zhen lin, vincent and yih pei.. if u all happen to read this, realli thank you guys for making my stay in sakae a memorable and enjoyable one.. appreciate u guys tons..

realli hope can still keep in contact with everyone.. though it is a difficult task cauz i going NS soon le, but i will still try my best to hold on to the friendships that i have forged with everyone.. thats mi.. hahax.. hope i will not lose any of these friendship with my colleagues.. here wanna thanks everyone in sakae westmall again and hope everyone will take care.. all the best in everything.. i will visit u guys when i am free.. lol.. think i will stop here ba.. if not getting more and more emo.. might cry later.. lol.. flying off!!! =)

sianzZz.. feeling itchy all over my body.. having rashes.. think i am realli allergic to alcohol ba.. feeling so terrible right now.. hopefully the rashes will subside soon ba.. cannot afford to let my parents noe i drank.. sure kanna till jia liat jia liat.. anyone has any methods can help mi make my rashes subside??? sianzZz..

today registered for uni liao le.. dunno wats the results ba.. still have to complete the application for teacher.. hopefully can finish soon ba.. lol.. then paid for the application fee liao le.. haizZz.. totally broke this month liao le.. no money to spend at all le.. sianzZz.. still got so many outings and dinner to go to.. hahax.. sianzZz..

tml is my very last day at work liao le.. working full tml.. so fast.. my last day le.. it was onli like yesterday when i juz started work.. think shall blog more tml ba.. think ending here liao le.. got important stuffs to do now.. flying off!!!

back from chalet!!!

hahax.. back from chalet liao le.. it was nice.. lol.. though din have bbq budden it is still great.. had quite a lot of fun at the chalet.. lol.. yesterday supposed to meet at JE at 2pm.. hahax.. in the end turned up late cauz happened to met the rest of them and took train together.. so were late together.. lol..

reached je ard 2 plus.. then took the train to pasir ris.. sianzZz.. it was such a long trip.. hahax.. luckily had jokes going among us that kept us going during the trip.. then took bus at pasir ris to coasta sands resort.. lol.. checked into our chalet which was upgraded cauz the ppl who came yesterday were more than expected.. hahax..

some of them started playing PS2 and the rest strolled ard the chalet.. i joel and wei da decided to rent a bike overnight cauz we actually intended to do night cycling.. but in the end rented 2 bikes cauz wei da was going to go off in the morning and he decided to share with joel.. cycled together with wei da along the beach and it was ard sunset de time liao.. hahax.. took lots and lots of pictures of the sunset.. hahax.. shall upload some here.. lol..

nice scenery..

trees from below.. lol..

nearing sunset..

sun set liao le.. night sky.. so beautiful..

was strolling along the beach and chatting with wei da and joel.. hahax.. joel happened to find a plastic cup.. inside contain 2 jellyfish sia.. wth.. hahax.. someone actually caught the jellyfish and placed them in a plastic cup.. we dig a hole to bury the cup halfway so that the jellyfish can escape when the tide comes.. hahax.. took a picture too..

notice??? the jellyfish is in the cup.. lol

after walking along the beach, went back to the chalet.. ppl there were wei siong, wye huong, chak yong, kent.. they playing PS2 there.. hahax.. somehow we starting chatting bout our life in singapore and the pros and cons in singapore.. it was a very interesting chat among all of us.. first time the ppl in 4/8 discussed bout these kind of stuffs.. hahax.. guessed we all all grew up le.. also started reminisicing bout sec skl days and joking bout the teachers weird gestures.. lol..

mi and joel went to pack dinner for the guys in the chalet at kfc after the long chat cauz we had bikes and it would be very fast.. hahax.. bought 2 party meals and a meal for wee boon.. lol.. cycle all the way to kfc and back.. lol.. having a bike in a chalet is so much convenient.. had dinner and we all carried on playing in the chalet.. also did night cycling with wei siong and joel.. hahax.. night cycling is so so so fun..

its ard midnight we all decided to drink something nice.. hahax.. vodka.. wahahax.. heard wee boon they all bought it.. Absolut vodka.. hahax.. alcohol 40%.. woots.. first time ever in my life i drank.. wahahax.. had ard 4 to 5 cups of vodka mixed with ribena and soda water.. also had ard 2 cups of pure vodka.. sianzZz.. 2 cups of pure 40% worx.. cauz joel offered mi as he kept taking pure ones.. hahax..

cycled together with joel along the beach and drinking as well.. hahax.. got a bit tipsy.. but not drunk.. cauz i am totally conscious of myself and i noe wat i am doing.. hahax.. for a first time its consider quite good le ba.. lol.. budden i think joel had a bit too much liao le.. got drunk.. he felt realli uncomfortable for the night and we all took turns to take care of him.. but he was fine by daybreak..

the liquor we drank.. lol..

in the morning wei da went back first cauz he had skl and the rest of us rotted and stayed till 10 plus to check out.. i and joel went back to the beach again and saw it was low tide.. can see so many things we cannot see during high tide.. nature is juz so amazing.. lol.. we all had breakfast at mac and then took the train back home.. its a long journey again.. everybody slept.. lol..

its was a fun chalet for mi.. could catch up with all my frends i had not seen for so long liao le.. hahax.. had alot of fun.. and could realli forget bout the worries i have for the past few days while playing.. hahax.. its simply great.. and recover some things i had lost in the past.. hahax.. so happy.. it was a great chalet to mi.. lol.. think i will end here ba.. quite tired le.. have to register for uni later i think.. flying off!!! =)

off to chalet liao le.. hahax.. shall blog on it when i am back.. lol.. flying off!!! take care my frends!!! =)

haizZz.. was moody for the whole of last night and today.. thinking so so much about wat i have said.. and thinking so much about my personality.. i felt so so so bad.. i realli sux man.. i realli dunno how to face my frends already.. most importantly myself.. am i realli too rigid in my thinking??? am i so inflexible??? i think i realli am..

i hate it.. today i revert back to my old self again.. coping myself up at a corner to think bout stuffs.. realli trying hard to forget wat i did.. though i noe at the back of my mind escapism does not help in solving a problem.. and it realli doesn't help cauz i haven got a answer yet..

i am scared.. i am worried.. i am terrified.. i dun wanna lose an important part of my life anymore.. i realli hate it.. i realli dunno wat to do.. i dunno wat to say also.. thousands of apologies and saying a million times of sorry will nv help.. cauz wat is done is done.. damage is done.. and the scar will forever be there..

wat i can do i have done.. wat i can try to explain i had attempted.. i can onli leave it to fate to decide liao le.. wat will happen is already destined.. i believe in destiny.. but i do hope destiny is kind to mi this time round.. and i hope everything will be fine soon.. think i will end here ba.. going off to chalet tml and the day after.. hahax.. with my sec skl frend.. so looking forward to this chalet.. hahax.. think it will be great fun.. flying off!!!

现实是残酷的。但我相信人是能改变自己的命运的。